Power of Eyes

"The Eye is the Window of the Soul."

We have been told far too much times. I understood its power today.

It's been a long time I maintained an eye contact with anyone.

Eye contact that didn't invoke unwanted vibes, but more to make a concrete assurance that indeed there is something within. I'm more than sure that he is aware of what he was doing. And upon the realization of what he does, I could feel my face burns and heart smiles.

I also believed now of John 15:7 

"If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you."

I am happy at the events of my life at the moment. And although it is nothing like I've experienced before, I am taking this as a start of a new path to loving. This may not be the one I'm settling for life, but it gives me a new perspective on why patience is a virtue and why love is simple.

Source: www.directdaniel.blogspot.com

It's a beautiful feeling to be able to look into the eyes of another person comfortably, and not afraid of seeing something within that is undesirable.

This is our eyes agreeing.

Source: www.eyedoctor.homestead.com/BodyLanguage.html

No, I'm not in love. Yet.

Little Things Go A Long Way With Me

Source: www.kikki-k.com

Being a girl, it's typical to be hearing the term, "it's the small thing that matters", "a little goes a long way" and so forth. (However, of course I'm not fully claiming that only women think of these.)

Personally, I really am a sucker for the small things that a guy can do. I'm very observant, even to the fault that I notice the small details that either makes or break a man in my eyes. However, learning more I let a man be a man and accept that they're really just not going to think like us girls. The only way we can get a man do what we want is to be firm and tell them exactly what we want. Instead of beating about the bush, and getting nowhere but to frustration, we women need to be sure of what we need and want.

I'm not one to say about telling exactly what I want at the moment as I'm in my deciding phase. I know what I desire and who is it, so far I'm enjoying the currents of lovely feeling I'm feeling now.

Euphoric. Exotic. Wow.

To me, small things do matter... Tremendously. It's like the image I selected as feature image, the formation of romance can be compared to that of a puzzle. Each pieces created and moulded by the man and the woman, it is meant to fit to form a healthy loving heart. Otherwise, that means that if the pieces doesn't fit, either the puzzle piece isn't meant for that part we are trying to fit it in, or it may even be that the puzzle pieces that we are trying to fit doesn't belong to that particular puzzle at all.

There are many things to take as a reason for why relationship doesn't work, but I'm not to use any to give me the reason to give up on love.

I'm not in love now, but I'm close.


And each day, I look forward to you.

XOXO

Tell Him?

Celine Dion & Barbara Streisand - Tell Him
Album : Let's Talk About Love

I been switching between Celine and Barbara.

I can't let him pass me by, but somehow, I'm struggling to keep this overwhelming and overflowing emotions. I'm committing it all now to divine intervention. I never really felt this way before. It's like something different a way towards this path I seem to be taking. It's something to really think about when the reward is proportional to the effort required, and the effort is proportional to the worth of the reward I can feel to come if I let my feelings show, if just a little bit, I let someone in.

Lately, I've been very careful.

I want to get it right already. No more fooling around, no more games and puppy loves. Maybe indeed, as to what Best and my other girls say, just "Tell Him".

Hey You

Each time you are close, my heart beat like drums on a roll.

When I look into your eyes, I feel electrocuted, I feel surges of lighting bolts.

I suppress my emotions but I wonder how far do you know my feelings.

I'm the Great Pretender, pretending I don't feel you, pretending your eyes doesn't pierce me.

How then can I ever let it show when I don't even want to come out of my cave?

I look for something that perhaps this little "thing" might not survive through anything at all.

I want to see you each day and in each day, I wish it is you.

For now I'm letting time take me to where God wills it to be.

L*** IS IN THE AIR?

Ronan Keating's It's the Way You Make Me Feel

It's just how I'm feeling now :) Ugh I don't like this school-girl feeling BUT I can't help it anymore! LOL

*Giggles inside* 

Ways to Love

EASY TO SAY, DIFFICULT TO DO

But nevertheless, this ways must be sowed. It's not impossible when we do our best, and let God do the rest. Yet another challenge to myself? And of course, to you all too. Good luck!

WEDDINGS, WEDDINGS, WEDDINGS

One of my recent pics at my friends' wedding. 

My first time as wedding emcee :)

Ever since I had the change in position and work nature, I found it harder to breathe each day.
It's a good problem, seeing how much enquiries and sales I been able to do, THANK GOD. Apart from that, there's never a quiet time for me at work. From the early morning of my arrival at work, to the very end of the day that extends to 7pm or 8pm at night, I still find myself filled up to the brim.

The only thing that comforts me is the divinity of the day. It is also when I'm able to just stop everything I'm supposed to be doing, let go and not be so much of a perfectionist by doing everyday in ONE day. I always have this divine grace I always thankfully receive that gives me comfort and push each time I feel weary and down due to tiredness.

There are many things I love to forward to God of my gratefulness, but it can never be enough. It's like the thank-you notes will just pile up and I will still have a lot of thanking.

Lately, I realize that it's been long since I praised Him. It's been long since I entered a sabbath. And it's been long since I longed for nothing except Him. I don't know how long this spiritual dry spell will last but in any case, I continue to trust in Him. And so should anyone too.

Recently at a talk by Frankie Yee, I learned that faith and trust are two different things. He said that faith can vary through circumstances, but trust remains the same (or so it should be). It's the trust that matters which goes a long way in instilling in us the wonderful things that the love of God can bring. (Ahhh... Just lovely)

Anyway, my weekends lately have been something I truly look forward to. That is of course because I get to do a teeny-bit of what I need to do, spend time with my family, and friends. Lately, like last week, I spent Friday and Sunday with my church friends planning the entertainment of our friend, Eldrid and Ninik's wedding. I'm the official organizer for their wedding. (So honoured! Now, I've to find another pink dress. Hehe another excuse to shop!)

