school/random

was really lazy to get up and pull my butt off to school

so damn sleepy and tired, cos of what? ive been really lazy these days

i need to get off this tiresome ways

im better than this.. bf's been complaining that ive been rather lazy -.-
boo hoo! he ain't any different anyway, he got me all lazy too. lols

been trying to get out and leave school and just forget about the OS module test today

damn the day man!

wasn't such a good day today but it ended up rather great.

ooooohh and i got visited by overwhelming dislike for the topic that was brought up today about the substitute facilitator for SAD

peter kenny (my fixed faci for SAD) came in to ask about the events that went down last friday. (see previous two post)

all of us expressed our dislikes and anger at having graded badly

i got a freeaaaking F for SAD

when i treated him rather nice and professionally (means no vulgarity or open rudeness towards that idiot of a facilitator) and i did my work

and I STAYED FOR THREE MEETINGS

I SHOULD HAVE JUST LEFT HALFWAY IF I KNEW HE CANT BE PROFESSIONAL ABOUT THE WHOLE ENTIRE EVENTS!

so immature of him

i just wasted my freaking politeness on nothing.
!!!!!!!!

chill jean, if he cannot be grown up about the whole day, don't follow his footsteps

it just makes you stoop lower than him  

omg im going crazy. lols

well the whole event of our weekly faci dropping by to class today was triggered

by the email that i sent him and my module chair about our unhappiness

with the grades that we all received

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okay today went to the library to borrow a book

then you know what bf was rather kept patience by Tin Tin books he found at the shelves

then he looks soo cute reading it and rather laughing around with it. hahaha

keeping that picture of him smiling away reading that book in my head right now

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loveyoulots

its been awhile

its been awhile since i saw the any of the sisters who was there for each other when the going got tough.
and its been a challenge to even come out to play with them.
things havent been the same and despite the reality that has long been obvious to me, i still refuse to give up the friendship that we forged all through this years.

i found myself looking back to the many laughters and the tears that all of us saw among each other.
when i walk and see a group of girlfriends chatting, laughing away, i miss you all
when i see crazy nutcases making a big hoohaa, i miss you all
when i hear some crazy songs like crazy in love, it got me thinking, "hey i miss my girls"
when i was bad mouthing a facilitator with my class girls the other day, it made me think of the toilet sessions we all share.
haha those fond memories just seemed lightyears away.

im always the one closing in the gap.
getting tired of it.
why can't you all just come forward and say, "hey it's been awhile, lets hang out"

collide

 

you and i, collide

i was wondering if i had to change my URL soon.
too hard to say. but then again, i will find out soon enough.

a part of me has grown tired and another part just want to press refresh.
when i let my heart decide, my mind gets in the way.
and i'm never just a 'heart person'
it's my mind that makes me strong, gives me the will to survive.
my heart and mind needs to work together cos what's the use of the tools that GOD gave if only the heart should be left to decide....

after all the time of being together, i am learning to accept the fact that we collide.
in all aspect and in all ways... how are we going to deal with this?

- in utter blinding confusion

  

i've never loved someone as much as i love you.

i never will love the way i love you.

but we know love is never going to be enough to sustain any bond

there is a vast difference what you can take and what you think you can take.
cos when you misjudge, even the thought trying will ruin everything.

collision happens to almost all people.
no one person need be compatible in all ways, but there must be a mutual understanding of what should be
that mutual understanding must follow suit to both partners and not just to one
this will guage if the couple will be able to last long

cos LOVE is not about two people looking at each other in mere affection,

but it should be about two people side by side - hand in hand - looking at the same direction.

that their main goals in life is what motivates them and keep them going together

you and i, collide

i was wondering if i had to change my URL soon.
too hard to say. but then again, i will find out soon enough.

a part of me has grown tired and another part just want to press refresh.
when i let my heart decide, my mind gets in the way.
and i'm never just a 'heart person'
it's my mind that makes me strong, gives me the will to survive.
my heart and mind needs to work together cos what's the use of the tools that GOD gave if only the heart should be left to decide....

after all the time of being together, i am learning to accept the fact that we collide.
in all aspect and in all ways... how are we going to deal with this?

