=)

plans has changed like crazy. lol
anyway, today wasn't jean and jan day... as of now, it has been postponed to wednesday(:
wednesday's plan of going to JB was dashed by the trio - cody, sandy and yihao
boohoo! was soo planning to have lunch there.

today i met mr bf... hehe
nice being with him today though...
and there went our abstinence of not seeing each other for a week (: lol
basically i think it's impossible..
(haiz... imagine a whole month when he goes back to lanka? -.-)
i'm still bothered about it. not having a good feel about him going.
let's see how it goes, months more to come till that arrives.

okayy.. so after the day with shenath(twas nice seeing him today:)
went to meet nurul at tampines. hehe
so totally missed her lah. finally we went out.
went to QIJI to eat... mee siam! haha nice meal and i bet her laksa looks more tempting after what i did to it...
*visualize nurul... you're good at it u naughty bitch. haha
(and no im not trying anymore stunts unless u try my stunt. hmph! :P)

well, im almost done with what im doing for shenath. yipee!
two more stuff to go and im done! hehe
i just hope that the last item is a success. lol
i hope he likes it tho... hehe
*shenath if ur reading this. pls be patient k, u'll know soon enough (:

to the rest of you blogders, i will be putting up what it is i have been up to.
after friday night.. hehe
okay. i want to go... tired from using the computer. haha

take care. nites

My 2nd October

today was alright.
i had science but i went off early.. due to external commitment...
i bet id get shit grade for today. i came late. why?

I LEFT MY WALLET in bus service 3 (route to punggol)
i had to change bus 88 for sengkang... then damn unlucky missed out my wallet.
damn it lah!

worst and greatest thing? the bus 88 is already in the expressway when i realize it's gone! lol
cant stop anywhere right? so i had to tell the driver my horrid situation.
lucky he gave me a free ticket for fare to punggol.
i had to chase bus 3 to punggol. (fingers were crossed all the way there)

called shenath straight away after my mishap.
he himself found it so way off... gosh
then called jan.. as usual he's late. so i thought i would go to school with him.
in the end he was very very late. so nvm... went to school alone after getting my wallet.
*to the one who returned my precious, thank you so much. may God bless! =))

so school was alright.. met shenath for the first break.
then came to class. my classmates were so surprise at the time i arrived. lol
but my team mates are great! they gave me work. hehe
i was in the backseat.. and i was enjoying it
later on in a while shenath left class for the hostel. he went to have his rest =))

and then i joined him.
then ah, i forgot one more thing!! my original external commitments.
lol end up having other plans.
spend time with bf and then to EXCO meeting. lol
to classmates... shhhh!!

now only i remember actually. lol
i told faci that i have to help out with some family stuff. lol
end up doing something else. shit. haha...
bet classmates wondering what is happening... tmr lunch time with them!
so can tell them... lol okay okay... but i didn't lie lah... :D

hmms anyway after spending time with bf, i went for EXCO meeting.
EXCO SUI! meeting... went on behalf of my manager so yeahs.
yawns. damn tired... then after that, finally spend time with JAN. haha
here are some pictures.. dont want to upload all.. im too tired.
so make do with five! =))








anyway, to boyfriend : sorry for making you pissed lah k.
didn't think it would bother you so much...
since it does, i wont have anything to do about it okay?
sorry... i love you.

Random|How come

i was looking ard my links blog.
saw renee's... was intrigued that she reads horoscope.

then i thought i should read my monthly too :)) kepo... hehe :P
after reading it, i didn't know what to think. lol
so much for reading it. but some parts are right, some are little bit whacked. =))



just now met up with nurul.
had dinner and i tell you, i seriously cannot believe that a murtabak can be HUGE.
HUMONGOUS, GIGANTIC, MASSIVE
whatever the vocab, the portion was super huge.
took a pic of it but it's still in nurul's phone. i shall upload when i get it from her.

