fuk shit

Cancellation of THE GATHERING

great!
ive been thinking - it's like everyone has been too busy with all this.
im gonna cancel the damn pit.
i dunno if im thinking straight but i hate to keep thinking that im the only one bothered with getting together.
i mean, yes, i can see they are into all this, but the prob is that, im not feeling it enough.
everything's not going accordingly.
it's like cos of something, there are those who feel weird ard ppl and then those who just plainly dont even try to compromise.
and then again maybe im being paranoid - maybe cos im the type who will go all out fer my supposedly C-L-O-S-E frens - THE CLIQUE
maybe im asking too much that two of my CLIQUES come together - maybe it's too much.
okay, then fine.
i guess this is what i have been feeling - i'll shut up about gatherings

for heaven's sakes people, am i the only real person who must help myself?
thanks.
i dont know if what im seeing is the sign that says, "maybe frens really come and go"
i dont know what to think and i cant and wont be bothered anymore.
also, i wont be holding anymore gatherings just to let those know.

anyways, maybe it's just my fault that the pit is only available on that certain day.
and also, maybe it is my fault that you all just have to make plans tt you think you cant cancel on.
and then maybe it is my fault that im just being the type who asks fer too much...
maybe i shud put it in that maybe it's my fault that im asking for is too much such as to just put this gathering as the priority.
i dont know what's happening to you all - you'll used to put all this things first.
maybe time has really changed.
plus also maybe i can say that im just a paranoid bitch not feeling your interest in the gathering anymore, tt you all have to think deep before saying yes... hmms - okay fine i am then...

maybe when you all have started to hold all these yourselves only then i will come.
or if you all cant be bothered then fine - i can always do with one-to-one meetings you know..
oh and nurul, thanks for bothering at least even tho u'll be schooling before coming in ur UNIFORM. at least you really do make the time.
and thanks for cancelling your plans with your new frens this sat - i can see your real interest in this gathering and (i just apologize that it is pushed to tuesday.)
cos i aint feeling it with the other sisters... hais

anyways my bitches, see ya all one day.
good luck with whatever and enjoy well with your new frens.
loves.