everything went to schedule... except getting my specs at some optical shop at haig road.
haha. but it was fING cheap. multi-coated lens and a nice frame for ONLY fING $68.
I GOT SEDUCED. so i bought it.
then i bought a 3 months clear contact lenses (Biomedic) - an american brand. i used to go for Ultraflex- a German brand. but this Biomedic lenses' cool shit!! it has UV protection, costing only $32.... and then ...
I GOT SEDUCED. so i bought it.
okay, im starting to feel soo freaking seduced. hahaha. the specs' really worth it. even nurul agreed with me. yes, she was out with me. and i cant wait for the collection!!! hahahaha...
let's talk about things besides today just yet. cos it was today that it came out...
this is to niz,
if you even come to this divine blog, i hope you get the hell off my page as soon as you read this.
omg. i cant believe you lah... you talk about fyzah in your blog as if you're fuking clean. fuking never caused her fuking harm.. fuking nvr interfere in her fuking relationship. you fuking stop doing all this shit lah i tell you..
i am fuking disappointed lah okay. i thought you're fuking better than what you show yourself to be.
i fuking wanna fuk u up lah okay... you come soo fuking clean when you're even fuking not...
im even sooo fuking ashame to even count you as my friend. i heard a lot of shits lah okay, but after the whole entire trashing fyzah at your blog, you going as if you're fuking clean, just took the toll on me. go to hell with that hypocrisy lah.. even bir says you're a fuking hypocrite... i dunno lah huh... you lead your fuking life that way, you mark my words, your life will nvr ever be fine again lah if you're doing all this like a fuking hobby... i dun nid to do anything also... good luck to you lah.. you dont need to know who the hell i am beneath my preety make-ups and quiet looks... cos if you ever even know that, i really dont know that the hell you will see.... niz, i can be freaking nice and outgoing with you.. even like a sister... you've seen me fuking nice to you.. you seen me fuking never take sides one... but fuk lah.. you just stop lah..
you just shut the hell up and all...
if you read this and you fuking wanna find me... you know where lah ok? im just stating my unhappiness here. i dun even want to talk to you after today... sorreee. you ruined my view on you lah.. fyzah is fuking quiet ready... all the things you did to her you fuking never take into account is it... she fuking have the right to backstab you lah huh... so just back off now lah... haiz... (and congratulation for making it in my blacklist)
i seal this story close. (fyzah, whatever it is, you've gained me by your side. and so you gain my sisters too. so whatever it is, just dont ever disappoint me lah at all...=))
and all that i said was something that im really pissed about.
++ sisters, feel free to ask what the hell is happening. i think you will love this topic. ++
i asked hIM about the other things that i read about in the trash's blog.
about the last paragraph and all...
i mean i dont really care about what she feels for hIM lah.
everyone is entittled to their own feelings and all. i understand.
then he told me things about all this. we nearly blowed our tops at each other but then eventually things got better. i hope so that it is...
yes im doubting and i cant help it.
and so, i surface the doubts... it will clear in due time.
but whatever it is, whatever rumours that goes out to the public that im with hIM, i dont care lah.
we couldnt be bothered what everyone thinks.
we know what we are to each other and that's quite enough.
now now, rewind to the earlier part of the day...
went to haig rd. blk 4... got me walking in memory lane...
it was those bittersweet memories again.
those time of which i was stuck on the dude.
i was loving every bits of him. the good and even the bad.
hahaha.so emotional.. haha.
and that was in the memory lane which i walked through just now.
grand uncle and nurul really just have to make me feel soo OFF.
he was doing some juggling with the bottles of absolut vodka.
everything went on like a blur.
we didnt speak to each other. never even looked for a whole 5 seconds.
it was like we're going to die if we even look at each other.
so it went like that and so i was like that.
then.
(jeng jeng jeng.)
then nurul told me something that he talked with her about.
she was so shocked and taken aback with what he said about me and him.
i thought what could it be.
then she read it out to me.
haiz.
didnt believe it, so i saw it for myself.
almost dropped the phone.
si dia tu betol tk betol xia. ppl, he didnt ask for me back.
so dont jump in the pool ppl.
then the past just fING slammed back in my head.
but it doesnt matter now... at least for now...
everything has happened and all.
regrets. regrets.regrets.. he will never do that... unless he really does mean it.
i regretted too.
i do honestly..
to you dude,
it was nice to have seen you after sometime.
but lots changed and lots have been gained and lost.
time eats up everything. heals everything.
but time cannot heal scars and make them disappear.
time cannot make you forget the love that was there.
time can minises all the urges to do things.
but it cannot stop the push of the heart.
if you meant what you said to nurul...
i will gladly tell you something... if ever come a day that you ever want to hear it.
but i'll be your friend... i just hope that your metamorphosis isnt irreversible.
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