anyway, i ate like 1/3 of it, the other parts are choked on and forced swallowed.
then i gave up eating... i had to take it away :))


salihin ramli came too.
syed salihin was late... he came later at around 8.30pm
salihin and nurul offering me ciggarette just now.
as a mere test i think ... hmms... they went saying... "you're bf wont know what"
lol i tried to call that idiot shenath, in the end he never pick up.
oh well not fated and i doubt he will let me lah...
i left when syed salihin came, i wasn't in the mood for socialising.

the brothers are considered dead to me! haiz
i dont know lah... whatever... it's just my emotions i think.
they're kinda useless ready... :(

i miss everyone tho... like how it used to be...
late night ventures, happening moments.
but then it's gone lah..

today shenath looked nice in the formal top =))
gosh i can melt seeing guys like that... hehe
so guys who want to get noticed... hehe please wear formal outfits. *melts*
okay okay. stop ranting... hehe *jean, you're attached* lol
anyway, shenath still takes the no. 1 spot eh heh? :D

before i signed off.

this is a song dedicated to my old peeps... haiz
the special ones :((

work | revelations

went to work yesterday - lemongrass thai restaurant (pasir ris branch)
it was damn packed.
there was a lot of work to do... my kind of thang.
i prefer doing something than just standing around...
when i came in for work i was a lil bit taken aback at the number of reserved seats.
then store manager said there is 95 pax reservations.
that is not counting the extra people those guest brought along with them.

it was a real nice semi cardio exercise :))
despite wearing a kebaya, i was feeling alright.
my shoes were a little bit slippery... i think i almost slipped in the kitchen entry for like 5 times.
wonderful.. lol

but i was a lil bit pissed at work too!
store manager suck the blood outa me. damn shithead lah
i hate it when someone gives imprecised directions/orders.
if he can tell it to me once, i will know it straight...
he DONT even know how to direct me to do things...
he just know how to give VAGUE directions... but whatever.. i hope i can avoid him most weekends. lol
cant help it... my aunt aint the owner anymore.. cant do anything but to do proper work.
haiz... but the best part? im getting pay very soon! yey

i have to save money though.

ive been spending a lot... actually i always spend a lot... haiz

i cant help it... but im alright with handling other's money... i just cant handle mine... at least not now...

i have to learn tho... for my future too...

talking about future.
last night, i was having a talk with my mum...
and it has made me set a long term goal. a wonderful goals in life...
but it would need a lot of me... i just hope i can do it.
after graduation, i shall have to test things to implement it.
as of now, i wont reveal it yet...
but it's about business... here in singapore and in the philippines.
i have enough back ups but i want to start with my capital together with parents' help.

i guess this is the way i can help my family gain what we have lost along the way in life.

life has taken a lot from us... failure after failure has reduced us to something that is not satisfactory to my eyes anymore.

with the talk i had with mum, i found out how important i am through connections.
i also found out who we are connected with.. and i found out how an important family has been run down by failures.
haha there are a lot of important people in my family actually.
now then my mum reveal to me...

i was wowed.
haha i aint going to say it here... i dont want to attract wrong events to me know =))

i know im important. that's it... =)) hehe

haloween and time management

haloween is upcoming and i still havent really decided whether to go or not
i mean i am thinking of all the possibilities.
laura says that the haloween bus still hasnt confirmed anything..
she will of course contact the i/c and i hope there really is
i mean $25/person bringing you in the most happening clubs around spore?
with free entry and free flow? =)) *heaven*



especiall to shenath, that idiot will go if there is free flow! haha
i just hope it will be damn happening...
well, so far i have thought about being a;
1. Gothic Fairy Princess

2. A vampire bride


and then i got attached... i thought about being...



and then shenath wanted to be zorro! so i might be elena...

anyway, i have a little big dilemma because i have to start saving doing my time management up a notch, i am very much eaten up with a lot things. hardly even have time to rest...
as of now...

