Sideline job and food galore!

Rushed down to Hilton Singapore for one-day-one-hour sideline Polaroid photography temp job. It's for the events company i'm still working for weekly during school day off.
I was paid a not-so-bad amount really.


Actually, i have asked silently to Him if a monetary opportunity can happen because i really need to pay off some thing. I truly thank God that something like this happened.


All i had to do was wait for the crowd to increase in number, get them snapped and just hand them their Polaroid takes. Really simple! Not much effort done, eventually the images do turn out pretty fine. I guess everyone actually enjoyed being photographed.


I spoke to the event's photographer, Nick, who shared with me how much is market pricing for photographers. I was really brought to realization at how low i was actually charging for my portfolio shoots. Then again, i find that i still needed more experience and practice. So in December when baby will be busy and "away" from leisure's reach (due to his further studies), i will busy myself with upgrading and increasing my knowledge in photography and graphic design. 


I haven't been in tune with these lately and i have hopes to ensure i stick to these passion :)

Baby met me at town today after his FYP meeting in school. We met up at Far East Plaza.

Memories gushed at me the moment i neared the mall, entered it and windowed shop.

Damn i missed my girls. The then bitchifive, who are always together, always greatly connected. Sigh

With that, along came the ache of not having been able to shop. It's like being a woman but not having your blessed parts of womanhood - quite alike for men who are but lacks the vital organs of what proves them men.

There are just some things students like me lack in doing now.

And the worst thing? I saw a pair of peep toe flat boots, canvas material at the first shoe shop at Far East Plaza B1. Going for only $29.90.

It's not even expensive, and yet i have to keep frugality in mind! (breathe... one, two, three)


Baby pointed out that the shoes might not be good enough a material. I agree.
Partly thinking of ways to feel better and partly because he might be right.


So, negativity out and hello food!


Baby suggested going to lucky plaza, pinoy cafeteria for dessert.
I opted for dinner too. Hungry!
So we had the items in the picture above.


We shared a 2-dish meal of Pastel Chicken and Beef (Apritada or maybe something else).
For dessert, we had Ube, Bread and butter, and Ube + casava cake.
Yum Yum.


Baby love pinoy dishes, and the dessert too. If you're in the mood to try something different, you can head down to Lucky Plaza, Orchard. Go up to fourth floor and turn left from the escalator, downwards you'll see Ayam Penyet restaurant. Just along that lane, further down the left, all the way to the end you'll see a very informal cafeteria.


Don't expect formal dining there.


Ask for budget meal costing $5
It includes rice, with two dishes and a can or bottle of drink of your choice.


If you're in the mood for cold dessert, i recommend Halo-Halo.
You'll never regret it. It's awesome! :)


It was nice spending time with baby but there were things on my mind still.
A part of which wonders if he's enjoying himself too, another part of which wonders if i can just let loose of thoughts.


~next food galore venue, Taj Lanka for sri lankan meals!
ive tasted some already, just can't wait for the formal introduction to baby's cultural food

Misdirection

Have you ever felt so sure of you the day's outcome, and then within a minute, it has vanished?
Have you spent a nice time with your loved one, ignoring a nagging feeling that - maybe - they might have not enjoyed the day like you did, so that you can carry on feeling happy having spent that day well - or thought so?
Have you ever felt so misled by the day's happening, that it just makes you all foggy and misty, thus causing the alarm system to go off.

Rrrrrriiiiiiinnnnngggg!

And the next thing you know, the vaults and the walls to your priceless possession starts shutting down again, even before it starts to fully stay wide open.

If you haven't, tell you what, think of the time that you thought yourself the most happiest, and then while walking home, you got run over by a huge lorry. Everything else was intact except that you saw one of the most vital organ missing -  (No not your balls, nor your bosoms) your heart.

~id rather have a bad day than have a happy day that turns out to be a bad day~

but then again, what does it matter to an already beaten soul.

The Southern Vampire Mysteries

Did i mention before how much staying in (home) too long might drive me nuts?
Top it up with programming an online mathematics tutorial and i can really end up a goner...!

So lately for a month or so, i haven't been working in the weekends.
I have taken a big risk actually, but hey, i'm still surviving (financially) - with frugality in mind.
But it's the boredom that's killing me!

Anyway, due to boredom as well, i have succumbed to reading, watching movies and the inevitable life of programming.

Reading was most fun actually. It's a pastime i'll never outgrow.
And i have a great recommendation actually!

