movie marathon

heellloo.

wells, im at home surprisingly.

not really lah.

i just dont really have the energy to go out and hang.

turned down quite a number of plan out.

my cousin and i were supposed to go out but eventually came down to two option.

one ; slack at my place.

two ; go his place and then we have our fitness REJUVENATION.

i opted for the first!

haha.

im starting to think that my cousin is going to kill me.

haha.

but we'll have our fitness times next week.

when im feeling better.

siao! im sick but still ask me go jogging! kao pe!

hahaha..

so yeahs, he brought some movies and his portable dvd player(sanggup lah dier! cousin's the breast!)

so far since 4pm, ive watched STEP UP, FINAL DESTINATION 3 and TAKING LIVES.

cool! soon after this post, we'll be watching SKELETON KEY, AEONFLUX and some gore movies.

good thing he has all this dvds lah.

haha... btw, a my darLing came over too!!

anyways, not to forget.

my cousin taught me a very very very tiring but awesome way to control my mind.

he's damn cool with it lah.

ass..

haha. im soo jealous! but hell, i still got loads to learn.

practice, practice, practice.

i mean really, it kinda answer why i cannot decide on things very well.

apparently, the pencil just hung vibrating on the spot.

dont even know whether to turn left or right.

it just vibrate there and only on the first try when my mind was really blank did it move.

i tell you.

the fucking pencil just seem to be magnetised or something.

fuck man! im fucking envious. my cousin can clear his mind damn well and just move it.

asss..

hahhaa.

(he's right behind me and reading this and he laughed at me)

lol.

wells, anyways...

i gtg.

still got loads to watch! hahaha.

-love love love-

somethings people cant change

i have been very ungrateful of the many blessings GOD has given me.

thus leading to taking it for granted.

i am ashame and morbid at my realisation.

but i know that many things will fall to places.

and that no matter what shall happen now.

it will be fine next time.

at least i'll be much happier.

whole-heartedly.

nevertheless, i am happy now and as usual i lead my life the way i want.

but i lead my life not on my own need.

wells, there really is a big difference between WANTS and NEEDS.

i havent really thought about what i need.

all this time i have been thinking of what i want.

as i realised there are things in my life that i already have and that's what i need.

also, there are things i need that i lost and im not sure if it will ever be back to me.

but i have started to come to terms with everything that happens now.

'to make choices and come to terms with it'

someone i deemed dear live up to that.

and he has earned my respect.

until now, i still look up to him.

but there are some things that i can never change.

like him not being around anymore.

but i know he is, deep within.

in any real sense, i now seem to be living up to that.

maybe it is real that GOD introduce people you.

to enter your life, impart values and teach you something.

and maybe yes, that's just that.

when his moments of imparting whatever shall be taught,

he have to go.

also, i know i may have been the one who make people realise things in their life.

i dont know how to really define but i know whenever im in the mood to open up,

my friend talking to me will tell me 'you made me realise something'

and somehow, i realise that i too realises something.

im the worst adviser to myself.

and im not ashame to admit that.

because it is true.

but when i advise some other people.

i just end jacking myself up.

haha.

my close ppl knows that.

im fucking stubborn and the more im controlled,

the more i wanna rebel.

so i think it's just me who can control myself.

which i find a good point.

in any fact, even though i have my wild moments.

i still consider myself a good person.

plus, im proud to say that my temple hasnt been damaged.

heeh.

to those who are closer (sshhh : it's the secret garden)

hahaha. lol.

okay ppl. i gtg bathe.

my cousin's coming over.

we going to have movie marathon.

haha.

mei ling and bf joining too.

-love love love-

the mystery begins

wahh sweetie, u really liking the mystery huh?!
tak mo eh..
haha.
anyways, too bad Nurul knows who you are.
haha.
i think my other friends dont know lah.
but hey, u love it that way lah.
wells, too bad we both got hardly the time lah.
if not sure go on the date we've been thinking of going lor.
hahaha.
i so bo liao leh write this in my blog.

anyway, sweetie here tagged me abt the mystery thingy.
so yeahs, he's loving it lah.
hahaha.
apparently, it really should be a mystery.
next time then say.
haha.
lol.
maybe when im attached already or what lah.
hahaha.
ok i give you hint.
he LOVE LOVE LOVE soccer.
haha.
that's all.

p.s. sweetie, you really are starting to be sucha celebrity.
now now, don bhb liao lor. haha.
-hugs-

pictures of my trip

Mimi... haha. im thinking of ways to get her Guess? shades. haha. (candid shot)

COURT SHOES. matches with my brown polkas. haha. but the lighting sucks lah. haha.

me and sayangku ana. hahah.. i just woke up when i took this pic. haha. yaawwwns..



