First Post

Dear All,

Welcome to my new blog.
To those who know about my other blog, feel free to experience a different view of me.
I do feel that I am a little bit more mature this time.
I have learned a lot from the many months of absence from blogging.
I didn't blog events even though i feel that it is worth the read, because i appreciate privacy now.
I am a little bit off the gossip world - i guess i realize that it is never a nice thing.
I'm stressing that whatever remark i make is the truth - at least to my point of view.


I am back to blogging because i feel that it is my passion to write and it is just a bonus for people to bother reading what i write.
However, i may not keep up wonderful entries because i am not exactly an aspiring writer.
I just write according to my mood :)
So always be patient and open about what i write in this blog.
I appreciate openness.
Also, i do not need any sort of comment so as you can see, there is no chat box or comments section for this current blog.

Thank you in advance for those who will follow my entries.

Yours truly,
M. Jean

Two and a half months of school break will be over in two weeks.
I am anticipating the one week break that i will have; away from school and away from work.
I thought that i will be able to rest well in the Philippines. I thought that i can rejuvenate from the hectic lifestyle of Singapore.
I thought that i can be surrounded by wonderful things and loving relatives.
I thought that it would be great that i am away from my parents.
Then when i experienced it there with my relatives, i was wrong! DEAD WRONG.

Apparently, the one person that i want to run away from proves to be the one in the family that i should never be without.
I never would have thought that i will only have her as my savior when i was in need.
I never thought that she will be the only one who can really understand me.
That person is no other than my MOTHER.
In the whole Bautista clan, only my mother has proven capable of being there for me.

Outside the clan, my dear bf also prove to be one that is always around for me.
Compare to my clan, my bf is better in terms of love.
It saddens me but i have to live by it.
I have to bury that hurt because it is useless to mope about it.
I am thankful to GOD that i have quite a number of people that i can still rely on.
These people are my mother, papa, ana, isaac, shenath and last but not least, my dad.
My friends are there to give a listening ears of course.
Currently and as most of the time, Nurul tops that list.

After my trip from my homeland, i continue my work for Patterns Concept at Takashimaya.
New York Runway Sales - where they sell clothes that i wont even buy from.
The dresses and the labels are very much appealing but not the price.
Especially for a teen/student like me whose pocket money is usually spent on hp bills and other IMPORTANT stuff.
I am looking at this particular kimono sleeve bronze dress going at $194.50 (after 50% discount)
But the sale will be over way before i get my pay!
Talk about bad timing...

Anyway, I'm anticipating my work/school break of one week.
School starts the week after next and I wont deny that i am excited about it :)

Well, Shenath and i are going along great. But of course we do have our tiff here and there.
That is inevitable with couples - especially nowadays when we are lacking communications.
Our schedule don't match much but that wont ruin us, we are sure :)

There are also the week that we can spend our time making us strong.
Also, I'm spending that free time for my friends.
I met Hidayah and Jaja today after work - it was quite crazy and of course very tiring.
But it was nice seeing us three together, not frequently seeing each other but still close.
I guess i will always have to put aside time for my friends too. They are quite important as i have realized.
However, i must say that i will have to invest more time with my boyfriend, especially after realizing that he has the potential to be my future...

I guess the future is very much unpredictable.
There are a lot of things that we can plan but only fate will decide what happens.
And fate works the most unpredictable predictable way.. (if u get what i mean)
But as long as you can help it, always hold on to what you plan to do for your life.
For me, I'm building myself for the future that i hope will be for me.

So for now, good night.