stupidity much

totally shithead...
made another mistake..
uh oh... haiz... sry darling.. it wont happen again. promise.
stupid lor... kate me ngan dier dah okay, beh i add lagik satu..
punye bengs. ugh >=|


but anyhoo...


darling, im sorry if i made you feel like that okay.
i dont know what it was that made you feel as such.
im waiting for tmr to know what it was really.
thank you for explaining and thank you for reconciling with me.
and im sorry for another round of freaking shit i have to throw at you.
so so so sorry... super sorry.
dont know whether to laugh at myself or to roll around madly or something.
uggh! but anyhoo, even tho it was bad timing, i just had to tell you straight away.
was afraid if i tell you way later, you'd get a wrong idea again. that's my intention.
but too bad it went on the wrong timing! for the last time, sorry.
i love you!

okay. i re-posted this post to put these!
i just finished making these! =))

=)

some lesson i had today.
i officially slacked today...usually my slack today wasnt the slack i usually do.
when i slack i usually still have a good outcome.
today... im typing these while having the team presentation.
RP-ians... you all should know how slack is that... -.-

anyway, today's ryan ashley pereira's birthday...
"happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to ryan, happy birthday to you...!!"
**this is two of our old pics lol


all-time brother ass... haha someone's 18 already. finally eh?
no need to do anything illegal anymore! =D
anyway, long time no see also. dont have the time anymore.. school's too far. lol
and end too late.

NEXT WEEK! finally holiday.
shenath will be working the whole week except friday and sunday.
dont think we'll be meeting up tho... lets see
maybe i will go for lady's night... fyzah, wanna join? =)
shenath wont be able to join me for this holiday... see my mood also...
but i want to spend my holiday weekdays to catch up with all my all-time darlings...
also, i want to have some alone time.. shall go for a lonely spa...
and catch up with jan rick oso... shall keep friday free tho just in case shenath decided to meet up =)

anyway, photoshop madness is still very very fresh.
today i did... (at least i helped..)
transformed from this...


more to come!!
plus! my class is going ALL BLACK FOR HALLOWEEN-Y TOMORROW!!
yeye.. and ALSO... my class is nuts about photoshop too!! wahaha!!!

okay gtg...


somehow still emotionally emotionless.
he's still in that kind of phase. dont know...
i know the difference when he's not happy at all.
no matter how normal he tries, i still can feel the difference.
dont know.. it made me feel as if all i did was purely under my full INTENTIONS.
im waiting for him to get over this... dont know when...
hope it wont take too long cos i really dont want to responsible for my weakness to overcome me.
nvm. i shall just pretend to live in my sugar-coated world where no one is to be blame...
and i shall just close my perceptions over him... being to receptive is some how not such a good thing.
being like this makes every lil thing obvious... it's like im a magnifying glass.
hmm... and no im not going to do anything stupid in this phase.
i dont want things to turn sour for us. i wanna strive for a happy love life...
had too much shit before..i hope he can at least learn to F&F with me... (forgive and forget)

the day of photoshopping

before i hit the sack and enter slumberland, hopefully in peace...
i would like to post! these....

i must admit!!!!!i did this picture on photoshop... ultimate newbie really... lol
i cant believe that i have wasted years of my life not knowing the fun in photoshop!
i only knew that i changed my features with kumar! thanks to jan.
dont know if he still have that pic tho... lol

today, had enterprise... damn boring really.. but my team was rocking!
first time in a month... i was in an all girl team.
michelle, wan, fatin, fit and yours truly...
damn fun lor... plus... as i have always wanted, FATIN AND WAN in my team. lol
so totally madness.
at first made me feel so weird cos i didn't know that we really will end up in the same team. lol
plus, wan and fatin are another sets of out-there people.
so afraid three of us will end up having girl fights. lol
but all good... and we had NEW YORK CHOCO CHUNKS (ben&jerry's)
$11 for a pint =)) nice!! yum yum

also, during class was laughing madly at what shenath sent.... err try to read lah k. lol


*click to enlarge
okay. another photoshop madness. lol so newbie!!
fit and i are soo newbie... fatin is sooo great in it lor! damn nice lah her collection
see her work at... FATIN@DEVIANTART **click to link


this pic was under the supervision of Fit. lol
anyway... THIS NOV 3...
FIT AND HER BAND WILL BE HAVING A GIG @ DXO.
ticket price at $10!
dont know her band name tho... but this gig will house singapore bands and more! so rock on singapore!
alif, another gig-er, told me that IT WILL BE SAFE!
mosh-ing is limited... =)) i dont know if that's a good thing, but sounds good...
head-banging is so last century for me... my neck officially needs rejuvenation!

so people... those youngsters who still see this gigs.. get ur tickets at DXO? lol
i dont know... hurry! before the tickets run out. =)

i want to sleep now.
good night people!


words to say i love you.
envelope me in your arms,
coat me with all the sugar coated-ness of your love
hide me away from every harmful side of love
forgive me for everything im not...
for my love, you know id try to always give you everything i can...
that's how much im beginning to love you. muacks!

