=)

plans has changed like crazy. lol
anyway, today wasn't jean and jan day... as of now, it has been postponed to wednesday(:
wednesday's plan of going to JB was dashed by the trio - cody, sandy and yihao
boohoo! was soo planning to have lunch there.

today i met mr bf... hehe
nice being with him today though...
and there went our abstinence of not seeing each other for a week (: lol
basically i think it's impossible..
(haiz... imagine a whole month when he goes back to lanka? -.-)
i'm still bothered about it. not having a good feel about him going.
let's see how it goes, months more to come till that arrives.

okayy.. so after the day with shenath(twas nice seeing him today:)
went to meet nurul at tampines. hehe
so totally missed her lah. finally we went out.
went to QIJI to eat... mee siam! haha nice meal and i bet her laksa looks more tempting after what i did to it...
*visualize nurul... you're good at it u naughty bitch. haha
(and no im not trying anymore stunts unless u try my stunt. hmph! :P)

well, im almost done with what im doing for shenath. yipee!
two more stuff to go and im done! hehe
i just hope that the last item is a success. lol
i hope he likes it tho... hehe
*shenath if ur reading this. pls be patient k, u'll know soon enough (:

to the rest of you blogders, i will be putting up what it is i have been up to.
after friday night.. hehe
okay. i want to go... tired from using the computer. haha

take care. nites

the day

when the heart loves, the soul lightens up
nothing in the world can actually define love

what's love? A strong positive emotion of regard and affection
but the real meaning of love start from your own view of this phenomenon

what's love to me? it is a feeling no doubt
something that can be reflected through the eyes and motives...
i believe that love is an influence, a guide and an understanding between two souls
love should be reciprocal and it should be discouraged when it is one-sided

the downside?
love co-exist with lust therefore we often mistake lust for love.
this is where relationship takes the landslide and hit rock bottom
so how will you know if you're in love or just in lust?

you will know... let time tell it all but have a prepared mind about it.
you will know just as i did.

once you do however, make it worthwhile and try to be as good as you possibly can.
experiences varies but it is what motivates you to be that matters...
and what really motivates you to is your motives to show how much you love the person.
but always remember that love is not always sugar-coated...
somehow, just be positive and keep trying to make things work... =)

okay.. that is so drama-MUCH!
anyway, that is just a random topic i have in my head. all about love and all that.
like duh! im like in love... and still on cloud 9 and hoping to stay in cloud 9 forever. lol

today, lets see.. my plans varied like crazy.
and like who am i kidding.. i plan things and end up doing another set of things...
today i have to apologize to Jaja for not coming watch her game when it was in my schedule to do so.
okay, so met mira after her rp interview!
i got late in meeting up with her at somerset station so she went off to first destination;
PINC - a nice place for both men and women.
when i said men i meant metro sexual men... cos today, mira went for some waxing!
and i had brow threading... so traditional and the lady was good... uh huh
she's indian so she should give good outcome when it comes to threading...
i can never trust a NON-indian to do threading except my aunt sol (:

anyway, after PINC we headed for lunch.
i was super torn between Fish & co. and Sakura...
well, mira wasnt helping also... and i can tell you that girl has tastes! and it's not cheap.
lol but really that's what my girls are :) uggh
okay anyway, eventually went to sakura and we had THAI! well, it's once in awhile and she's practically going to fly off tonight already so yeah...

the lunch was great!
we both talked about everything - BOYS and stuff.
how come boys are this and that and whatever that comes to mind...
then we talked about our own boys... lol =)
mira mira... poor you... (first date blues. lol)

after lunch bought skinny and it alright except for the fact that i have to get a size bigger cos my ass wont fit. lol
then mira just go on comforting saying something like "oh dont fret..having an ass like that is what the bf should be loving" lol
totally maniac - mira mira mira
anyway babe, i wish you a safe trip! =) muacks!
see ya next month for you party...!!!

okay, i have to do some things now.
gtg wanna sleep earlier today... meeting shen tmr! =)

take care people..
muahs!

the day's fulfilment.

today today today
was was was
very very very
tiring tiring tiring

lol im feeling so retarded today...
hmms i wonder why... (see the next few paragraph)

okay i went to school. managed to dragged myself off from bed.
but then developed flu so when i reached school, i was so weary!
manage to reach 15 mins late ONLY.
gosh. then the problem for today made my brain melted.
then later bf gave some itch on the emotions again.
but twas alright, nothing big. lucky... phew!

