Updates!

in due reason of my anni with shenath, i delayed this post that you are currently reading..
and in this post too shall contain my day with shenath just now just an hr past since the 9th...
our first quarter somewhat-celebration =)

so last on the 8th i went to meet jan rick to take the camera and then apparently he insisted i eat with him at Mr Teh Tarik shop at i-dont-which-part-of-tampines

best guy friend ever... =)


we walked like after such a long time and then reached the place
there i saw my cousing Bir...


and of course my 2hot cafe colleagues, plus surprisingly my secondary school friend - who said it looks as if i gained 20 Kg since last year. can u imagine that! -.- haiz

okay i didnt gain 20 kg fyi.. at least not 20. lol but i did gain lah obvious. lol
anyway, there jan got us nasi pattaya seafood and then indian rojak!



later on on the way back, we totally encountered something somewhat freaky /:
nvm about that at least we are okay. i dont want to think about it too now..

so after meeting jan, had to say some excuse to shenath so that i can do the baking properly without having to keep replying to his smses.
yes, i made shenath some cake =)

and the pictures below are the things that i did for him for our first quarter =)
1. Filipino dessert cake =)


food symbolizes nurturing - in this case our early relationship still needs to be nurtured

2. Poem in a selfmade card


the poem symbolizes words of love - in this case to nurture this relationship proper words and of course the right words should be said between the couples e.g. more talking and getting to know

3. Stitching
*supposedly it was to look like this. then i lost count so had to fix it.
so instead of this cupid holding the heart...
i was lucky enough to at least know how to do wordings. lol


the stitching symbolizes the efforts - in this case to nurture the rship one needs to place in efforts for things to work out cos with words and knowing the other half is not enough to nurture the relationship, effort is greatly needed

so then i combined the stitching and the poem together.



to nurture the relationship with verbal communication and putting in effort at the early stage is what i have pieced together after some looking up on the net and some stuff i read.
and so...
this is the reason why i did all these for him.
to those who are starting out... maybe u can get some ideas for your anni or anni-monthlies(:

different people see things differently, and this is how i usually show gratitude at least once every 3 months but of course not forgetting the day every month no matter how short it may be.
because every day together counts. what more months? and so later come years if it is so meant to be =)

today. we spent the day at his place eating up the cake i made.
he hasn't really tasted the Filipino dessert before... and this time i added cheese on it
he likes cheesy tastes. lol lucky it was a success...
and no he didn't run to the toilet afterwards ok!
anyway, he got for me a bracelet and a pair of precious-stones earring - i dont know how he knows i like em
but that really is sweet of him =)

[he explained the properties of these stones and i guess it might be Chiastolite or something]
then i suspect onyx is also in the bracelet. lol i dont know... i guess... but whatever, i loike it!
but these two are quite heavy for their supposed weight in my mind. haha

*thanks darling!!

then in the afternoon, we had lunch then headed to tampines to get the ticket from GV to watch
THE GAME PLAN. lol
we spent the evening till the early night laughing madly in the cinema
and of course exchanging kisses here and there. lol
the movie damn fun really.. go and watch it people. you'll laugh like crazy! haha

so after getting the ticket we had two hours to spend, so we headed to an M1 dealer to get my new phone!
lol this phone, no matter how supposedly hit the market with 10 billions sale alongside SGH D500, is still quite an OLD phone.
the phone itself is chic and despite its color resolution not meeting what i wanted, i am happy at at least i am happy with something i spent on. =)
usually id end up regretting. i hope i wont regret lah =)

and of course i got new M1 line. so come ask for my no asap k =)
and im still looking for the third call buddy. so if ur an m1 user and we even talk at all, let me know =)
first time using m1. i really hope i dont blow it! uggh i would so kill myself then... -.-

then after spending for a new pair of contact lenses, i am BROKE -.-
at least semi-broke. no more extra cash... boo hoo!
well anyway... pictures!!!