restless

work wasnt as bad as i have expected.
that supervisor didn't come after me... phew..
supposedly im to be in bed now... sleeping.
but im feeling restless so instead im here typing for my blogders to see my inability to get proper sleep.
im always restless in bed. either cant sleep or i would wake up in the middle of the night! lol
cant be helped... i think i can say that my longest sleep of 16hr only happened one day this year.
hmm the second longest was 12hr - NONSTOP.
full 12hr i manage to sleep... lol

okay. tmr will be enterprise module...
then i will end the day with shenath...
been spending loads of time with him lately.
hmms i hope we wont get sick of each other for meeting too much. lol
today, missed out in jalan raya-ing with the peeps! =(
cant go people, working!
i hope they had fun...im sure they did -.-
tmr i need to claim a very very very long hug from the bf.
work today was tiring but at the most manageable.

anyway, i want to go now...
the sand man is calling me now... yeah hey.
sleeping time! nights.

p.s. the song apologize is soo addictive.
very nicely put too =) and yep.. it's too late... (i need to sleep) lol

yet another post

been long since i have really posted at all

school is getting better presumably at the least... im being a lil bit more intact
shenath and i are not really skipping much of the meetings anymore...
will try to keep it at that... i think both of us have reached the max time that we can skip.

anyway, yesterday went to bukit gombak again =)
shenath ran.
the relay baton passes suck big time for rp.
shenath went fast but to no avail his injury hindered his speed. plus the baton passes from the second to third went off beat. the first runner's pass was great and so was the start of the second runner.
shenath was the last runner. the competition was awesome no doubt.
even shenath knew his standards went down completely -.-
he's torn between two sports so what else to expect?
and now after ivp track and field, rugby will be his sports priority
i hope he dont get injured this times... lol

friday he will have match... *crosses fingers*
anyway, work will start soon. dont really know how i'll do today...
lately i have been getting so strained there... wana kill the supervisor. madnes...
mum was telling me to stop working. lol let's see...

**wanna upload pictures but photobucket has kicked the bucket today. shit
till next time then!!

To my friends.

today was super major emotional day.
not fer me directly but i serious feel sympathy for natalie and of course jan.
both about break-ups and letting go.

and yes... jan has broken up with his other half.
fucktard... haiz jan dear im here for you k
and so am i with nat... muacks!

anw, i wish those who are in the rocks, i want you to know that you'd see light at the end of the tunnel.
no one can escape these emotional torments.
it's okay to be damn sad, it wont make you any weaker just cos ur crying.
if ur uncomfy about crying, do it yourself when ur all alone. =))
or cry with someone who you know you will be just there to comfort you.

everything will fall to place.. =))
i shall pray for my friends who are poor in their spirits...
but i would like to share with you a verse from the bible and im sure from quran too...
just dont know lah...
but this is the verse that i know helped me in pulling through my tough time =))

“Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.” (Matt. 5:3–11)

thank you

today my day was so bad.
so was my night at work yesterday!
it was super duper horrible. dont wanna and cant say anything more..
leaving it as that.

yesterday night was super sick too =(
then it extended till today.
im still kinda sick actually =((
today needed shenath badly and im glad he came over to the east side.
made my day very nice.

we hung out at sunplaza park.
we stayed at a shelter there, joking and kidding around.
cant even kiss my boyfriend properly =( dont want him to get my flu+fever see
but anyhoo, need to take care of my health more.
been very bad lately, the day at work made it worst really.
the period made it more horrible and of course mum's nagging -.- lol

at sunplaza, we ended up playing with the swings. lol
i still enjoy the swings. later shenath pushed me on the swing
and i was like so happy like a small kid. lol
deprived of proper childhood, poor me.

later we were climbing some huge crocodile there.
then he was complaining he lost his sense of balance. haha
so wanted to kiss him.. :( knew he wanted to, but too bad. haha discipline eh? ;)
we spent our day chatting and poking fun at each other basically.
so sweet of him to come find me today...
darling, thanks for making my day tho in a very irritating way k. haha =)

anw, i will be taking part in YA club's captain ball competition.
SUI! sent two teams for this competition. im in the first team.
thursday is the match! 430 onwards =))
i hope my knee will be fine.

also, hidayah and i are planning to re-group for dance.
i am finding a dance studio, cheap ones for a weekly session only.
hidayah's hopefully finding remixes or good songs to dance to,
let her recruit ppl, later i recruit she dont like... lol

okay i got to go.
tmr UT! Culture&Aesthetics Module.
know nuts abt it, at least not in depth. dead meat! =(

pride&prejudice

last but not least..

im just soo in love with Pride and Prejudice. great story noe... =))

wanna watch it again! hehe

A nice day

wanted to sleep but decided to post.

today.

spent time with hidayah, mira and shenath at bukit gombak stadium.
it was the IVP (institute-varsity-poly) track and field competition today.
was on duty as the photographer but i didnt do much of a work,
besides taking pictures of hidayah's hair at every angle.

it was really nice to see the two.
yesterday meeting ling, who now goes by the name sake, LYN, was really nice.
at least she did not started to have arguments with my bf like some sister name hidayah. lol
so the two of them were going at it, debating, cursing and shooting down each other.
poor mira and i were like the boundaries between palestine and israel! omg

as obvious at it may seem, hidayah enjoys debating with shenath.
almost about every nonsensical detail! lol
hidayah also says things about me that is so not hearing-friendly for bfs. lol
oh well whatever.