Author: Charlaine Harris
Books: The Southern Vampire Mysteries / Sookie Stackhouse series
Genre: Romance / Fantasy Fiction about Supernatural beings, centered on Vampires, Shape-shifters (interpretation of were-animals), telepaths, fairy and more
Accompanying TV series: Trueblood on HBO

The setting is very much fictional but it is present time and not so much on futuristic era.
It indicates how supernaturals, mainly the Vampires, have come out and exposed themselves to co-exist with men after a Japanese discovery of Trueblood - a synthetic blood - that can sustain and give the nutrients Vampires needed to survive. It reduces or eliminates the need of having to feed on humans.

The author has creatively spun a nice web of romance and fantasy, on the account of perspective of Sookie Stackhouse, the protagonist of the novel. Charlaine Harris should have been discovered earlier, but i'm glad i found her just in time! She's still under contract of writing for 2-3 more books - which i really hope to catch up with - provided i find it in the library.

If you have time and really want to pick up on reading, this series of novel is the best way to start.
All the best! Enjoy!

The list of the books to source out:
(taken from wikipedia):

1. Dead Until Dark (2001, ISBN 0-441-00853-4)
2. Living Dead in Dallas (March 2002, ISBN 0-441-00923-9)
3. Club Dead (May 2003, ISBN 0-441-01051-2)
4. Dead to the World (May 2004, hardcover ISBN 0-441-01167-5, 2005, paperback ISBN 0-441-01218-3)
   
   
   • "Fairy Dust" from Powers of Detection (October 2004, ISBN 0-441-01197-7)
   • "Dracula Night" from Many Bloody Returns (September 2007, hardcover ISBN 0-441-01522-0)
   
   
   
5. Dead as a Doornail (May 2005, hardcover ISBN 0-441-01279-5, April 2006, audio book ISBN 1-4193-3730-0, paperback ISBN 0-441-01333-3)
   
   
   • "One Word Answer" from Bite (2005, ISBN 0-515-13970-X)
   
   
   
6. Definitely Dead (May 2006, hardcover ISBN 0-441-01400-3, audio book ISBN 1-4193-9326-X)
7. All Together Dead (May 2007, hardcover ISBN 0-441-01494-1)
   
   
   • "Lucky" from Unusual Suspects (December 2008, paperback, ISBN 0-441-01637-5)
   
   
   
8. From Dead to Worse (May 2008, hardcover ISBN 0-441-01589-4)
   
   
   • "Gift Wrap" from Wolfsbane and Mistletoe (October 2008, hardcover ISBN 0-441-01633-2)
   
   
   
9. Dead and Gone (May 2009, hardcover, ISBN 0-441-01715-0 / ISBN 978-0-441-01715-7)
10. A Touch of Dead (October 2009, hardcover, ISBN 0441017835 / ISBN 978-0441017836)
11. Dead in the Family (May 2010)

Oh Darling!

Lyrics | We The Kings lyrics - Check Yes Juliet lyrics

Oh darling, i love today. Despite having better days, i think today was extremely special.

I will remember this day and i hope you do too.

It's not an official day to remember, but i think that today (6-7th November 09) we told and displayed to each other how we felt.

From the time at the pantry to the time at the park, i have never really felt you the way i have today.

Either i didn't appreciate you enough or i succumb to whatever dislike i have felt for you.

You're someone i know i should trust and rely on. But i guess not now, at least not fully.

I trust you enough but with limitations simply due to the reason i have told you.

I know you understood and you see my view, i thank God for today giving us such a wonderful time and a good conversation.

It's not easy to swallow something that is very awful, but i guess you're right - we either work it out and move on or we don't until we are both pissed and decide that we have had enough.

I realize too that in a relationship, despite one being at fault, it doesn't mean that the other did not play a part.

In any case, as long as both are in the relationship, the fight is caused by the mistakes of both party.

I guess darling, we need to instill in us something like an apology session for the mistakes we have done.

I've guided you through about that, and i hope it gave you a nice feeling? :)

No matter how big or how small the mistake it, sincerely apologizing might abolish more negative emotions than expected.

There is more to us than just the turbulent moments, and as the days passes by, i find myself falling more and more for you. I do try to fight it but darling, i'm not winning.

You're someone i cannot fathom without despite me insisting i could.

I know how much you love me darling. Oh, i do.

And thank God that we have found each other.

I love you, very much.

<3 shenath thomas dias

It's not over

I just cannot fathom life without you.
I can tell you how much i can do without, or even run away for a long time.
But i cannot really keep you off my mind.
No matter how much i think i can hate you, it just get crushed to nothingness.

There are some things i can never swallow and a few injury that still hurts.
It caused me to bleed, and i feel that this hemorrhage will never cease.
I want to tell you so much what causes me to feel as such.
But i can't, simply because i have been hurt far too many times.

No point to vocalize, no point to be emotional.


Ironic isn't it? I'm emoting now.
I can't help myself.

~it's not over~

Lake Louise, Alberta

Soaking, originally uploaded by jurek d..