ouhs yeahs.. yesterday, after the photoshoot, went to meet shenath.
didn't want to actually due to the attitude he gave me the whole of yesterday.
he himself didn't want to meet. but at least we sorted things out.
so on my part, i apologised and reassured.
sorry darling... i love you! :)

then finally, we are fine!
=)) then today gotten sick... yawns.
so mr shenath insisted i left class to rest at his place.
was so tired i forgotten my fear of staying alone at his place...
yeah alone lah, he went back to class :)
today i have to say that he took care of me VERY VERY well :))
i gave him an A :))

anyway, lets talk about a fulfilment.
shenath had finally manage to bring me to this place he wanted to go last month.
(even when i sick oso still can go around ah.. haha this is what happens when he and i are together.)
he failed in getting into this nature place in singapore at first.
apparently, the second time he tried looking around, he found the place!
it was quite hard to get to the place actually;
quite tedious cos the place has this gates one need to squeeze into/ or climb!
even i cant get to that place... i seriously doubt i will find it interesting!

but it was eventually very very interesting.
i was quite afraid id get bruises or cuts or injury of some sorts, but at least he led me to the place gently.
sucha gentleman he is =))
the place was dewy. nature see... so yeahs
later on he had to rush to leave lah... uggh
then uber disgusting had to brush on those dewy part of the leaves all...
he has rugby training so no choice... =((
but.... he says he'll bring me to the place again. lets see...
hope it wont be that dewy the next time around =))

okay... yeah so that is our fulfilment!
okay okay maybe not lah. but today was quite insane.
shenath went late for his rugby training... PARTIAL ATTENDANCE! =))
darling... thanks for your socks ah... *sarcasm*

hmms anyway, wanna upload pics in my next entry.
got some retarded pics to show.
but for now.
this entry is for TODAY'S FULFILMENT.

Random|How come

i was looking ard my links blog.
saw renee's... was intrigued that she reads horoscope.

then i thought i should read my monthly too :)) kepo... hehe :P
after reading it, i didn't know what to think. lol
so much for reading it. but some parts are right, some are little bit whacked. =))



just now met up with nurul.
had dinner and i tell you, i seriously cannot believe that a murtabak can be HUGE.
HUMONGOUS, GIGANTIC, MASSIVE
whatever the vocab, the portion was super huge.
took a pic of it but it's still in nurul's phone. i shall upload when i get it from her.

anyway, i ate like 1/3 of it, the other parts are choked on and forced swallowed.
then i gave up eating... i had to take it away :))


salihin ramli came too.
syed salihin was late... he came later at around 8.30pm
salihin and nurul offering me ciggarette just now.
as a mere test i think ... hmms... they went saying... "you're bf wont know what"
lol i tried to call that idiot shenath, in the end he never pick up.
oh well not fated and i doubt he will let me lah...
i left when syed salihin came, i wasn't in the mood for socialising.

the brothers are considered dead to me! haiz
i dont know lah... whatever... it's just my emotions i think.
they're kinda useless ready... :(

i miss everyone tho... like how it used to be...
late night ventures, happening moments.
but then it's gone lah..

today shenath looked nice in the formal top =))
gosh i can melt seeing guys like that... hehe
so guys who want to get noticed... hehe please wear formal outfits. *melts*
okay okay. stop ranting... hehe *jean, you're attached* lol
anyway, shenath still takes the no. 1 spot eh heh? :D

before i signed off.

this is a song dedicated to my old peeps... haiz
the special ones :((

long day

it was such a long day that im only ending it with today's entry.
so before i lay flat on my soft and comfy bed, i sacrifice a bit of my time now,
before i forget the entire day today. of which some i would not, of course... *winks*

so it started with the PR issues.
twas uber irritating...

reached there at 1030am, got given the queue number at 1045am.
guess what time i ended?

530pm. period.

the day tested my patience and of course the last straw, my temper.
the counters serving the PR applicants are uber slow, i swear i can do my own funeral there.

after finally getting the Entry Permit and Re-entry permit payment done,
i had to wait for the thumb prints taking at the other counters.

so like an idiotic fool i waited, no choice anyway.
apparently, being alone almost drove me crazy. i was half nuts when my darling came.
oh yeah, he came to find me... so sweet right? haha

anyhoo, i decided i might inquire as to why is the service damn fucking slow.
of course, omitting profanities i came in the politest tone they deserve.

so then there is this Minah who i must say, work there,
overhearing my inquiry, taking it to her sensitive nerve and blasted at me saying,
"Maybe you'd like to come in here and work instead..." and then she gave that shit face.

i swear i can award myself for being so composed still, being the brat that i am! hehehe
i merely reply in my i swear so polite and as a matter of fact tone -

"I will if i can you know..."

and then she turn around and left exclaiming to her colleagues that i insist they are slow in their service.
she is a Minah i tell you. and i grade her A+ for being one.

i was dumbfounded but like i said, im a brat.
so i told the counter woman, YES they FUCKING ARE. (minus he word FUCKING)
i demanded her name and...

then to the rest at the counter i exclaimed "SO IS THAT THE WAY YOU TREAT YOUR PR INVITEE?"