- in utter blinding confusion

  

i've never loved someone as much as i love you.

i never will love the way i love you.

but we know love is never going to be enough to sustain any bond

there is a vast difference what you can take and what you think you can take.
cos when you misjudge, even the thought trying will ruin everything.

collision happens to almost all people.
no one person need be compatible in all ways, but there must be a mutual understanding of what should be
that mutual understanding must follow suit to both partners and not just to one
this will guage if the couple will be able to last long

cos LOVE is not about two people looking at each other in mere affection,

but it should be about two people side by side - hand in hand - looking at the same direction.

that their main goals in life is what motivates them and keep them going together

chan mali chan hoy hoy //major VIP

class was insane today.. all for the wrong reasons.
for two days straight we have been having sub facilitators and compared to yesterday,
today we met the devil.

okay fine, devil might even be kinder.

hmm i felt like a secondary school student today. definitely uncalled for!
can you imagine, he restricted us this -

1. no listening to music
2. no earpiece plugged in your ears (even when ur not listening to music)
3. no other discussions (even UTs) to be done beside anything pertaining the problem
4. STRICTLY laptop down during 3rd meeting (or he'll tell u to get out of his class)

and he encouraged us to -
5.SHOOT at our classmates solution (the class heard it.... he said SHOOT!)
6. LEAVE his class if you're not happy with 1 to 4


this is too much!

so the whole thing went like this  :

meeting 1 (close to 1st break)
- i switched on my WMA playing a song to the lowest i could, then after awhile he said,
"could you turn off the music, it's disturbing the class" err... the class ain't complaining, i doubt the class even really hear there is sound aloud...
so i told him, if the class are getting disturbed, we all have enough bond to tell each other that, and we have enough sense to see if we are disturbing each other!
so anyway, i shut it off..

later on, we made his patrol around class... (as he did in the whole meeting 1) ensuring that NO ONE is on MSN.
and he was sarcastically saying that we all should be focusing on the problem and not the msn that are popping off our laptop. and he was specifically scolding willie's team when they were talking about UT results.

then he landed at my team, where zafirah happened to have her earpiece on, and he told he to take it off.
** that was the start of the whole revolt cos of music.

as the day proceeded, there was an obvious revolt in class, beginning with Willie at meeting 2.
Willie was maddened when that faci told him to take out his earpiece, willie said that he's not listening to music that he merely want them on... (that faci really cant mind his own business)
then so he took it out and of course the two of them had those heated argument about it..
and then that's where i came in...

omg! i cannot control myself can!
so i asked him nicely, "faci do you have anything against music"
and obviously from nice it went to ugly... i was asking him why is he hindering us from listening to music.
his alibi : focus on our work.
so i told him that we as students find it more relaxing and productive to have music plugged into our ears, and c'mon all of us agree can!

he isn't even discussing things with us, to make us clear of the problem...
all he did was restrict us. he didnt - NOT EVEN ONCE - manage to enlighten us upon anything! and that's one thing why we dont see why we can't be plugged in with our songs!

okay, so the whole revolt of the day went crazy!
it made everyone really nutcase about the situation today.
i was adamant that no one leave class not even myself,  cos that means he has gotten to us and we are the weakling.
that's not what we would want. he'll just have reason to mark us down to the pit of oblivion. and im sure he'll revel in that.

in the third meeting elijah gave the most attitude to that faci - second to Willie!
hmms then the shocking one... Fairuz. hahaha no one saw that coming.
so willie's team was presenting and the faci was really egging them on and openly shooting down the whole team's effort of even trying.
so this fairuz said, "i dont get whatever it was that you just said"
the faci thought he meant the team, then fairuz emphasised that it was to him that statement was directed to. oh and he made sure of that :D hahahaha

i agree with him definitely, the way he was gunning down the team was of no substance.
it's soooooo horrible, he just beat around the bush and just tells that the concept and understanding their team made was wrong and not even stating clearly wtf is wrong with it. like wtf really... he's just gunning down everything he saw.

even with my team's presentation, ask him something, then he replied with something else. goodness gracious! ugh so the whole situation went that way and then willie got sent to class for trying to type into his laptop... and he PURPOSELY hand picked to keep checking on willie.
willie was sent out and willie took it willingly and of course, with enough shots of disgust at the faci...
i kept saying "he can't tell students to just leave like that.." my god.. i wish linda cheong was around. stupid facilitator... i will make sure i hold a petition if ever he becomes my daily facilitator... i swear he'll be the death of me.

i hope he gets sacked! his teachings are not even of substance and he cant even enlighten the class on anything.. and the worst? he tells us to SHOOT at each other's solution.
dont RP highly pride themselves in learning the way of learning and that there's not wrong or right answers, that it's ok to make mistakes but you learn about it???
and dont RP discourage the word SHOOT each other's solution? see, he should be sacked!

