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i was cursing an swearing just awhile ago and now im finally in BLOGGER!
i think i typed in my google account address and the final correct password and it rejected me.
then i have to refresh the url and all those and finally, with a last growl, im in and typing away.

photobucket bulk upload is a wonder.
of course with proper connection speed, otherwise, it will just kick the bucket.
i've uploaded 77 of the overdue pictures that u blogders will be seeing =)

but before that happens, i would like to just 'briefly' share with you the major news last night.

SHENATH THOMAS DIAS
and my mum has finally met

the outcome? it was alright, mum has said some remarks and some nice ones too =)
phew... it was very intense for him... and of course for me.
my goodness.

shenath and nurul finally saw my baby brother.. hehe
then i have to seem like a mother in public! ahhhhh! major.. cos mum went to the ladies and i was to take care of isaac!
and then me, shenath and the baby took pics.. and it felt soo weird. LOL
NO IM NOT UPLOADING THAT =)
and nurul u better not upload that okay.. okay maybe i will... =)

okay, so far this week, i have met my sisters and of course spent time with jan and jo...
MY GOSH... u never guess how much itched me and shenath went through early this week and im glad it was over and now we are more crazy than ever =)
it just gets better after every fight...

people who are in a rship.. there is two advice i want to you consider taking.
first of all, always remember that fights, misunderstandings and quarrels are a part of our lives.
so here it is...
1. talk about your problems when ur both cooled down
2. always exclude external problems/parties and always focus on the two of you ONLY
3. make out after that... LOL

okay it's suppose to be 2 then it comes up to three. lol

okay enough of this... pictures!!

uploading has been delayed =)

but im sad to tell u im not uploading all 77 pics... sorry

Tuesday
^me and jo camwhoring
^isnt this nice? this is not photoshop-ed.
^ =)
^jo and jean
^reflect us
^we are in the red ball
^on the way to school... late for test... cabbing. =)
^still in the cab.. camwhoring
^camwhoring
^jo looks too indon... lol
^jan crying cos he didnt have time to do his hair... retardo
^camwhore
^introducing HALO-HALO - filipino dessert


^camwhores
^NICE VERSE 1
^AT ZARA
^at art gallery

^ CHRISTMAS angels =)





tuesday ended quite great =)
shenaht and i finally started being more great with each other...
we realise that what matters was not the external stuff that can come up.
on tuesday, i realise also that despite ur best guy fren and ur boyfriend not being on any good terms, it doesnt mean that your relationship with either one should go down the drain...
and im glad jan understands... and im also glad that shenath let me keep my friendship with jan.

^wednesday - after school, slacking with bf at agora (school)
^Thursday - IT helpdesk NICE VERSE 2
^Town with jaja and hid



^crazy sister 1
^crazy sister 2
^camwhore me
^love them both
^FRIDAY- town - the TREE =) the night shenath and mum met
^the sister

^the brother
^wonder who this is...


the end.. of pictures =)

p.s. im going to quit fnb line soon...
starting out at retail line.. =) botique...!
PATTERNS here i come

=)

some lesson i had today.
i officially slacked today...usually my slack today wasnt the slack i usually do.
when i slack i usually still have a good outcome.
today... im typing these while having the team presentation.
RP-ians... you all should know how slack is that... -.-

anyway, today's ryan ashley pereira's birthday...
"happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to ryan, happy birthday to you...!!"
**this is two of our old pics lol


all-time brother ass... haha someone's 18 already. finally eh?
no need to do anything illegal anymore! =D
anyway, long time no see also. dont have the time anymore.. school's too far. lol
and end too late.

NEXT WEEK! finally holiday.
shenath will be working the whole week except friday and sunday.
dont think we'll be meeting up tho... lets see
maybe i will go for lady's night... fyzah, wanna join? =)
shenath wont be able to join me for this holiday... see my mood also...
but i want to spend my holiday weekdays to catch up with all my all-time darlings...
also, i want to have some alone time.. shall go for a lonely spa...
and catch up with jan rick oso... shall keep friday free tho just in case shenath decided to meet up =)

anyway, photoshop madness is still very very fresh.
today i did... (at least i helped..)
transformed from this...


more to come!!
plus! my class is going ALL BLACK FOR HALLOWEEN-Y TOMORROW!!
yeye.. and ALSO... my class is nuts about photoshop too!! wahaha!!!

