im here

wells i was from work.
i called nurul and then we chatted.
wont be chatting with her till my return.
haaahz.
i be going to Genting Highlands.
i didnt wanna go at first.
after what happened at home the other day.
apparently i have to.
haaahz.
nvm, i just hope that ww5 wont start.
cos there is no where i can actually ran off to from there.
haiyoo.
my sweetie will also be on a trip tmr till mon or tues.
haha.
then we chatted awhile and then say bubbye.
haha.
(to sweetie: enjoy loads)

anyways, we were talking about the countdown.
then later on she told me something about some old friend who works there as a bouncer.
there, as in ST JAMES.
she remembered him saying that he wont let me in.
i guess maybe he is still being childish about the conflict we had the other time.
haiz. you know whatever it is.
im OF AGE.
my friends will be OF AGE.
there's nothing that he can try to do will happen.
and as for now till whenever suit.
im still going to countdown to the year 2007 there.
and my year will start nice and good.

i wont deny though that our friendship ended, hurts me.
i cant accept the fact that all the sweet moments, the sad shits we went through are forgotten.
he just chucked me aside and he let his anger and ego just come in the way of our friendship.
but whatever it is.
it's his choice.
i cant fucking do anything about it.
and neither would i say SORRY to him again.
that's all.
if all it takes is his night to be spoilt that he wanna throw our friendship away.
that is his choice.
whatever shit i was there for him.
whatever tears i know of.
whatever comfort i gave.
whatever time i made for him.
will just be forgotten like that.
then i proclaim that that friendship is never real.
AT ALL.
and me spoiling his night isnt as bad as him damaging my emotions about a later issue.
nvm. nvm. nvm.
good luck with everything that he will go through.
more and more.
best wishes to everything he deems dear.
wells, in all things i still rememebered this sentence,
"we've been through so much for me to just leave you like that"
where has that gone?
whatever.
nurul nurul nurul.
i know you know.

wells, update you soon!

-love love love-