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Happy 2012 + CNY

I dont even know where to begin. I didnt think I'd actually find the interest or the will to write again in this blog.

It seemed as if this blog has long since expired.

As always, I hit a few obstacles on the road of writing. My words are too limited to talk about my experiences. My reading time has since been reduced to nothing and I couldn't find the time to actually push myself to read for inspirations to write about.

My very life seemed so much of a routine that I'm not eager, nor as much as I was before, to write things down to share it in this blog.

My blog counter tells me there are still people who come by in this site to read things from my past post. I bet that the people who visit this page would wonder when or if I'm ever going to write again.

Today, i found the will to type some of the words on my mind and I hope for more months that I will be able to commit to some writing.

Let me update some:

Firstly, happy new year 2012 and lunar new year of the dragon to one and all. It has been a fast pace lifestyle I'm leading. With just a blink of an eye, January 2012 is almost gone.

I'm now on my week long block leave for chinese new year period as my office has majority Chinese. Just like last year, my company closed down for a week. But not as long as this year due to the two weekends that fell between the block leave.

I have enjoyed work and still continue to do so despite the 'hardship' it can bring. My closeness to my family and friends gives me wholesome new perspective about life.

Life isnt always about work.

It's about time management - prioritizing who and what matters most.

This year, the obligation to my family burns deeper. Day by day I see how everything revolves around my family. I'm happy and I'm glad.

My family ties extends to the community at church. I continue to serve with my imperfections and I continue to strive to do what I can.

In love, i've stopped seeing people from May 2012. Focused on my career ever since I last failed attempt to romance. It's not really what you can call an attempt because I was too busy allowing love to blossom with whoever there was hovering about me.

I chose, however, to enjoy the school girl feeling of liking someone from afar. Many of my girlfriends has said this is unlike me.

They are right.

I've liked a guy (on and off honestly) for almost 8 months now. And no, Ive no notion nor opportunity to make it known.

I am kind of seeing someone on a regular basis lately and he's really nice.

I can connect with him and he's about one of the only guy I can have an honest and open conversation with.

But then he made me think about something lately; Why and what is this barrier I've built that is ever evident between me and anyone that I could have had a romantic connection with.

And honestly, I'm still pondering about it. Though for sure one thing I'm certain is that it's not because of only a particular "old flame". In fact, it's not the person, I believe it's the experience I went through.

This and adding on the "older flame" that was almost rekindled again early last year only to be doused again due to a self reality check.

I'm not broken. I guess I'm bidding time and has put it all up to the Lord.

I believe that now my current committment to my family is what I've to focus on first and foremost.

The rest as it is will take a secondary role.

I hope to continue to find the time to share more. As for now, I bid thee all adieu.

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