^he's enthralled by the starwars archade game. lol
^then he was taking...
^ my PICTURE! =) and i... am taking his.. lol
^then he wanted to take a proper one of me... there! cheese! (=
^this one was taken when we were on the way to get my phone -.- when he was complaining he was sleepy.
^he just had to look away at the wrong timing. this cud have been a nice pic

lol okay. i think these are all the pic i have...
i enjoyed myself on my first quarter.
now we look forward to the next quarter but first.. we shall see how another month will be going on =)

okay. it's late... im tired... good night!

jean loves shenath

Whatever

So much for doing an RJ on "what would you do if you dont have INTERNET ACCESS on a weekday"

it's as if it has happened or like im being punked and whatever nonsensical stuff i can really think about.
i can stand not doing RJ in the day, knowing that today's Module Facilitator is reasonable enough to accept my would-be reason for not doing today's RJ.

but the agitation gets irritating when i am in the rush to check something, chat with someone (regarding the event tomorrow) and basically just talk to the peeps online.
it gets more irritating because the event needs me to do emcee-ing.
this is really going to go so 'unprepared' or what you call, semi-impromptu.
i have to always put into mind what Gareth said about emcee-ing.
FIRST IMPRESSION COUNTS.

it fascinate me though how i get to be chosen by the Salsa Team to do for them this event.
i so totally know that this is going to a good/rude awakening or say, eye opening, for emceeing.

three fears
1. i talk nonsense
2. i get thrown eggs by audience
and the worst...
3. i dont attraction attention enough!

the salsa team will kill me. okayy whatever it is,
note to self : DO YOUR BEST

Let me recount today...
Came to school late on purpose. Went to the coffeeshop to meet ABC with a guess, Meerza, and of course, Jan - the all thim V.I.P guest in ABC.
today is Yihao's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY

my gift was a little bit retarded but i hope he likes it.
it was so coincidental that Vanessa did something like mine too.
But of course, it was more especial and romantic for her BF =))
we had chocolate 'emicakes' cake. superb...
anyway, it was a little bit retarded in school too.

jan rick mascarina brought me Absolute vodka Pear in a tuperware water bottle.
it was really HARD but at the same time it make my senses go sensitive.
my throat was burning cold. it was exhilirating!
so i drank most of the gulps during class and breaks.
up till Shen knew what it was. he request for me to give him the majority.
he drank it instead, and apparently dragging that 1.75/3 amount of vodka made him a bit retarded. lol

after school he reported what happened in class.
imagine he was making fun of me being a little tipsy all and he himself scolded the teacher "chee bye" just because she dont let him go for some rugby meeting. she eventually let him go, if not, id be waiting like one mad woman for him just now.

it was a real experience drinking during school hours.
i swear i did it not to do anything like toughening up or some sort.
i just wanted to try it. im leaving my teenhood in like 1 year and xx days.
okay, well today was a little bit more fun than usual.
but i bet tomorrow will be much much more! =))

Shen was saying that i can do it, just show my ass or whatever.
then when i said okay, id wear micro skirt and show off. hahaha, he ask me to wear LONG skirt, or denim. haha
majority of my denims are in the laundry! haha
whatever...

oh and before i forget the worst of the day.
i was so tensed for a few long minutes.
I LOST MY WALLET.
i only realize it after some time in the late afternoon, when i was walking to causeway to meet ABC.
so i went to my classroom and RPC and thank GOD that it was reported by someone.
I LOST THE WALLET AT BUS 169 IN THE MORNING.

bless that person who returned it, untampered.
my mum-permitted-platinum mastercard is in there!!! id just die.
Shen was really sweet today... gave me moral support. hahaha
Uggh he's always sweet. He's like too good to be true...
I dont know if i deserve someone so sweet.
I hope he's for real though... i have to stick and find out right?
then again, the problem is that, what if i happen to really develop real fondness of him? but then we seem as if we're not working out, or so he decided to dump me for whatever reasons guys can surprisingly come up with, how then?
im so going to get crushed again.
somehow i dont know if i should dive in deeper.
it's safer to be on the guard ALWAYS.
but being on the safe side means that i have to let go of the nice things that GOD has given me.

then again, when the time come..
1. i end up really liking him
2. he dumps me
*whichever comes faster, then and there i have to be spontaneous right? whatever it be, i did have fun and been treated really nice by someone i am attracted to.

okay. i have to run now.
UT tomorrow!
ima hve to post this tomorrow.