MY BOOTSY FOOTWEAR!! hahaha..





OMG. but this is the only shot with my parents. thou they are facing front. goofing ard in the car. bo liao lor. haha.

my dear sayang ana. goofing ard in the car!!

haha. she damn cute rite??????

kiuuuutttt :) hahaha...

She and i were like freaking having butt aches cos of the ride.

my trip

My trip to Genting Highlands

Day 1 : 23/12/06

we reached there late due to unforeseen circumstances.

so we reached there by 8pm.

the view on the way up there, was really exhilirating.

the breath-taking sceneries just captivates me.

wells, in all fact Genting Highlands was really nice.

there are lots of BUTs though.

haha.

anyways, we checked in and straight away we went down straight.

me and my mum were expecting more of a posh hotel.

alas, it was not.

haiz.

but it was alright.

cos the shopping there was NICE.

-smiles-

straight away upon entering the 2nd floor where all the shops were.

a pair of boots caught my eyes.

haha.

the boots was nice and so was the price.

but hell, my dad(the walking atm) was around anyway.

my mum also got her hands on another pair of boots she fancy.

wells, when my dad came to check if we're done choosing,

i left them and then went to my sister.

she was queuing for the bumper car.

i had some fun with her.

and i feel good that she's happy.

haha.

later on went shopping again.

that's about all for the night.

-a night of shopping-

Day 2 : Christmas EVE

my parents woke me up at 9am plus.

for BREAKFAST!

gosh. cant they just request for the Lunch Buffet or not.

haiz.

anyways, the food there was fine.

but the place sucks big time.

gosh.

in all sense, my breakfast was alright.

after breakfast i sighted a nice tiara.

haha.

there starts my fetish for tiaras again.

i didnt get it on the spot.

but i got it before we left for Spore.

haha. yeash a tiara.

i dont know why but i just got it.

anyways, my family and i went to the themepark.

i rode the corkscrew, rollercoaster, bumper boat,

and most of all MERRY-GO-ROUND.

i had fetish for that.

i was like, i dont mind saying my vow on a merry-go-round.

except that, the machine should have a very nice and intricate design.

hahaha.

like what the hell.

actually, it's more to the horses and carriages.

since young, i love horses and carriages.

cos when i was young, my grands took me carriage and horse riding.

anyways, from early afternoon till about 8pm we were at the outdoor themepark.

then we went back to our hotel.

went to the indoor themepark.

but before that we went to the flying coaster.

i had to take it alone lah!

my mummy dont want to take.

she's frightened.

but the thrill is wonderful.

no wonder i love rollercoaster rides.

since young i love it.

and till now i still do.

haha.

anyways, the flying coaster is the one where you have to stand up.

and 'fly' like superman.

yup yup.

anyways, i bought cakes at 31.

an ice cream stall.

i got my family and i, ice cream cakes for xmas.

then when it hit 12am.

mum blew the candles for the family.

i slept late.

then later on my mum and dad went to the Casino.

dad wasted money.

really wasted.

haha. i wanted to go but my sister lah.

how to go?? haiyyoo.

-themepark madness-

Day3 : Xmas

we checked out late.

but who cares.

so we packed our things and just put them all in the car.

then we went up to SHOP again.

i bought another footwear.

this time it's court shoes.

really nice and matches well with my brown polkas.

hees.

i got 2 pairs of NICE earrings.

Nurul's present and more.

lingerie and all too.

BLUSH!

haha.

wells, i spent my Xmas shopping and sleeping.

i was really tired i slept from Genting there till Spore.

haha.

but home sweet home for me now.

sweetie's back too.

oh yeah, to those who asked me who's sweetie.

haha.

no he isnt my bf.

he isnt my MR.

and im still SINGLE.

but im unavailable.

haha.

that's all i can say.

and i call him sweetie becos he IS a sweet dude.

and i aint attach anyway, to stop giving terms to anyone.

-smiles-

(right sweetie??)

-love love love-

im here

wells i was from work.
i called nurul and then we chatted.
wont be chatting with her till my return.
haaahz.
i be going to Genting Highlands.
i didnt wanna go at first.
after what happened at home the other day.
apparently i have to.
haaahz.
nvm, i just hope that ww5 wont start.
cos there is no where i can actually ran off to from there.
haiyoo.
my sweetie will also be on a trip tmr till mon or tues.
haha.
then we chatted awhile and then say bubbye.
haha.
(to sweetie: enjoy loads)

anyways, we were talking about the countdown.
then later on she told me something about some old friend who works there as a bouncer.
there, as in ST JAMES.
she remembered him saying that he wont let me in.
i guess maybe he is still being childish about the conflict we had the other time.
haiz. you know whatever it is.
im OF AGE.
my friends will be OF AGE.
there's nothing that he can try to do will happen.
and as for now till whenever suit.
im still going to countdown to the year 2007 there.
and my year will start nice and good.