-.- okay fine... i'll shut up now.
i still want him sacked! -.- nites!

Finally

Well, finally i am done with my module selection!! i dont really know how the whole procedure of it will go but i will be notified on the 13 April 2009, right before the semester starts next year, pertaining the module that has been awarded to me.

i have selected:

1. marketing
2. business processing model
3. it project management
4. campaigns and advertising design

so far, i have not considered changing any of the electives.. YET ;)
i see it suit for my marketing outlook...

although i am wondering if HR should have been in my choice too.
i haven't really gone to the extend of really comparing these two huge sector in the industries out there...

HR and Marketing are those fields that is both interesting but why i settle for marketing is because its fundamentals caters to quite a lot of other aspects.
the only nagging feeling that is getting at me is i should have taken Arts Marketing.

I just hope that Campaigns and Advertisement Design Module will be good.
Then again, it isn't confirmed yet... I will only know later on...
So for now, let's just hope that i get it...
Or much better, let's just hope that i stay with these selections.
I have till the 25th to change it :D

i'm getting bored!

i'm still waiting for shenath to finish playing cs with don.
sooooo long -.-

later we'll be watching a rugby match in school.
some young punks will be playing the RP warriors and let's hope they don't get trashed :0

(finally, cs boys decided to call it quits)

i have currently enjoyed watching star wars chronicles......
sooooooo interesting can!
it's really very fascinating and thank GOD for george lucas to have written and created it.
hayden is so hot and the storyline is sooo vast and never fail to keep me excited watching.

yey for the chronicles! :)

going to have a movie marathon from star wars 1 to 6 soon. hehe
we'll we're going to the sports hall now..
ciaos!

school related

i am currently in a major dilemma which i'm really not diving into right now.
going over to confusion zone and i'm going nutcase with the education path right now.

module selection for year 3 is not doing good for my decision making system right now.
shenath has already settled for this specialization track and indecisive me still want to remain ms jack-of-all-trades.

so far our selection modules has only left us with two modules to choose from as the other two are year 3 core modules.

the two core modules are marketing and business process module.

one of them i have decided on is human resource management information system
and i was thinking of quite a few FCMs (freely chosen modules), but not just any FCMs
i was thinking of doing what is at least relevant to something what i want to do.

then the question comes out - what do i really want to do?

i like working in the creative sector, i like media platform, i like writing, i like doing something to represent something, i like supervising, i like crafts, i like fast-paced work, i like a work that i can chill after each projects, i like creating websites, i like ....

ooh i like a lot of things!

i have to decide soon.

yikes! school's getting on at me the wrong way.
i've never been so grades oriented in school before, it's like i'm bothered i got a B for web application when for a straight 8 weeks, i have been getting straight As.

something weird is happening to me. lol

and i even chided at the comment my new (3rd) web application facilitator made for my day 10's individual comment, the part that he says:
"I had wanted to give you an A but as you came in late I had to give u a B."

LIKE HELLO, DOESNT HE KNOW THAT LATE COMERS ARE ALREADY DOWNGRADED?
AND DOESNT HE LIKE KNOW THAT YOU CAN AWARD YOUR STUDENT AN A EVEN IF THEY ARE LATE AS LONG AS THEY DESERVE IT?

boo hoo... and i wasn't even THAT late...

see what i mean? i'm going paranoid about grades! ugh

untitled

For awhile there i didn't think that weiling will call me for work this week.
for some reason, even though i dislike to really work at the cafe for now, the need and thought of finance just make me see some sense -  

I NEEDED HER TO CALL ME FOR WORK.
oh and she did. phew! yey!

i really disagree about working and studying concurrently now...
it's really tiring and very much of a mood eater. for me, i have a lot of other choices but for bf, he ain't really got a choice cos swissotel let foreign student work as long as it is under the government. also, i have other source of income from my parents so im quite glad that i need not work as much as him. phew...
i don't think i can handle the job he does... 10-12 hours of work. gosh.
well, not as much as a friend of mine, celestine, who can work for 21 hours!
crazy woman. haha... well anyway, lets stop talking about jobs.