=))

yesterday i was totally not in the mood, in anything that is.
the only apparent mood i was in was either im too happy or im too quiet - if u call that moods...

i only remember laughing madly or shutting up entirely.
shen should know! haha i wasnt in the mood for anything.
yesterday in class was hilarious tho, i was team up with the couple (vans and yihao), sahidah and nisha. we made quite a lot of noise talking about which ghost should represent which.
apparently i got the breast ghost - hantu tetek.
it's quite the contrary tho, i have big and juicy ass, not breast. im only a B-cup and they call me hantu tetek? retardation.
so nisha as usual get the calling pontianak, sahidah was the chinese vampire, yihao is the pocong and vanessa is toyol - i know... i dont kno what i was doing really

(this makes me happy too)

the mood of happiness or basically just outburst of laughter irritated even myself.
i wonder how Shen stand these moods im getting. it's retarded.
anyhoo, i had some talk with him.
apparently, boys out there who have been trying to figure me out can go to Shen to ask any queries - he's working double shift digging in me deeper =))
apparently, he wants to know 'this girl i ....' i shall leave the dots a mystery
okayy. absolute as it may seem, i am feeling rather emotional.
i think, yes, that's the word, emotional.
over what? nothing. it's the damn period
moody before the period, normal during the period and anger outburst after the period.
OMG shen is so going to suffer...

shen and i are somewhere in the line of friends and more...
we are still on that path. we are having fun and i guess id know if we'll ever really happen.
if im still feeling as if we are not, it would be up to him to make me feel as such.
so far we are really good on communicating what we feel and how we see things.
i admire people who are independent - at least those who are somewhere there.. - cos for nuts, im not independent really. that's a good thing about being a girl
anyhoo, yesterday when shen sent me to the bus interchange, we saw his classmates.
i so wanted to run and hide. haha i mean i dont think it should be fair to us being found out when we are still "on the way"
i have nothing against our closer friends knowing about us and all.
my readers basically wont know who the hell im talking about anymore. only some here...
RP readers should just keep a close watch if you're really that psychotic to know.
but please dont link me to some strange retard. haha

okayy. today was quite fun too.
ALIENS ARE INVADING!


- we have two days to inform the whole world about it.
how and what to do? this is the most retarded communication topic that is brought up ever. haha
my team did fine. not the best but it dont really matter, we conveyed and stood our grounds rather well =))

was with shen most of the time. i didnt see jan today tho =((
cos he left me in the morning and we didnt meet for lunch - went with Shen.
i know, it's like Shen, Shen, Shen... what can i do?
well, ive been spending and talking to him most of the time.
apparently he's gathering information about me and my character. i told him to make a book out of it. haha
okayy. after school today, met him again and went to his hostel and hung out with this friends. uggh his dorm totally is GUYS DORM - it's awful!
only one of the guys' BED AREA is clean!

okay whatever it was. we spend like 45 mins being together and ended up getting late for both our other commitments!
and and i gave him BUTTERFLY KISSES.


i like those kisses a lot and uggh however, whenever i think of that, i remember giving it to daryl. stop stop stop. brainwash
but however, Shen didn't get the REAL butterfly kiss i always give my bfs..
recalling: i dont think i gave one to ivan tho...
okayy whatever... it dont matter..

so today went for emcee meeting. yay! =))
we are going to be handed out events to host. it really is cool.
however, it so totally make me sooo packed this holiday.

3 weeks = 21 days
class chalet - at least 2 day 1 night
weblog camp - 3 days
2-4 days of workshops - journalism & emcee-ing
so far, that's 11 days gone and more to come...

today at emcee meeting it got me thinking of doing a podcast.
anyone has any ideas to do on? something that you think i can pull off?
dont ask me to do comedy. it'll will suck. =D

emcee meeting was like too fast and too long...
fast cos i was 10mins late. missed the introduction part. uggh wasted.
also, it was a bad first second impression.lol
then it was long because i was suppose to meet Yan - has been waiting for like 45mins or so
gosh. so he fetched me and we went to seafood place at tampines.
been long since i been there.
well, my bums hurt due to the travel there on the motor, it has been like months and months that i ride it.
miss going riding with my dear ling. haiz...
and of course i do miss my good ol' biker friends.. =((

okay anyhooo... i have to go.
im lacking sleep... but school is fun as usual.
however before i end my day today.
i want to do an advance greeting -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FREN, YIHAO

best wishes...

goodnight....

updates

so (1st August) went with ABC to City Square.
first time i went over the custom to JB with friends!
it was really fun and retarded at the same time.
fun because ABC is fun, retarded because Cody is part of it and he irritates the light out of me.
okay, diverting back to the updates.

it all started with late lunch.
[apologies] sorry for being one and half hour late, uber sorry
anyway, after getting fags, we all decided to go for some late lunch at the VIVO.
it was alright there basically but everyone thought it was not.
after the meal, we went shopping!