i have
1. SUI! Operations DepartmentWelfare section
2. Institue-Varsity-Polytechnic Sports Reporting Crew Job
3. Social Circle
4. Boyfriend
5. Sleep

this is in random order...
but the boyfriend part is in my priority list but he will be a little bit inactive as we will both be busy doing our own things.
see how we have discipline! =))

anyway, i hope i will get around to joining laura and the rest. =))
it's going to be fun filled joy and laughter... lol

anyway, if you people out there would want to come and join us, let me know.
also, if you have any suggestion for any couples haloween costume get-ups, let me know...
call me, sms me, email me... and tag me if you want. but email me (as usual) is better... hehe
or you can find me in MSN, friendster... whatever... =))

toodles!

Schedules

hectic is the word for today
i cut class but it seems as if i even benefitted from it
usually when i do so, i actually chill out and have fun
in the day's case, i was running around madly...
oh and please hold your horses in the imagination side, im not going mad or anything!
im very much mentally fine, just a little bit untuned but im alright =))

anyway, today i finally got my computer reformatted
IT help desk was really worth it when you come to RP
whatever happens to your laptop - in terms of system down - you can get it fixed, re-fixed - whatever =))
this is one of the things i appreciate in school
okay well, shenath gave me the key to his hostel so apparently i am able to get some rest, of which i didn't even have time to do so!
so in the end i waited for him...
this week i must say, it's like a shenath-jean fiesta...
the last three days... today's the fourth...
i have been spending like 90% of my time non-class period time with him.

anyway, i really hope jan rick mascarina isn't going to hate me
he himself is very busy actually...
**wish you all the best for your entrepenuership stuff!**
then my so-called clique - me, cody, sandy, yihao, vanessa - are like out of touch
when they want to meet up, i have to refuse, then they will complain...
and then when i have the time, they neglect THAT time...
haiz... very hard lah. i dont really want to make a big fuss but i hate it when people say that i have neglected important friends.
i never chose to do that okay...
my boyfriend isn't that type of person who wont understand if i need my own time...
so please people, i dont need anyone telling me that i have been a very bad friend.
i juggle whatever i can... family, friends, boyfriend(s), school, work, social events, whatever...
i just hope you all can understand that i am very limited as i have only been blessed with one body.
i promise here with my blogders as my witness that i will make time for every important people who deserve more of me.
but please try to consider my limitations...
thank you

anyway, ling darling... it isn't intentional that i didn't tell you about sisters meetings...
i smsed you're hp but you have already changed it... of which i only got to find out last night when you smsed me goodnight... so im sorry if it has seemed that way.
apparently, nurul cancelled on me on the last minute, hajar's granny passed away and she isn't in the mood, plus she's working.
hidayah is the ONLY one who didn't even respond! please read this please read this - hehe
i feel very much detached from all those special people in my life...
even jan seemed to be so detached...
i wake him up whenever i can via calls, but that's all i can do... he seems so out and about, without anymore consultations from me..
but i know he's still there... im not worried... that bitch needs me... =)) haha
anyway, to all my friends, please dont ever detach yourself from me, no matter how much you think i neglect you.
I DONT... i am genuinely busy... even me and my boyfriend have to schedule our meetings.
i really hope ya'll understand!

to those affected... im so sorry.
i'll make it up to you all....

monday 1/10/07 - nurul
tuesday 2/10/07 - 5/10/07 = still up for booking okay
wednesday 3/10/07 - SUI! photoshoot/videoshoot and boyfriend

anything call me beforehand okay.
thank you

Something some people need to know

no we have not broken up
and no im not gonna give up
unless he wants to
im not letting go
unless it's impossible
it's just probable

you can say what you want
say we wont last for a month
i dont give a damn
cos im holding on my man
but if he choose to let things go
id just sadly let it be so

Rude Awakening

Do you ever have that dream
Where you're walking naked down the street
And everyone just stares
Do you ever feel so deep
That you speak your mind
To put others straight to sleep
You wonder if anybody cares
Sometimes I think I'm the only one
Whose day turned out unlike it had begun