okay gtg...


somehow still emotionally emotionless.
he's still in that kind of phase. dont know...
i know the difference when he's not happy at all.
no matter how normal he tries, i still can feel the difference.
dont know.. it made me feel as if all i did was purely under my full INTENTIONS.
im waiting for him to get over this... dont know when...
hope it wont take too long cos i really dont want to responsible for my weakness to overcome me.
nvm. i shall just pretend to live in my sugar-coated world where no one is to be blame...
and i shall just close my perceptions over him... being to receptive is some how not such a good thing.
being like this makes every lil thing obvious... it's like im a magnifying glass.
hmm... and no im not going to do anything stupid in this phase.
i dont want things to turn sour for us. i wanna strive for a happy love life...
had too much shit before..i hope he can at least learn to F&F with me... (forgive and forget)

the day of photoshopping

before i hit the sack and enter slumberland, hopefully in peace...
i would like to post! these....

i must admit!!!!!i did this picture on photoshop... ultimate newbie really... lol
i cant believe that i have wasted years of my life not knowing the fun in photoshop!
i only knew that i changed my features with kumar! thanks to jan.
dont know if he still have that pic tho... lol

today, had enterprise... damn boring really.. but my team was rocking!
first time in a month... i was in an all girl team.
michelle, wan, fatin, fit and yours truly...
damn fun lor... plus... as i have always wanted, FATIN AND WAN in my team. lol
so totally madness.
at first made me feel so weird cos i didn't know that we really will end up in the same team. lol
plus, wan and fatin are another sets of out-there people.
so afraid three of us will end up having girl fights. lol
but all good... and we had NEW YORK CHOCO CHUNKS (ben&jerry's)
$11 for a pint =)) nice!! yum yum

also, during class was laughing madly at what shenath sent.... err try to read lah k. lol


*click to enlarge
okay. another photoshop madness. lol so newbie!!
fit and i are soo newbie... fatin is sooo great in it lor! damn nice lah her collection
see her work at... FATIN@DEVIANTART **click to link


this pic was under the supervision of Fit. lol
anyway... THIS NOV 3...
FIT AND HER BAND WILL BE HAVING A GIG @ DXO.
ticket price at $10!
dont know her band name tho... but this gig will house singapore bands and more! so rock on singapore!
alif, another gig-er, told me that IT WILL BE SAFE!
mosh-ing is limited... =)) i dont know if that's a good thing, but sounds good...
head-banging is so last century for me... my neck officially needs rejuvenation!

so people... those youngsters who still see this gigs.. get ur tickets at DXO? lol
i dont know... hurry! before the tickets run out. =)

i want to sleep now.
good night people!


words to say i love you.
envelope me in your arms,
coat me with all the sugar coated-ness of your love
hide me away from every harmful side of love
forgive me for everything im not...
for my love, you know id try to always give you everything i can...
that's how much im beginning to love you. muacks!

To my friends.

today was super major emotional day.
not fer me directly but i serious feel sympathy for natalie and of course jan.
both about break-ups and letting go.

and yes... jan has broken up with his other half.
fucktard... haiz jan dear im here for you k
and so am i with nat... muacks!

anw, i wish those who are in the rocks, i want you to know that you'd see light at the end of the tunnel.
no one can escape these emotional torments.
it's okay to be damn sad, it wont make you any weaker just cos ur crying.
if ur uncomfy about crying, do it yourself when ur all alone. =))
or cry with someone who you know you will be just there to comfort you.

everything will fall to place.. =))
i shall pray for my friends who are poor in their spirits...
but i would like to share with you a verse from the bible and im sure from quran too...
just dont know lah...
but this is the verse that i know helped me in pulling through my tough time =))

“Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.” (Matt. 5:3–11)

pride&prejudice

last but not least..

im just soo in love with Pride and Prejudice. great story noe... =))

wanna watch it again! hehe

A nice day

wanted to sleep but decided to post.

today.

spent time with hidayah, mira and shenath at bukit gombak stadium.
it was the IVP (institute-varsity-poly) track and field competition today.
was on duty as the photographer but i didnt do much of a work,
besides taking pictures of hidayah's hair at every angle.