love them both.
cant be bothered with their debates. lol

shenath was sad as he wasnt able to run his events.
at the high hope of the track and field team on him, it is obvious my darling dude is so capable of winning.
he's just outa athletics shape and his rugby injury hinders training for the heats.
so sad, but at least i made his day! =))
phew.. today was really a nice day for us.

at bukit gombak, we saw a very nice place for couples.
it was really awesome to come to think about it.
i never thought such a place could exist in that kind of place.
anyway, shenath and i will be going back to that place soon.
we will be awaiting the school holidays for a heart-to-heart talk again.
maybe pictures will be up! =))
then i can show you the place i have found with him.

anyway, i have come to terms with my heart and mind.
i feel that the fights that shenath and i has went through has come as a rude awakening.
for me and as well as him.
shows how much we grew complacent.
being always happy in the relationship is not a good sign but being always strained is a nightmare.

anyway, our first quarter is arriving.
kinda important actually.
to me that is...

well, i have talked too much.
i need sleep!
good nite blogders!

fights?

so lately me and shenath has been coming after each other's blood.
worst scenario ever? he will think the worst of me and i will think the worst of him.
but so far, im still faithful and i dont intend to ruin this.
just that recently my bitchy shit on him is up a notch. lol
poor bf... but actually somehow both our actions nurture the pest of an argument. lol

i hate to really fight with him, but i dont know why every lil small thing seem to itch me up the wrong way.
okay this week we quarelled like 2-3 days.. kinda gotten better yesterday then again today.
but at least we didnt end our week staying mad at each other. phew!
okay all this fights are making me sooo demoralised but phew! we do solve it everyday, then start a fresh one the next day. lol
we better work some thing out here... hmm we are approaching our first quarter in the rship.
i dont know what the future holds fer us but i want to make things work.
he wants to make things work... and he's confident we can be good... i have faith in him.
i just hope everything will be fine.

jan said, no point planning anything cos planning a rship just dont work...
i know... so i trust that... whatever happens will happen.
after reconciling with him, we have both come to an understanding not wanting to see each other freaking pissed.
i wont do anything that will piss him, i hope i at least manage to...
he himself has promised. im sure he will keep to it.
at least for a long run. lol guys are always assholes. but it takes a good one to not a an asshole.
i think i have a good ONE with me.

i love you darling...
i was lost and trapped when you found me...
you gave me a little of everything, and then ur giving me all...
i give you a little of my everything but im still afraid to give you the best of me...
no matter what happens, i wont regret loving you.
tho i may have second thoughts about us, i will always try to work it out...
you can always be sure that i will try harder next time for you.
thank you for loving me despite the short duration that we have known each other.
once again, i love you. muacks!

to all my blogders, sorry! hahaha was too mushy mushy in this post. nvm
anw, i need to turn in now. muahs!
take care!!!

anyway wanna share with you my all-time favourite story! haha
pride and prejudice.
with the song... bbmak - ghost of you and me... sooo nice!

hmm?

wow a month has passed with my new classmates.
i am still getting to know my peers - all at different angles and different ways.
i dont dislike anyone else that much anymore actually.
not even meng chia... haha it was his bday today.
i guess i just didn't like his way of doing work. but overall he's not sucha horrible person.

anyway, i havent really hated anyone before.
i dont know.
since last time i do dislike people but never to the point till hate.
i feel that im too soft-hearted for hate. lol
i can hate situations, things, behaviour and all those but not people.
i dont know. weird me

anyway, lately i have been jumping on every lil mistake bf makes.
i get irritable easily these past few days.. pity the poor bf.
i guess ive just been burned out by the lack of slp. lol
but whatever, today we are alright.. no misunderstanding.
he told me some things why he has been becoming what he is.. i have to understand that.
darling... i understand what you meant. i will try to give you whatever i can. muahs

im currently going to miss HALLOWEEN!!! =((
super sad. hmm nvm... i think i will just spend time at work. lol
let's see... anyway, i shall see what happens. =))

anyway, there are a couple of things that i have realised.
1. im getting lazy in school
2. ive been going home earlier =))

i have to go.
wanna watch movie.
ciaos

TMR!!! HAPPENINGS HAPPENINGS!!!
SISTERS HERE I COME!! =))
I CANT WAIT TO GO NUTS WITH YOU GUYS! YEY!!!

what a day

im glad all sisters are awake and up.
confirmed.
1. jaja
2. hid
3. ling
4. mira
5. a last minute attendee: Fyzah (jaja knows her) - rmbr club days? hehe

nurul kecik is still not confirmed. uggh
if people all confirm ah, she's the only one who's not...
when she is confirmed, all the rest are not.
yawns.