And I feel bare naked
And I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded
No I just can't fake it anymore
cause I'm bare naked
And i know life's what you make it
Wish I could float away
To some other day

Do You ever go downstairs to start your day
But your car's not there
Yeah you know the joke's on you
You ever try your luck with a pickup line
But you just sucked
You tell yourself it wasn't you
And I know it's hard to hold it inside
It's days like these I run and hide

When I feel bare naked
And I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded
No I just can't fake it anymore
Cause I'm bare naked
And I know life's what you make it
Wish I could float away
To some other day

It's all a state of mind
But I don't mind trying to find a way
To keep my head above the mess I make
What the world creates
Sometimes it feels so good to let it all fall
As the world fall
I may fall
We all may fall
And then the world comes tumbling
Down down down down down

I'm bare naked
And I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded
No I just can't fake it anymore
Cause I'm bare naked
And I know life's what you make it
Wish I could float away
To some other day

When I feel
I feel (bare naked)
You feel
We all feel
Yeah no no no

My tea's gone cold, i'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there,
They'll all imply that I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad
It's not so bad and

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

Push the door,
I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and through
Then you handed me a towel and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down now
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me

And I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

I FINALLY KNEW

it has to lay on us
the sides of relationships that i hate
i brought it to us
i ended such a happy love
but im at my weakest point now
all i needed was for your shoulders, your hands, your arms
your compassion to feel and understand me

me and myself have things going on
there are things that i've yet to deal
it does not say i dont love you anymore
it's a mere wait
a wait that is up to you to take

there are things we said
things that we're meant to be said
but it is said anyway
the unhappiness crashes in
the warmth turned to cold
but my love for you is deep
now this i know

and that's what i really want to know
i guess i have found out
in the most painful way
as a tear drop when you held me
i knew im really loving you

as another set of tears drop for making us this way
i know im really loving you
then as emotions overwhelm me
i know i am really loving you
and as you said somethings that hurt
of which you didn't think it didn't
i felt the ache,
and then i know im really loving you

that's all to say for now
if things do work
or even if it didn't; nothing matters
cause i know i really do love you
that's all there is
there isn't anymore

day out

i like these.. the start of the beauty of sunset






yesterday i went out
spent the whole day and early night at vivo and sentosa
original plan was to go see fort canning park
but we en route to vivo

i met shenath first
got 20mins late and he was so moody
a hungry man is an angry man...
when we finally met, all there was between us was eye contact and i was trying to comfort him.
i dont know if that was enough. i dont know how to approach a moody guy
so anyway, we didn't talk until marriot exit from orchard mrt
shithead really. so i was like fine... let him cool down
then before turning to the escalator, i was DRAGGED by the rugger
and my toe got slammed on the jag of the escalator... the skin got peeled off and i was semi bleeding...
i just shut up and i didnt talk much...
at far east i tried to console him again, but it went wasted...
so yeahs... i continued to just shut up. so much for trying anyway...

anyway, i didn't pay any mind to him anymore up till he started any conversation
so he did and i responded when i have to.
you sisters would know if im pissed i talk less...
later on i saw people giving out balloons, went crazy and i felt a lil bit better when i got one
the power of the balloons! =))

anyway, at plaza singapura where we walked from far east, he gave me a tight hug of reconciliation.
but i dont know, i still felt a bit reluctant.
i guess it was the exhaustion and the shocked i got from the way i got 'dragged'
hmm i never will know.. but it lasted till the night... and i was sooo damn tired.

shenath and i went out with dilan and tharaka
dilan is shenath's closest friend and gay buddy,
and tharaka is dilan's all-time girlfriend... they're practically married...

