(ok, i dunno about you all lah. but i like the songs. =) )
today's story?
wells, im sooo fING absent-minded lah!!!
i really dont know what has happened to my brain system and all.
ok ok. let's start as proper.
destination = haig rd, blk 4.
return destination = pasir ris, blk 227
purpose = take back my shades and then xchange my contact lenses for a lower degree!!
1.) supposed to take cash from my dad to top up my ezlink. (forgot)
- only when i have boarded the bus and i tapped the ezlink card then i remembered.
so i had no choice but to just take out some coins and make do with it... then i realise that i need more fare to take the mrt. i left some $7 from last night's optical purchases, so then i didnt really mind just getting the standard tix.
so well, that's how i got along the travel.
2.) ALMOST forgot to drop by the library to return my overdue books via the book drop.
- but at least i did. and then the whole shit of the day started.
3.) was on the phone with my mum. so then i was not aware of anything else. i forgot that i was carrying a small plastic bag containing the lenses and the optical receipt.
TO THOSE WHO MAY HAVE FOUND IT
PLEASE RETURN IT BACK
MY CONTACT NO. IS ON THE OPTIC RECEIPT
DO A GOOD DEED
THANK YOU
okay 4.) so as from 3. i forgot all about it. and i only realise that it wasnt with me anymore when i was in the mrt reaching paya lebar!! like what the hell lah.
- and i did what i could to make sure that it is returned to me. i contacted the library cos the plastic bag might have entered the book drop (fING sutpid lah)
then i also reported at the whitesands customer sevice officer, and then the mrt staff as well. those are the three suspected places where i dropped the thing.
5.) as i had to use the standard tix for the travel. i had to obviously return it to get the deposit right..? and then you know what?? i already was at the opposite road with nurul when i realise that i havent done the returning of the ticket. gosh. (once again, fING stupid.)
and guess what my return travel to pasir ris right? i forgot to do the depositing shit again. gosh!!
6.) then when i was with nurul, she asked me for the lighter. it was in my hand, and i was frantically searching my handbag. (fING stupid) gosh.
okies. im going to conclude the whole stupidity.
CONCLUSION
1.) SOMEBODY must have been really thinking of me... fING make me go absent-minded for NUTS.
2.) maybe im subconciously thinking about too many things!
3.) SOMEONE CURSED ME TODAY
4.) KARMA TOOK PLACE
5.) FATED
okays.... then the solution?? yes yes...
1.) sleep earlier and sleep more
2.) eat more greens that i have been eating
3.) stop thinking too much about things.
4.) NEVER TALK TO MUM WHENEVER IM CARRYING A SMALL PLASTIC BAG
5.) GET NEW CONTACTS!!! OR just stay on with a damn specs i bought!!!
now, proceeding with the rest of the events...
nurul and i went to blk 4. entered the house that seemed still welcoming, as usual.
then greeted king kong!! hahaha. ok, kukong lah... cos he called me a cuckoo after knowing how absent-minded i was today. haha...
niwaes, we stayed there for a while. finally saw aunty chanel!
missed her man. she smiled great when she saw me. then she was glad when she heard that i passed my Os.
oh wells, she has been like a mum to me lah really.
i remembered crying with her when we went to visit dude at the remand. haaz...
she has been really great to me. and she treated me like a daughter... =))
then later, i cooked some prata for me and nurul. the curry was awesome.
it has been quite sometime since i cooked something at blk 4. haha.
but i still like kukong's kheema... very nice!!!
btw dude was around. but he was asleep.
the funny thing was that, he got up with the comforter on him,
like "superman" according to nurul and "dracula" according to kukong.
then he walked to his mum's room, said something about the italian job and then he walked back to his room and slept again.
fING funny. i think he was sleep walking or something. lol.
anyways, i chatted with hIM for awhile.
i really dont know why but i cannot find things to talk with him about.
at first there are like quite a lot to say...
then like lately, there isnt any. sad sad sad.
and anyways, we are okay about the yesterday's revelation of Niz liking him.
like i said, i dont know why, but i dont really care what she feels for hIM.
and like i said, everyone is entitled to their own feelings to like somebody.
if they like you back then that's a bonus... if not, move on!
even though i know that she isnt the type who gives up easily then so be it.
hIM and i are just friends but i have talked to him about him and her.
that if there ever is something going to go on with them, let me know so i wont be in the way.
cos as a girl i know she wont like it.. given the rumours that we are together...
and that's why in yesterday's entry, i said that we both nearly blow our tops at each other.
cos he was pissed with what i said and all.
he was telling me to think proper what i say and all...
oh wells, sorree... esp if i doubted you...
now then about boi.
yes yes. we are in contact again after the whole "didnt gave him the answer" period.
and then now, we are friends.
when i told him that i went to dude's place again today, i really hoped that he wont flip.
and good that he understood.
then now he mistook that me telling him things about me and dude last time
means that i have feelings for dude again.
so i told him.
if i say HAVE, DONT HAVE.
if i say DONT HAVE, HAVE.
so how??
then later we talked and come clean with our emotions.
about everything.
and then he finally told me about his love for his ex.
yes yes yes.
that he realise that until now, he just cant let go.
that he just still LOVE her.
i was sooo AWWWWW.
i am really happy for him.
now at least i would not have to think about making him think wrongly about me and him in contact again.
i didnt want him to think that i am chatting with him becoz i want him.
like i said, i still dont want to settle.
not now... and i hope i dont become a spinster.
hahha. okay.. let's seal this...
SEALED
a smile on my face is not the happiness you think you see,
a frown is but an expression i portray.
these words are just words trying to go somewhere,
with sentences that formed trying to find its way.
the tears i cried in the wee hours of the night,
they fell endlessly, it seemed to me.
these tears are but the love that escaped my heart,
like the part of love that hurts,
leaving the part of love that loves.
i cried again when it hit my mind.
i cried again as here i am.
stuck in the pit that we had dug.
that if we get lost in this memory lane,
we'll always be stuck if we dont give in.
but then we both have developed the strength,
to ignore that push that fate come to bring.
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