anyway in class now.
'listening' to the last grp presenting, pretending to be learning.
today, i really didn't have the mood to do work.
must be monday blues! whatever happens on mondays, is basically blamed on monday blues!
dont raise your brows... ur guilty of doing the same! haha

i still dont know what to do for the get-together.
good thing the sisters are helping me think... my brain's turning to goo... gosh.
lets see... i dont know! the budget for that day is $50.
i hope i dont spend my money and i hope i can get my sum of money. lol
id have to beg the parents for a card. lol

i doubt mum will lend me already... after getting the atm jammed up in the machine..
i doubt she will. let's see what happens. lol

but today im a lil bit grouchy... gosh.
also, today jan was pissed with me... dont know what's wrong with him lah.
my answer to whatever... DONT ASSUME.
he is very fed up with the entire SUI! authority about double work.
i understand that but i felt that he assumed too much that i pangseh him.
whatever lah...
to jan: when you cool down then come find me lah. up to you. ive told you my stand.
u feel that it's my fault for hanging up ah, then that's ur choice ready. but pls ah, give that kind of attitude on any other person, ud oso get the same in return. thanks

SISTERHOOD

i would like to announce to the sisters and the member sisters to keep your friday the 19th free!
from all other obligations, commitments, plans, whatever!
try to get urself out of eveything and wiggle yourself out if necessary.
the main plan and event is still not concrete and final.
so please try to keep this friday free...

sisters
1. nurul
2. hidayah
3. jaja
4. ling

member sisters
1. mira
2. fyzah
3. su ann

**brothers are excluded because this is strictly a girls day out...
if other sisters are interested to join. do call me in the most recent number that you know.
i know i changed number like TONS of time but pls keep urself updated ya!

also,

1. shaistah
2. vanessa rose
3. dinisha
4. whichever member you are. as long as ur connected through to me u are eligible to come.
**if you dont have my number, pls get it from the others. thanks

so... activities...

Day: FRIDAY
Date: 19th October 2007
Venue: Tentative

p.s. whatever happens, pls eliminate all othe plans...
thank you.

good night to all.
=)

** the RED BOLDED names are the ones which are 99.9% required to come

Jeanie jean jean

today 12hr work got reduced to 10.5 hr work. lol
early saturday morning woke up so early at 8.30am! yawns...
was shocked awake lah! uggh... i tot i overslept. haha then later my colleague say i
suppose to come at 1030 not 10am! hehe
in the end still late... gosh! im turning to jan!!!

anw, to jan rick mascarina!
get well soon too aites! =))

i went off work early oso, gotten flu cos i woke up early! haha
during break time i rushed to whitesand put money in my bank! haha
then end up catching cold while walking in the rain for 5 mins! uggh
immune system cocked up ready. uggh since like after dropping dance i was soo unhealthy.
no no no... wait, it was dance that made my system broke down. lol
what the hell... to the threesome(hid and haj), hmms u both know what the hell happen that whole year. lol
dance like crazy. until system cocked up... im still dreaming of having rejuvenation.
but time aint permitting it... lol i shud go to malaysia or philippines wilderness or something!
meditate on a mountain... sisters wanna join?

uggh actually was supposed to head to Italy earlier this year with bro Roz.
GO FOR RETAIL MEDITATION! =(( go for ITALIAN sight-seeing... haha
hang out and chill in Italy... haiz.. end up... POSTPONED...
BUT BUT BUT!!! got this offer to go to KOREA!! next april...
i dont know if id like korea but my mum said korea is nice. haha
trip to korea's actually FULLY PAID! haha everything... lol
but must go for some performance or theater dance or something ah.
then it got me thinking to re-shape up for dance... DANCE.

to threesome... or BDQ, im hoping ur all going nuts with envy now. lol
nah not confirm going leh... i lazy to re-shape. haha tsk tsk tsk...
shud join sports first lah. but pysio said i cant jump to it yet... my injury still needs consultation or advise from the sports doctors. yeahs...
lets see.. might go soon.. but must get the parents to pay. yawns..
so much for being born in AUGUST. both my injuries are in august.
SAME AREA SOME MORE! uggh. haha

kks lah.. talking to much...
ciaos

p.s. i love you... shenath... =))

HUMAN VEGGIES

basically, i was bombarded with tag posts that relay indecency and an obvious attack on;
1. my 2 months anniversary
2. my boyfriend
3. my appearance

my girls and i dont know what has triggered this attack.
i guess i will never know why.
i did what i can... i entertain all i could but what i just want to say is that,
no matter what is said in wherever by people like those "human veggies", i wont let it affect me.
anyway, to those avid readers... ya'll know ive done a declaration before...
now im going to do it again.... haha

I DECLARE MYSELF FAT!

true what... i gained 5kg since the past 7 months

why? cos i was under mild depression

and at that period i was binge eating.

if my boyfren and my close social circle can understand and accept that,

AND SOME 'VEGGIES' CANT

than that's just TOO freaking bad

diverting back to the story -

if to them i have done something that has angered them in any way, then
i hope they will come out of their veggie nicknames and tell me their problem.
cos for me, it's simple... if u seek justice on yourself due to what i said or did, then tell me...
i will gladly justify it with apologies and reasons.

there is no point shooting me here and there without me knowing what i did to you
cos i will just view it as a childish torment, that i have outgrown years ago.
there many things i can do... if these things persist.

what is the presence of MDA for?
what is the presence of an IP address for?
what is the presence of 'internet police' for?
singapore has only 66.3% internet users in singapore...
and if ur using public access... there's only 61 companies in singapore with that license.
you think i cant locate you... maybe I cant, but experts can...

