With Sisters

okays, after the first post for this day i went to get ready after talking to bur boi.

my appointment of the day is the ST. HILDA'S DANCE CLUB.

Ive said my piece about it at my previous entry, dated 25 Jan 2007 in the 3rd Paragraph.

Im happy with the results so far. i have them under the control. i established them as a CLUB again.

thanks to Mr Chia who was so willing to re-instate it again. wow. i am impressed at my own able to persuade.

gosh. i wish that my dancers will do their best in doing what they do best. i love that they try to bite their tongue whenever we 3 bitches wanna speak. haha. but i love it that they respect Ain, really. it is good that even if they may dislike whoever, they seem to put it away whenever dance meetings come along.

i hope that they maintain the attitude. anyways, after the stated appointment, the 3 of us went to Starbucks coffee. (err to those who dunno the 3 of us meant ME, HAJAR, HIDAYAH)

we chilled there instead of the supposed planned t0day with hajar, which was to go riding. i mean i didnt really look forward to it but then it didnt happen so i was just as glad. i many ways, i miss riding, but there are things i dont mind not going for.

anyways, we stayed at Starbucks for till the late evening and then we all went to the bus terminal together. yes, hajar just have to make us so embarrased in public. imagine, in front of many people, she screamed my name so freaking loud. gosh. well, she herself was embarrased. she screamed cos she missed her bus. lol.

anyways, i gtg now. talking to boi again... later cannot concentrate talking and typing. ok then.

-love love love-

waves of love

a wave of love that comes either to irritate or to overwhelm you so much that you cant decide whether to jump in and swim within the waves.
it comes to everyone yet, to me, it comes rarely, because i think it isnt worth to just jump in whenever any wave of love sweep against my feet. why this reasoning comes about to me i dont know. also, i dont think i want to know. it has been long since i have really sink my feet within the shore of the ocean of love and honestly, all i have been doing was to dip my toe in the water by the shore.
but as you all know, i did jump in this ocean before and swam in it. i swam in the shallow side as well as the deepest of it.

i wouldnt deny that it was scary but it was worth it. i loved it. it treated me with so much love and it shielded me away from every hurt and pain i felt. it took away my grief and it gave our love so much passion that i became complacent. and then the wave got too rough and the ocean just forced me to get out and take refuge away from the shore even. it pushed me to the shore where i wouldnt be hurt from the storm that is tormenting it. that it wanted me safe from the hurt of the ocean storm. so on the rocks, away from the water, i sat just watching the ocean calm down. then just as i thought i want to move to another part of the shore, the great waves swept at my feet and it invites me to come in. well, since i have loved swimming its deep parts, basically i just love the ocean, so i waded this time. then once again, i loved how it treat me, how it hold me as i swim. it was really calm and playful at the same time. it invited me to swim further in and into the deep, i thought why not, but then somehow, i witness how it let another being let her feet in the water. and then when the swimmer got thrown in by the winds it didnt push the swimmer back out. then because the ocean pushed me to the parts away from the incident, i didnt know that im actually sharing this ocean with the other swimmer. i didnt like it obviously, all the time i swam in, it never invited anyone to even WADE by its shore. all it allows was other interested swimmers to dip their toes and never more than that. i felt betrayed and so i swam back to the shallow but as i was about to leave, it spat out the swimmer to the shore and never invited her again. so then i stayed for a while and then i went back to my refuge to teach the ocean a lesson. i asked for its permission to go, to understand that i have to do what it is that's right.

weeks past, i know that the ocean needed my presence, so i came back for it. all the more because i NEEDED it badly too. so there we were again, playing around and very lovingly secure, and then i made a mistake in swimming away to the other side where i saw many other creatures. i know these creatures, so i played with them, disregarding the fact that the ocean only wanted me with it. It only wanted me to play and enjoy with it. But i neglect the ocean, being unnecessarily angry at it selfishness. Then knowing my mistake, i talked to it, leaving words written on the sands of its shore that im letting go. that im sorry for ever causing torment within its waves, within it. But it has to be done. From then on, i never heard of it again until one day when it told me to come in it again. but i thought of excuses, and i turned back. yes i still felt love for it at that time but i cant stand its torments and so i have to go. although it left me so broken and lonely. although i went to wade within other parts of shore, i know that i still wanted the same spot where there was so much connection that i felt within the waves of its love... then when i found out that it has invited the other swimmer to swim into it, i was happy for it because it wont call out to me any longer. that it will treat her the way it loved me so. but before i truly had let go of our love, i was like these .....