Another reason why Canada is such an enticing place to be.
Really lovely!

Picture from flickr by jurek d.
The photo is named "Soaking"

Interesting Quiz Results

Didn't attend Business Finance mod today.
Surprisingly, i slept like a baby til 2+pm, and i still wanted more.
(12hrs of sleep, damn that's a record for me lately.)

Nevertheless, i had to get up some time soon to do up my Social Behavior article, which finally is done.
So that means i can sleep well again tonight, just in time for tomorrow's editorial mod!

Anyway, just wanted to share two quizzes i found really hit me well. Like WOW.

Quiz #1 - What kind of mask do you wear?

Jean completed the quiz "What kind of mask do you wear?" with the result Purity.

Your mask is purity. You are always trying to be true to yourself. You don't care what others think is right or wrong, you always use your own judgment to decide. You often ignore the millions of rules people are trying to place on the way you should live your life, because you know they are meaningless and that you are a good person. Your intentions are usually pure, whether it's wanting to do something nice for someone, or just take some time for yourself. You understand that pure isn't perfect. You get angry, jealous, mean, sometimes stubborn, but you are who you are, and your mask isn't trying to hide it; it's just helping you get by the life you love and enjoy. .

Quiz #2 - What's your biggest weakness?

Jean completed the quiz "What's your biggest weakness?" with the result Jealousy.

You envy others, but you are also confident about yourself. But sometimes you wish you could be confident about yourself without the masks. You clean before people come over, even though you are typically a mess. You dress up or wear revealing clothes, show off your tan, tattoos, and body, because you feel like it will get attention and make you feel worth something. Sexiness is something you value, but you really want to be admired for your heart. You want someone to see through the masks and love you for you, but you sometimes don't know who that person is and you fear opening up to someone because you don't want to be hurt. You wish you could be like someone else, trade places just for a day, to see what it's like to be perfect. You like lists and getting things done, but you rarely finish them. You want to be loved, so badly, for who you are and you're just waiting for the right person to show you that it's okay to rest in who you were made to be, and not who you are always trying to be.

I never thought a quiz on FB can actually hit me on the right spot.

~swallowing broken emotions.... slower than expected~

Bruise, Cowardice, Embrace

Anyone who can touch can hurt your or heal
Anyone who can reach you can love you or leave you



"I bruise easily" by Natasha Bedingfield

Everyone can pretend they are great, they can wear a mask to hide from the world's prying eyes.
We can go day by day always surrounding ourselves with people to feel less lonely, but is that really the motive of being around people?
Or are we all just cowards who need presence of others to stop tears falling from our eyes.
Do we seek others' company so as to feel stronger, feeding off them unknowingly.

Are we really strong people we hope the world to see?
I'm sure we can go day in and day out disregarding the presence of the mask that help us go through the day with unscathed emotions and indifference.
Over time, the mask becomes us and it takes a special type of people who have been around you or who are patient and observant enough, to understand why we wear such masks.

Are you like this? Can you openly admit to someone you are, if not to yourself?

If you can't admit this trait to yourself, you're a coward.
What is much worst is that you are a coward to deny that you are indeed a coward.
A pitiful state to be in.

I know i have led this life.
I'm going to have to lead it again.
To prevent hurt, pain and the reality of suffering.
All i have to know is that i always need to be practical and reasonable to myself.

Leading such a life again doesn't mean i'm going to stop loving or whatever.
Leading such a life might actually avoid unnecessary negative vibes.
Embrace your cowardice act, get in touch with it and eventually, learn to deal with it.

~riding the low with style~

Work and Love (updates)

Since last Tuesday, i have been working under the cold calling group of Showcraft EVN, an events company handling various types of events such as Gala Dinner, Dinner and Dance, Product launches and more.
They have serviced Starhub, LG, Prime Minister's Office, Supreme Court and more big names in various types of industries.

My job is rather simpler compared to most telemarketing job.
How i market and handle consumers are really different, however, this is no saying that i do an easy job.
It gets tougher as the day goes by when you haven't find the right person to talk to, and there are receptionists who just love making your life much difficult.
There are also company personnels who are usually in a rush and have no time to communicate and you are forced to drop them an email instead, which you know will never be able to reach them the way you can do verbally.

My job scope does not require me to sell products or any ideas really. My job is to look for appointments with companies who practices Dinner and Dance, or any form of events really, inform them that Showcraft EVN is intrested to render their services and attain information required by our events producer(s).
In all, remarks of companies matter!
Also, LUCK!

Pay is really not bad. It's per shifting, roughly above $6 per hour, more than any other job that i have taken up. But the paper work is very tedious too, definitely.
In all actually, everything is fun and to think about it, it is really an eye opener to the events company in Singapore. This is the first time i have worked in this industry and line, and when school reopens, let's just hope that i will be able to do events coordinating for their upcoming events on weekends:) It should be fun!