*the person ask how am i going to track him/her/them?
if you really want to know... come and comment with such indecency again until i blow my top, and i swear i will do what i can to make sure your identity is revealed.
do not underestimate me and capabilities in that...

if these human veggies think that it isn't such a big deal for MDA to track you or even the police to track you...
you are gravely mistaken... breached on morality is a crime...
like i said... just keep doing... keep doing until i blow my top.

the aggressor's back up reason?
that person claim that i have done what this person has done.
as far as i can remember, i have done tag comments but with an honest opinion and not an attack - with my name out there proud and loud.
im a very transparent person... so if you think i have done something wrong to you...
something i can NOT justify, pls feel free to see me.
this goes to EVERYONE who knows me or not.
no point hiding under fake names and all that.... ur just wasting ur views.

also, i dont like it when u comment about my rship and my boyfriend.
calling him a dog and calling me a brainless bimbo for celebrating 2 months anni and calling me a prostitute becos we are only 2 months in our rship, should actually make you feel ashame.
and do you think the police will be happy to hear this? hmms
the last time i know of people harrassing others with the use of internet, they got caught and sentenced to jail.
so just come... comment with such indecency again... over and over again... until i get really angry..

anyway, my boyfren and i are very low profile, we dont look for trouble and neither do we want trouble.
all we want is peace between me and him... if you're not happy that we are happy...
then that's too bad for you... whoever you are...

and like i said... what goes ard comes ard...
im not guilty of anything like this and im sure i'll be justified.
if any bad luck, horrid events happens to ur life... pls think of what you said to me...
i may not be really affected but doing all this in the midst of my personal emotional period is something that i want justice for... MAY GOD BLESS YOU.
but in whatever... dont say i didn't warn you of those.
*cos for one, you dont know me well enough to know what i am and what i can do.

to those who supported me... thank you
to my girls, thank you for notifying me. loves

Vulnerable

major sadness/depression whatever it is...

im feeling so vulnerable once again and it is such a sickening emotion to feel.
i will try with my all to get thru this... might not be serious but might be totally a lifetime scar.
i dont know.

if worst comes to worst... ima have to rearrange my whole life...
but if it's still great... then WONDERFUL!
i just hope that everything will be fine... i hate worrying.

past important posts will be published when im in the mood again..
for now till i feel much better...

this might be my last post... for the time being.
i need to rest.. good nights.

major drama... (ok fine this is not a real CRYING pic. but it still looks real k. *sobs*)

spent time with darling shenath yesterday prior to our anni...

not a celebration basically just to spend time... 2 months too under-rated to celebrate rite? =))

but the day was wonderful really...

followed him to the chinese physician for his legs and ankle.

the night before i helped to massage it but then it wasn't that helpful!

had to go to the experts =))

shenath was squeezing my hands, until IT TURNED BLUE! later on turned numb

haha nevermind... all part of my duties... lol

we had a very deep talk... about our pasts... haiz...

later on it caused a lil hoo-haa in his emotions and mind. my apologies...

i didn't want to lie to him you see... to those who knows me well, yes it was about THAT past.

darling my love for you is real

something you cant deem surreal

i'll stay with you as long as it take

maybe up till my breathless wake

you're love for me is wonderful

you make my senses colourful

i want to be with you all through

promise you'll be with me too

i love you remember that...

-mama oyata adare-

anyway... the day went well... up till something that itched me...

=(( oh well... i guess things arent always coming in sweet and nice packaging.

but i think we are working out fine... =))

anyway

Anni

i want to wish yours truly and shenath thomas dias a Happy 2nd Month Anni =))

FYIs

lets see... today i was suppose to sleep in.
but decided not to... so i guess my tiredness now is my final outcome.
was from work... was from a bath... feels so wonderful and fresh... !


today shenath got injured at his rugger match!
poor darling... he's got his foot injured. i seriously hope it wont affect his race performance for track and fields. =(
but whatever, let's wish my darling a fast recovery k! EVERYONE I INSIST you do the same!! lol :D


today i worked... first time ever to come early for work...
had my late lunch-cum-dinner there... nice thai food. uber fantastic really.. should go thai once a week people! come to lemon grass.. lol =))
well, the once-itching-me-the-wrong-way manager is turning out to be a good help.
a little bit sharped tongued but he's not evil...
today he said i did better than yesterday =)) i tot it was the other way round...
thought i kind suck today. lol turned out the opposite. hehe cool


then during closing time... my old secondary school friends came screaming my name from afar.
i thought which idiots lah, haha... nice to see them...
then like shit lor... one of them named RP - republic poly - REJECT POLY!
hmph! but i must say, i had to say something... lol
kinda brainwashed them... then made them change their opinions. lol
RP IS A NEW POLY DAMN IT! not A DAMN REJECT!!! hmph!
woah, i didnt know i love rp so much. lol
but i daresay, RP is going to outshine the rest in our use of technology... so watch out people!