(err oh yeah, wait for the BACKGROUND song to end. then play. sorreee.)

**okay yes i did hurt HIM too. and that im the one who left him. fine. but still this is not about him. this is about ME. :) **

but i learnt to move along fine without going back to the place of love. i learnt to move to a different place and to build my own place near the shore of love. but i never once even wade in it. all i did was to just dip my toes in it should it ever call to me. but never once did i get seduced by the waves of love. NEVER. i was stubborn, yes, but for my own sake. it was for my own sake that i didnt swim anymore. then i thought i would forgot how it feels like to put my feet in the water. i thought i would forget how to swim, how to love. then this wave of love push forward to me, so close that i thought why not i try again.
so now as i write this, yes, i never thought that i would even let this new part of the ocean come at me.
i never thought that i would put my feet in.
i never thought that i even will consider in wading in it.
but yes i will.
this ocean is different. it is more obvious in showing me how much it appreciate me. and yes, im seduced. i dont deny that. but im still fearful that this wave will only be a temporary one or it will bring torment again, so i told these ocean that i wanted to move to my own accord, within my own timing. that it shouldnt force its waves to even try to push me to the deep. at least not yet. i want to be familiar with its shore first. im happy that this ocean understood. honestly, i will open up my arms in embrace this time. and i wont open my eyes. i will close it and follow my heart. yes.


so for now, i think i'll try to be honest with what i feel. i cant say that i will fall in love with this ocean. but i will try.

-love love love-
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poems

did you all ever know that i have a book of poems? it isnt really that personal but usually is it about love. and yes there are some semi-personal ones, so yeah.

im not a really romantic with words but there are times that i see love all around me and i cant help but write about it.

in my poem book, there are a few poems that are not written by me. Either they are the poems of my other friends (of which i will state who) or they are poems written for me. yeah, the ones written for me is from a guy. of which i wont write who. cos i really dont want people to know that he's sucha, err, sweetheart. ahaha.

but it did won my heart. i love poems, see. i appreciate words expressed thru poems. i love poetry. whether or not they rhyme. but i must say, poems must mean somethings. okay now, let me take you to it slowly. i will copy here everything. but not all in a day's entry. maybe one or two? hmms. i think i shall establish MONDAYS n SUNDAYS poem days!

okay so here i start with a non-romantic poem.

poem 1

Tittle: Something to think about

When painful sorow sweep over you,

Be strong and listen still;

Life is full of meaning so true,

That all you have to do is feel.

Roads are bulky as ever before,

Fear nothing but the wrath of the Lord;

He stay true to us and more,

By actions and sometimes with a word.

The love we feel inside is by Him,

As well as those ache we feel;

We just have to search within,

And everything will be done by will.

Fate and destiny is one with GOD,

Together thru time that's irreversible;

Changing them is something bad,

Cos everything in the present will be invisible.

Be happy with now and everything,

Contented with whatever there is;

For the 'morrow is life renewing,

soul searching whatever it is.

**yes, i was thinking of GOD at this point of time i wrote it. and so i wrote this to remind myself that HE is there. And that i shouldnt want to change the past.

poem 2

tittle: Untittled 1

You're all that I've wanted,

You're all that had mattered;

I didnt know that you're still the one,

That one i really still want.

Love is very much alien to me,

But it's you who made me see;

Who stand as proof, who made me feel,

That love do exists for real.

Pride and ego may come between,

Pain and separation may even win;

But you and me are meant to be,

We'll be back again someday they'll see.

Whoever they are who make us part,

They'll never change that feeling in our heart;

Do trust what it says cos i do love you,

And thru whatever I'll still be your boo.