after that we all ate AGAIN..
yihao intro to us Portuguese egg tart - super nice.
so was the chicken! yum yum.
anyway, after such a long and tiring day going in and out of the custom, it was still really fun!
reached home at 1230am - if im not wrong. haha
my memory is getting poorer by the days - that is ubber sad!
shucks, anw ABC planning to go another round to City square.
I WANT TARTS!

okay anyway, 2 august.

we all went to school and then decided to skip after the second meeting.
surprisingly, i still manage to clinch a C - hehe
we had some lame conflict where to head to.
at first we settled to go to changi and then all these and those.
eventually, we went to Hougang Mall, to get Cod's laptop skin.
for some apparent reason, he cant wait to get it for nuts.
and for some another apparent reason, he seem to enjoy rubbing me the wrong way.
then after like shutting up, i exploded on him.
hahaha he deserve it anyway. :P
okay okay, i wont be mean anymore k.
as long as you dont piss me off.

well, ABC thanks for accommodating me yesterday.
loves.

yawns. im soooo sick lah.
damn dizzy from just now.
i think it's the migraine or something.
well, ABC has more planned.
just not sure if it will happen - im not sure if i can skate tmr.
i feel damn fucked up, uggh.
anyway, i am quite looking forward to bringing ABC to party...
:D

well well, im also looking forward to meeting my bitches.
i dont know when we all can meet up though.
some stupid conflict still seem to be around for some particular reason.
okay hidayah, im apologising, since you think YOU'RE CLEARLY not in the fault.
im sorry, for the fault that i may seem to have done.
for whatever reason for you just be so wrong at reading my comment, im sorry.
besides, i didn't post that to ignite some fiery flames that you seem to have been keeping or something.
i appreciate you speaking up but sometimes you have to see other's motives before you 'dedicate' such surprising posts.
anyway, im tired of everything really.


that's why i appreciate close people who gives at the least of their time for me.
or at the least our friendship.
because if it was me, i will, whole-heartedly.
and that is why i thank ABC and of course JAN RICK MASCARINA.


also, to those old friends who is still a part of me until now.


thank you.

okay, emotional much! stopping right here, NOW.
well, i can say that quite recently, i think i been having some tinge of crush on someone.
hahahaha. i think so anyway.
for people like me, it would just be a passing fad or something.
i seem to have tinge of crushes that last like a day or even just half.
goodness gracious. i think it's 'cause of my past flings or my past longest emotional damage. lol
i developed a way of not feeling anymore emotions. lol
been long since i really go lovey dovey anymore. haha
i think it's inhuman already.

okay i got to go.
my dizzy fiesta is starting again.
ciaos
loves

fun fun fun

it was a night of whistles, cheers, clappers, shouts and republican enjoyment.
the night of the Official Opening ceremony was something that i didn't think
i will go crazy over.
but after experiencing it, i am GLAD i attended the event and saw different versions of the people i see in school daily.
which goes to say, i finally saw the cute ones. hehe

no but that wasn't the main event.
today, PM Lee visited my school and he was the Guest-of-honor to start off the whole OPENING event.
after which, the JUMP party started and it was totally dissed.
why?
because the singer from this japanese band was totally screaming - not singing - i repeat
screaming with her coarse voice.
i admire her guts but she was totally too much.
i knew too well that she would give those 'uber-disgusting' versions of songs.
HOW?
THE DAMN FIRST YEAR ORIENTATION we were greeted by her singing.
imagine the shock - im glad that they even let her have the stage.
okay enough - jean your such a bitch - im sorry i dont mean to really critique - im being honest *smiles*

anyway, we (me and jan) realized that those who can sing uber nice are hidden/hiding and those who suck throughout are the one who are so 'out-there'
i dont understand this, i dont think i'd even do

well, lets move on and along now.
as the night continue after welcoming the PM, everyone was really joyful.
the last 'booth' of the PM's visit the most remarkable one.
everyone gave him a warm welcome - and so did the RUGBY team.
they are super hawt, i got to admit.
erms, kinda got to know this rugby guy.
yes yes, i asked his name - then you ask if i ask his number? - NO
i cant help to ask his name, he's just - well - captivating.
his eyes are lovely - *melts*
it so happens that we go to the same building just that at different levels.

okay, hush now.
well, the night went on and oh ya!
there were magic shows - from the Magic IG
then i got to know this magician - matthew - he's good.
so he did for me this trick and then he told me to remember him by it.
and so i will dude =)
you guys rock! hehe

there were a lot of people i missed out i hanging out with, we were all busy with our other friends.
some were like lost in the crowd, some were eating the buffet.
it was really cool and then i hung out with jan.
jan came to fetch me with sharlene.

