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(THIS ENTRY HAS A MESSAGE FOR MAHATHIR. NURUL'S EX BF)

im quite sad today , and worried, yeash honestly speaking, cos i was so worried for boi when i got his msg in the morning.
i really hope that everything will turn out well fer him in the end. haiz.
as it is now, i guess i wont be able to chat with boi as often then. it is fine, i just hope that he will be fine soon.
i care for him lah. dun it show?? haha. oks.

but in honest sense, i was disappointed that what nurul and i planned today didnt happen.
and yeas, he didnt kept to his words... but i cant blame him really, things just happened this way fer him.
maybe this planned event should be postponed then... hmmmss...
as planned then, Nurul dear and i went to Pastamania. it was her turn to treat me as she just gotten her pay.
and so she did. wahahahaha. i love her loads. ok like honestly, i love pasta! haha. and so i love it that she treated me there. but yeahs, it ended up that she didnt like the pasta she ordered. yeaps. den she proclaimed that she will never eat there again. wtf! (nurul! u better change ur mind lah girl!)

anyways, then we went to the area near our school, looking for a beauty center as she wanted to do her eyebrows. gosh. then we found one. and guess what!! after chinese new year, i will be gg for a french manicure. it really is quite cheap there noe. so i kinda took their name cards cos they offered me some promo. wahahaha. anyways, later on we went to meet up with the nurul's fren and then we hung out at tampines' starbucks. love it there. haha.. hmms i dunno why i love starbucks but yeahs i do!

anyways, today i didnt really get to talk to boi as he was really in a bad situation. but im glad that he took the time to actually appease my worry. (thanks boi. and im soree that i sounded bad to you... ) hmms. wells, after starbucks i went back home and then i blasted some rock songs. i wasnt in the best mood really. in a way, i guess i felt something that i shouldnt feel about the fact daryl is really not in the slightest at all at even reconciling... and just forgetting the past... i dunno if he's mad at me for letting him go.. or is he just being such an ass. but i didnt do anything wrong apart from like leaving him... (i found that out when today nurul was insistent to see them and i thought ok why not.. but it was Him who was being difficult.. i mean i put the past behind us and there he is still dwelling in it....) haiz. nvm....
whatever! he seriously needs to loosen up a lil. he just spoiled my day more today. (and thanks daryl. gosh.)

anyways, things took a harsh turn on Nurul. i really feel that she needs to have her time alone but i cannot at all let her do what she likes. i mean i noe she's hurt about how her bf- her EX bf, reacted to the way she said that she want to break with him. she said it in a nice manner and all but he just brushed it off and just spoiled the entire thing. she had wanted to meet up for the last time, to accomodate for him and to console him too. but he just spoiled everything. he likes doing that often.. she love him a lot and they could have gone on longer. but he spoiled his chance. i cant accept the fact that he actually said loads of harsh things to her when she was just doing herself a favour of not getting hurt more each day, and also, this favour extends to him.

Mahathir, if u ever read this... im soree to sae this, but SHAME on you. and dont ever think that i will let my godsis crawl back to you.. and i will see to it that she keeps her words as long as it is necessary. your possesiveness will get you nowhere. and soree if im sounding harsh. so yeahs. this is just a frenly advise. and since you hurt my sister and still dare to compare ur own hurt with what she feels, I SWEAR U WILL EAT UR WORDS ONE DAY MAHATHIR, SHAME ON YOU. SHAME ON YOU.. AND THEN U WILL BE THE ONE WHO WILL CRAWL BACK TO HER. AND I WILL PITY COS SHE WONT TAKE U BACK, AS LONG AS IT IS NECASSARY. sorry.