A Recent Challenge

I have been trying to live with limitations of being constantly connected to people. There are definitely benefits in not having a hand-held communication device to rely on to be connected with others. I realize it's a form of addiction that goes by unnoticed and unrealized.

 At its best having a mobile phone give me the ability to stay connected with people readily and constantly. I am also connected via social networks and email on-the-go. But then there is a definite and drastic deformity it can do to my growth, in my opinion. It's no longer something anyone can do moderately, at least how I saw it. Day in day out as I head to work or to play, I see so many people glued onto their mobile.

 I saw myself in them and I dislike it. Many days since I saw that, since I awaken, my attachment to my phone got loose, and I no longer saw the constant need to rely on it. And at the recent events, I am able to live out that desire to be detached to that mobility that is both blessing and cursed at the same time.

 I am however still contactable through emails and Facebook. But since i'm not on it constantly and on-the-go, I feel that digital communication in that manner is much more contained. I feel that this is enough for me, for now. When I need to contact someone, I will definitely find a way. So for now, I am good to go without being constantly attached to something on-the-go.

 It's such a shame how much I paid for the price of mobility. and only now at this recent days did I wake up. Yet, with the opportunity of shame comes the ability to learn, to grow, and to live.

 I'm not the only one who feels the same way. There are hundreds of sites that debates about the impact of mobile phones on the youths today. As it is, a lot of us who are realizing this completely feel that for the benefit of being constantly connected to the rest of world while on-the-go, there will be definite price to pay. We have replaced a lot of beautiful culture of doing things, in ways of communication. Inevittably, effects on language is emminent, as well as negative impacts on health and mentality.

I am not saying that I will go altogether without a mobile phone. But there will be a completely different approach to how I am to use it, and how much I will be using it.

Awakening

Lead me, guide me.

Let me throw fear away;

Touch me, hold me.

Lead me home I pray.

Love me, keep me.

At your feet I'm kneeling;

Take me, shake me.

Grant me my awakening.

Lights... Love.

Earlier today was the Festival of Lights, Dewali as they call it.

Singapore goes for a public holiday today and I'm not fully thrilled because today I spent my day working, and doing lazy stuff, like watching movies on the television.

It has been my habit lately to catch up on TV. I don't usually have the liberty of watching TV and I am not really keen in having a habitual dependence on it, or anything at all for that matter.

Today I got to watch Moulin Rouge again.

I can't imagine how many years and how many replays on TV it had, and yet only now did I really sit down and watch it again.

The love story is so strong that once it captivated me, and  given me more things to think about love. This is one of the reason why I try not to be so plugged into the TV, or whatever series that is very disruptive of my current thought processes. I'm a very mutable type of person and I absorb perceptions so quick that it takes really getting to know myself to be able to analyse if whatever I have absorbed screwed up my thought processes at that moment.

It's both a good and bad thing.

The night before, I was intrigued by what one of my church friend said to me as he drove us back home. It was about how love is through the Spirit, and not physical nor emotional etc.

I was rather drunk, surprisingly due to mixture of Tiger beer with Baron's Strong Brew. I underestimated that combination, and I'm left having to make sure I don't say anything stupid. For some reason, they say when I get drunk I speak English with such a strong accent that it's crazy.

Ok anyway, if you must know, my drinking capacity is great. I mean hard liquor and all are fine for me even as I drink the whole night, but damn that underdog really caught me off-guard.

Right, so back to my friend. I couldn't really maintain a proper conversation about what he thought about Love because it's just not the time and place. I was so frustrated that I couldn't explore that subject!

I'd love to have heard what this friend of mine thought about Love. It may not be really that big of a deal, but I like to understand why people think this way or that. It's important for me to really know that perhaps I'm not the only one who truly believes in the very nature of Love.

I'm not talking about shallow love, or love that is finite. Or a love that is shared between two humans who are sparked off by attraction with each other.

The type of love that I see present is what I see piece the energy of the world together. That big bang of a love that transcends the human acceptance of what love is between two people. A love that awakens the soul and makes you want to go on living. The type of love that allows one to accept the other completely. The love that strips you down to the point of nakedness, and then dresses you up completely in gold.

Oh, I can go on. But not in this post.

I wanted to just type all this and send it out now. I'm off to bed.
It's late and I have work in the morning.

Till the next post.

Cheers.