**this is a poem made by me quite a long time ago. yes, to a lover when we had somehow almost given up hope on each other. that lover isnt my lover now though. so no matter, i still wont say who he is..

well, let's just say that the poem came true and then it didnt.

okay so i'll end here. till this Sunday then. anyways, i shall copy here the poems in the book firsts. then when everything is done. i shall do more of new poems. haha.

a date

i slept at 5am again. as it is lately ever since i started being a fanatic reader once again.

anyways, i woke up at 1pm and then read in bed till 15mins before 2pm.

okay, now im reading Blood and Gold by Anne Rice.

i just love reading her novels. i guess it is just because i have such interests in the vampire she had created.

well, fictional as it may be but really she has placed a spark upon these creatures of the night.

anyways, within our wide world, who's to say that they dont exists right?

if GOD exists and the devil too, why not these beautiful creatures anyways?

haha.

okay, let us just get on with my day today right.

i met up with izzul after not seeing each other for 8 months now. yeahs ive known him long ago.

we have been friends since and our only way of communication is by the means of smsing or msning or talking on the phone.

we met at cityhall though it was supposed to be at bugis.

but anyways, i was famished. so he suggested we go to Sakura.

We had late lunch together and i had Thai Fried Rice while he had Dengdeng Fried Rice.

the payment was all on him. in fact the whole expenditure today was all on him. he refuse me when i offered to pay my meal. and so i let him.

wells, first dates are always ON THE GUY.

that's a must. even for me who believes on going dutch.

We had long talks here and there. so yeahs. evidently, i had no difficulty in communicating with him.

It was his birthday yesterday so i went to get him a tiny cake and then i gave it to him when we reached Esplanade.

we went up to the roof terrace and sat under a tree.

luckily it wasnt raining so hard.

so the day went along fine.

then from esplanade we went to starbucks and i had java chips while he had white choco cream or something.

since he was going for the singapore vs malaysia at Kallang Stadium, our date was quite brief. but then we vow to have a longer date next time. haha.

okays, im ending here now.

im getting kinda tired of typing. hahaha

there have been quite a lot that happened within these past few days that i didnt fill in.
okay, im soree for the missing-in-action stuff, but im back!
so far, since my last entry, ive dyed my hair, from streaks of blonde to burgundy.
now my hair need more nourishment!! im sure it does.
anyways, my money's near gone!
but yes i did spend it on myself, my mum and more things.
ive been spending it on food really.
and it's not cos of the quantity of food that's why i spend but more to the venue of it.
i really learn to treat myself. there was that day that me and the sisters got together.
and we had lunch at pasta mania. i love the beef lasagña there. i mean nothing beats jack's place or swensen's but for pastamania to have a beef lasagña to be worth its price, is really quite remarkable.
anyways, im a sucker for cushion seats now. i insisted to chill at starbucks ONLY if there was cushion seats.
LIKE DAMN! can starbucks have more sofas or cushion seats?? gosh.
oh ya, talking about starbucks, there was this cute guy who works at starbucks vivo.
really, i find him cute. haha... but nah, i aint interested.

okay, work was fine. really fine. i at least ceased hating one chef.
but the other chef, the fat bastard, really just dont get the damn idea that the way he looks at me freaks me out.
i mean cant he just stop looking as if he never saw a GIRL!
but anyways, i still dont eat what he cooks. so too bad for me. even my cousin didnt eat what he cooked.
just by looking at it, you would really lose your appetite.
okay, enough about that. see, i dont like dissing people.
im not proud that i hate him in any sense but too bad.

today, hajar, hidayah and i went to school for some dance business.
well, nothing that hits your mind straight.
it's more to ironing creases found on shirts.
it was tough but we decided that on account of saving dance club, MY DANCE CLUB, i just have to come forth and just stop the bitchified attitude that i show Ain, my successor, for running my club to the ground.
i was really too disappointed that i refuse to aid them now that they seek my help.
i mean why now when everything is almost settled.
that the teachers have decided to close it down.
i gave the girls and Ain a piece of my mind and so did the other two.
we love having this talks. i love it personally because i get to tell them what i hated and what i loved.
of course, you wont know exactly how it is but long story short.
past = good dance reputation
present = dance club closing (no more studio privilleges, no more outside school performance)
** all because they find it stressful to join the prenenial SYF.
damn it, didnt they know that IT IS a damn big deal. SYF is a big deal.
i developed fatigue due to the intensity of the dance expectations that i have to achieve as a dance President.
and i love hajar and hidayah for their full-pledge support during those times that dancing was being sucha huge burden.
okay, after the talk, which ened quite well, having them quite sure that they want to do SYF now, the three of us, went for lunch.
A VERY LATE LUNCH.
we went to Long John's and then hajar have t0 leave to meet Salihin.
i dont get the secrecy in that but whatever, i knew from hidayah that she was meeting him.
so hidayah and i had our time.
it has been quite a very long time since we had a one-t0-one moment together.
we talked and talked some more.