SILENCE.
SILENCE.
SILENCE.

the head officer within the hearing range called to me and asked me to enter her room.
the room where she was explaining to me the reason for the slow service,
and on that Minah's behalf, apologizing.

of which i find isn't at all sincere.
why?

1. she was looking at my queue number sheet all through while she was talking
2.she fucking dont understand the meaning of shutting up when im the one who needs to talk.
3.she cuts me off when im explaining

i let her off cos she's old.
that's all.


but i swear that Minah is so not getting away.
okay jean... enough loathing... besides your day was happy overall right... heee

so after the whole scene.
called the mum and complained... she made some calls and then my queue number came like so fast.

then later on, aunt shidah who works there as some higher PR officer, came out to see me.
of which then the counter lady was taken aback that im connected to her.

later on after the thumb prints taking, i didnt need to wait anymore to collect my passport.
it was given to me on the spot.

plus, that counter lady took my number to recommend her daughter to my aunt ju's cafe as waitress.
and of course to whichever work connection i can recommend.
oohh i love connections. hehe

then of course not leaving out the boyfriend.
he was so sweet.

knowing i was halfway dying and rotting away at ICA.
he came with dilan at ICA. like aww... okay. enough...

i dont want my blogders to start puking due to my oh-so-sudden sweetness.
but i cant be bothered. so to ya'll: just read and shut up.


later on i followed deary to RP.
slacked at the hostel till 8pm while he went off first to report to the field for his match.

i was suppose to leave with denver. and then i didn't want to be late to see my man play his game, so i went off first.
denver came 1 and 1/2 hour later!

so i was watching the game alone.
i didn't find myself socializing with the guys and girls at the audience stand.
they were smiling and offering friendly initiation but i think i was being sucha
socialite of some sort. lol

anyway, it would look weird suddenly, so i kept to myself;
with the mental note of killing denver for making me wait and watch the match alone! lol

today was the first time i watched a real rugby match.

first impression?

NASTY!

i was the one who felt the pain, subconsciously! i was like "ouch", "shit", "fuck"
and imagine i was GODDAM alone!
i bet like they were thinking im nuts or something.

then again, i cant be bothered.
i was too engrossed. lol

Darling was like flying around. He's too fast a runner.
Couldn't keep track of him. only when the guys do the "hugging" thing.

i cant remember what that term was. uggh
never mind.
anyway, the one tackle i couldn't forget was the one when like everyone was like not running after this opponent and then all of a sudden i saw him flying on that dude.

gosh. i cannot imagine seeing him injured.
but then again, as long as im with him, he wont get that injured. hehe

okay im like semi cursing him this way.
haha... but he was like telling me about what happens when i go from him.
hehe... im not saying it here though.. he know i know, tts enough... =))

:P *sticks tongue out*

anyway, the sad part was that their team lost.
they were against a Club anyway. but it was not bad though, 17-22 i think
so means they are still of a high standards.

he was telling me that his dudes are crapped out about it.
taking it too hard or whatever...
but good that he was okay. hehe like duh he should be okay.

okay enough. im not making sense when im writing this way.

i got to go.
i have Assistant Operations Manager duty to do at the shop tomorrow.
another long day!!!

yawns.

got to go.
muahs

=))

yesterday i was totally not in the mood, in anything that is.
the only apparent mood i was in was either im too happy or im too quiet - if u call that moods...

i only remember laughing madly or shutting up entirely.
shen should know! haha i wasnt in the mood for anything.
yesterday in class was hilarious tho, i was team up with the couple (vans and yihao), sahidah and nisha. we made quite a lot of noise talking about which ghost should represent which.
apparently i got the breast ghost - hantu tetek.
it's quite the contrary tho, i have big and juicy ass, not breast. im only a B-cup and they call me hantu tetek? retardation.
so nisha as usual get the calling pontianak, sahidah was the chinese vampire, yihao is the pocong and vanessa is toyol - i know... i dont kno what i was doing really

(this makes me happy too)

the mood of happiness or basically just outburst of laughter irritated even myself.
i wonder how Shen stand these moods im getting. it's retarded.
anyhoo, i had some talk with him.
apparently, boys out there who have been trying to figure me out can go to Shen to ask any queries - he's working double shift digging in me deeper =))
apparently, he wants to know 'this girl i ....' i shall leave the dots a mystery
okayy. absolute as it may seem, i am feeling rather emotional.
i think, yes, that's the word, emotional.
over what? nothing. it's the damn period
moody before the period, normal during the period and anger outburst after the period.
OMG shen is so going to suffer...

shen and i are somewhere in the line of friends and more...
we are still on that path. we are having fun and i guess id know if we'll ever really happen.
if im still feeling as if we are not, it would be up to him to make me feel as such.
so far we are really good on communicating what we feel and how we see things.
i admire people who are independent - at least those who are somewhere there.. - cos for nuts, im not independent really. that's a good thing about being a girl
anyhoo, yesterday when shen sent me to the bus interchange, we saw his classmates.
i so wanted to run and hide. haha i mean i dont think it should be fair to us being found out when we are still "on the way"
i have nothing against our closer friends knowing about us and all.
my readers basically wont know who the hell im talking about anymore. only some here...
RP readers should just keep a close watch if you're really that psychotic to know.
but please dont link me to some strange retard. haha

okayy. today was quite fun too.
ALIENS ARE INVADING!