i wont deny though that our friendship ended, hurts me.
i cant accept the fact that all the sweet moments, the sad shits we went through are forgotten.
he just chucked me aside and he let his anger and ego just come in the way of our friendship.
but whatever it is.
it's his choice.
i cant fucking do anything about it.
and neither would i say SORRY to him again.
that's all.
if all it takes is his night to be spoilt that he wanna throw our friendship away.
that is his choice.
whatever shit i was there for him.
whatever tears i know of.
whatever comfort i gave.
whatever time i made for him.
will just be forgotten like that.
then i proclaim that that friendship is never real.
AT ALL.
and me spoiling his night isnt as bad as him damaging my emotions about a later issue.
nvm. nvm. nvm.
good luck with everything that he will go through.
more and more.
best wishes to everything he deems dear.
wells, in all things i still rememebered this sentence,
"we've been through so much for me to just leave you like that"
where has that gone?
whatever.
nurul nurul nurul.
i know you know.

wells, update you soon!

-love love love-

finally back home

gosh gosh.

wells hello.

im home after the whole thing that had happened at home.

thank you meiling, JEN, and the rest of the ppl who made things fun for me.

but ling knows who i was thinking of to run to.

apparently, i didnt run to him.

it didnt kill me.

it just made me stronger.

but mi corazon is in tu. haha.

and Zedy, thanx for the comfortable gestures you showed.

yes i was comfortable with ya.

you were comforting. -winks-

but Andy was damn funny lah.

with his accent.

i learnt a full straight spanish.

tho i kinda forgotten how it goes.

but he isnt spanish.

Andy's an Aussie but he learn Spanish and French too.

haha.

wells, it was crazzzee on the 21st.

haha.

stoopid but crazee.

cant say the full story.

esp the one that made me stay away from home.

have to get rdy for work

okay.

here are the pics.

from both the nights out the other day and on the 21st.

night at dxo

there are loads to say about last night.

and yes i did enjoy shooing guys away again last night.

haha.

wells, me and my girls only stuck with our(more to hajar's) guy friends.

so other guys wont like move in on us.

anyways, i went with hajar aka JEN.

for JENNIFER.

so hajar now uses her english name, JEN.

so it's 'hi, im jean and she's Jen'.

yup, i use my second name.

Mary Jean's too long.

Mary's too HOLY.

haha.

but COOL right!

haha.

i noe, like what the hell.

anyways, i met the rest of our girls there.

initial plan was that we go there with Eunice and Zuhui.

then i got hajar and me too late.

they waited for us like soo friggin long.

(to them: sorriieeee).

so they went off to Dxo first after waiting for hours.

wells, i almost didnt make it outa my house lah.

first i had FLU and then i LOST my keys.

till now i cant find it!

so later after posting, im cleaning up my room.

like hopefully i even manage to find those precious keys.

mum will give another blast at me again if i dont.

okay getting on with last night.

on the way there i realised that i have NO form of IDENTIFICATION!

cos i lost my ezlink!

shucks!

and it slipped my mind to bring my ic.

so yeahs i got the others worried that i cant enter.

but deep down i know i can!

dunno how also.

but i guess not having an ID wont stop me from going.

anyways, we went to DXO with Jen's guy friends and their girlfriend.

her name's Katy.

hope i spelt it correctly.

then at DXO we kinda split cos we joined with our girls.

crys, sher,eunice and zuhui.

yeash.

there were 6 of us.

wells, like i said i know i can enter without an ID.

hell, the bouncer looked soo fierce but i thought it's fine.

so i ask to speak to him and explain my situation.

rather than gaining entry 'illegally' when im of a LEGAL age!

that is sucha shame you know.

hmms.

i spoke the truth and i guess that's why i GOT in.

haha.

wells, think of it.

if i lose my ezlink, and im a foreign student,

what other form of ID can i show??

hmms.

but anyways, the night was fine.

gosh i think im turning lesbian on the dance floor.

eeww.

haha dont worry im STRAIGHT!

haha.

the most irritating part that we girls cant avoid is when the guys move in on us.

i mean we cant help that.

plus it was friggin crowded anyways.

but we just danced with each other and all.

in a while they got tired of dancing us up.

some were just fine dancing around us.

we're fine with it.

as long as they dont come too close.

or WORST.

become unwanted grinders.

wells with crystal, it's good too.

cos her bf's guys can block us from unwanted guys.

i had the mood till like 3am.

after which i really cant take the heat anymore.

i just have to rest.

and so i just chilled with jen on the sofa.

hmms.

the rest of my girls got split.

eunice, zuhui,sher were together.

crystal left early cos she wasnt that well and her bf was ard.

jen and i hanged with the initial ppl we came with to the club.

they were ok.