there were loads of topic about school, poly, boyfriends, dance club, ex love flames, flings and etc.
the most intense for me was the issue about my ex bf, daryl.
there were some questions that i answered and some stories i painstakingly told her about.
it didnt actually pain me to talk about him but i find it quite funny..
but anyway, im sure he's happy now and i wish him good luck.
aww im sucha caring creature, aint i.
haha.
AND THEN came about her ex too...
haha......
yeash we talked about the guy that we ALMOST quarrelled about.
gosh.
haha.... right ? hidayah. and to think that he actually thought we'll just throw away our friendship just cos he thought im soooo into him.
hahahha.
anyways, hidayah darls, i think you know that he isnt really MY EX too.
hah! eat that okay! lol

okay, im ending here.
so here from me soon.
oh yeah. more PICS!!

...

today, work was okay lah.

there was some quarrell in the kitchen.

b/w that chéf that ive grown to detest and another chéf that i find nice.

i dont know till when this strong feeling will subside but for sure i really mean the word detest.

to the extent that i dont want to even eat the food he cooks.

and im all too glad that Shah cooked the staff meal tonight.

wells in my previous entry i talked of this new assistant chéf that had just joined the kitchen crew.

and i talked of my new found hatred about that ass.

gosh.

anyways, i really think that im being sucha workaholic.

but anyways, im really soo tired lah.

so im going to shut up now.

and hang up on my cousin who is on the phone with me.

then go to my novel that calls out to me.

haha.

ok ok.

gtg.

-love love love-

...

today, work was okay lah.

there was some quarrell in the kitchen.

b/w that chéf that ive grown to detest and another chéf that i find nice.

i dont know till when this strong feeling will subside but for sure i really mean the word detest.

to the extent that i dont want to even eat the food he cooks.

and im all too glad that Shah cooked the staff meal tonight.

wells in my previous entry i talked of this new assistant chéf that had just joined the kitchen crew.

and i talked of my new found hatred about that ass.

gosh.

anyways, i really think that im being sucha workaholic.

but anyways, im really soo tired lah.

so im going to shut up now.

and hang up on my cousin who is on the phone with me.

then go to my novel that calls out to me.

haha.

ok ok.

gtg.

-love love love-

out with the girls

after not seeing my girls for quite sometimes, we met up.

though it's not with mei ling and nurul.

me, hajar, hidayah and dinisha only.

we were suppose to have an outing to sentosa.

but due to the rain, it was cancelled.

anyways, today was soo FUCKED! haha.

i meant it in a foolishly great way.

yeah i know, why say FUCKED if it is a good thing right.

wells, the girls have decided to use that as a catch phrase.

with whatever motive, i know nothing!

haha.

anyways, im soo in love with Anne Rice.

why?

wells her novels really captivates me.

The Vampire Chronicles.... it's a collection of novels by her.

you ppl should really like read it.

i dont know what interest me with the beautiful creature of the night.

i guess it's the stories about them.

the way they are described is really alluring.

very captivating.

really makes me want to see them for real.

and i even fathom their existence.

gosh.

now, this is a real FANTASY.

something that only in my wildest dream will happen.

(btw, the new year kiss is also my fantasy rmbr. but this fantasy can happen. only that i dont know when. ahha. but anyways, my new year kiss isnt that spectacular. i was in the arms of an old date, he kissed me on the cheeks and i did too. nothing much to say about that. it isnt romantic. i dont know when will that fantasy come to life. haha.)

anyway, work really is freaking tiring.

cos i havent been really sleeping.

got problem sleeping like shit.

i dont know why.

it's like my mind/soul/whatever it is, being called somewhere or by someone.

i meant like my mind wonders like so much.

i been i have had this kind of probs sleeping but not like shitty as this.

anyways, i hate the new assistance chef.

he keeps looking at me.

and mind you, the last thing i want is for him to fancy me.

i'll seriously puke.

haha.

okay maybe not so bad.