- we have two days to inform the whole world about it.
how and what to do? this is the most retarded communication topic that is brought up ever. haha
my team did fine. not the best but it dont really matter, we conveyed and stood our grounds rather well =))

was with shen most of the time. i didnt see jan today tho =((
cos he left me in the morning and we didnt meet for lunch - went with Shen.
i know, it's like Shen, Shen, Shen... what can i do?
well, ive been spending and talking to him most of the time.
apparently he's gathering information about me and my character. i told him to make a book out of it. haha
okayy. after school today, met him again and went to his hostel and hung out with this friends. uggh his dorm totally is GUYS DORM - it's awful!
only one of the guys' BED AREA is clean!

okay whatever it was. we spend like 45 mins being together and ended up getting late for both our other commitments!
and and i gave him BUTTERFLY KISSES.


i like those kisses a lot and uggh however, whenever i think of that, i remember giving it to daryl. stop stop stop. brainwash
but however, Shen didn't get the REAL butterfly kiss i always give my bfs..
recalling: i dont think i gave one to ivan tho...
okayy whatever... it dont matter..

so today went for emcee meeting. yay! =))
we are going to be handed out events to host. it really is cool.
however, it so totally make me sooo packed this holiday.

3 weeks = 21 days
class chalet - at least 2 day 1 night
weblog camp - 3 days
2-4 days of workshops - journalism & emcee-ing
so far, that's 11 days gone and more to come...

today at emcee meeting it got me thinking of doing a podcast.
anyone has any ideas to do on? something that you think i can pull off?
dont ask me to do comedy. it'll will suck. =D

emcee meeting was like too fast and too long...
fast cos i was 10mins late. missed the introduction part. uggh wasted.
also, it was a bad first second impression.lol
then it was long because i was suppose to meet Yan - has been waiting for like 45mins or so
gosh. so he fetched me and we went to seafood place at tampines.
been long since i been there.
well, my bums hurt due to the travel there on the motor, it has been like months and months that i ride it.
miss going riding with my dear ling. haiz...
and of course i do miss my good ol' biker friends.. =((

okay anyhooo... i have to go.
im lacking sleep... but school is fun as usual.
however before i end my day today.
i want to do an advance greeting -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FREN, YIHAO

best wishes...

goodnight....

the day and some thoughts

well first of, i must say that since Mira has brought up my all-time happening birthday celebration, this may sound disheartening for those people who love the parties i hold.

however, it will double the pain in me - i may not be celebrating my 19th birthday! =((

i really enjoy throwing great parties..
and i am so honoured that my parties are the ones you people truly love going to.
as you all know my dear people, my mum is expecting to be due this month.
and it is most probably be around my birthday - 23rd August.
well, to those whom i know is planning my party, im thanking you really.
like aww jan, you're a wonderful guy.
if only you we're straight... ewww!
haha. anyway, jan is going into depression.

it's Shen(mr. crush)... jan is jealous of shen - he thinks his bgf is getting pulled away or something.
darly no k. everyone's my friend and i dont want to lose any.
okay. so ive revealed mr. crush's name.
just to remind all sisters, this is still in the crush zone.
i dont think he'd settle anytime now... plus, we're both flirts.

also, the situation is that we are friends with benefits - i dont know, we never talk about this.
it's those spontaneous things. que sera sera.
no one is tied down to no one. i just hope im not just his other woman.
i so totally have enough of being the third party.
for some fateful events in my love dept, i have been the third party at least thrice.
so if Shen is reading this - "please dont lie to jean when she ask if you have other women. she must know cos she prefer it that way"

okay, i must say that i really dont really feel truly satisfied.
i cannot help it, sometimes it sucks but when i think about the future - my future - it's better to wait till the 21st.
if however, they drag it till 30th or if last minute they tell me that i am not eligible, im killing them - no way im going to wait that long.
ima screw the damn milions or billions or whatever...
*to those who dont know what im talking about - just forget i say this, haha

however, i must say too that Shen is really a nice guy.
i hope he really dont end up dumping me after like i dont know. haha
but that's it, if im getting dump for that 21st birthday event, i dont know what to say.
and whatever it is, im fine. im not placing hopes and fears on anything...
im a good girl and i know God looks after me even when im not holy. =))

