voice from the heart

so everyone say there is difference.
it really isnt at all surprising anyway.

i feel more light-hearted in this relationship.
which is at this time is a little bit overrated.

some are a little bit weird out that im like officially attached,
no more games, no more flings, no more serial dating, no more 8-in-1 time.


some dudes are still digesting it.
some are not even into comprehending that im attached.

as it may seem obvious, im not the only one who finds this irritating.
he too experienced this, the moment he put our couple pictures at his site,
those ex girls and flings either came to chastise him or to just vanish into thin air.

but then i came to full reasoning and i came up with this;
"i guess everyone is saying we're better off with others... then again, only we will know..."

when we came into union, life killed two 'flingers'/ players, with one stone.
i dont know. it seems still overrated...
i find myself paranoid. im reacting this way because im afraid of getting hurt again you see.

after daryl, i didnt know if i could really settle with one.
then came all those 'juggling' period. tiring... but of course enjoyable...

then the crush period came and it didnt know me and him will land like this.
wondering again, how we will end, as i always do with my boyfriends.
although i dont really look into the end of this one.

at least not yet.
for now... im still a happy soul.

i hope he'll know how to treat me right all through and not just these honeymoon period
whatsoever.
it's saddening how couples forget their standards of treating each other.
fights after fights, the love is just lost and nothing but hate and guilt is left.
sorry is not even allowed or powerful to regain anything.

but i feel there is something more.
i also fear that there will be that something that might ruin us.

ive never been really wrong in seeing or predicting the near future.
but im leaving that aside for now.
see how things go right.

to those who are not satisfied that im with him now.
those idiots who feels piss that im with someone now and they are the ones who
wanted me and didnt even initiate anything to have me, too bad.

and to those girls he had once been with, i dont know how he defends me
but i hope it is enough to keep them away.
that's all...

nights