final!

all i ever want is to have peace, prosperity and nice warm friendship.

i never want to have chaos nor a broken friendship.

well, my friendship with Fyzah is reinstated but just as it goes, my friendship with hIM is deteriorated.

today, my purpose of meeting up with Fyzah is to get her to come clean with me.

to tell me that yes she did lie to me or so i thought...

she explained herself well and yes even though everything was conradicted, i remain sure that hIM never lied about anything, up till the point...

and then i guess it's what Fyzah thought all along that made everyone think that she lied.

i told her straight that why push all the blame to hIM.

then she told me, that all this time she thought that he was sincere that he like her.

she was confused why is it that he tells everyone that he didnt like her when he said all the things to her.

well, she showed them to me and i was shocked.

**and for the love of GOD, im not worked up cos of any feelings!

(* Niz, feelings dont play a part in this. basically, im a human being. and dont even think that i like hIM as like a like LOVE thingy. it's not that way with me. you can ask feroz. he's just someone special to me just as my best guy friends and my brothers.)

and no one sane human being likes being lied to. i just felt like, why lie?

so this Fyzah tells around that she might have gotten hIM's signals wrong.

i thought yeah maybe, then i read the messages. after that, i was like GOSH!

he told me that he made it clear to her and all that, that he told her he likes her as a friend.

but then she didnt think so that way cos she knows what he said to her and all.

so like to all, she is lying. so then again... ooops! i trashed the wrong person.

but yeah, she still kept things from me and she did play a part in all this.

we're cool now. and im sorry for what i said.

**sorry fyzah. and dont worry, we are cool... but me and hIM are over. yup yup.

(**Imz, any girl you talk that way to will obviously think that you do like her. you led her on. and yes im happy that you treated me way better than that. but as a friend, a good friend, im ashame that you did that OUT OF COURTESY. if ya get to know abt this and ur not happy it's ok. tell the person to read it to their hearts' content. but never ever go around thinking that i got worked up for all the wrong reasons.)

basically people, lies just makes the world a chaotic place.
i dont deny i never ever lie before.
im not a saint. but then when you are already caught lying, just admit!
remember in the courts of law, when a criminal pleaded guilty, they have a lighter punishment?
that's just how things go.
and also, never try to be a player when you know that you arent capable of being one.(winks winks. haha. fyz fyz. shame on you! jahat.)
plus, LIE ALL YOU WANT....
BUT NEVER EVER GET CAUGHT FOR EVEN THE SLIGHTEST MISTAKE.
**but i dont think a person who lies can ever really not get caught. all i know, i avoid lies cos im not good at it... denial maybe but never lies.

after today, i just want to press the refresh button and just pretend that nothing happened.

nothing at all... that i didnt find out more about hIM's nature and that i didnt even get lied to over and over again.

but everything's done. over, done, finalised, finished, end, sudah, akhir, tamat...

ahahaha. * should i continue with the other similar words to over?

okay,
to imz, i have said what i wanted to say before we ceased our connections...
you have been a good friend and think whatever you want to think but i was always there for you. and i do appreciate your friendship and all. thanks for everything.

to fyz, i have forgiven you... and i do sympathise with you cos i know how a girl will react to such case. i saw enough evidence to your plea. and im sorry for thinking straight that you lied.

i guess kite dah mesti nk kene cium ah ni?? hahaha.

niz, thanks for wanting to help out. i wasnt the one to opt for the goodbye. he wanted it so i give it to him. besides, he said that my cara of making up is different from his. apparently, i have to comply to his ways when im the one pissed cos of the lies? haha. i didnt see that coming.
i had thought of just having a day or two cool off period. but no.. he want it in a rush...
but i cant and wont comply to that.
mane boleh a person who's mad just comply with you on making up straight away? apela.
but yes, talian persahabatan kami sudah putus ( hees... eksyen sikit with the malay words eh? haha.)

dddddddd

if i ever have to regret, it's just that day i left you.

all the things that are happening to me now would never happen if i didnt leave.

all this drama will not even exist if i stayed on.

but cos things between us just pure ceased, i just cant go back.

im just turning back my head to try to see if your hands im familiar of are still within my grasps.

you are the ONE who knew me and who gave me his all...

im the one who knew you but i drive our love to the wall.

the thief didnt took the liberty to take the treasure chest when it is there just waiting to be robbed.

the thief had the key but the thief is complacent enough not to read the map to the treasure chest.

now the treasure chest is shallowed by all the plants and the algaes around it.

the thief, possibly, will never ever find that treasure box anymore...

cos it just disappeared from sight...

** i need you so bad now. but i will never run to you...

i will never tie you down with me again.

but i do miss the way we are still.

i can never forget ur warmth.

never. never ever.

d

love love love