time is...

before i end my day.
i want to share somethings about today.
i feel poetic so id try to rhyme,
no matter how stupid is may really sound...

i went to school for some SUI! stock taking,
didn't know how much it cost my timing.

i felt really tired but i did enjoy the day.
but it hasn't end cos there's something abt the boyfriend.

i feel that i am falling but im still guarding it wisely.
im not into falling so fast and hurt becomes my outcome.
no no no. that shouldn't happen.

okay. im giving up the poetic shit. lol
anyhoo, as i was saying. im starting to feel more and more into this relationship.
that started as a mere game of chance.

i told everyone, even jan, that this might just end in a few weeks time.
then again, i have to admit that i am wrong.

i feel that the only time that we would really fight is cos of external affairs.
it seems as if we have nothing to fight among ourselves... yet.... i dont know

im still afraid of falling, as i have earlier told him.
we had a heart to heart talk just now.
or pillow talk... hehe okay. enough kinky hints.

i was injured just now!
the wound was like.... OH MY GOSH! haha
i dont know how to describe it. it doesnt hurt though. it's just that the wound is getting annoying. haha
have to like put those OINTMENT!!! hope is heals up v v v soon! like now!!!!

anyway, in due to the heart to heart talk, i understand more of every emotion i feel.
i have recovered eroded emotions and i feel that somehow, my happiness now is all thanks to him.

to you deary : pls dont make me happy now and give me all the love and hope only for PRESENT use. please be this way with me as long as we are together.
i can promise you that there are things that i am doing for you... of which u are not really aware of the benefits of.


i must say that in my past relationships, i have not been a good girl.
i was controlled and so i felt so trapped i couldn't stay focus on them.
and so i cheated mildly.

on daryl i cheated too, that's why when he cheated on me, i felt only a tinge of anger.
cos i know i deserved that on my part. but then again, after what happened, i vowed that it wont happen again.
and so it wont.

as long as i have something to hold on for, im focused.
and now, i have him to hold on to. and i hope he wont just give way and break into two.
to those girls, sisters, guys, closer relative who knows my ways, i know you're saying now that he is indeed a lucky guy.

but im lucky to have found someone who knows how to treat me right,
of course in annoying ways too. lol
give it a lil more time, i think i will let him know that i am really in love with him.
more time...

time is all we need to find the love we always wanted - jean