---

Since last week, Shenath and yours truly, were never on the same page and has always been on each other's neck. A lot of misunderstandings and fault finding really.
Gets really tiring but despite it all, i guess every couple need to ask if you want to better the situation or do you want to remain this way.
Of course there are the good and bad, the happy and the sad, but there's always be just love.
Idealistic or so it seems, love need not be perceived negatively and with unwillingness or doubts.
Love itself is not what makes the relationship a good or bad thing really, do you know what it is?
I think i do.

It's your action that creates the impact of how love is supposed to be.
It is you who determines if you want the negative or the positive side of your relationship. Really.
And therefore, i shall stress that positive thinking and a little bit of hard work on being nice and thinking positive will bag you a nice day with your other half.

Try it and believe.

---

After work today, Shenath picked me up from work and we headed to where the fun is.
It was a nice time spent and we enjoyed whatever outcome of it all, of course the cozy and warmth feeling you get when you are with your loved one just increases and heighten your emotions.
After that, we headed to downtown east chalet for Lyn's bf, Aaron's birthday.
We stayed for an hour, saw a St. Hilda's schoolmate who exclaimed non-stop how toned down i am and how much i have changed - drastically.
LOL i really guess it was cause she was used to the dramatic aspect of me. HAHA.

After these, shenath and i had a really great talk. Communication was profoundly great and we are hoping more of it to come.

I love you darling. Mwahs!

finally, something to share.

Tropical storm ketsana/undoy

(courtesy: abs-cbn news online)

I didn't expect how grave the situation in Manila will be what with the tropical storm reaching just signal 1.
I was frustrated really, as mum and i watched the news on our premium cable channel TFC, we can't help but wonder together with the news anchor:


Where are the rescue teams?
What is taking them so long?
How come the response is very inefficient?
How come only the family men in the country are shown in the footage to be the only ones doing the rescue?
How come there was no officials, and how come only have helicopters TODAY only?



There are various other questions that puzzles us and im sure the filipino expats here in Singapore will feel the same when i see the footages.
It's quite disheartening that it seems as if the were not being efficient.
But as the situation's gravity increases, only then do we get tons of response.

I must say, however, that it is great that the rich and the famous are doing their best to help the government and the media to increase the efficiency of the rescue.
Some lend their speed boat, life jackets, rubber boats and the stars contacted their endorsers to provide food and drinks to the casualties.

However, it still feels very saddening to hear text messages saying that they need help, that they are trapped, their loved one lay dead on the kitchen and is unmovable as the water is not receding.
Another story yesterday, a group of kids dropped into the water when the bridge they were passing over gave way, and i wish their souls to rest in peace.
Also, there was a pregnant women who gave birth today, apparently who has been trapped from yesterday.

I am still worried however, i cannot contact my family in The Philippines.
Im sure my clan is okay cos one of the officials i contacted assured that my subdivision has no death and only experienced  but i'm not sure about my dad and my extended family, who lives by the valley.
The worst thing is that even the former governor's residential, who is a family friend and who lives somewhere near my dad, is reportedly submerged.
The entire town has submerged and i just hope dad and my half siblings are okay and so those family friends.

I just hope that even if dad is with the MMDA officials, he'll be okay rescuing those casualties.
I've never really felt so panicked as i have felt today.

But honestly, i hope that the Philippine government and local town governments to increase their efficiency and increase the speed of their process of rescue in any disasters.
It gets really frustrating, and if im already feeling like this, what more those casualties.

Nevertheless, the Filipino media is commendable in reaching to various helplines, the rich, the famous, the government officials etc. It has always been the media in my country that presses all these officials...
Kudos to abs-cbn, but of course to the various relief group.

Sympathies goes to the casualties, the dead and of course the rescue officials that have been recovered dead just awhile back today.

Links about the storm:
Link1
Link 2

To filipinos, you can hear all the updates here.
DZMM

To pinoys who want to help:
Click here

heal the world.

I wanted to post about my weekends, but something egged me on to go to youtube and typed in 'heal the world'
and then of course Michael Jackson's song 'Heal the World' was at the top of the list.

So i clicked it.

I watched it.



& then i teared.
From the start to the finish.

and yet, the world is still not safe.
the world still needs peace, and we are all fighting for it.
what if no matter how hard we try, it'll never going to be healed?
in the first place, who are the main culprits that damaged it?
who or what?
or is it always meant to be like this?
i hope not.