The not-yet-ready pre-nup pics of E&N

Jasmine and Neil's wedding was just awesome. I felt so emotional for them, I was moved to tears of joy watching them be joined as one. I was their 'unofficial' coordinator for their Holy Matrimony. I didn't really get a full view of their wedding as they take their vow because I was manning the entrance for late-comers etc. But it was a good practice for me as bridal entourage took the queue from me when they are going to march in, and the running of the wedding is now rather familiar for me. Jasmine and Neil's wedding has equipped me with what i need to know about wedding masses. (Here are some nice photographs of the wedding by Yeow Ming, Blessed-i Photography)

Weddings weddings weddings... next will be my galfriend, Jar's engagement on Feb 12, 2012. Time is soo fast. We're all excited for my gal. We never thought that it would be this soon. I was suppose to be helping to plan but due to my work demand and the other weddings coming up, I'm taking the very back seat. She's rather understanding because this is just her engagement. But soon in November, if I don't start helping, she'll be killing me soon after. Hehe :)

EXCITED!

Education

I've a lot of mind in education at the moment. My thoughts go out to empower myself via education. I am very interested to enter a degree program in a double major in marketing and pyschology. However, i feel that it's not the time yet as i'm sending my cousins to polytechnic first.

My yet another recent pay increase will not suffice for a $40, 000 loan, and besides i don't not wish to even borrow $40, 000 unnecessarily. Realistically, my goal is to send my very close-knitted cousins to school in the April 2012 intake. They're here now sending applications, and it's one of my milestones in life to have brought them here, with my grandfather. It's a beautiful to reach a step in the ladder of accomplishment, in fulfilling of my promises to granny. However, it's not done yet. They've yet to be accepted in the polytechnics and to enrol proper.

They will have to return back to Philippines again in the coming month, spend their Christmas there and then come back here by February. It may seem a lot of expenses, but really, I'm a testimony on how God really provides. He continues to sustain me, and surprisingly, i'm still even able to have my personal expenses on track. Thank God!

I've also reached a milestone in my career front. I hope that our move to the new place will invigorate my mind and spark my focus on my sales function being transferred to the sales dept for media and entertainment division. I'm appointed now as the Adobe product champ... err like a product line manager (though of course, i'm not in managerial position). My jobs is to ensure the quota quarterly and achieve the minimum annual quota set by Adobe. I'm excited! Anyway, going back on education....

It is still important no matter how much the amount. Yet, another calling for a different type of education resounds loud lately. I stumbled upon this course; Diploma in Faith Formation.

I been slowly but steadily learning more and more about the faith, and indeed, i get thirsty each time i immerse myself in the faith. It's a different route altogether. I am discerning on this, and I've till end of Nov to enrol. What shall i do?

I look forward to your continuous support dear friends. And the final support I hope to gain is our Parish Priest's recommendation, as it is required for the application. 

Hmmm, discernment in progress for now.

Much Love,

MJ

Weekend Stories?

Good midnight peeps!
Had a tiring but awesome weekend that just passed, and I'm still feeling very much lethargic due to it.
For the past two weeks I've not been sleeping before 11pm, as to what I desired so that I'm always up and about at work, rather than become a dead man walking.

Anyway, I don't wish to share the past weeks of my owl lifestyle lately. It's nothing much to come to think about it. I just cannot avoid coming home late from work, especially at the amount of work that I do at the moment. I'm just dying to hand over my marketing job functions ASAP so I need not worry about those.

Okay let's cover the past weekend.

Saturday, 1st Oct 2011, marked that special day for our youth group coordinators, Jasmine and Neil. They've been a source of inspiration to me regarding the existence of the real unconditional love. And the exact meaning of honouring each other, following through the faithfulness they have to God. They are simple beautiful.
They tie the knot in the morning of the mentioned date and everything just went spectacular. The wedding mass followed a small brunch for those who attended the wedding mass. There are many of us who were invited for the wedding lunch banquet at Grand Park Hotel at City Hall. I was their wedding emcee, paired with Ranson as we co-host the wedding event of the year for our ministry.

This is the first ever wedding that I hosted, and I'm glad having gotten this experience. This year, I hosted a Chinese New Year party for about 30-40 attendees, a feast day that saw thousands of parishioners, a first-year birthday party and now my first wedding event! It was fun :)

So far, I'm thankful that I was guided well by God in how I am to use these talents He so openly and generously blessed me with. I was able to move people, getting them to enjoy themselves and surprisingly, I make them laugh too. HONESTLY, I'M NOT A FUNNY PERSON.

I'm still waiting for the upload of the wedding photographers of my other pictures which they so freely took of me being the host. Our table is always visited by paparazzi being it the table where the wedding couple's close friends are. The above picture is about the only picture I have of myself. Sad for a camwhore like me.

I really enjoyed being with lovely people who motivates me and allows me to flourish in what I'm good at doing. It's the constant openness and acceptance of each other that allows the healthy movement of growth.

Moving away from the weekend, I'm psyche about moving to the new office building! We are moving on Wednesday officially. Yet all of us have done our packings accordingly already. So it's as good as us moving tomorrow! Hehe I'm kinda excited but of course, the change in my position is also one thing to take note. It will demand more of my time and such. In any case, I hope that everything will be smooth sailing.

Jia you!

Loves,

MJ