well today, i spend my day quite well and quite happy.
to Shen, i had fun today =)) but u guys are pigs!!! uggghh
go get yourselves french maids so that you can like have fun while they are cleaning your hostel.
omg, i bet Shen's friends' women will run after me with knives! =0

oh this afternoon, belated birthday boy khalid msn me.
he said he wanted a massage. hahaha, i know dear boy, you love my massage.
it made you go oooohhh and aaahhhh rite? hahaha sure i will, come crash my school k.
it'd massage ur head and neck like i always did. my school got sofa and all. haha

then just when i was walking home.
the most sweetest ever, a dog humping a cat! haha okayy that's Shen talking! like wtf.
i cant believe he thought that was sweet and worst - romantic!
uggh. okayy. so back to what i saw.
this boy in his just turned teenhood, or not even close, was knocking on this window, calling someone.
so the window opened and then he climbed up the sill and he talked to the 'friend'; it appeared to be a girl. it reminded me of me when i was trying to get out of my window to sneak out and flirt with some cute neighbour, in the Philippines.
okayy. the main point is, it's sooo cute. so romantic. so childlike.
innocent and pure, it was i seem to not have now.
not that im already used or sexed - but i have a corrupted mind, so you cannot count me pure.
haha and certainly aint that innocent.

okayy. i want to turn in soon.
just waiting for mr. lost crush to come online.

okay. for the time being, do me a favour and do this.
it's for a very good cause, a research that is being conducted... [LINK]

on reserved updates.

there may be possibility that jan is going into depression.
why?
because he's jealous i have Mr. Crush, whom he helped tremendously to fixed up with me, without my consent,
I REPEAT - without my consent.

okay that is not what i wanted to update on. So here it is;
The day turned out okay.
the fact that Mr. Crush did not turn up suddenly, during the time that i was having rudolph's (the reindeer) nose, was really a blessing.
i was close to rushing to the ladies' to touch up on my already-unfresh-sickly face when i smelled the rat.
jan was about to almost succeed in tricking me.
the whoreness! uggh

well, we ended up chatting over the msn.
it was not bad for the first time talking, it was cool.
found that he is an outgoing and open-minded person.
that's already a plus.
but anyhoo, i would so totally not want to place too fat a hope into this.
i mean it is still there in the crush zone.
it might crash half way through the flight.
but if he and i gets along rather well, i wont deny i can like him.
:D yayness for me! it's like a fresh new chapter in the love dept.

anyway, the trick Jan made seemed to happen like unexpectantly.
that frenwhore of mine has 'salty tongue'!
so like after chatting with mr. crush, he asked to meet, at least for a while.
then yeahs, lucky i lost the red nose within like an hour.
haha, so went to meet him for a while lah.

then after Jan's class we ate at the canteen.
i saw the two guys i saw in the library in the canteen.
of which one is so cute, he has dimples.
gosh... nice nice... im a sucker for dimples and nice eyes.
which explains my choice in Mr. Crush and the sudden attraction to this guy name Shah.

ya okay, im sucha whore.
First is Mr. Crush and then Shah, like wtf.
Jan was so pissed.
[recalling]
shah was eating diagonally behind me, so was stealing glances at him and all, like some girl do.
so happens after he finished, he was walking out of the canteen when we had eye contact, then he smiled.
his dimples are soo ugggh! *melts*
the funny part was that when we were busy smiling at each other, he slammed into his friend.
i almost laughed out loud. wahahaha

Anyway, so this friend of shah passed me a note, with his number and all.
so i decided to like give it a try.
test the waters... then *chechang* he was so cute over the phone too.

okay like enough.
im still crushing on mr. crush here.
hehe i was reasoning out to Jan that i am not attached with Mr. Crush so it is like okay to talk to Shah, right?
Nothing wrong.

so far, i have a plan to go out with Mr. Crush tmr.
i hope he really wakes up after boozing the night away.
if he is really reading this, i hope to see him... like whatever.
hehe

ciaos now.
muahs

Updates on hyperventilating.

Currently writing this post in my school’s library – waiting for the incorrigible incessant late comer!

And I am sure that I will be continuing this post somewhere else.

After much concentrated thought, I lost my hyperventilation.

I had to put my head into my work – of course with constant nagging of my conscience and Jan!

It was S.T.D (gosh forgive me for calling you this)

He was the cause of my hyperventilating!

Of course with the help of no other but Jan Rick Mascarina – oh and I almost forgot, Jo…

Why must I be blessed with two bimbos who so totally just seem to really get me in deep shit?!

H-E-L-P

Okay fine, not that deep.

But deep enough to put really thick blushes on my tanned face!

You cannot imagine the feeling I felt unless it was you or unless it happened to you.

I think you’d kill a duck after that.

What happened?

Okay well, it was on impulse.

When I do a thing on an impulse, it usually ends up retarded or the likes!

I think it was Jan who sparked this impulse.

I felt challenged and I took it.