but that's the last thing in my lifetime that id want.

anyways, Fik asked me out this sat.

he was kinda shy about it actually but i respect his tries.

i dont know if it's a confirm thing.

he tried getting my no. (even tho he knows two of his frens has alrdy fail in doing so)

but like i decided.

i will never give my no. i'll only take theirs.

so it depends on me if it pleases me.

but i didnt have the time to do so.

been doing other things lately.

which is WORK.

haha.

anyways, i think i like Ayul(another fren) better than Fik.

i meant it as a friendly comment.

like i said, im not really into bfgf now.

at least not now.

i want to take a break from all this emotional matters.

but i mean i will entertain semi friendly connections.

haha. yups.

okay, 7 things that i want done this month of January.

1) get my mum her bdae gift asap/take her spa/date her for a fine dining.

2) buy a new phone or get an MP3

3) date myself/go buy something for myself.

4) pay off my bill (at lst $50)

5) oh and rmbr to give nurul her present! hahahaha.

6)finish off the novel Blackwood Farm and return it on the due date.

7) go to gym with cousin Azmi

hey hey! wells, had ntg much to do lah.
so here something to see.
kinda bit retarded really.
but just see it here.
have it up at my frenster too.
but yeahs since i said i got ntg to do.
here's the product of it.

anyways, work was great just now.
EXCEPT for someone who just have to really bite me.
as in metaphorically speaking lah.
gosh. and yes i snapped at him GOOD.
i know what i was suppose to do and he just have to blab w/o really knowing anything.
and even though he was way way older than i am.
so what? i had every right to say what i said to him.
so if i was too much.
then sorree but i aint gona take a shit from someone who dont know his facts.

wells, i gtg now.
i need to adjust to a new sleeping strategy i came up with.
a standard 8 hrs sleep.
im becoming sucha pig.
been waking up at past 2pm nowadays.
and it isnt helping me!
+shalom+

-love love love-

just blabbering

something was utterly wrong with the internet connection last night.
i cant even log in at all lah.
and the comp cant receive signal from the router.
good thing it's ok now. pheww

anyways, work was crazy yesterday.
goodness really.
everyone was nuts!
Gary, Cico, Bir, Shah. gosh.
"can i have a bowl of pasta without the pasta?"
wth lah Shah!
and the retarded thing is Gary can still entertain it. haha.
boys will be boys.
ahaha Gary and Cico was nuts twice on the way to Outram Park.
anyways, at least it takes away the tense at work this recent period.

am suppose to have a day off today.
but at the last minute Ariff cant come for work.
he's under MC.
and wells, since im free then fine.
i took it.

btw, things is starting to get weird.
yes weird.
ever since my cousin re-opened the sealed guitar(an heirloom from my late grand dad at my dad's side)
i can barely sleep at night without feeling watched.
and without having goosebumps.
soorrryy if im like creeping you all out.
but seriously.
i hope that now that i re-SEALED it again.
i'll be fine.
but it doesnt seem to really work.
i dont know.
there's just something wrong.
i dont know what's happening but this feeling im feeling is really weird.
like something warning about something bad that might happen.
to my ppl, take care.
you should know about my hunches ....
uh huh.
just take precaution.
tc!!

anyways, i gtg get ready.
WORK! haha.
ok ppl, muahz.

Isnt my sister such a cutie pie.. ahaha. just to take my mind off the scare. haha. love love love her so much!!

-love love love-

now about the vacation i freaking want.
i wanna show you some of the places i have in my mind.


BORACAY. one of the best island in THE PHILIPPINES.


BORACAY.BORACAY.BORACAY.



THIS IS THE HOTEL THERE. I SOOO LOVE IT. HAHA.



oKAY NOW.this is LANGKAWI. gosh they all look the same.
Malaysia.
Anyway, this is second best to BORACAY in the PHILiPPINES.
PALAWAN
yeaps.yeaps.


And this is PALAWAN too.
haha.