[gluttony moment]
me and jan went to pastamania for lunch
we were so full that we couldnt walk back to school
so we decided to cab back - talk about being fat and lazy.
[exit]

hmms anyway, i realize that i really do adore my school.
also, im starting to see how fun it really is.
so RP you rock!
so sad my ABC weren't able to make it.


anyway, i have to run.
tata

kill time

current multi tasked doing : blog and eating

i finally found what i wanna wear for the shoot.
the rest of my clothing dont seem to be around when im in need of them!
but anyway, i have found the best for this shoot.
DECENT AND COMFORTABLE - not that my other clothes are not decent. lol

oh yeah, previous entry wasnt complete..
so after work, i went to gugu (kukong) 's house. so to say, to his place.
but he wasnt there as i have expected as he should be at work anyway.
nurul was supposed to come along with me being her the one to come up with this idea.
then last minute she canceled on me due to her granny's short-hand info. stupid
anyway, didnt matter if i go alone or with someone anyway, if he is there, i wont talk to him too.
and even if he's there or not, i seldom talk to him too - rarely to better put it
well, gugu - a new name i decided to call grand uncle, kukong, uncle, buddha - gugu
twas supposed to be G.u - then he said gugu better. lol then fine.. gugu it is...
hahaha.
gosh! i just realise something - it's his family that still kinda bound me
but it dont matter lah, so what if we're over anyway, it doesnt mean im over with his relatives or whoever rite.
that's why i still come over anyway, besides, i see gugu like an elderly family of mine
at least it kills my missing of my grand parents overseas.
=))
if there's another thing that i should thank him it would be that, he gave me an extended family, even with his mum and gugu...

i think ive killed enough time with this entry.
ima have to go now.
update ya after the shoot of the film.
*i still have to rehearse my lines!!
ciaos

HIDAYAH BDAE CELEB

i cant stop smiling today. kecik knows and she saw me smiling a lot today =)
BUT......... i want to talk about yesterday FIRST!

and first of all i want to say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIDAYAH DEAR!!!

**like finally she turned 17. my lil sister's all grown up. tho she's still one year short till being legal. but wth. she deserve credits. =))
the place we went to celebrate her birthday was at vivo 3rd storey play area.
GOSH!!! so malu lah. but it was really fun!!!

okay so first thing in the morning, tho i was still feeling sick!!! (until now i am sick!!), i went to hajar's place to cook her favourite dish. it came out okay, tho it wasnt really as good as my mum's but we ate it like nobody's busines. SO I PASS THE COOKING EXAM!!! =))
but poor hidayah, she was also as sick i was. but she was having the flu, i was having fatigue so yeahs...
it was really hilarious lah. hajar asked mei ling to buy the pasta and the potato.
this mei ling thought hajar asked her to buy potato CHIPS!! wtf.
so like when mei ling called me and all, i was wondering ytf did hajar ask ling to get potato CHIPS?
kecik and i was agreeing that if we put ling and hajar together, they will make the best bimbo club! =)) **ohhh yes it's true!!
so like otw there, all four of us are cooking up pranks in our dirty lil minds. the prank was like sooo impromptu!!! **wahahahhaaha!!!
okay, we were like telling hidayah that we are going to west coast and that she had to be blindfolded cos we were giving her a surprise.
so "we were suppose to take the shuttle bus to west coast" at vivo there.
the good thing is that she dont even know where the hell is that place. the other three were just like supporting my prank all through. cool shit! love them!!!
haaha. then after reaching harbourfront mrt, i blindfolded hidayah. made her turn three rounds and then we made her walk, holding my hands and hajar's, while ling take the video and nurul carrying the foodstuff!
so okay when we enter vivo basement 3, she was like saying "DUDE, WE'RE INSIDE VIVO! I KNOW HOW IT SMELL LIKE OKAY!" lol.
so i had to think of something! then i decided to just enter thru the carpark and go to the other entrance... like we were telling her that we are on the road and that she need to be careful of all the cars.
so i signalled to kecik and ling to get the cake... and then later we entered at L entrance.
then we took a stair up after taking a lift at lobby C. then before exiting to the third floor, i saw a pair of used gloves on a tin of paint! lol.
later on, WE GOT HIDAYAH TO WEAR IT!!!! ** like eww but it is a prank after all.
so like she was still blindfolded and all, then later on, when we exit, we made her enter the pool and then later on we got her to sit on the yellow figure stuff in the mid of the pool and ask her to wait there cos "i wanted to take my slippers"
later, we sat at the opposite side after running ard thinking should we hide frm her completely or just get ourselves seating on the opposite "land" of the pool?
then we decided not to be so bad and horrid. she was like sooo obidient la! she didnt take off her blindfold. lol.