met them at plaza singapura and we traveled to harbourfront (vivo)
we were at the level3 all through
playing with the water and then to hogs breath cafe
to have some drink... thats it...
spent my last bucks there.. of which i really dont know how i manage to spend my $90 at one go...
... for transport and i dont know the rest.
i didn't spend anything yesterday apart from the cafe...
so yeahs... bet the rest went to other things and transport
i hate mrt fares.. so expensive.. haha

whatever it is i did enjoy my holidays.
problem now is when school reopen..
i will be damn busy again...
i dont know if i will have time for boyfriend still but im sure i will find the time...
i have to... dont want to neglect him now right...

anyway, i would like to show you the beauty of the sun set.
i love it... also, i have pictures for you to see of yesterday...

here goes...

me and him

thara and dilan


random


thara and dilan


hog's breath cafe - nice chill out place

our self-portrait



his hugs are always tight
ooops

the water couple - me and shenath stayed most dry

he's wet at the wrong places

and so is she... haha
the siloso beach changed a lot =((

arabian prince wannabe

my arabian and i
who's that girl...?

Book Review

i have filled my two weeks reading a trilogy by Trudi Canavan
i borrowed it paying no mind to who the hell is the writer and it's title.
but after sometimes, i grew fond of its story.
i like the story that portrays the innocence of the main character.
im amazed at how she list out different accounts of different character without giving her reader confusion.
she made a world that overwhelmed me and penetrated my imaginations.
it is wonderful...

book1

book2

book3

there is a sequel THE TRAITOR SPY TRILOGY...
i just hope that the sequel is available in singapore.

but anyway, the book3 of the Black Magician's Trilogy is so heart warming.
so nice and so unpredictable...
the story is nice for me. maybe you people want to check it out.
i have no particular book genre to follow, i just read whatever there is.
i think it's cos of my love for books...
i just read whatever =))

anyway, it's getting late.
i have early day in school tomorrow! =))

Feeding your eyes

lets feed your eyes with pictures from my day out with the boyfriend.
to celebrate our anniversary of which we had totally forgotten to wish each other, due to the fun we were having so much, we head down to Singapore Botanic Gardens.


i had feared that it would not go as i have envisioned it to be.
then it proved me wrong as the day went along... it was significantly better...
to top it up, we ended the day very much satisfied and obvious raving happy.

the boyfriend was having some moods, but soon it was forgotten as our day progressed and ended. he felt ludicrous having mood swings... haha

anyway, to those lovers out there, i must say, you got to go and visit the Singapore Botanic Gardens.
to look around, walk around and even to have your non-existence heart-to-heart chats in the midst of your busy schedule...
also, do look out for more places of love-interest... next week, shenath and i will go for another long day! hehe

so here they are....

take a look at this face, this is a fresh one at the start of the day... haha

this is the first pic i took when i came into the Garden

then the boyfriend had his candid shot...

the swan lake. the swans only came out at dusk. weird. haha

this is one of the lil members in the swan lake.


pissed with the sun
bf trying to pose to show a sundial - unsuccessful!

sundial garden

cactus area


passing of knowledge in the cactus area


dont know why the bf posed like this. haha



big DOGS.

'lady on the hammock'

some plants bf went gaga over



'reach for the ball..' fruit no doubt




wood carving or was it stone...? hmms

love this pic that bf took. fat tho! haha









this is the last pic i took at SBG - with reddish eyes and exhausted face
at esplanade
St Andrew's Cathedral

okay, i think everything is over.
everyone has fed their eyes and so it will be done and concluded.

before i end,however, i must say the end of the day was dampened by the comments and thoughts of my friends on my love life.
this is something i take seriously because like the love of my life currently, my friends hold significant ranks too.

in a matter of few words, however, the bf and i had talked about this.
and like what i told that particular friend, let time spin its tale... our tale... me and shenath...

thank you for concerning this matter very heavily.
i appreciate everything you did and will do for me.

and to the boyfriend, you know what matters most right..
so im glad to have you.
so far, we're still good together...
the day was fantastic! =))

okay out!
muahs