today i just want to say that i'm such a good gf. ahha right shenath? ;)

im currently here at paisley and cream, a nice cosy cafe at clarke quay.
i swear i will come here and take bf for a bit of good food soon.. the menu comprise of unique food variety. yum...
most of them are signature dishes that is created as a tribute for some known person.
one of them is issey miyake... err forgot the others.
hmm, i'm currently waiting for shenath to finish work, and whilst doing that, i studied for S.A.D
really interesting topic for S.A.D today...
of course, the more interesting it is, the more complex and big of a workload it is.
definitely.

well, time to pack up.
blog soon.
oh and please forgive the fact that i can't upload pictures aites.
no camera phone/digicam at the moment -.-

p.s. might be heading back to philippines for christmas and new year

yey! it would be nice to feel real christmas and the explosive new year.

but then... it wouldn't be right without him.

even before he goes to his homeland, i'm already missing him. sigh

Smile. Smile. Smile

it was almost a whole month that me and shenath went through some battlefields with ourselves, constantly after each others' blood.
it was a threatening times and yet, love did prevail.. it always do.
after that whole phase, i thought we'll never see happiness again, and yet, here we are -
still standing beside each other, still with a lot of love to give...

i was in love before, but it never felt this strong.
that's what makes me fear all the more... and yet, that's what strengthens me too.
our love strengthens with every weakness fixed, and every weakness falls with the sight of every strength that we muster.

after one big blow, i didn't think that we can survive it, yet he was prepared to accommodate... to at least try... and i'm glad that we saw reasons.

on sunday, we had dinner at teasire as i didn't get work.
had laksa and sze chuan chicken hotpot. twas nice, esp the laksa.
it was such a big portion too! then later on, we went to the beach.
sat by the shore and chatted about things.. and went all lovebirds. haha

yesterday, monday, class was crazy as always in teck ming's(he's my OS facilitator) class.
OS (operating systems) module isn't my thang, but at least i did my work diligently somehow :)
left early tho cos shenath had to book a flight to sri lanka for the december holidays.
reached keck seng tower at 5 and later had semi dinner at lau pa sat...
had chicken rice, and we think it wasn't THAT expectacular.
we were supposed to study for WAD(web appli design) after the booking of tix but eventually dropped.

today, skipped school cos both of us got lazy in the morning.
first he said to go late for school, so i told him to call me when he's up.
then when he called me at 730, i ended up not feeling like going.
so told him we'll meet at lunch instead...
we had nasi ayam penyet at mr teh tarik, then headed to teasire to study.
which didn't really turned out much of studying.. more like reviewing and slacking.

he got sick of sitting there and 'studying' so we changed venue.
so we went to pasir ris park.
decided to head to the swamp area... here are some pictures taken there today.

twas nice seeing the crabs and having a nice cosy time at the tower.
lovely surrounding and environment... quite creepy but the time we went there wasn't really bad, so it wasn't that spooky :))
there were a lot a lot a lot of mounds at the swamp and in those mounds, we saw minimum 7 crabs.. and on every mounds, there were more crabs in total.
so many! good that they are taking care of the place.
it'll be a waste if these crabs or any other swamp animals dies of 'deforestation'

so good job Nparks! at least someone is doing their part for the environment :)

anyway, after the swamp, shenath and i sat by the waterbreaker that was on the shore itself. (more like shorebreaker if you ask me)
cosy, emo, nice time over there... and we wrestled on the sands too. haha
it was real fun, esp when he was teaching me some self defense tactics. cool eh :)
but to me, it's easy... just hit the nuts(if it's a guy)... lol


it was nice spending time with him in peace after a long time on the battlefields.
you people who go through this relationship glitches should know how it feels like...
and this happy times are what contributes to the establishment of success in the relationship...
but yet, i must say that love, if it's for keeps, will always prevail.

OOH AND I FOUND THIS NEW TAYLOR SWIFT SONG - Love Story.
Very nice...

ice cold

looks nice doesn't it? just a little bit of a weird design i did.
heart back in a safebox can be very subjective and somehow,
it is a context of the many individual feelings that we tend to feel.
and somehow, it can vary due to the many events that can happen.
yet, we always feel safe when we put our hearts in the safety of our safebox,
hidden in the most secluded part that no one can find.
for now..... good night.

obama//yes we can//mccain

to all who are aware of the new elected president for USA, and for those who might not..

the following youtube videos shows the victory speech for mr obama in chicago and the concession speech of john mccain in arizona, respectively.