& for Michael Jackson, rest in peace.
despite the charges put on you, nevertheless, you and your songs always have a place in our hearts.

with love,
MJ (Mary Jean)

what a day.

i know it's late, a quarter to the witching hour actually, but my brain is still active, and is eager to convey the day's event.

nothing spectacular really, but what made it worthwhile was the fact that Jeanath had a nice day out.

that no matter the entirety of the day's happening, whether we had to travel to school to return a damn hard disk, which as a matter of fact, is weeks-old overdue,
and that we had to bus back down to town,
and having enticed by The Cathay, we missed our movie timing for Gerard Butler's The Gamer, over at Cathay Cineleisure, because The Cathay looked and felt nicer.
We also had to sit in for the Final Destination 4, despite being reluctant, we just sat in and watched the movie.
Then Shenath understood the reason why i didn't want to see another Final Destination series again.



So how i found it?

SAME SAME.

SAME PLOT.
SAME GORE.
SAME ADRENALINE RUSH.

Any difference?

NOT REALLY.

IT JUST GOT GORY.
TO ATTRACT AND SELL THE 4TH SERIES OF THE -

SAME PLOT
SAME GORE
SAME ADRENALINE RUSH

I swear if they make another movie from this, i'm going to flip.
Can't they tweak the damn story line?
What if someone did find the way to trick Death.
C'mon! My life's been threatened like a few times already, so why am i still alive now?
From birth i was supposed to have died, and so why hasn't death come for me?

Yawns. (note to death: im not asking you to come for me k. it's just my thoughts of the movie.)

Oh well, MOVIES!
just freaks the hell out of you.

Okay so after the movie, we met up with Boon, one of Shenath's networking classmates.
But we en route to Sakura for dinner - thai fried rice for me again! (:

I think i'm really going to develop MLM phobia.
and how now brown cow are we going to be polite and turn down monday afternoon's appointment.
first Venture Era, now... Amway.
Oh my oh my.

& eventually, the fight and test of my friendship will Laura was conquered.
i'd thought that it was it, no more friendship, but then again, i guess i do mean a lot to her, just as she does to me.
i guess we are just entering a phase in the friendship department, just as how fights can bring couples closer, it does help to know the bad parts of your friend and if your friendship is good enough, acceptance is in order.

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So anyway, i would like to end off this post with a short lovey dovey message for my dearest boyfriend, and words of encouragement for my bestfriend.

darling, i love you as i have been loving you for these two years, and counting.
there are times we can never see eye to eye, but we gotta accept that we are for each other,
down and always around.
it's hard to accept sometimes, and it's hard to fight the tidal waves of negative emotions,
but i know i can see you as my husband.
we need to grow on our own pace and respect each others limits and also celebrate each others' strength.
i love you, always, and more.

---

and to a couple that might be over, i just hope u both take a deep breath and weigh the situation.
don't always assume that the other is wrong all the time, ask yourself your fault and not push the blame on each other over and again. eventually, ask yourselves, do you love each other? and do you love each other to give each other a rest when everything is suffocating? do you love each other to make sure that love prevails?
easier said than done, but hey, i have done it. we, jeanath, as a couple has done it.
and so why shouldn't you? any of you?
i'm sure it's just a test.
you guys can't see how much you love each other, but i know you guys do.
A LOT.
so don't give up. but jeanath suggest to keep calm and have a breathing period so you guys can think on each others' shortcomings.
and hey, when you both have fresh mind, it'll be worth it to come together and make up.. then make love. haha *winks*

best regards,
Jeanath

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Everyday is a NEW day.

So yesterday, it wasn't eventually such a great day, due to a sudden stumble in the love dept.
But i guess thinking positive creates the magnet for positive events to occur in my life.
I have a strong belief in the power of the mind, as well as karmic balance of individuals.

I also believe in aura and the philosophical nature of life.
That's why sometimes, quote-of-the-day phrases can inspire me.
It can get to me and create a form of drive, for real.
I try to find the gees and mechanism of these quotes, and how they are formed, made popular and actually create a form of significance to me, and many others.

I'm not really posting this to talk about quotes of the day, or of philosophical matters etc.
I just wanted to share with you all that you should welcome these aspects in your life, these positive thoughts, aura etc, if you seek comfort and a new form of peace within (:

First step: Breathe in, breathe out.
Next: Think that you want the good outcome from the day
Next: Think positive
Next (most important): Practice positivity.
Last: Thank the higher power, God, nature, etc.

Finally, i want to share with you that if you have been feeling that change is in the air.
Be it in economy, politics, environmental, health, and your personal life.
There is an astrological reason for this really.
Believe it or not, i think astrology is a study that shouldn't be taken lightly nor with the regard that it is nonsensical.
Sure those psychic fakes, those daily horoscope that say you will be the luckiest person today or the otherwise, can be disregard in credibility, but i'm saying the real studies of planetary movements and the astronomical aspect of astrology.