** i need a vacation!! **

lots of cock up shit happened at work.
and somehow, after everything yesterday, which is settled now.
i choose to just leave the other things that i noticed, out.
i mean i cant care less.
whatever it is, as long as they dont step on my toes, i'll be fine.

im like so freaking pissed that my blood boils at the thought of it lah.
but anyhow, favouritism wont favour a person in the long run.
gosh.
i realise who are the backstabbers and the ppl who hides behind a freaking nice masks.
gosh.
anyways, whatever it is.
im not the damn sort they can easily manipulate.
and i see beyond the damn masks.
so im sorry to see them daily, giving that kind of superficial beauty.

gosh.
wells, my love life's currently dead.
in a way, im like only thinking of five things!
1. Family
2. Myself
3. Friends
4. My dream vacation. --which i dont know when will happen and where.
5. soon.. Studies.

gosh.
i want i need and i yearn for my vacation! somewhere i can chill with somebody i can get along with.
where money is not an issue.
cos the only purpose of the vacation is to relax and chill.
so anybody want to go on a trip with me??
max 3 ppl wanted.
haha.
so come for interview.
call me.
hahahahaha.
but im really IN NEED of this vacation! haha.

out with hajar and kartik and su babe

my manager told me to take off yesterday and today.
i was really looking forward to work till Saturday this week.
but he just have to be a joykiller.
the cafe is starting to have a decline of customers and apparently, i have to be the one that he tell to take off!
i need money!
my damn bill has arrived and i dont know how to get it paid with the working hours altered every now and then.
anybody wanna donate $200 to me? hahha.

but anyways, i'll take care of it.
my music, i'll face it.
anyways, i thought i will be staying home yesterday but i obiviously didnt.
i got my darling sis hajar to go out with me.
lata on kartik was bored too.
so he tagged along.
and also, su babe chatted with me online yst and she too tagged along!
haha.
kartik said to me he felt like a girl.
haha.
wells, three girls and a guy yesterday.

we had fun.
then su babe have to leave early.
her ex bf, Raymond wants to meet up somewhere.
he was rantling on about why she talks to me.
there was an old issue b/w my ex and her ex.
he's just another addition
gosh! why is it so hard to ppl to know NOW IM NOT WITH DARYL KEITH PEREIRA.
(ppl swallow it whole and digest that fact!)
man... i still get that oh-she's-daryl's-girl look from our old friends.
and when i tell them 'oh he has a new girlfriend already. we've moved on'
the looks get more interesting.
wth.
but cant blame them though.
our story was from like the prehistory.
haha.
anyways, we're friends.
and that's that.
no more no less.

okay, now lets continue.
then when su babe left, salihin(hajar's) came.
and so did the rest of the soccer boys.
haha.
i missed those ppl.
esp my bro, Salihin(qarha's).
these are two different ppl.
haha.
been long since i talked with him.
and wells, it was nice to see him.
damn, i miss the old clique.
*sobs*
i wanna hold a REUNION for the clique man!
(soon soon soon)

the people in the old clique:

the babes

ME.
HAJAR.
HIDAYAH.
SHAISTAH.
VANESSA ROSE.

the guys.

KUMARES.
VENGA.
SALIHIN(qarha's).
AZIM.
KARTIK KRISH.
DARYL KEITH.(he was automatically in tho he was away cos he's one of the GUYs.)
PREM

anyways, in this clique there were 4 couples.

hajar+azim--over---1st
vans+kartik--over-- 2nd
me+daryl(but he was never ard so yeahs.) --over--3rd
shaistah+prem---they are the only couple existence till now(hope they take care of their prob now).
*the ending of the rship is in order

anyways, salihin and qarha was suppose to be written here but she wasnt that part of the clique.
the girls and her have big FIGHTS.
hahha. but she and sal are still ON till NOW. and we're fine with her now.
haha.

okay continuing!
haha.we had lunch.
then hajar started the whole make up fad.
so me and su babe started doing our faces.
haha.
kartik took pics here and there.
there are loads of pics taken lah.
but hajar's phone just have to suck in the last min.
she cant send the pic online.
haiz.
sowie ppl.
no pics for now.

anyways, like i was saying Salihin came.
so there were me, kartik, salihin and hajar.
we went for dinner at long john's.
(that's how long we were at food culture. from lunch to dinner time)
dear kartik paid for me the whole day out.
(thanks bro!)

anyways, reached home by 9plus or 10.
hmms.. no 9 plus.
then called Nurul as usual.
asswipe she ask how come nowadays i reach home so early.
haha.
well, i dont have a real curfew anymore so yeahs.
and i usually reach home after 12am.
haha.
but i guess i was too tired to stay out late these days.
and bored of coming home late.
haha.

wells anyways, i gtg.
today, me and my cousin are going to have the 2nd movie marathon!
haha.
got loads to watch.
he's coming over soon.
gtg bathe.
i woke up damn late lor.
haha.