she was just sitting down in the mid of the huge thing where everyone was like looking at her and all. plus,she was under the scorching sun!!! **bad bad sisters.

later we called her hp to tell her to loosen her blindfold. but cos of her gloves, she cant picit the phone properly. lol. after that she got so pissed she took it off and then just loosen her blindfold.
gosh gosh!!! she was like sooo freaked lah!! lol
then she slowly made her way thru the pool to us, then we each gave her hugs and kisses!!!
**muacks muacks hidayah! fer the prank... the sisters had great laughs!!!
so like we went to another place outside the RED, WHITE AND PURE shop. and we execute our makan makan there!!! =))
then after like 1 hour or so, we went to look for a place to slack the whole day till dusk.
we went to the sisters' fave hang out at pacific coffee co. but it was damn packed!
so then we scouted till something just pulled me to BROTZEIT!!! **a german restaurant =))

AND THEN THERE'S THE CUTE WAITER LAH!!! hahahhahahahahha.
i flirted, he flirted. then we made eye contacts and then i look away, and then he raised his eyebrows and then i look away. then he smile, then i smile back.
then we took pictures with my laptop cam and then he walked towards us and then he just looked at me. then he just looked....
** when we were like ordering, he lingered so long and he was just looking. i felt like asking WTF. CAN U JUST ASK ME FOR MY DAMN NO. wahahhahaa... i freaking flirted lah. even the sisters cant stand it. lol. they were like saying, WHY HE KEEP COMING. ASK LAH YOUR NO. OR WHAT!! wahahha. lol.
but then we exchanged names. lol. his name? Nidus. *i hope it is the right spelling.
his a nepalese or something... at first he said he was German. i believed cos of his accent...
DAMN SEXY LAH. ahahahha. and his eyes damn hot! =)) heeeess.

okay then after that restaurant... we went to the first floor hang out just beside the sea. then we slacked there till we finished the food.
then hajar and hidayah acted drunk. and it was really retarded lah.. send each other songs, to and from my laptop until i ran out of battery.
after that, we went to the 3rd floor again to PLAY WATER. damn paiseh lah but we just heck care about what others thought.
gosh gosh. RESULT? all of us got wet... then we used the handicap toilet with all five of us inside.
**jahat betol lah. like everyone stipped there lah. lol

OVERALL!!! it was damn crazy!!! and here are the pics!!!!

this first four pics are the successful ones we took. the last one is not cos we moved to fast b4 the cam captured us. lol.





and there's more!!!






then at brotzeit, i did cam whoring!!

THEN THERE'S MORE BUT LING WILL BE LOADING IT AT OUR BLOG. http://www.blackdiamondqueens.blogspot.com

okAay. so i will have to like end this entry. THE ONE im smiling about is on the next entry. =)

the other blog

i think im being sucha blog addict or something.
nahh.. somehow i think it is normal fer a person like me.
i love to talk and talk and talk... never ending.
okay, so since like i can be pretty emotional and too full of words to sae,
i have established a new affliated blog where i will write more of random stuff.
so like this blog will be for the daily stuff.
and if there is some subject i have raised at AFFILIATED BLOG
then i will make some announcement here... and then i will attach the link or something.
oh ppl, you will know what to do aites.

anyway, i enrolled today.
and YES! im officially an RP babe! then there this 'Prison Break' camp.
like hell! i really cannot wait for the 16th April.
ok, even for the 8th April too...
i will have this Cypher Camp. yes yes.
my week will be like be full of camps!
im so freaking excited!! YAY!
this camp will last till the 11th.
and guess what? the 'Prison Break' camp is on the 11th! so like no real break fer me!
hafta recharge my dying batteries.
yes yes.
ciaoz people.

