christmas eve

Christmas Eve Dinner @ my house

<**i owe you readers pictures, but my connection's too lousy, will fix it when i can**>


it was lonely for me as my other half is miles and hours away from me.
i dont know how i did my christmases and new years without shenath.
it's like as if the occasions i spent before without him seemed not to exist, like i do question if his presence is really what i have been waiting for.
i love every way i feel when i am with him.
despite the bickering and the itsy bitsy feeling we get when we are moody and cranky,
i know our love only grow stronger by each fall.

we have said goodbye too many times, or should i take all the credits for the saying goodbye part? hmms well, yeah i have been really nasty and i realized that.
and i know i will try not to say goodbye again... this time i know i wont.
i have learnt so much from him, about love, life and being in a relationship.
as in being in a real commitment, which you give up almost everything for the happiness of each other.
but not all that you are left barren and cold...
we leave some teeny bit love for ourselves and what we like to do.

so anyway, today help quite a lot around the house.
today's christmas eve held sadness in the air - and i wasn't the only one who felt that...
thanks to the attendees - jar, wan, nurul, darshy and the new girl, melissa (:
thanks for making my christmas eve at least bearable without mr jean :(


ooooohhhhhh! shenath and i are going for a little getaway in march (hopefully, we'll have enough saved (: )


anyway baby, i can't wait for your return....
i cant wait to do things to and for you... ((:
but we have to wait. patiently!!!!