Oh and to come back to my point, the reason that amazes me is this:

"Saturn and Uranus will be exactly opposite each other again on September 15, forming what is known as an 'opposition' in astrology -- two planets positioned 180 degrees apart. This is the third of five such oppositions that started on November 4, 2008, and it will continue until July 26, 2010. These oppositions always come in a cycle, and happen approximately every 45 years. The last time these two planets formed oppositions was 1965 to 1967, and before that from 1918 to 1920. The Saturn-Uranus opposition that sent us on a roller coaster ride last fall and earlier this year returns for an encore to evoke more major shifts, both in your personal life and globally. Think back to November 2008 and February 2009 - what was happening in your life back then?"

Think of these changes:

(hotlineoncall.nationaljournal)

1. US appointed its very first African American President.

2. Japanese ruling party failing to get votes and support after many years of being in power.
3. Health peace changes: discovery of bird flu and then swine flu, and the potential threat of having these two virus combined.
4. On the lighter note, Facebook clinched majority usage in Singapore from Friendster within these timings, dun you think? :D yey for facebook.

of course there are more, even within your inner self, your family, your loved one, everyone.
there is this call for change that seems very appalling, yet needed.
and to think, there's a particular force that ensures this.

think on this.
enjoy!

changes.

I am glad that finally, i have had a change of blogskin.
It has been quite a while since i actually liked something from blogskins.com, that i need not edit much.

Of course, before this, i was actually stuck to two different types of skin, and thank goodness i found this.
It's hard to find a simple but nice one.

Well, it's 1.57am.
Not asleep yet, due to this blogskin changes, facebook, and nevertheless, a sudden outburst of yet another, FIGHT.

Sometimes mundanity is quite better than the sudden fluctuation in the day's event.


But then again, a part of me begs to differ.
There's this itch in me that go against this sudden notion of a mundane type of life.
Oh hell, i will rather have the ups and downs of life, than get stuck still in the day-in-day-out activities.

But then again, i guess i say this out of tiredness.

Anyway, i haven't blogged lately over here really, and this has a good reason really.
I am currently building my portfolio, my aspirational line of work, that creates endless possibility in the creative industry.
I am rather enthusiastic about this endevours, and needless to say, i am hoping to put my best into this, and who knows it might get big and eventually become a form of establishment of my career.

I always love the idea of being my own boss, but i know that requires A LOT.
A lot of sweat and labor, which i am prepared really.
So please wish me all the best for my aspirations, as best as i can wish you all of yours.

All of us has aspirations, and i would like to share this motivational quote;
If you follow your passion, success will follow you.

Back with a promise.

I know i haven't been posting and i know it's been super awhile since i even posted a decent content, and so here i am again, back and of course ready to fulfill the calling (of blogger)

There are A LOT that has gone on and is going on, around, about, and everywhere with me.
Well, not to sound rather major BIG, what i meant is that so far, i realize that i have really been more focused on some things that is working out as a freelance activity, or an enduring passion. Also, as i reached a point of maturity, but of course, upon reach that stage, i must say i still have a lot to learn and more rice to eat, to be able to say that i'm all that ((:

With age comes new perspectives, new hopes and also with that comes new fears.
As i learn to love more, enjoy more and live my life to what my aspirations may be, i guess i will have to learn to take a break and sit down, to evaluate the present to create a certain outlook towards my future.

The future is always hazy and so i must say that the present is a definite motivator, a gauge really, and the past is what educates and comforts.

Eventually, it takes a form of digestion on our part pertaining reality of what can really be and what can't.
Sometimes, fear takes over and instead of trying out our passion, we tend to back away as we feel that if we fail, that passion is just wasted, thus we feel that we will lose the passion eventually with enough failure.

But i beg to differ because passion is never-ending, and it shouldn't be. It is what fuels your heart to go on and beat stronger everyday of your life. With passion comes the thirst for knowledge, and as the day pass by, knowledge becomes wisdom.
But how much knowledge can one really possess? How much knowledge are we really prepared to take?
And how much of that knowledge ripen and turn to real wisdom?

I am learning to empty my cup of knowledge wherever i go and should go, so as i can learn more and more than i can presently.
It's not very easy to come to terms with emptying our cup of knowledge because we need to show everyone that we are very knowledgeable, and we have content to show we are people of high caliber and standards.
That is very human for us to do and if we don't, it makes us Saints, which in this era, is very hardly.
But trying alone, is what can differentiate you from others. So if you want to be different, try it.