I was waiting for Jan for lunch break.

He came then and (I forgot how it came about) we ended up going to Jo’s class.

On the impulse of wanting to see S.T.D – someone I have a crush on!!!

I repeat – CRUSH – and not some lover or whatever.

Crushing is basically normal but it’s a little bit good for me because it is hardly for me to even have crushes on anyone that stays.

So let’s put to test this current crush.

Anyway, diverting back, so during that impulse, I en route to Jo’s class which was just side by side his class…

Then in the end, when we pulled Jo out of the class, this Chinese guy came out to take an “Everlast” pumps from a corridor, and then this dark guy in spectacles sitting on the mobile school chair was too!

My heart thumped hard – I felt it was him…

And then I almost slammed on Jan trying to ‘get away’ when Jan said that it was him!

The bespectacled dude was Mr. Crush?

I was totally taken aback – from the entire wrong angles – yes.

I didn’t know he wore spectacles. Of course I don’t really mind but I was shock Mr. Crush is Mr. Trash

And then again, NOPE – he is Mr. Crush.

Im fucking superficial sometimes, on impulse especially; im working on it!

Anyway, that wasn’t the worst – I promise more is to come in the later parts – bear with me!

Okay, I think he was wondering if it was ‘the girl’ from the JUMP party, who boldly complimented him and who talked to him as if she already knew him. (Yes I did that – blush)

For some apparent likes of my hypothesis, he peak out of his classroom door.

I was facing Jo, my back faces him.

Jo was like “He’s peaking, he’s peaking, he’s peaking…” then…

Nothing happened! He wasn’t there when I turned.

So then I was like “why was he wearing specs? I want to see his eyes.”

“His eyes are so nice, why he wear specs?!” of course the exclamation was in hush

But it proved to be contrary…

So he went out of his class, AGAIN, this time when I was pushing all my weight on Jan, (pinning him to the wall, opposite his class, to prevent him from going in Mr. Crush’s class!); he went out WITHOUT spectacles! I damn hope he wasn’t listening in(out)… arrgghh

That was such a ‘wonderful’ timing for him to go out of his class!!

Goodness!!! I think I was blushing.

Okay I admit I pretended not to see him initially okay.

Then when our eyes met, I fucking can’t turn away right?

So I said a stupid, “Hey… you…”

He flashed his award-winning smile and I swear I wanted to kill those people rolling around their mobile chairs making those noises.

Totally distracting!

Conversation went like this…

Me: Hey… you…

Crush: Hey.

Me: (not knowing how to fucking pronounce his name) you are…?

Crush: says his name….. (im not saying his name!) , JEAN right?

Me: Yeah… *smiles wildly*(‘cause he remembered my name!)

THEN I DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED FROM HERE!!!

Okay I have to stop this madness.

This crush secret won’t be a secret for long. One of my friends is in the same class as him.

And after speaking to her, and confirming she really is in the same class as him I realize that she seemed as if she knows what happened just now! But I’ll just die of embarrassment!

OMG! I cannot believe I just say that!

Me? Embarrassed? I sound like a timid and stupid school girl.

I got to stop thinking about what happened just now! This is madness.

[Inner voice to jean]

You have got to be kidding. You know you’re not like this. What kind of a guy is he made of anyway?

How can he have the power to overwhelm you this way?!

[Over]

Now im finishing this entry on the comfort of my room, sitting on my sofa and recounting today’s madness.

I must admit, the inner voice says it.

I am not that weak when it comes to boys – especially crushes!

Im doomed.

He’s made of something else.

Well, then again.

Maybe it’s just some stupid crush, some emotional impulse that puts me off guard for a little while.

Although it seems horrid, I won’t deny myself the chance of befriending him.

I feel as if a new species of me is being reborn.

Im out!

I hope that maybe I will bump into him one of these days.

Just a hope; I don’t even know where this impulse lead.

Just that no matter where it lead to, I hope it is good.

Because it has been long since something romantically good happens to me - months.

controlled controversy

Im typing this entry in the bus, to kill the 45 minutes that I could spend doing other productive things…

Talk about being productive, someone really made me realize a lot about being business minded.

I am business minded; however, I feel that my need for stability and security blinds me and is the cause of my weakness

I have to make money work for me and not work for money.

I am glad that I am ‘taught’ by Ken.

I am glad I met this type of person – who himself had been and employee and an employer before.

Today I spent 45 minutes talking with him about business and life.

Apparently, from his experience, life is not something easy and ‘risk-less’.

Day in day out, we must take in risk to benefit ourselves.

My first assignment is to read up Rich Dad Poor Dad and second is to learn to SELL.

Sell what exactly?

Whatever…

Vague as it may seem, I realize that the aspects of selling benefits individuals in their daily life.

I am so happy that I have Ken for a potential mentor! (Oh well he so is anyway, right?)