okay enough of this.
my mum started talking abt my future educations again.
i dont know really... she's thinking of local uni... but my dad is open to overseas uni...
i dont know... if i have to go overseas, i want to go to La Trobe Uni... dont know if gd anot..
still too early to pick and choose... must see first. then must consider bf's view next time right?
so yeahs... too early!!! im still in year 1 sem2... haha
but it's at the back of my plans... lets see... =))

the immediate challenge for me now is SEM 2 gpa.
i had a pathetic 2.4 PTS... cos of my lousy aims... i wanted to secure a C... lol
but have to up my pts to 3.8 PTS.... not impossible... quite easy actually...
i have to stop skipping class that's it... and AT LEAST STUDY OF 3 UTs... lol
so to those who want to study with me... esp shenath... pls let me know!!
this week UT is up! =(( dont have time to study... so much for wanting to score... haha
to shenath: i need week 2 maths tuition!!!


the next upcoming challenge is of course - PROFFESIONAL PROFILING.
CE POINTS ALSO... im sure i would be fine... not sure about shenath, lazy bum!
hmms let's see i have to promote some CE talks that SUI! IG is holding..
to RP PEEPS... as follows are the posters for the upcoming talks... i dont know if im releasing it too early but whatever.. this is just the rough gauge..
AND AND... i will be an usher for talks on 12TH(this friday), 17th and 18th talks! 12.30-1.30pm k!? please check ur webmails for more INFOs...

SUI! IG is giving out at least 20 points... so go mad k!!



and of course.. there's more =)) i hope jan dont kill me for putting this up... lol
jan is the Marketting Manager for SUI! IG... very very nice eh... =))

anyway... classmates... im not coming to school tmr.
i have a different agenda. lol =))
but i will be around school, so if you need me for anything.. call or sms... :))
see what you all want... AND I CANT FAST TMR! lol
hehe shit lah!! haha lets fast TUESDAY? can?

okay okay... ciaoz for now!
v v v v v v v v tired... yawns.

QUIZZES

All these quizzes as follows are taken by me with careful thoughts and with a high level of honesty. Have fun! =))

Your Passion is Purple

Sophisticated and classy, you're a bit picky about sex. You're more likely to be turned on by a fancy hotel room than a dirty flick. Sex is fine enough, as long as it doesn't mess up your hair. For you, sex is more about power and favors than actually pleasure.

What Color Is Your Passion?

*dont understand the last sentence.. nvm.

Your Birthdate: August 23

People wouldn't take you for a passionate person - and that's where they'd be wrong. You can develop deep emotions quickly, and you're the type most likely to move in with someone after a few dates. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 5th, 14th, and 23rd of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

** woah... 3 true loves? wow =)) IF ID ONLY HAVE MY HEART BROKEN ONCE, wow, im safe with shenath this time around.. I HOPE! lol *crosses fingers*

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has a Marquise Diamond!

Like most Marquise diamond wearers, you are sexy and impulsive. You're also good at getting what you want in life, no matter what it is. You tend to be successful at love, your career, and anything else you desire. Think Victoria Beckham and Catherine Zeta Jones: proud wearers of this ring!

What's Your Dream Engagement Ring?

**so to GUYS who think of marrying me.. hehe you know what to get... *ermz, esp goes to bf* lol

Your Aura is Yellow

You're a deeply happy and content person, and you enjoy sharing your cheer with others. While you may seem like a simple optimist, there is a lot of thinking going on inside you. The purpose of your life: bringing joy and a better life to others Famous yellows include: Conan O'Brien, Jenny Mccarthy, Jim Carrey Careers for you to try: Athlete, Actor, Yoga Instructor

What Color Is Your Aura?

*ATHLETE? you got to be kidding me!!

Your Deadly Sins

Pride: 100% Greed: 80% Envy: 60% Gluttony: 60% Lust: 40% Sloth: 40% Wrath: 40% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 60% You will become famous - and subsequently killed by a stalker.

How Sinful Are You?

*60% chance of going to hell. wow... haha shit! help.. lol

You Were Naughty This Year

You Were 70% Naughty, 30% Nice You may not have been good this year... But you sure had a really good time. And nothing from Santa could top that!

Were You a Naughty Girl or Nice Girl this Year?

* at least only 70%... hehe! =))

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

** and i thought im up for fooling around... lol i guess what was my past. hehe

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

*WOAH... i swear i didn't have the power to adjust this quiz... SHENATH is CANCER! lol

Your Heart is Feeling Safe

Right now, all is good with your heart. And you intend on keeping it that way. Whether you're deeply in love or just looking, you know that your heart will be taken care of. You never risk your heart too much, but you don't hold it back either. You know who to trust your heart with. Deep down, your heart is susceptible to: Getting a little too comfortable Your current outlook on love: Calm and future oriented Your love life will improve if you: Treat other people's hearts the way you expect yours to be treated Watch out for: Taking the people you're dating for granted

What Is Your Heart Feeling?

*must be cos shenath is taking care of it great. =))

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

** professional gf? i didnt think so... hehe... =))

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are powerful, passionate, and dominant. You have a vision of how things should be, and you do your best to make things happen. People rely on you for your strength. You are a rock to many. Underneath it all, you aren't so sure about your passions. So many ideas spark your interest, it is hard for you to get behind a select few. However, you see indecision as a sign of weakness. So you pursue your goals full force - no matter how foolish they turn out to be.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

**hmms kinda true...

Your Passion is Red!

You've got that spark - a good dose of intensity, power, and determination. You do whatever you want in life ... to hell with what anyone thinks! With so many interests and loves, you're always running around doing something new. You have fire in your eyes, and it shows. Bet you're even wearing something red!

