J-A-N-D-A

i was about to doze off when ....

*someone called! caller's a friend and i found out something- i cant accept it! C-A-N-T
so then we were talking about other things, when we en route to THAT topic.
and then cos of that topic i cant sleep and so i decided to blog it!
i cant really say it here now, maybe not at this site. maybe at my private blog.
ONLY sisters and closer ones can view it - sorry public

i am utterly appalled and i cannot consider any valid reasons as to why it should happen.
and of all, why must it be that type? i am speechless - or limited with words. and only a 5-letter-word coming outa my mouth!
over and over again. it's that bad!
so i sought to try to have a clearer and much clean thought about it,
but the caller has detailed things that i cannot comprehend as to why it can even be possible!
im just sad to say that it is happening and i feel compelled to do something about it
BUT WHAT?

i have loads of ideas coming up this active mind, but im fearful. haha
it's crazy really. that hahas i put are all those nervous laugh.
that's it! i really do have to do something about it!!! arrghhh
what the fuck is happening lah.
it dont use to be like this as it is now! not sooo low and not sooo bad a scenario!!
and now, chatting with Khalid -
he says : second-hand product when it's back to you (editted sequence)
THIS SO DO NOT HELP!!!!
i dont know. i dont know.
i have to wait till the morn comes, talk with nurul abt this, and P-L-A-N

*name is not disclose for private matters