Thanks boss!

For our gossip arena, it is something exciting though.

I found out something that I did not expect – Mr. X is already dating one of the girls in class – according to certain reliable sources =)

I wish you both good lucks if it’s serious business or not, okay?

Then you ask why don’t I expect it?

1. I did not think Mr. X is good enough for her. (jean your such a bitch)

2. I thought she was supposed to be attached! (I guess I was behind time)

3. I was not informed! (Being the supposed gossip collector, I am behind time!!!)

Okay, whatever to those who knows them.

Cross your fingers for more information okay. After which we shall not dwell into them.

I so hate nosing into people’s events!

Anyway, not only them that caused some ‘controversy’ in class.

For some apparent reason, mix-and-match fiesta has never been so thrilling.

It gives me goose bumps and elation at the same time.

Like for example, there was this hugging session for two unlike pair.

For an instance it would dare not cross my mind that they are even together.

*Im sorry for having to be discreet about the last two pair. I have to protect them too, you see =)

Anyway, today’s class proved to be a little bit full of miscommunications.

For those classmates reading, you all should be very much informed.

To those ‘uninformed’ peeps, basically, the debate we all had today was too confusing even for my own supposed intelligence – more to a bimbo’s intelligent!

I cannot say that I sucked for today’s debate, I did everything to the best I could (at least for the day’s quality. Hehe)

Anyway, whatever it was, everyone did their best.

Just to highlight this main event that I wish the readers (even the person herself) should take note of.

For reasons of good, I must say that everyone should put their private issues aside.

It cripples everyone who seems to have nothing in mind but to have fun.

I am not saying that everyone including herself is not entitled to feel degraded and discriminated against, given the fact that people are truly stating things that is about her or some sort.

What I really want to say is that she (you my dear) need to stop taking things personally.

Also, those people who have things to say that you know is not going to help but to just put fuel to the fire, JUST SHUT UP and respect their ways of action.

If you so need to do say anything for the sake of entertainment, don’t even think about it!

Or for the least of it, ask their permission okay?

Okay, enough about these.

I FINALLY FOUND HIM!!!

*hyperventilate*

I was about to give up and then I did! Okay stopping here.

Gosh. Jan, I know you know who im talking about…

=) okay, he’s just someone I find so alluring. I don’t know! It’s infatuation.

But who cares? It doesn’t matter okay.

Infatuation or not, as long as he makes me ‘shiver’- in a good way though – I so totally don’t mind!!!

Okay, something to laugh about… LOVE.

Dear Love,

When are you going to come back to me?

Sometimes I feel your absence and it causes me to wonder if I did anything to offend you.

Why don’t you come no more?

Why don’t you light up my ‘nights’ no more?

Is it always going to be a ‘lost forever’?

You cannot do this to me, love you love me.

You cannot pull away from me.

So you have to come back.

Wake me up from this slumber I am in.

Take me away from all of this cheap love.

Take me…

Come to me…

I call for you to touch me now…

Love… I want to feel you again.

With love,

Your love.

fun fun fun

it was a night of whistles, cheers, clappers, shouts and republican enjoyment.
the night of the Official Opening ceremony was something that i didn't think
i will go crazy over.
but after experiencing it, i am GLAD i attended the event and saw different versions of the people i see in school daily.
which goes to say, i finally saw the cute ones. hehe

no but that wasn't the main event.
today, PM Lee visited my school and he was the Guest-of-honor to start off the whole OPENING event.
after which, the JUMP party started and it was totally dissed.
why?
because the singer from this japanese band was totally screaming - not singing - i repeat
screaming with her coarse voice.
i admire her guts but she was totally too much.
i knew too well that she would give those 'uber-disgusting' versions of songs.
HOW?
THE DAMN FIRST YEAR ORIENTATION we were greeted by her singing.
imagine the shock - im glad that they even let her have the stage.
okay enough - jean your such a bitch - im sorry i dont mean to really critique - im being honest *smiles*

anyway, we (me and jan) realized that those who can sing uber nice are hidden/hiding and those who suck throughout are the one who are so 'out-there'
i dont understand this, i dont think i'd even do

well, lets move on and along now.
as the night continue after welcoming the PM, everyone was really joyful.
the last 'booth' of the PM's visit the most remarkable one.
everyone gave him a warm welcome - and so did the RUGBY team.
they are super hawt, i got to admit.
erms, kinda got to know this rugby guy.
yes yes, i asked his name - then you ask if i ask his number? - NO
i cant help to ask his name, he's just - well - captivating.
his eyes are lovely - *melts*
it so happens that we go to the same building just that at different levels.

okay, hush now.
well, the night went on and oh ya!
there were magic shows - from the Magic IG
then i got to know this magician - matthew - he's good.
so he did for me this trick and then he told me to remember him by it.
and so i will dude =)
you guys rock! hehe

there were a lot of people i missed out i hanging out with, we were all busy with our other friends.
some were like lost in the crowd, some were eating the buffet.
it was really cool and then i hung out with jan.
jan came to fetch me with sharlene.