Katy hung with jen and i.

so yeahs.

we just danced and danced with one another.

plus katy is attached.

so that makes us more determined to dance with ourselves only.

but after a while jen and her danced with the guys.

as in our guy friends.

i was resting by the stage at that time.

when the whole thing ended we split from the 'guys-and-a-girl' group.

i'll call it Haziq's group.

and then we found our initial girls!

haha.

but minus crys.

later we went to some coffeeshop at BOAT QUAY.

this time with another group.

but eunice and zuhui was with us.

later sher took a cab back home.

the 4 of us wanted an early breakfast.

so we went with another group.

it was daryl's group.

raymond led the way but only got us round and round to Boat Quay.

haiz.

no choice lor.

haha.

but thanks to err another guy, forgot the name.

he offered me his jacket.

it was frigging cold due to the rain!

wells, the guys in the group gave their umbrellas and jackets to us girls.

(thanx dudes)

wells, on the way home.

i smsed sweetie and was surprise that sweetie was still awake.

haha.

(idiot you sweetie. if you're reading this!)

intercourse??

tell me which ite will even have that in their course list.

but anyways, to those who made it in sec 5, CONGRATS.

i heard the N results are out.

hmms.

i cant wait for my turn to collect my Os result.

the dread.

the anxiety.

the fear.

gosh.

but i still hope i'd get to the school and course of my choice.

i need at most 14 pts!

hope i can lah.

if not.

............

wells, as i was saying on the way home.

i almost slipped and fell, banged my head on the mrt door.

and then again on the mrt window.

really man.

i can really be frigging clumsy.

and jen just have to laugh and laugh.

gosh.

asswipe.

i pretended not to know her when her laughter got worst.

haha.

idiot you.

haha.

jen and i hit the bed by 7.30am.

tonight i maybe joining my girls eunice and zuhui.

and yeah more friends Amanda and Jia Lin.

they be joining tonight.

jen and i are like contemplating to go but yeahs.

most probably we hitting Bumbles tonight.

or Attica.

not sure yet.

i have work at 6pm!

till 11pm.

maybe i getting off from work early.

IF jen and i are joining.

:)

btw.

i will have to delay the pics.

it's all with zuhui.

she and eunice arent home.

they booked a hotel to crash at.

so yeahs.

so sorriieee you guys.

-lovelovelove-

clubbing at night

i woke up quite a while ago and im now planning to sleep again.

for one reason is so that tonight i wont be tired early.

cos i'll be clubbing with my friends and all.

DXO!

second, who wouldnt be sleeping in this kind of weather.

haha. even if i had to force myself to sleep i wont mind.

the weather's great.

haiz.

but sometimes i hate it though.

this kind of weather's good for snuggling.

wells, who am i suppose to snuggle with now??

ahaha. plus it just reminds me of those times with the dude.

haha. but it's okie.

some of them just makes me laugh and go squirmy inside.

haha. sounds so eeeww but yeahs.

i cant seem to wait for tonight.

the last time i went clubbing was at Zouk.

and really the songs there REAKS!

gosh.

to those who knows real songs meant for the dance floor, imagine!

dancing to stickwitu and some frankie j songs!?

how could you by Mario or whoever.

the pain!!

i recalled clearly that i just stood there.

apparently, the songs didnt leave me alone.

cos the songs communicated to me more than the rest of my girls.

the pain..it just doubles.

haha.

so dramatic.

i loiike. haha.

wells, i just hope that tonight wont be as such.

haha.

ohkiiess ppl.

tonight there'll be cameras and all.

so i'll update the photos soon!

YAY!

haha. i think im gona get my own Digi cam lah huh.

love pictures so much.

shiok sendiri/self entertainment.

haha.

Arrhhh.

i forgot i havent decided what to wear!

shit man!

oryty ppl....

me picking clothes wont be fast.

soo i gtg!