What Type of Passionate Woman Are You?

** yeah, i am wearing something red... lol

You Are an Intense Kisser

When you kiss, it's deep and powerful You don't take kissing lightly Your kisses always have meaning And they always make your head spin

What's Your Kissing Style?

**lol. really? sexay...

You Are 90% Psychic

You are so very psychic. But you already predicted that, didn't you? You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others. You're very tapped into the world around you... Just make sure to use your powers for good!

Are You Psychic?

** WATCH out everyone! lol

Virgo - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're incredibly thoughtful and able to give your partner what they need most. You are totally logical. You can deal with problems without involving your emotions. A good work ethic. You'll do whatever it takes (within reason) to make your relationship work. Your negative traits: Sometimes you are so focused on your goals that you let your relationships suffer You tend to be a perfectionist - and expect perfection from your mate as well You are picky. So picky that you rather be single than with someone who has a few minor faults. Your ideal partner: Values success in life as much as you do Fits a checklist of qualities you've been looking for since childhood Like you, is more practical and realistic than romantic Your dating style: Active. You're a bit hyper, so you'd prefer a date that involved rollerblading in the park or hiking. Your seduction style: You may seem a bit shy, but once you open up to someone - you're totally uninhibited You like to set the scene first - candles, music, nice sheets A bit obsessed with cleanliness, you may want to shower first with your love Tips for the future: Soften up a little. Vulnerability is sexy - and feels great over time. Lower your standards a little. Look past a messy desk or someone being five minutes late. Praise your partner more. You make expect them to be successful, but complements are still appreciated. Best color to attract mate: Navy blue Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

** lol hehe... i think so ah.. haha but i think i have already implemented the tips for the future..

=))

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You're generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

**cool.. anyone thinks differently?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is low. This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced. You know a relationship is not about getting your way. And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is high. You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love. Having your own life is very important for you... Even more important than having a relationship.

The Five Variable Love Test

** hmms nice quiz eh? :))

He's a Great Boyfriend

You guy definitely loves you and knows how to treat you right. You have a five star boyfriend - so make sure you treat him right too!

Is He a Good Boyfriend?

** the last but not least.. hehe woah.. cool ah... GREAT BF. hmmss.. =))

madness

so last night after posting, i gotten flu - AGAIN!
then have to wait for shenath... took so long.
but i understood ah, cos i feel that he is kinda neglecting his friends.
i dont want that lah. it seems quite wrong.
then turns out my hunce abt this is correct, he told me so.
anw, we have been spending too much time together, so i think it's time to create a schedule.
but then says him, it wont be a problem and all.
i dont know... lets see.

but i seriously have to commend him in his ways of thinking.
he has shown me a great deal of guts and something that i feel is very nice.
in our coming two months together, the worst hilarious moment was that we both mistaken it for another day!
lol 8-8-07 is NOT our anniversary!

he remembers the day, which is THURSDAY - but not the date, 9/8/07.
the worst for me is that, i didnt even remember until i had to look at the calendar.
i know it was during national day, so it cant be 8th! lol
OMG. haha i think i like 8 too much ah.
so note to self : it's 9/8/07 not 8/9/07 8/8/07. lol see wrong again!

bimboism is ruling me! lol but gosh...
and to think we both are good in remembering dates!
hahaha crap lah. okay... should be fine.
our 2 months will be next tuesday. but both of us will be busy.
most prob just be seeing him during school time.
eehhh wait, just checked my schedule, im FREE! he's not =((
haiya nvm... he has a race to win! hehe then must think of a reward for him ready.
go shenath! run your best... im sure you can win it!
very nice... i will be covering his event also, cool eh?

im in the reporting crew of this institute-varstity-polytechnic(IVP) sports.
im covering netball which is starting on monday at Singapore Poly.
have to go there... im the photographer! yey.
i hope i wont end up taking pics of myself! =))
and also, like duh, track and field also.
such a waste the crew aint covering Contact Rugby for IVP =((
haha if not can see how shenath plays and can motivate.
the last time i went to watch, he was flying all over the place. sexay! haha

okay im going.
sick sick sick!!! bye

PICTURES | =))

what i recentlydid...
I LOVE YOU DARLING!
we need to study soon, tests coming up next week ready.

the reasons why sons are very dangerous...



SUI! MODELS.. lol
CEO ZhiWang, Marketting AM Calvin, Operations AM Jean(ME!)

sheesh! dont know why i must take this pic... lol

Goofing around. CEO crazy ready!

CEO and DCEO siao ready. must send em to IMH

Merchandising AM Quennie, Operations AM Jean! =))

what the hell.. so constipated..

