:)

As from my previous post, there were a lot that happened.
So therefore, bear with me ((:

So anyway, my name has been cleared from the black list.
phew... and yes i saw her, my second last day working there.
then came the last day of work, but luckily the devil isn't there.
anyway, total sale i made for the three days of work was approximately $6k.
not bad really. but could have done better if not for my second day to be so whacked!

doesn't matter, it's done.
on friday, news came that my oldest uncle has passed on.
he was not exactly close to me but i have vague memories about him.
but with his death come quite a few troubles - he didn't leave a will.
he was very rich and grand aunt wants it all.
she ain't going to go without a fight, and knowing that she won't have power to take in all his assets because she's not his mother, would mean that trouble will rise in the family.
my grandmother is his mother.
so in all, grandmum has all the power to get everything.
but like i said, grand aunt wont go without a fight - trouble!

we were in mourning for the few weekends.

so on saturday and sunday, i didn't work.

saturday i went to meet nurul in the evening.
went to the beach to have some alone time.
we talked about our present love lives and bitch about our boyfriends.
she was on a 'pause' with hafiz and i was having some itch with bf.
of which the whole situation with shenath blew up on saturday night.

met him on sunday.
was not in the mood the whole day.
didn't even bother to eat cos my stomach bud won't take food in.
we were suppose to be alright on sunday due to the talk we had on saturday.
just that, i guess i needed more time.
so after the whole day on sunday,
(had 3in1 at haig road, went to venture to red light districts just to check things out),
we had another blow out over the phone.
then came the working out phase,
talked about everything and why is it that it's had made things so horrible between us.
then we made up.

then something that he did made me so bothered that i had to question him about it.
so then we had another thing on our hand.
i apologized for it tho cos i guess there really is some guy ego that we girls must understand.

the next day, which is yesterday.
left the thought of going to school while making my way there.
we en route.
we made up for everything.
we formed some sort of weird understanding of everything.
and of course, it's obvious that working things out just don't happen, you must will it to happen!
we realized that we have to go after it, even just a bit, for better harmony.

we are okay now and i hope we dont have to quarrel about the same thing again.

i hope we learn from our mistakes.

i will try. i will learn. i will not run away.

-Notes-

i love you SHENATH THOMAS DIAS.
you are one special part of me that i will never live without.
you helped me pick up the pieces that got lost in time.
and you help fill me up better than anyone can.
i love you, with my all.
but i'm sorry it will take time for me to trust any guy again.
and so i thank you for being patient and for understanding :*

Oncoming celebration - JAR'S 18th Birthday!
So far, no comment on how the thing will go. Just that, i hope things go well :)
Can't wait to PARTEEE!!! :)