love love love

at east coast

it has been planned, tho not as proper, that the clique have a reunion.
the venue was at east coast.
the clique as in ME, nurul, ryan, daryl, danial, jas.
yes, that's the wholesome clique.
two couples two singles... just that now, it's just 6 good friends.
tho i have to protest that it is just 4 good friends.
daryl and i... NOT even in the really friendship terms.
i dont even think that we ever will be lah...
anyway, it was suppose to be a picnic, with all the members present. (daryl and i were forced!)
with all the picnic snacks laid out on the supposedly big mat.
on the contrary, only four came (me, nurul, daniel, daryl), ruffles, mineral water and F&N orange laid out on the sand cos we dont even have enough space on my red blanket like mat. =))
daryl sat on the hump of earth above the sand.. danile joined him throwing stones at some sand.
then as two monkeys that they are, threw stones at me.
daryl did too... a motion of peace? haha. doubt so...
i think he's just resisting to throw at me the biggest stone he can lay his hands on and thus causing my death! =))
such tragical situation to think of! mary like you gotta stop!
okie anyway, the day was too much of relaxing... all we did was lie down on the blanket, play boggle and then daryl just have to set the sleepy mode!
im still amazed at how he can sleep anywhere he pleases...
but before that when we all still havent caught the lazy bug, daniel and nurul just have to have the opportunity of teasing me and daryl.
i really cant help but laugh lah!
hahaha. anyways, it was also of the way danial tease that made me so tickled.
he was rummaging through daryl's wallet and he found the wallet card that i gave daryl on last year's valentine's day.
ok, it really is very sweet that he kept it until now.
but i guess now that he was caught with it, either he will dispose of it or he will just stop putting it in his wallet.
but whatever it is, i guess our friendship still can have a chance.
or i guess there really isnt... cos maybe daryl and i are just not friends material!
like what say you people?

my romance with him is already past, i have no particular prospect in my love department with him (maybe with someone new!) and i have new goals in life now. i wont let any guy ever come in that way. not even my old love, present candy man, new mr right now... whatsoever.. i guess i have to thank daryl for giving me all the heartache he gave because as of these moments, im much emotionally stronger...
thanks dude... no matter how much you claim you hate me, i know that you still care... even just as a friend. and that's what i want... nothing else.

** jas was like "GOOD GOOD. at least daryl and mary did talk here and there. there's improvement!" gosh jas. first you break us up, now you wanna push us back. headaching. lol.

going from that subject...

about me and hIM = utter confusion!
havoc in the mind.
we are friends as always.. =))
just that as of today, when he defend his actions this past few days, i feel indifferent.
somehow that is... i didnt think much about this and that this past days.
i have sobered. i have flown to a place higher than where the sea will reach me.
i told him some stuff and he explained here and there.
i dont know where it might lead.
i have no rush. im still happy being single.
im much excited to start school... im much taken in by the new goals of my life!
i just cant wait for my LAPTOP! hahahaha...
i told As that i cannot wait for it, for my school!
for everything lah.....

stories

check this out..
fING cool shit...

Yellow Bentines

(ok, i dunno about you all lah. but i like the songs. =) )

today's story?

wells, im sooo fING absent-minded lah!!!

i really dont know what has happened to my brain system and all.

ok ok. let's start as proper.

destination = haig rd, blk 4.

return destination = pasir ris, blk 227

purpose = take back my shades and then xchange my contact lenses for a lower degree!!

1.) supposed to take cash from my dad to top up my ezlink. (forgot)

- only when i have boarded the bus and i tapped the ezlink card then i remembered.

so i had no choice but to just take out some coins and make do with it... then i realise that i need more fare to take the mrt. i left some $7 from last night's optical purchases, so then i didnt really mind just getting the standard tix.

so well, that's how i got along the travel.

2.) ALMOST forgot to drop by the library to return my overdue books via the book drop.

- but at least i did. and then the whole shit of the day started.

3.) was on the phone with my mum. so then i was not aware of anything else. i forgot that i was carrying a small plastic bag containing the lenses and the optical receipt.

TO THOSE WHO MAY HAVE FOUND IT

PLEASE RETURN IT BACK

MY CONTACT NO. IS ON THE OPTIC RECEIPT

DO A GOOD DEED

THANK YOU

okay 4.) so as from 3. i forgot all about it. and i only realise that it wasnt with me anymore when i was in the mrt reaching paya lebar!! like what the hell lah.

- and i did what i could to make sure that it is returned to me. i contacted the library cos the plastic bag might have entered the book drop (fING sutpid lah)

then i also reported at the whitesands customer sevice officer, and then the mrt staff as well. those are the three suspected places where i dropped the thing.