Click here for the manuscript of this speech.

this is definitely a historical election ever seen in the whole presidency election of USA.
the FIRST-ever African-American President who won the majority votes from the various cities of USA, and having won over the states that caused victory for the former president george w bush.
and i bet it was due to the 8 years of suffering and horrifying changes that USA and in fact, every other parts of the world, found hard to adapt to.
also, with the many crisis that has appeared during the reign of bush, im sure that people worldwide, not only americans, crave for a new change.
a better leader, one who can ignite the hopes and inspiration of the many people wordwide, and that's no other than the then senator obama, now, the newly elected president of USA.

the wall street crash - financial crisis - and the waging wars in iraq and afgahnistan, are just the main problems that obama promised to change. and as he takes office in January 20, and as he lives through this term(s), can we see what changes he will make for the world and not just for USA.

i guess it has been quite interesting to see who takes the seat of presidency due to the many problems the world faced, in the terms of george w bush.
mccain, well, he seemed to be strong leader. but this year, people craved and hope for changes, and i bet that being in association with bush didn't do well for him, as a good change. as i listen to his concession speech, i must say i respect his gracious acknowledgement of his defeat and has urged his many supporters to route their hopes and loyalty to barack obama.

i may not be an american but i was born onto the land that has been a supporter of america who has helped established indepedence in The Republic of The Philippines.
whose general mcarthur upheld his promise of return.
the famous phrase, "i will be back" will always be etched to the many hearts of people of The Philippines.

From thereforth, it came about the alliance that has long been forged between USA and the Philippines.
and i bet that phrase, that fulfillment of promise, made Filipinos regard America their friend.
And seeing a new change and a positive vibe in the US office, it creates a new view about USA. and not just filipinos or american allianced countries are interested, everyone in this world might even be.

the US president is like the WORLD president, and all of us, are aware of that and we embrace that because so far they have been reputable enough to be the top. and yet, the terms of bush has tarnished that reputation, and so, we all should hope that president obama will steer the world stage to a different location, where promises and good changes will happen, indefinitely.

God bless Mr President.

boredness/BGR talk

i was mistaken and misled about the commencement date of cashmere mafia.

it wasn't today. it will be next week, or so. i ain't sure now. so sad. so wanted to watch!

expense expense expense!

that's all been happening to me.

my salary is diminished due to the many things i need pay for.

it totally sucks big time. i need to alter all this.

i have to. i must.

i haven't been so poor till of the late months and i can't stand it no longer.

it's tiring and it's really devastating.

i want to work and save money. (or even work to buy myself pretty things.)

and not just to work and pay bills. get it?

well, no choice for now.

but it's got to change :) and i have a good feeling it will. 

today, i went to get my ezlink replaced, and then met shenath for lunch.

headed to drive 6 central again. it's becoming THE place.

the food is not only nice but it's quite convenient :)

i am still hoping that whoever took my clutch bag return my ic to me.

haiz. it'll totally suck if i had to pay $100 for that :(

please please please return my ic you culprit.

and im sure you'll be much happier :)

 i'm really quite bombed that cashmere mafia isn't on show today.

i want to see it. and i hope i dont lose interest. haha

so anyway, the whole day after lunch, didn't really do much.

shenath went to work and i stayed home.

was supposed to meet up with nurul dear but i guess she and hafiz really need to talk.

it really irritates me at how she tries to go with the flow...

 i know hafiz is the love of her life and i know hafiz also feels fed up about this and that,

but damn, i hate it when my gf is trying her best and all the time, she's the one at loss.

i mean, talk things out, compromise, promise you won't do the things that made your love one upset, try your best to uphold that promise, and not repeat it again after a few days.

then eventually, what's the point of having the talk of it if nothing ever really happens permanently?

and then both of you pair gets frustrated, pissed and tensed up, when you know all along that you both have failed to fulfill the standards that you guys already put across to each other.

to guys out there, just because you already have our hearts, that doesn't mean that you should play it cool and slack in your standards. 

most guys only keep up in pace with their woman at the beginning of the relationship, but after that, what happens?

you expect your ladies to tolerate you in the name of love? what the hell is that about?