-lovelovelove-

out before work

really missed dayah loads.

the last time i went out with her was when GOD knows when.

hajar and i met first, while dayah met another god sis of hers.

wells, i have to like force myself to wake up.

i was really tired yesterday that i thought i wanna slp throughout the whole day before work.

then sisterhood responsibilities came to my head.

haiz...

i cant just cancel on them anyways.

plus it has been long since i went out with dayah.

i really missed her.

haha.

we were around town until around 4pm.

but sadly, dayah left with aneesa around going to 3pm.

haiz.

i felt so WHAT THE HELL.

shall not say more.

she knows it herself.

i will only say something when she even like ask me.

so much for asking hanging out WITH HER.

anyways, no real harm done.

just thought that she must go out with us MORE.

just the three of us AGAIN.

wells, i bought a $10 fanciful earrings from Diva.

darling Hajar accompanied me to vivo.

we looked around for some stuff.

anyways, i spend on her 50% of her meal bill at my café.

haha.

nothing much.

her bill isnt even expensive so yeahs.

gosh.

my money is dwindling.

haha.

tmr i be going to DXO somemore.

hope i'd haev the fun of shooing away guys again.

just like what me and my girls did at Zouk.

haha.

anyways, i didnt get to contact my sweetie.

both my lines have officially been suspended!

that's a record dont you all think?!

haha.

Nurul told me that he asked to call but gosh i think he's like asleep now.

haha.

but anyways, he'll understand!

I WANNA BE ATTACH BY NEW YEAR!!

haha.

Hajar Hajar, look what you make me say just now.

haha.

how dare you trigger that interest.

the only reason why we want to is cos we want to have someone special with us on NEW YEAR'S.

aint i right HAJ!?

i wana too.

you wana too 2.

haha.

okaayy.

i wanna say somethig serious now.

wells, to that friend who have read my blog earlier.

if you're ever gona get to read this.

well, i just want you to know that if you think what i did is on purpose to spoil your night.

and because i was jealous.

you think of it again then you tell me if it makes that sense to you.

i never wanted our friendship to sour.

i never want to be on a cold term with you.

neither did i want to get drunk on that night.

all i had in my head was him that's why i looked for no one but him.

whatever it is, you and i still had a good base foundation of friendship there.

Salvation is all up to you.

you and him are someone that i still miss hanging out with.

whatever it is.

on my part of spoiling your night, IM SORRY.

truly madly deeply SORRY.

that's all i said before.

that's all im going to say for the LAST time now.

accept or not, i did my part.

just want you to know that im grateful.

THAT ONCE IN MY LIFE I KNEW SOMEONE AS WONDERFUL A FRIEND AS YOU.

take care.

and do take care of him too.

i wont deny, i still have amor for him.

as a friend or whatever it is.

luv ya my old friend.

-lovelovelove-

nothing much

i stayed out till 8am in the morning.

i went to chill with my cousin, ryan, nurul and Dj.

we slacked till late.

and i went home at 6am plus.

to add on to my tiredness, i lost my wallet.

but thank GOD i didnt put my money in it.

phewww.

anyways, i woke up damn late today.

first time without sleeping aid, i slept through the whole afternoon.

woke up at 6pm!!

haha.

i went out with my sister yesterday to vivo.

after collecting my pay at 2hot, i had a late lunch there with my sis.

i didnt mind spending on her so yeahs i just had lunch there tho its kinda espensive.

our meal totalled to $30 plus.

just for me and her.

but it was fine cos we manage to feel full.

i didnt know that the calamaris was soo filling.

when the main course came, we both were already kinda full.

anyways, we walked around vivo looking for a shop to get her clothes.

vivo was soo big that we had trouble finding Fox.

wells, we cant decide where to shop so we just went to fox kids first.

but all the cutting of the clothes that she fancy didnt have her size.

so we just took an XS of the adult clothing at fox.

wells, she tried on two shirts and a skirt.

then she wanted the two tops so i just got it for her.

wells, altogether i spend $70 plus on my sis yesterday.

worth it?? hmms of course it is.

the smile on her face just makes me noe it's worth it.

love love love her.

.

since my mum had a roadshow at Harbourfront, i waited for her to end so i 'pass' my sis to her.

i made my way to bugis to get the dress i wanted.

went there with my two cousins, Azmi and Farid.

we met at bugis street there and i had thought i check out the place there.

but to no avail, none caught my eyes.

and it isnt worth to like spend more than $30 there.

that's what i thought.

haha.

so my cousins told me to just go back to bugis junction and get my stuff there.

i agreed so we went to Topshop.

Sadly, there isnt that Polka dot dress i wanted!

haiz.

soo wells, we went looking at other shops.

further sadness.

none caught my attention.

at the edge of giving up, i FOUNd it!

haha.

cost $70 but i got a discount.

that's good!

haha.

i bought the brown polka dots though.

i thought it will look funny cos i was actually thinking of getting red and black polkas.

cos i wanted the base RED and the dots BLACK.

on a second thought, a brown polkas' really not a bad news.

now i just have to get myself brown heels ot stilts.

hmms.

i was thinking of using it for the new year.

so st james, await my arrival on the NEW YEAR's EVE.