In Class just now! =))

The faci that NAT hates. and the dude in class i dislike! OPENLY!
**its that guy in the middle back. uggh**

This is what they are looking at... sorry NAT's grp! i think i kinda shoot you down.
bang bang! =)) muahs!

the day's fulfilment.

today today today
was was was
very very very
tiring tiring tiring

lol im feeling so retarded today...
hmms i wonder why... (see the next few paragraph)

okay i went to school. managed to dragged myself off from bed.
but then developed flu so when i reached school, i was so weary!
manage to reach 15 mins late ONLY.
gosh. then the problem for today made my brain melted.
then later bf gave some itch on the emotions again.
but twas alright, nothing big. lucky... phew!

ouhs yeahs.. yesterday, after the photoshoot, went to meet shenath.
didn't want to actually due to the attitude he gave me the whole of yesterday.
he himself didn't want to meet. but at least we sorted things out.
so on my part, i apologised and reassured.
sorry darling... i love you! :)

then finally, we are fine!
=)) then today gotten sick... yawns.
so mr shenath insisted i left class to rest at his place.
was so tired i forgotten my fear of staying alone at his place...
yeah alone lah, he went back to class :)
today i have to say that he took care of me VERY VERY well :))
i gave him an A :))

anyway, lets talk about a fulfilment.
shenath had finally manage to bring me to this place he wanted to go last month.
(even when i sick oso still can go around ah.. haha this is what happens when he and i are together.)
he failed in getting into this nature place in singapore at first.
apparently, the second time he tried looking around, he found the place!
it was quite hard to get to the place actually;
quite tedious cos the place has this gates one need to squeeze into/ or climb!
even i cant get to that place... i seriously doubt i will find it interesting!

but it was eventually very very interesting.
i was quite afraid id get bruises or cuts or injury of some sorts, but at least he led me to the place gently.
sucha gentleman he is =))
the place was dewy. nature see... so yeahs
later on he had to rush to leave lah... uggh
then uber disgusting had to brush on those dewy part of the leaves all...
he has rugby training so no choice... =((
but.... he says he'll bring me to the place again. lets see...
hope it wont be that dewy the next time around =))

okay... yeah so that is our fulfilment!
okay okay maybe not lah. but today was quite insane.
shenath went late for his rugby training... PARTIAL ATTENDANCE! =))
darling... thanks for your socks ah... *sarcasm*

hmms anyway, wanna upload pics in my next entry.
got some retarded pics to show.
but for now.
this entry is for TODAY'S FULFILMENT.

LOL

Daily Love for October 02, 2007
Provided by Astrology.com



Daily Couples:

Has your relationship been a touch too exciting lately? Yes, it's true -- even the best things in life can get wearisome if they go on for too long. Get some rest. A little peace and quiet will do you both good.




Weekly Love for October 01, 2007
Provided by Astrology.com
Monthly Love


A little extra attention ensures that your message comes across just as intended (and in a very compelling way, too!) as the week begins. Make sweet plans for Tuesday, Wednesday or Thursday -- these are great days for fabulous, fun dates or for meeting intriguing new prospects, should you be on the market. Be ready to go with the proverbial flow on Friday and Saturday. What you end up doing could be even better than what you originally had scheduled. And Sunday kicks off a couple burning-hot days -- what will you do to celebrate?



Horoscope madness. lol

anyway i have something to show =))

Nice? COOL eh?

okay anyway. im just soo bored.
shenath's classmate made it... lol =)) thanks vic! nice knowing ya

shenath is NOT picking up the damn phone. dont know what he's up to for today's break. yawns.
oh well. nevermind...
anyway, i ate a huge meal. gosh
i dont think id be eating tonight... i had the Indonesian Ikan Bakar.

RP people should know how filling it is!!
gosh... but it was GOOD.
anyway... im soo bored bored bored!!!

okay.. got to go... for now...

My 2nd October

today was alright.
i had science but i went off early.. due to external commitment...
i bet id get shit grade for today. i came late. why?

I LEFT MY WALLET in bus service 3 (route to punggol)
i had to change bus 88 for sengkang... then damn unlucky missed out my wallet.
damn it lah!

worst and greatest thing? the bus 88 is already in the expressway when i realize it's gone! lol
cant stop anywhere right? so i had to tell the driver my horrid situation.
lucky he gave me a free ticket for fare to punggol.
i had to chase bus 3 to punggol. (fingers were crossed all the way there)

called shenath straight away after my mishap.
he himself found it so way off... gosh
then called jan.. as usual he's late. so i thought i would go to school with him.
in the end he was very very late. so nvm... went to school alone after getting my wallet.
*to the one who returned my precious, thank you so much. may God bless! =))

so school was alright.. met shenath for the first break.
then came to class. my classmates were so surprise at the time i arrived. lol
but my team mates are great! they gave me work. hehe
i was in the backseat.. and i was enjoying it
later on in a while shenath left class for the hostel. he went to have his rest =))

and then i joined him.
then ah, i forgot one more thing!! my original external commitments.
lol end up having other plans.
spend time with bf and then to EXCO meeting. lol
to classmates... shhhh!!

now only i remember actually. lol
i told faci that i have to help out with some family stuff. lol
end up doing something else. shit. haha...
bet classmates wondering what is happening... tmr lunch time with them!
so can tell them... lol okay okay... but i didn't lie lah... :D

hmms anyway after spending time with bf, i went for EXCO meeting.
EXCO SUI! meeting... went on behalf of my manager so yeahs.
yawns. damn tired... then after that, finally spend time with JAN. haha
here are some pictures.. dont want to upload all.. im too tired.
so make do with five! =))








anyway, to boyfriend : sorry for making you pissed lah k.
didn't think it would bother you so much...
since it does, i wont have anything to do about it okay?
sorry... i love you.