it was really nice to see the two.
yesterday meeting ling, who now goes by the name sake, LYN, was really nice.
at least she did not started to have arguments with my bf like some sister name hidayah. lol
so the two of them were going at it, debating, cursing and shooting down each other.
poor mira and i were like the boundaries between palestine and israel! omg

as obvious at it may seem, hidayah enjoys debating with shenath.
almost about every nonsensical detail! lol
hidayah also says things about me that is so not hearing-friendly for bfs. lol
oh well whatever.

love them both.
cant be bothered with their debates. lol

shenath was sad as he wasnt able to run his events.
at the high hope of the track and field team on him, it is obvious my darling dude is so capable of winning.
he's just outa athletics shape and his rugby injury hinders training for the heats.
so sad, but at least i made his day! =))
phew.. today was really a nice day for us.

at bukit gombak, we saw a very nice place for couples.
it was really awesome to come to think about it.
i never thought such a place could exist in that kind of place.
anyway, shenath and i will be going back to that place soon.
we will be awaiting the school holidays for a heart-to-heart talk again.
maybe pictures will be up! =))
then i can show you the place i have found with him.

anyway, i have come to terms with my heart and mind.
i feel that the fights that shenath and i has went through has come as a rude awakening.
for me and as well as him.
shows how much we grew complacent.
being always happy in the relationship is not a good sign but being always strained is a nightmare.

anyway, our first quarter is arriving.
kinda important actually.
to me that is...

well, i have talked too much.
i need sleep!
good nite blogders!

fights?

so lately me and shenath has been coming after each other's blood.
worst scenario ever? he will think the worst of me and i will think the worst of him.
but so far, im still faithful and i dont intend to ruin this.
just that recently my bitchy shit on him is up a notch. lol
poor bf... but actually somehow both our actions nurture the pest of an argument. lol

i hate to really fight with him, but i dont know why every lil small thing seem to itch me up the wrong way.
okay this week we quarelled like 2-3 days.. kinda gotten better yesterday then again today.
but at least we didnt end our week staying mad at each other. phew!
okay all this fights are making me sooo demoralised but phew! we do solve it everyday, then start a fresh one the next day. lol
we better work some thing out here... hmm we are approaching our first quarter in the rship.
i dont know what the future holds fer us but i want to make things work.
he wants to make things work... and he's confident we can be good... i have faith in him.
i just hope everything will be fine.

jan said, no point planning anything cos planning a rship just dont work...
i know... so i trust that... whatever happens will happen.
after reconciling with him, we have both come to an understanding not wanting to see each other freaking pissed.
i wont do anything that will piss him, i hope i at least manage to...
he himself has promised. im sure he will keep to it.
at least for a long run. lol guys are always assholes. but it takes a good one to not a an asshole.
i think i have a good ONE with me.

i love you darling...
i was lost and trapped when you found me...
you gave me a little of everything, and then ur giving me all...
i give you a little of my everything but im still afraid to give you the best of me...
no matter what happens, i wont regret loving you.
tho i may have second thoughts about us, i will always try to work it out...
you can always be sure that i will try harder next time for you.
thank you for loving me despite the short duration that we have known each other.
once again, i love you. muacks!

to all my blogders, sorry! hahaha was too mushy mushy in this post. nvm
anw, i need to turn in now. muahs!
take care!!!

anyway wanna share with you my all-time favourite story! haha
pride and prejudice.
with the song... bbmak - ghost of you and me... sooo nice!

QUIZZES

All these quizzes as follows are taken by me with careful thoughts and with a high level of honesty. Have fun! =))

Your Passion is Purple

Sophisticated and classy, you're a bit picky about sex. You're more likely to be turned on by a fancy hotel room than a dirty flick. Sex is fine enough, as long as it doesn't mess up your hair. For you, sex is more about power and favors than actually pleasure.

What Color Is Your Passion?

*dont understand the last sentence.. nvm.

Your Birthdate: August 23

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong. You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

** woah... 3 true loves? wow =)) IF ID ONLY HAVE MY HEART BROKEN ONCE, wow, im safe with shenath this time around.. I HOPE! lol *crosses fingers*

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Marquise Diamond!