YAY!

i just hope clubbing at the place where the dude and his bestfren might be wont spoil my night.

anyways, i hope to at least spend it with someone besides Hajar.

Haha.

we both will spend New Year's together but when the whole world counts down to zero,

i want to kiss someone! haha.

you know whenever it hits 12am on Jan 1, everyone would have to kiss someone?

those western tradition..?

haha.

honestly, that's one of my NEW YEAR's Fantasy.

heess.

Hope it comes true with someone i LIKE at least.

haha.

then i'll spend new year morning with my family.

ohkies then.

-lovelovelove-

the daylight of my remorsefully fun day

quarells and misunderstandings is so frigging getting on me.

it just gets so frustrating.

im staying out tonight. so yeahs.

take my mind off things.

im just so not going to bother so much about some lady who's soo unreasonable.

some family matters! yes yes!

we reconciled and then we had another blast again.

anyways, im going out with my darling sister.

she's the only one that bound me to the house.

nurul knows what has happen and all.

and whatever happens after that.

ryan knows too. he came with his friend.

they came to chill with me after.

they were so much fun, the three of them.

and DJ! haha i passed his test! haha.

he's attracted to Nurul.haha.

too bad Nurul's attached.

anyways, my guard feeling's proven true again!

wells, dude has a new girlfriend.

you know, i dont know what i felt.

DJ commented on what my eyes says about how i seem to feel about the news.

actually, i knew way before he told me abt it.

i cant explain how i know but i just had those feelings.

err, it isnt suppose to mean that im emotionally still intact with him.

but as i think of it, i think i am.

he and i know it ourselves.

that if i feel something about an issue, we both trust it too.

wells, not a full trust but more of a basis of knowledge.

and some sort of sign of getting something started or postponed.

yup.

some things DJ said opened up my mind on some issues.

chatting with him just made me realise some things.

hmms.

anyways, for now it's true.

it's time to enjoy now.

whatever i feel about dude now must remain like as it is.

i just want a friend out of him now.

hope that the girl he has now treats him better.

loves him better than i did.

that's sincerely saying.

wells, what DJ say is true when one part of our conversation started.

so for now, come fishy fishy.

hahahaa.

what a kiss does

what a kiss does to ammend things. haha...

wells, things are fine now between me and my mummy. haha.

i broke the ice in this cold war.hees.

at first if you have read my previous entry, we had a screaming war. now, it's fine..

haiz.. wells, she been stress at work.

it was wrong of me to actually just fire back at her. haiz. hmms.

i realised that and so i swallowed my pride and just kissed her on her cheeks.

a sign of apology. she knows and i do too..

wells, everything's fine now.

love love love love you mummy.

but i still wanna move out.haha.

anyways, going out tmr!!

-love love love-

3rd entry for 15th

yawnns this is my 3rd posting for this date.

im damn bored today. gosh... and my mum just have to come back. spoil my mood with her nagging -.-
she and i really cant get along man... my close ones know that. haiz haiz. just want to move out. dont know when id successfully carry out that plan but hey, it isnt that bad with her. she can be sucha walking atm sometimes.

but yeahs... she's not soo reasonable.. she can be so understanding but in all fact she still dont get me.
and wells, i wont deny i give her sucha challenge. cos i honestly am not a child who just take whatever she says. so yeahs, i argue back to whatever i see suit. haiz..

well well... cant do much without my pillar(it has crumbled i guess) though. just got to be under her roof till everything pulls thru.
i love her but she and i really have vast difference in our views.
so that's kinda too bad for me... haiz.
just have to keep reminding myself of her sacrifices for me. one day, i'll repay whatever i got from her.
she's a good lady but haiz... we just clash... haiz. dude oso know's that.

now im starting to dread going on our family trip. who knows we both will have a huge war. goshh...
-more to say but lazy to type! gtg.
muahz

my entry

wells, im stuck home today. i had planned to go out with my fren as ive said in my previous entry...
it didnt happen... yeahs... you know if i'd plan to meet with dude, it will so just happen. gosh.. cant fate just be nicer to other guys. ahha.. hmms...

too bad lah... but i appreciate that he actually volunteered to go with me. haha.. shall not go into that. but anyways, i didnt get to go out with him because my mum just had to go to work today when she told me that she had taken a day off the night before. goodness. and to think that i could finally look around vivo for a good shop to do my spree this week! haha. but damn it just had to be cancelled. so i told him if he dont mind, he could accompany me instead, this sunday.

anyways, ive nothing else to do now tho.. just lazing around at home.. waiting for my mum to be home. haiz.
im still contemplating to go out with my sister though... hmms... nevermind, i think i'll stick to tomorrow. YUP =) sorree my dear ana.

