Quote of the Day

"Who shall say that the maiden so pretty and fair shall always have the greater man; and the ogre who walks to the beat of thundering clouds will never find her prince?" - Unknown

What Way He Makes Me Feel

Okay, like seriously.

All the suppressing of emotion I been doing so that I won't fall for him, is making me more fall for him.
I can't stand it. It's like every bit of molecules in my body, mind and soul yearns for him!

Just a mere sight, slight touch and just being around him makes me feel really good. I don't think I felt this way before ever. It's like the type of innocent, school girl emotion that envelopes me in a warm cocoon.

Yikes, see even my poetic nature comes out at the thought of him!

I have to head to bed now. I don't know how long I can take it without giving in to my feelings. But I pray to the Lord that He will deliver me from this or deliver me to him. Heh.

Alright, good night everyone!

Unconditional Love

Courtesy of God Wants You To Know facebook application

Sometimes, it gets too beautiful that I wonder how such an app can produce such affirmative and encouraging words. It's like as if God used this tool to reach out to internet demographics like me.

We usually forget the awesome love of God, and so I'm grateful how such application as this can be a form of reminder how His love is so unconditional.

I couldn't agree more.

There are more beautiful messages I have received that inspired and affirmed me, but let me start with this post.

More to come. Especially the recent update on the Sunday wedding that just passed. The first wedding that I organized :)

It was really enjoyable. More to come, more indeed.

For now, I need to catch my train to slumberland. Ciaos.

Weeeeekeeeeend

Usually I try to make it a habit to sleep in during the weekends, but as the months of late, I haven't been able to get what I wanted. There's always appointments and such.

Today, I bet it'll be fun :)

I'm going for a wedding rehearsal! It's a day I get to see the entire bridal party and of course, being the coordinator of the special day, I'm hoping to see the decor team the couple contracted for their matrimonial and reception.

November is here and it's soon going. I can feel the quick advancement of time to 2012 already! Yikes. And knowing December, it will fly past quicker than it came.

If you all can remember my last post, it was just a month back I semi-coordinated, and was the emcee for Jasmine and Neil's wedding. Now, I've Eldrid and Ninik's to get hyped up to again going to be doing three job scope - I'm the coordinator, the emcee and yes, one of the bridesmaid! :) (May God continue to sustain me and help me)

But honestly, I can't complain. I thoroughly enjoy the preparation because I'm not alone to do so. I've the music ministry member to help :) They've been awesome and really helpful.

Anyway, you know what they say about the time you attend one friend's wedding. You'd be invited to more and then either you will be next or never at all. Lol

My parents, as it seem wants me to be serious and take things seriously regarding getting married. At least to think about getting married in the coming years. Then again, it's not easy to decide and it will not be my decision of I do get married. I have left it to Him. He shall decide what is best for me. Yes, I will offer up my desires (which I am still rather shaky in), but it comes to the point where i'd rather be with Him than with anyone else. Unless, He finds me someone who can honour my relationship with Him.

From Nov 2011 - Feb 2012, I have this calling to discernment for my vocation. I need to know and seek His Will regarding the path I am to take. 2012 is just around the corner, and there are a lot of life events to happen and to anticipate. 

So my first step to discernment is tomorrow's day of prayer with the Franciscan sisters at the St. Francis Convent at Thomson Rd. I'm really blessed to be asked to join them to listen to God's will to discern for what He wants of me.

I know my parents want me to get married and all, but somehow, I want to experience these before I get to the point of just going for one option of marriage. I like to have the option that is wonderfully fitted to me.

A number of my friend's ask then how about the love interest. I say, I let it be. I do like him a lot but I cannot show him how I feel at the moment. 

1. I'm scared because to me, he's not just any other guy I've known and dated 

2. It's better to be friends till I know my vocation 

3. I want to be affirmed by God that I do indeed like him and He's the one worth getting 'hurt' for.

You know what they say, you cannot escape hurt and pain in any relationship. It's just a matter if the person is worth it to be in pain while in the relationship, because it's better than being in pain while no longer with the person. One way or another, God leads us to what He has made us here on Earth for.

There are many more to consider in this life. And I want to be sure that whatever choice I make, it will be God-centric. I have led my life and love not following is statutes, His ways, and His teachings. It led me nowhere but to hurt, pain and sinful deeds. So now, I believe I am now aware of what needs to be done when choosing a life partner, or a life direction.

For now, if my love interest is reading this - if it is God's will, mountains will move just so I will be with you. At the mean time, even if you're unsure if it's even you who I really like, It's okay. It's best to know it at the appointed time, if it is His will. Or as I believe, because of my strong feeling against showing you or telling you anything, if it is His will, He might just be the one to tell you and affirm to you that yes, I really do like you :)

Before I end off, I would like to share with you all a prayer that I found most useful.