Like most Marquise diamond wearers, you are sexy and impulsive. You're also good at getting what you want in life, no matter what it is. You tend to be successful at love, your career, and anything else you desire. Think Victoria Beckham and Catherine Zeta Jones: proud wearers of this ring!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

**so to GUYS who think of marrying me.. hehe you know what to get... *ermz, esp goes to bf* lol

Your Aura is Yellow

You're a deeply happy and content person, and you enjoy sharing your cheer with others. While you may seem like a simple optimist, there is a lot of thinking going on inside you. The purpose of your life: bringing joy and a better life to others Famous yellows include: Conan O'Brien, Jenny Mccarthy, Jim Carrey Careers for you to try: Athlete, Actor, Yoga Instructor

What Color Is Your Aura?

*ATHLETE? you got to be kidding me!!

Your Deadly Sins

Pride: 100% Greed: 80% Envy: 60% Gluttony: 60% Lust: 40% Sloth: 40% Wrath: 40% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 60% You will become famous - and subsequently killed by a stalker.

How Sinful Are You?

*60% chance of going to hell. wow... haha shit! help.. lol

You Were Naughty This Year

You Were 70% Naughty, 30% Nice You may not have been good this year... But you sure had a really good time. And nothing from Santa could top that!

Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?

* at least only 70%... hehe! =))

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

** and i thought im up for fooling around... lol i guess what was my past. hehe

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

*WOAH... i swear i didn't have the power to adjust this quiz... SHENATH is CANCER! lol

Your Heart is Feeling Safe

Right now, all is good with your heart. And you intend on keeping it that way. Whether you're deeply in love or just looking, you know that your heart will be taken care of. You never risk your heart too much, but you don't hold it back either. You know who to trust your heart with. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little too comfortable Your current outlook on love: Calm and future oriented Your love life will improve if you: Treat other people's hearts the way you expect yours to be treated Watch out for: Taking the people you're dating for granted

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

*must be cos shenath is taking care of it great. =))

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

** professional gf? i didnt think so... hehe... =))

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are powerful, passionate, and dominant. You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen. People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many. Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions. So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few. However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

**hmms kinda true...

Your Passion is Red!

You've got that spark - a good dose of intensity, power, and determination. You do whatever you want in life ... to hell with what anyone thinks! With so many interests and loves, you're always running around doing something new. You have fire in your eyes, and it shows. Bet you're even wearing something red!

What Type of Passionate Woman Are You?

** yeah, i am wearing something red... lol

You Are an Intense Kisser

When you kiss, it's deep and powerful You don't take kissing lightly Your kisses always have meaning And they always make your head spin

What's Your Kissing Style?

**lol. really? sexay...

You Are 90% Psychic

You are so very psychic. But you already predicted that, didn't you? You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others. You're very tapped into the world around you... Just make sure to use your powers for good!

Are You Psychic?

** WATCH out everyone! lol

Virgo - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're incredibly thoughtful and able to give your partner what they need most. You are totally logical. You can deal with problems without involving your emotions. A good work ethic. You'll do whatever it takes (within reason) to make your relationship work. Your negative traits: Sometimes you are so focused on your goals that you let your relationships suffer You tend to be a perfectionist - and expect perfection from your mate as well You are picky. So picky that you rather be single than with someone who has a few minor faults. Your ideal partner: Values success in life as much as you do Fits a checklist of qualities you've been looking for since childhood Like you, is more practical and realistic than romantic Your dating style: Active. You're a bit hyper, so you'd prefer a date that involved rollerblading in the park or hiking. Your seduction style: You may seem a bit shy, but once you open up to someone - you're totally uninhibited You like to set the scene first - candles, music, nice sheets A bit obsessed with cleanliness, you may want to shower first with your love Tips for the future: Soften up a little. Vulnerability is sexy - and feels great over time. Lower your standards a little. Look past a messy desk or someone being five minutes late. Praise your partner more. You make expect them to be successful, but complements are still appreciated. Best color to attract mate: Navy blue Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

** lol hehe... i think so ah.. haha but i think i have already implemented the tips for the future..

=))

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

**cool.. anyone thinks differently?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

** hmms nice quiz eh? :))

He's a Great Boyfriend

You guy definitely loves you and knows how to treat you right. You have a five star boyfriend - so make sure you treat him right too!

Is He a Good Boyfriend?

** the last but not least.. hehe woah.. cool ah... GREAT BF. hmmss.. =))