im tired

wells, i just got back from work and im really very very tired. haha.
i almost fall asleep just now when i lay down for awhile to charge my handphone. then i remembered that
i already switched on the computer. so damn... i just had to get up and use it for a while. hmms. anyways, im soo hoping for my pay tomorrow but sadly... it wont be out till the evening. i just so hope that my mum really took a day off tmr. i wanna have a time on my own. haha.. wells, not really alone, but with a company that i hope wont be a bad news. haha..

also, to make matters half worst, i wont be able to take my sister out tmr. cos i wont be able to take her out without my pay... haha. i shall have to postpone it to the next day. sadly, my mum wouldn't be able to come with us. i was thinking of treating my mum and my sister to pizza hut or carls jr. i dont know.. just somewhere! haha

wells, im going to try to sleep early tonight. i want to go out energised tomorrow. actually, i dont know why i asked him of all people. haha. wells, yeahs... i dont know. wells, it's nothing personal so yeahs i said to myself why not. haha. anyways, i'll let you all know about it aft the window shopping. haha. hmms, i hope that id at least get my pay at night, if im still at vivo. haha. wanna get that red dress i saw at NICHI fashion city. haha..

Pictures after work! haha

here are some pics after work! haha.

Bal, Cousin Azmi, Daniel.
My colleagues. haha. We were slacking after work.
And due to this Daniel and I almost miss the NEL train to Outram Park! haha. Bal and Azmi had to go and 'lepak'
with the others so they didnt get to go back with me. hmph! taiks!

Me and Bal. haha. taken when we were like rushing off to the mrt. haha.

Haha. like i said we were slacking after work. haah. nothing much to do cos i cant sit and smoke with them when i dont smoke. haha. so i got my cousin to sit with me. haha. wells, this is taken at the children's playground at the level 2 of vivo. haha.

Wells, this is taken at East Coast Park. After work, we joined Azmi and Bal for a drink or two. haha. as in me,cousin bir and cico.. hmms, Azmi got drunk.. haha. i had to bring him back to my home. haha. but he vomitted a lot. ewww...

Haha. US goofing ard.. as usual, at the children's playground, slacking after work! haha..
wells that's all for now..

im working!!

i dont know what's the matter with me but i cant wait to work this evening.
haha. im starting to be like a work monster. i was freaking tired not working and when im working
im soo full of energy! haha. wells, im sending my sister off to my aunt's place. she has someone to play with there anyway. our cousin's just a year or so older than her and the click like hell. haha. gosh, they talked on the phone for a whole 3-4 hrs a few weeks ago. IMAGINE! 7 year olds talking like TEENS! haha. i wonder how long ive to wait for her to finish on the phone when she comes to teenagehood. haha. oh wells...

anyways, im working from 6-11pm today but im sending her off earlier cos i'll be meeting meiling at vivo. she got a work near mine. actually, the restaurant she work at is just opposite mine.. haha.
And she's going to have a 3 hrs break so she asked for me to come earlier to accompany her. haha. i dont mind actually, cos i cant wait to get out of my house. haha..
i dont know why i cant wait for work. haha.

wells, for your info, im working at 2hot cafe restaurant. a franchise outlet of the 2hot halal cafe located at esplanade. haha. gosh.. it would soo much better if im located at esplanade. but weekdays would really be boring man! haha. no one goes to esplanade in the afternoon! haha. and i realise that the more i dont do anything, the more i get tired. haha!

haiz. im soo getting tired of singlehood. haha.. it's been 8 months since my official break up. haha.
wells, it's fun. yes of course it is. i mean i get to choose who i want to go out with and who to talk to on which day but honestly, im soo tired of that. haha. i just want someone who isnt judgemental and not the type to listen to others when deciding for our relationship. haha. i want someone with a mind of his own. someone who shows me he cares and isnt afraid to please me. and a person who never underappreciated me. haha. that's soo much to ask for i guess but i know that there is that one who exist. haha.

no work

im ashame to say that i did nothing but laze around at home by the computer.

i find editting blog quite fascinating. im getting quite good at it actually.

lucky for me i know how to fix the damage i did just now. the entries section actually appear straight at that screen. haha.

at least the blog didnt get 'spoiled' again. anyways, while online i was chatting with Nurul. Haha.

She's like the only person i talk to consistently. I think that if either one of us go away, both of us will feel so crushed! haha. sounds so lesbian.

but im happy to say that Nurul is a great sister. (of course the other 3 sisters of mine too and not forgetting my baby sister! haha)

im getting irritated by the song on my blog though. haha. love the song and it's really meaningful but i guess i got to play it ONCE only. haha.

Wells, i chose Nurul's blog song. it really has got something to do with our SECRET so i wont say why i chose LIPS OF AN ANGEL for her.