so if you are those guys who pride themselves as the minority, please do yourselves a favor and stop being a jackass and always have your standards. 

i respect the guys who maintain and better themselves in the relationships.  

and that includes my shenath.

often, the pair themselves lose the motivation to maintain standards, and that's when either one should question the other. if no one is speaking forward, initiate.

and sometimes, it helps if you speak out about it. (yes, it really does. i learned that.)

so question it before it turns all sour. try your best to work things out. over and over again.

and i'm sure that if you both love each other for real, it'll work out.

so if you've already claimed a common ground about your fights, don't repeat the bad things you've done. at least try HARDER THAN HARD.

nurul said "we hafta make sacrifices sometimes" and she's right. we all do.

but i must say we ladies should always keep a watch out if our man make us do quite a number of sacrifices more than us. it should be equal, or rather a little bit inclined to you.

i know that may sound bias, but honestly, it's we ladies who loses more than man.

and that is the brutal reality despite the presence of feminism in this era.

we ladies have to maintain our standards and have to make sure we give our man what we can, but in moderation.

to end this post, i would like to say;

if your man gives you the world, give him a kiss.

if your man gives you his heart, give him your hand.

and if your man gives you his life, give him your soul.

crazy days

well, it gets very frustrating when you and your loved one had nothing but misunderstandings for quite a stretch of days.

but it all pays off when you realize how much you love each other, over and over yet again.
despite the many disagreements or quarells, affection and love conquers and create a certain standard to be fulfilled.

it really is hard to comprehend love.
and yet, we love to meddle with it.
we fall in love like we really love the whole entire package it brings.
i mean c'mon, it takes strength to ensure you get through the horrible things relationship make us go through.
if you think life's a bitch, love is meaner.
only, its rewards doubles that of what life can bring.

i always preached last time that couples should be strong and go through the hardships together.
however, when the time was ripe for me to experience such things myself, i realize that relationships ain't no easy business.
it takes a lot of patience, understanding, open-mindedness, compromises, belief, trust and most importantly the reciprocal nature of what love should be based on.
i always believe that it isn't right when love is one-sided.
i mean yeah, it can happen, but that's not what love is supposed to be.
and i guess i still believe it.

i met shenath and i'm still with him, and if u follow till the end of this post, you'll be led to the number of days we have been together.
despite it being just a year and a few months, it really is a big deal.
remember, it's not the quantity that matters, it's the quality.
however, sometimes, quantity matters when gauging how far you can last the season.
whether or not your stocks of food for winter will run low too early or will it be sufficient.

he's my first real serious steady boyfriend.
ooh and pls, ive seen enough jerks and of course good guys turned mediocre and lacking of standards as time passes on, to be able to gauge where my REAL SERIOUS STEADY bf stands.
and if GOD wills it, i'll marry him and we'll have the dreams and goals we have set for ourselves :)

going back to the said frustration that i have felt earlier, no doubt he might have felt it too. yet, i'm sure it wore off starting monday when we went crazy and nuts with games.
so on monday, it was still quite tensed but a trip to downtown managed to subdue it.
we went to my cafe to get my pay, but weiling wasn't around still.
met jeremy whilst heading down a storey off to another venue.
so it all started at jeremy's workplace, skatesports, when we went nuts playing skateboards, skooters, and essboards.
like gawd... we were like kids with new toys.
it was real fun, i had real fun that night :)

no pictures for show because of the loss of my cybershot

nurul joined us in awhile and then started playing with the equipments too.
so upon getting my pay and j closing shop, we headed down to drive 6 central coffeeshop.
where the boys had baron and the girls had teh peng kahtai :)
twas fun laughing the night till late, where me and nurul kept a constant squirmy view on the gay talks shenath and jeremy were having.
if i wasn't going on with shenath and jeremy didn't go on with lyn before, i would have thought that they are real hardcore gays.
hahaha no offence, i've nothing against gays, in fact, i find them fun =D

i used to have a gay bestfriend? so yeah. 'used to' because he decided to distance himself when shen and i got together in a serious knot

The night ended with a nice sweet warmth of the activities, as we end our day on monday. so nice feeling of finally being soo cool with shenath.
no tense, no worries. period.