5.) as i had to use the standard tix for the travel. i had to obviously return it to get the deposit right..? and then you know what?? i already was at the opposite road with nurul when i realise that i havent done the returning of the ticket. gosh. (once again, fING stupid.)

and guess what my return travel to pasir ris right? i forgot to do the depositing shit again. gosh!!

6.) then when i was with nurul, she asked me for the lighter. it was in my hand, and i was frantically searching my handbag. (fING stupid) gosh.

okies. im going to conclude the whole stupidity.

CONCLUSION

1.) SOMEBODY must have been really thinking of me... fING make me go absent-minded for NUTS.

2.) maybe im subconciously thinking about too many things!

3.) SOMEONE CURSED ME TODAY

4.) KARMA TOOK PLACE

5.) FATED

okays.... then the solution?? yes yes...

1.) sleep earlier and sleep more

2.) eat more greens that i have been eating

3.) stop thinking too much about things.

4.) NEVER TALK TO MUM WHENEVER IM CARRYING A SMALL PLASTIC BAG

5.) GET NEW CONTACTS!!! OR just stay on with a damn specs i bought!!!

now, proceeding with the rest of the events...

nurul and i went to blk 4. entered the house that seemed still welcoming, as usual.

then greeted king kong!! hahaha. ok, kukong lah... cos he called me a cuckoo after knowing how absent-minded i was today. haha...

niwaes, we stayed there for a while. finally saw aunty chanel!

missed her man. she smiled great when she saw me. then she was glad when she heard that i passed my Os.

oh wells, she has been like a mum to me lah really.

i remembered crying with her when we went to visit dude at the remand. haaz...

she has been really great to me. and she treated me like a daughter... =))

then later, i cooked some prata for me and nurul. the curry was awesome.

it has been quite sometime since i cooked something at blk 4. haha.

but i still like kukong's kheema... very nice!!!

btw dude was around. but he was asleep.

the funny thing was that, he got up with the comforter on him,

like "superman" according to nurul and "dracula" according to kukong.

then he walked to his mum's room, said something about the italian job and then he walked back to his room and slept again.

fING funny. i think he was sleep walking or something. lol.

anyways, i chatted with hIM for awhile.

i really dont know why but i cannot find things to talk with him about.

at first there are like quite a lot to say...

then like lately, there isnt any. sad sad sad.

and anyways, we are okay about the yesterday's revelation of Niz liking him.

like i said, i dont know why, but i dont really care what she feels for hIM.

and like i said, everyone is entitled to their own feelings to like somebody.

if they like you back then that's a bonus... if not, move on!

even though i know that she isnt the type who gives up easily then so be it.

hIM and i are just friends but i have talked to him about him and her.

that if there ever is something going to go on with them, let me know so i wont be in the way.

cos as a girl i know she wont like it.. given the rumours that we are together...

and that's why in yesterday's entry, i said that we both nearly blow our tops at each other.

cos he was pissed with what i said and all.

he was telling me to think proper what i say and all...

oh wells, sorree... esp if i doubted you...

now then about boi.

yes yes. we are in contact again after the whole "didnt gave him the answer" period.

and then now, we are friends.

when i told him that i went to dude's place again today, i really hoped that he wont flip.

and good that he understood.

then now he mistook that me telling him things about me and dude last time

means that i have feelings for dude again.

so i told him.

if i say HAVE, DONT HAVE.

if i say DONT HAVE, HAVE.

so how??

then later we talked and come clean with our emotions.

about everything.

and then he finally told me about his love for his ex.

yes yes yes.

that he realise that until now, he just cant let go.

that he just still LOVE her.

i was sooo AWWWWW.

i am really happy for him.

now at least i would not have to think about making him think wrongly about me and him in contact again.

i didnt want him to think that i am chatting with him becoz i want him.

like i said, i still dont want to settle.

not now... and i hope i dont become a spinster.

hahha. okay.. let's seal this...

SEALED

a smile on my face is not the happiness you think you see,

a frown is but an expression i portray.

these words are just words trying to go somewhere,

with sentences that formed trying to find its way.

the tears i cried in the wee hours of the night,

they fell endlessly, it seemed to me.

these tears are but the love that escaped my heart,

like the part of love that hurts,

leaving the part of love that loves.

i cried again when it hit my mind.

i cried again as here i am.

stuck in the pit that we had dug.

that if we get lost in this memory lane,

we'll always be stuck if we dont give in.

but then we both have developed the strength,

to ignore that push that fate come to bring.