She didnt know that i'll put that though. She dont know where to place the codes so she sent me her codes online and i did it for her.

she was obviously eager to hear what song i chose for her but she cant get it played over at her side cos there was something wrong with her computer.

but i told her she wasnt fated to hear it yet. eventually though she managed to get it played. haha.

I was suppose to go out tonight actually. as of now i should have been getting ready already, but i have to cancel it.

The reason i gave was that i have the flu. uh huh...

Anyways, last night i couldnt post the pictures i wanted to post because Nurul was soo dead tired. She wasnt online at the time i was.

Last night, after resting for a while i went online, did my posting and then i talked with Izzul.

He's sucha sweetie. Of which explains why i call him 'sweetie' ..

He's a nice person to talk with and according to him, i am too. *i know i am (if im in the mood)

Hahaha.. I'll post here the pics i took yesterday on my evening out with darlin Nurul...

ME and NURUL. Eating at a coffeeshop that she intro.
The place isnt soo nice but the food is good. That's what she said!

The rest of the story is at the previous entry. hhaha..

Nurul had to take that shot. Wells,for one good reason is cos i dont know

how to take pictures from a reflection. haha. Btw, this picture is taken in a lift at Bugis Point or something. haha. the one with 6 floor like Bugis Village liddat only that the things sold are those vintage stuff. err whatever it is. we only got to know that there was a damn lift when we have climed till the 4th or 5th floor! haha.

I miss really celebrating Christmas.

You know having a Xmas tree and all the present

under it! haha. Like when you awake in the morning knowing that you have gifts

even if it isn't from Santa. haha.

When i saw this at the entrance of the Bugis point(whatever the name is), i was

really overwhelmed with that emotions of xmas.

haha.. Wells... season's greeting! haha..

=that's all folks=

Out with Nurul

well well... today was the latest time i went out with nurul. we meet at around 6.15pm or something. we met my mum to get some cash as im out of it as usual. anyways, we went our separate ways when i got the cash. so from raffles place mrt, nurul and i alighted at Bugis. We wanted to have dinner as we were really famished!haha. i didnt eat since the night before and nurul only had a light lunch. the 'evening out' was alright. the neo prints kinda spoiled it. although we wont deny that it was really hilarious and all. imagine this, we both screamed when the time was up for the selection of the pictures. damn. we didnt get the pics we really wanted. the ones that were printed are just so-so. hmms, earlier on we had dinner at some coffeshop that i never had thought that i'd even eat at. hahha. no offence but really, even nurul said so. but it was undeniable that the food was great and the service was really not a standard at those other coffeeshops. hmms, i had thought of eating in at Rossini- last time was Wismangan, but it was not at the location anymore. -sad-
so that's why we settled for the coffeeshop. no regrets eating there because the food was good. it was the first time that i actually eaten Siu Mai. haha. nice. really nice..

anyways, after that we went to some shopping mall opp Bugis Junction. Gosh! i still dont know what to get for Nurul. Her birthday gift lagging. For one, i still havent decided what to get her. For two, i want to know how much im going to spend on my Syg Ana on friday when i take her out. yups. im taking my darling sister out. she suggested eating at Swensen's ... imagine a 7 year old telling you to eat at Swensen's. haha. watch movie after and then get her bags and clothes. haha. wells, as much as i want to shower her with whatever she desire, i got to think of myself too. haha. my two weeks pay wont go all on her. like duh! haha. anyways, i already know what i want to do for her on Friday. Hope it turns out good. Want my sister happy. . =)

wells, kisses for now.. gtg.

-loves-

this is a new blog

thank goodness my blog is finally up and ready for this posting. nurul and i stayed up the whole night (till 3-4am) doing this. she was doing hers and im doing mine, giving instructions and tips to each other over the phone. it has been such a long time that i even forget the editting of the skins. haha. that the blogspot also made some changes and all. imagine that. wells i closed my old blog because it totally got spoiled. now i take this as the intro of my blog and hopefully u find it fascinating, my lifestyle and my ways... how i spend my days and notice how frequent i post. haha. consistent or not, you decide. let me noe abt anything at the shout out box on the 3rd lips. haha..

i called this blog thousands hugs and kisses because it really just last at a thousand. in every moments with anybody, there are lots of our things besides hugs and kisses right..? there will be that storm which everyone will go through. trials and challenges, trusts and faith. no one can survive in hugs and kisses alone. also, not all pain and suffering can be healed with hugs and kisses. so i decided to use that theory. haha. so... pls welcome... www.thousandhugsandkisses.blogspot.com ....

i'll take the lead to the ride of my life. . . (and the ups and downs start ... )