(source: souldeamor)

The real challenge of knowledge is to really learn from scratch.
To really breathe in and take in whatever that is given onto us despite knowing that we do things in a particular manner and are already comfortable with it.
However, being individuals who have learnt, seen and absorbed enough knowledge, we must realize that throughout the entire globe, knowledge is everywhere, in every nook and cranny of this world we can find knowledge, but most are really hard to accept.
The bigger knowledge or what i call, the phenomenal idea, are the most hardest to grasp.
It takes a real person who have accepted many different kinds of knowledge to accept phenomenal ideas. I think that the secret to learning greater knowledge is when we stopped at acceptance and do not let them infiltrate our nature and mutate us to something that becomes horrid and eventually... MAD.

(source:roxiebill@photbucket)

Sometimes, when i see lunatics, it never fail to make me think this:
That these people are one of the most potently knowledgeable people around, but eventually they let it get to them or they are not strong enough to resist the temptation of having those knowledge infiltrate them and ruin their entire brain system.
Call me idealistic but i don't think any scientist can say i am thoroughly wrong, because in this world, mind is power.
But i guess why lunatics become what they are is due to a common reason: people who turn mad easily are those who have weaker personality and are easily infiltrated in the mind.

Alright, i have written too much of my thoughts, and i know that i should shut up now.
Since i am talking about perspectives, knowledge and evaluating the present, maybe you people who are in need to have a decent alone time away from everything but yourself of course, why not try going to pulau ubin?

I went there and it did help release the city stress and as u breathe in fresher air, your mind becomes healthier(:
Take a look! Have fun with the entire album.

not the expected end of my 20th year

well, in about 2days and a few hours, as stated above, i will be bidding adieu to my 20th year.
as my 20th year ends, i know that i have learnt a few things that are valuable and beneficial.

this isn't going to be my personal view or take of what i have gone through and learnt in the 20th year.
but i'm writing just to make myself feel better.

so on my birthday, which is 23rd August 2009, i really don't know what i should be doing.
I know i'd want to go for Mass to ask for forgiveness, blessings and of course faith and strength.
There are ordeals in my life currently, some that are inevitable and some that are still in transit.
Despite all that, i know i can survive it all and make it.

but as of now, i'm still quite buried, and honestly, i don't think birthdays are fab if one of your loved ones is not feeling the vibe just because there are some decisions that are already made.
so what if we're establishing friendship, does that mean that one can't be merry and be there for me when despite it all, i am still loved and cared for by that individual.
i don't get it.

well, nevermind i guess.
honestly, i want to just escape. maybe i'll do that.
have been wanting to for awhile now. at least get out and smell fresh air...
it'll be nice.

loves.

Gossip Girl News: Sneak Preview! :)

Soon after having another row, just after our 2 year anniversary, because i was 'disconnected' for 2 hours DOING SOMETHING for him, i just quit that and read some stuff at one of my favorite sites.

To gossip GossipGirl lovers, you will love this even more!

"Our top line: "Take your American girl hair, you pore-less skin and get out!" - Blair"

Moblog>Today's creation(:

Stir-fried macaroni with customized ingredients!

My creation(:
If i can do it, why not you?

So listen to the calling in your head if you'd like to try cooking something that isnt by the book!
It'll be worth it(:

Try it NOW!

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We're at EMC Swissotel having hi tea.
Buffet proved to be a worst challenge of the day!
We cant handle!

HELP!!!

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Thank Goodness for KFC..
Despite being mostly kitchen chicken, they have a relatively great fresh salad!

Affordable too!
Next salad hunt, SUBWAY!!

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Merry-go-rounds!

That makes you want to wish you're a child again, and enjoy the childhood you wish to feel again.

But nevertheless, it is something we can't bring back but can only find comfort in, to find out how you made it this far.

There's the fantasy feeling these childhood objects brings that you can never say goodbye to.

That whether it is a merry-go-round or see-saws or swings, there is that item or structure that gives you a sense of (be)longing.

Most Envied Laptop in Class

It's small.
It's light.
It's sleek.

It's Eee Pc by Asus.

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Kinda have to sit still for the next 15mins listening to the last speaker, who, mind you, is quite boring! The first speaker was good.. Until the third and the fourth ruined it.. Coca cola Asia Has jus shown us the preview of their music video!
twas nice... Look out fr it..
Glad to be the first batch in the public to have seen an unreleased advertisement by the Master brand coke!

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Is this mouth watering or what?!
But im trying not to lay hands on it..
Ima have my subway dinner later in the evening!
For my guilt-free meal of the day!

Ebile post: Farewell Mrs Cory Aquino

Yesterday at the wee hours of the night, unknown to us filipinos living abroad. Our democratic mother has passed away at the age of 76 at around 3am on the Saturday midmorning. I read of whatever she did for The Philippines, toppling over Dictator Marcos with the bloodless rally People Power. She was the most revered authority icon in Asia. Being a filipino woman, i praise and take into compliment the power of a filipino lady who does things righteously. My condolence goes to the Aquino and Cuangco clan.