then yesterday, tuesday, nearing the end of the day, i got pissed with shenath for altering plans. then finally got over it somehow, despite the fact that i make it sound that i wasn't happy about the whole alteration.
eventually, the initial plan and the altered plan got merged!
wasn't it great?? hehe so nice and happy.
ooh yeah, finally i have a new hp and number replacement for the hp loss.
i guess i wouldn't be using my previous number, 9****784, already.
can't afford having to keep paying for it monthly. and i know i'll blow it off in the end.
so what's the use? im going to try and stick to prepaid cards as long as i finish off my hp bill debts and also, as long as it take me to grow responsible for my own bills and belongings.

i'meyeingonanewsonyericssonphone

well, today had dinner with shenath and we had a nice little chats about lots of little things. and im sure we'll establish a better relationship and togetherness more than this.

also, i guess we'll learn how to ensure each other's happiness more with all the past misunderstandings we have 'fulfilled'

finally, to end my post, i would like to share with you all the new sitcom on show on channel5 at 10pm every wednesday - CASHMERE MAFIA

It's almost like Sex and the City with a little bit twist here and there.

and lucy liu is one of the main stars and to those feminist who believes in the capability of their womanhood. it shows how women balance a lot of areas of their lives and still achieve something that fulfills them. no one says women are ALL-THAT, cos we are after all, just human beings. so watch this sitcom for some adult humor and seemingly nice storyline. 

Season 1 Episode 1 is tomorrow airing in Channel5 at 10pm.

Here are some Sneak Peaks -

well, for better view, just watch and be surprised, turned off, excited, and whatever, with me. nites!!!

God, thank you for today.

worst day ever

the worst day this year, i must say is on the 31st october 2008, halloween night.
wait to come to think about it, it was NOVEMBER 1. hmms
it sucks to the core because there was a lot of event that led to its major worst-day-award.
1. the halloween night didn't turn out as expected
2. the fun in that night was utterly subjective!
3. i had the nagging feeling that something awful was going to go wrong
4. and yes, something did go wrong!

it all started when we were making our way to the last club stop...
when laura lost her camera. half of the night's pictures were stored there!  
and not forgetting her treasured pictorial memories were there too
and that it was her mum's...

so she dropped it when we made our way to the other side of the road to attica.
then somebody picked it up, and it was gone.
all done in splits of seconds... damn that fucker who took that camera!

well, the whole wreck extended to me and bf.
as we made some misunderstandings sound and the night erupted in intensed disagreement.
but as the night proceeded, we it all led to talks of marriage and that we should always work it out. in this we both have the same thoughts.
no matter how much we disagreed each other, tell off each other and loathe each other,
it all comes down to whether we want to spend the rest of the lifetime with each other.
and from there, it all forms the conclusion of making the best out of the shits of life.
that we have to keep remembering that we have to make things work!
why? because we love each other,
and seeing things fall down the drain will be the worst disappointment ever.
love you sweetheart.

so anyway, the day couldn't really do good for us.
guess what?? i lost my clutch bag!
it all contained my ic, ezlink, handphone, keys, cosmetics.. gosh :(
so we had to head down to the nearest police station, which felt like 2km of walk.
how i lost it?
i really don't know.
and that's the worst because sooner or later it would have dawn on me where the f* i left it.

the worst thing is that we weren't even drunk -.-
also, what makes it the worst of all things i lost is the replacement cost i have to face.
altogether i lost around $400 worth of items.
and that sucks. for real.
because till know i don't even know where to blame my stupidity to.
it's like if i'd known where i put it or where i know id most likely put it on to, i would feel rather better in a way about losing it, because i can blame it to the stupidity of leaving it on that certain place.
but this loss is like, i dont even know where the hell it went to!
it sucks big time.
till now, as i walk down the memory lane of the entire places that it might likely be at,
i can't think of a possible place it might have landed.

and the thing is if it dropped outa my grip, i would know!
it isn't a small clutch you know.
uggh...

well, to that fucker who has my items now, pls just return my ic.
or if they aren't ball-ess enough, well, it's okay. enjoy the stolen goods.
i'm sure you'll get stained by it... it's cursed things now they're holding. so good luck!

for me, i'm over it.
i need to face the replacement costs now, and have to learn from this shit.
i'll never carry anymore clutches.
nah uh. never. ever.

oooohhh and school's starting tmr!
i can't be sure that im happy about it now that im all lazy to do anything.
lol hopefully i'll get back the mood of studying.

hugs! cioas