-love love love-

was suppose to have a day out with four of the sisters today.
apparently, only two made it.
so we had a threesome(me, jen, belle)
to ling and hid, im still frowning!!!

anyways, we went to town (far east plaza there).
had lunch at Sakura and then i thought i saw Royce.
so i phoned him.
but it wasnt him.
coincidentally, he was making his way to town too.
then we met up with him.
hung out till 7plus.. yeahs.
he was with his friend Howard and later on Taffy(hope i aint wrong) joined us too.
oh yeahs, i bought a simple black pumps @ Trendy Zone.
cannot find something nice at anna nucci.
so yeahs, wandered elsewhere.
then i landed at Trendy Zone.
first time buying footwear there.
now i wonder if the pumps will last or not.
haha.

anyways, after today the three of us( me, jen and belle) are part of MONGUSTO.
basically, we get to party and hang out.
MIX, MINGLE AND GET DRUNK.
haha.
i will mix and mingle and get HALF drunk.
that's all.
im in the process of chucking the booze.
so yeahs.
and it will be bad to get drunk with jen.
haha.(winks)
our transport after each party will be paid for.
and the only work we gotta do is to sell and promote the party.
sher and crys are in it too.
wells, that will be cool.
-smiles-

now jen and i have to do the recruitment.
so anyone interested?
to PARTY and hang out?
btw, it isnt just about clubbing.
it's about EVENTS.
it can be anywhere else too.
-smiles-

anyways, we hung out with my cousin and his two guy frens, Bal and Naz.
we went to Esplanade and then went to 2hot cafe.
i met Bammy awhile.
he was at work today but he kinda took a chill to see me.
(so sweet right??)
haha.

anyways, to those party people.
THERE WILL BE A PARTY AT DXO.
AND I'LL BE SELLING TIX AT $16.
JUST GIMME A TAG OR MSG.
-SMILES-



----PICS OF THE DAY----

the newest year

the new year.

year 2007 at last!
a time to break free and to let bygones truly be bygones!
and im happy to proclaim that my old 'frenenemy' is my friend back!
im glad...
(jas... thanks a lot for having a new start:))
year 2006 is really an inspiration and sucha a good teacher to me.
masks, lies, denials... love, hugs, kisses...
i learnt it all.
i put lots of people before me and i realise that i didnt really do that to my family.
so as i restart, i want to try to place them before me.
and yes, im truly going to try that.
with my best no doubt.

oks.. the night of the new year's eve was really not that bad lah.
i had fun and i was tipsy.
there was a fight lah.
then the guy accidentally pushed me off.
and then he hit my mouth there.
apparently, my lip bled.
i spat out all the blood i could.
but no matter, i was angry at him.
accidental or not.
i cant give a damn lah.
but eventually, things got better and then went back to the worst.
gosh.
yat the mr soulman was not really into all this.
i could see his distaste and all of the things that is obvious to me.
to yat, im sorry.

anyways, good thang i didnt spend much money lah.
gosh.
i want my phone ASAP!
haha.
wells, to start the new year.
i just had to have an arguement with someONE!
jas knows who it is.
and apparently, he was further sarcastic when he found out that we were waiting for my ex.
it was my fault for letting it out but yeahs.
anyways, i had no idea why jas was waiting for that guy but in any sense we didnt go with him.
he went to zouk after work.
i was glad he was the one who distant himself.
cos seriously, i dont want what happened to farah happen to his girlfriend.
i dont want to be responsible to relationship breakdown!
hah.

but i still just want to be friends with him.
nothing more nothing less.
and im a good person so the girlfren wont need to worry abt anitin.
im sure daryl has moved on.
perfectly fine and well...
err yeahs.
me too.
haha. of course man!
i wouldnt be like with some other ppl if i havent.
my ppl shud know.
hahha.

anyways, sweetie!!!
happy new year!!!
and to my darling
happy new year!!!
haha.
and yeahs, my friends!!!
happy new year!!!