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Why is fever catching up on me?

Yes, fever has once again caught up on me.


Hate the feeling it gives, and the amount of time it consumes instead of having done something productive.


This week, i'm working only one day - which was yesterday. (Monday)
Too bad for me because that means i have to work more on the other days.
However, i feel that hey it is for a good special cause :)


Ana and Shenath's birthday is fast approaching.
Gosh Gosh!


I just hope that great things will come out of these days!
Wish me all the best! =)

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Things have been really wtf with Shenath and I.
There are a lot of horrid things that can happen despite the amount of love shared by two people.
We don't know how such undesirable events can occur but i guess not looking into the easy way out might actually be satisfying in the end.
I have to thanks Shenath for this, for teaching me to hang on and see what's in store, rather than just moving forward in the 'easy' path.


It's not exactly a satisfying feeling while undergoing the infinite hurt and pain that relationships can bring forth to couples, but when the storm has stopped and both of you can breathe again,
that's when you learn to appreciate the complexity as a way of how nature deals with all things human.


The hurt and the pain won't go away.
But i guess despite the fact that a couple has reached the point where enough is enough,
nothing is ever enough.


Nevertheless, despite it all...
Love Remains The Same.

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THE SKY

That makes you feel awestruck, that you wish you could just ignore gravity and go towards it and reach it.

But it gives you a sickening feeling because in a brief second of fantasizing you know the fact that gravity is not ignorable.

And that no matter how much you wish to be able to fly upwards to the sky and say goodbye to the land, you just can't.

That just this mere element of nature can actually teach you about reality.

Damn it!

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SMILEY FACES

That makes you smile along too and say OMG that's so cute.
And then you realize that it had just made you feel lighter after smiling.

So, do this today... SMILE =)



even tho sometimes, it does seem hard to bring out one

Been awhile

So after Wednesday comes Thursday.


Definitely.


School has apparently up the measures to protect its students from h1n1 virus.
How?


1. Students cannot enter classes without thermometer and those without, or with spoiled ones, are to be sent home
2. Students are only to head down to buy food at specified times

Thermometers are sold for $6 when outside it can cost at $3.95 at ValueDollar.
So instead of cutting the charges for the sake of it being an institute, they are overcharging us.
Don't talk about quality because the buttons on the thermometer needs a certain push to be switched on.
And then the beep to tell you that temperature taking can only be heard when no one talks in class, and there's no other source of noise

For 2, the lunch curfew that was imposed is definitely not fool-proof.
So it's kinda useless too.
So anyway, that is not the topic of today.


These are;
For lunch time on thursday, shenath and i indulge into camwhoring!





More or less it starts after school.
The night's plan is to actually head down to the beach and just have some fun.
And so we did just that, but we had dinner first of course.





Turns out really great.
Haven't been like that for the both of us 
and that night kinda stood as a reminder of how much fun things was.


I must admit being in a relationship is never easy, no brainer actually.
There are full of ups and downs, but no matter which direction you both are now,
something just pushes you back to the opposite sides of things.
Definitely sucks when you're at the ups, and then like gravity, life just pulls you back down.
Vicious cycle, yeah.
But in all aspect, i guess that's how nature deals with things.


Acceptance is the key.
But i guess the real question is, can you accept accepting?
Yeah, that's harder than the thought of acceptance.


But there's one thing i have accepted though.


That is i really do love him.

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Then on friday,

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It was fun!

Last Wednesday, hung out with Nurul.
Been quite awhile since we had dinner or even went out.



Got sunflowers from the the current garden of a workplace, for Nurul.
The good thing about giving good friends flowers is that it's sweet, and so why don't you all buy a stalk or two, just to say your appreciation for that friends.
Oh and get yellow flowers to let it speak for your intent :)
However, the yellow flower that refers to friendship or gratitude is yellow roses.
I improvised with sunflowers, and guess what? it meant Loyalty. How sweet...

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To find out meanings of flowers to give your friends or your special someone, and not just stick to roses or whatever... Click Here!
Sometimes, to go from the cliched group of flowers and getting them with the intent of showing a meaning, it's best to get flowers according to the meaning that experts have given them.

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We went for dinner.
And guess what, the curry noodle i so craved for was horrendous!
I felt cheated off my $5
It's sooooo diluted! Ewww disgusting really.

Does it look nice to ya'll?

So anyway, after dinner we went to get some things - minor SHOPPING!

By this time some of the flowers in my hands have already gone retarded.
Good thing her's still intact.

I got some things too.



A cap and of course, hairband! :)

After awhile we had to go our separate ways and get home.
And as this time comes, so does the lifespan of the flower: