something that i realise

okay so i got my laptop today. then i just had to sleep well. now i cant even slp cos i practically just cant. i have sleeing problem. gosh. where is my mr sandman??
i think there is traffic over the clouds. i use to sleep a lot but that was like years ago.
then i had my time to actually have a sleeping buddy. he made me sleep like a pig. haha.. then i forgot which is the pillow that made me sleep so much. dunno lah. i think i lost that pillow like since i dunno lah. okay, that's not important. i have to see a doctor soon. and i hope that this upcoming week, i can redevelope a new sleeping pattern. cos honestly, i will die if this insomnia really just gets worst.

i shall plan my whole work-free week great lah..
monday, i hope that i can meet As. been quite long since we meet up lah.
(and yes, i really missed you lah gf!!! haha.)
tuesday, no plan currently. maybe i want to ask all the sisters to meet up.
wednesday, maybe resting like shit in the morning till afternoon then im going with laura babe for some last ladies' night out.
thursday, rest day... i think.
friday, the last day i can thon out so i guess i will just take advantage of it.
saturday, rest...
sunday report to rp for the cypher camp...

yawns.
okay, i just want to try to sleep now.
im really damn tired but i cant seem to sleep.
i need mr sandman!!!!

anways, i wrote a poem today...
here it goes,

a tear for your selfishness,
a smile for your devotion,
a hatred for your stubborness
a love for your compassion.

with every tear there's happiness,
with every smile there's sorrow,
with every hatred there's love,
and with every love there's tomorrow...

p.s. if there's ever that day for our moments again, i hope we'll know how to cherish each other this time.
our love for each other will survive everything if it is meant to be.
our friends know that. but i promise you, you need not be bogged down by me anymore again...
at least for now.... (winks winks)

nurul, jas .... thanks for making me start to be honest with my feelings for him.
i appreciate that. really. without you guys, i dont think that i can even realise that my love for him is still within me.
nurul, i took your example in showing your real feelings.
i love you guys..