[gluttony moment]
me and jan went to pastamania for lunch
we were so full that we couldnt walk back to school
so we decided to cab back - talk about being fat and lazy.
[exit]

hmms anyway, i realize that i really do adore my school.
also, im starting to see how fun it really is.
so RP you rock!
so sad my ABC weren't able to make it.


anyway, i have to run.
tata

as my day went.

2nd post of the day.

met nurul as i said, jan came along too.
ate at long john's.
first went t tampines mall branch,
twas damn packed so i decided that we head to century's
both of them were like complaining, complaining, complaining.
sorry guys, i just want to eat long john's k? hehe
well after forcing jan to eat up his share of fats, *sniggers*
we head down to sunplaza park and to the middle of 'the other world'.
jan was quite scared initially, then came amazement and then the comfortable positions.

all through the year, it has been my place with nurul.
it has been our 'little secret'. hehe
yawns.
so anyway, after the day out, here i am at home.
tired and cramped. not going to school tomorrow!
hate qian these few weeks, i have to take a break this week.
plus this damn cramp is killing me.
my parents and sis are out! can u imagine that?
they went for a movie and they didn't even ask me!
i bet they are watching harry potter now! shithead luh.
so gonna watch it - very soon!!!!

anyway, i am eyeing the last book of course.
this is it, the next buy of this last installment will be something i would want to be excited about and yet, i dread it.
all through the end of half blood prince, i dread this last book.
i so so dread it because the next year and so, there aint anything to be hyped about and to look forward too.
i hope JK rowling continue tales about harry or harry's descendant or something.
hais. but i wouldnt be the same.
(every) good thing comes to an end.

note to all those fans who has bought the book, pls! i beg of you, do not reveal to me the ending.
anw, got to go, need to do RJ.
bye

switch the slides

today was totally whacked...
imagine, preparing your presentation and only having other people present it!
when they have no idea howsoever to present it.
twas the facilitators idea for the five teams to switch their presentation slides.
the content wasn't marked, but the most important thing if the understanding of the whole slides and problem today.
fun but a little bit way out of point.
twas a total waste - tho i love my slides. haha=))

okay on a much lighter note, as always, class seems to be fun.
though, cutest couple(CC) looks a bit strained today. wish them the best

anyway, in the living room now.
watching Rounin.
and just finished listening to mum's nagging.
thought she wont stop - thank GOD she did.
gosh gosh. i got to go off now!

current music addiction: LOVE TODAY - Mika

sex,controversial,laughs

today's topic was awareness on sex and violence.
to present it to the 'board of mda(Media Development Authority)'.
we had to choose which one from the two topic we wanted.
eventually it seemed as if it was all about sex... lol
only one team did on violence.
my team's topic : SAFE SEX
message to convey : STOP ABORTION
no matter the so-called 'seriousness' of it, it turned out hilarious.
then again, twas really fun!

[hilarious moment]
guys: jean, why do the diaphragm need to be fitted?
me: well, women's vaginal comes in many different shapes and sizes, so therefore,
diaphragm needs to be fitted correctly. *face burning*
-everyone laughs madly- both with me and at the guy
[exit]

today, my team managed to get 'approved' by 'mda' although graphics and fonts needs to be changed.
i am quite happy with the outcome of today tho.
[jean commends her team] =))
and here's some of the slides we presented...(just click to view larger image)








but i do love the 'commercial' that sahidah's team came up with.
twas really cool. haha
theirs covered on underage sex in singapore.
but they didnt really got approved. but no matter, it rock. =))

[today's most corrupted moment]
cody's team was laughing madly.
went over to take a look too.
then i saw the most disgusting pictures searched that they were on.
cody cody. i didnt know you were into micro - i repeat - micro penis!
*shakes head* tsk tsk tsk
[exits]

went to lunch with the cutest couple in class, van and yihao, janny and of course, mr micro penis lover
omg, he's so going to kill me! *crosses finger* hope he dont read this.
but then again, i dont mind. haha!
went to kopitiam to eat...
ate chicken briyani, cody wanted the same, in the end, he got a total different one cos i happen to order the last briyani... lol

[irritating moment]
cody sent out this very 'touching' friendship message.

Today is the international day for people with special needs.
Please SEND an encouraging Message to a retarded friend, just as i've done.
I don't care if you lick windows, interact with farM aniMals, sniff tires or occasionally SHIT on yourself.
You HAng in there, sunSHIne.
You're special

then so everyone had msn sending fiesta of this retarded message.
yihao almost flooded mine - end up blocking him for a while. lol
[exit]

anyway, controversial in media much.
went to someone's blog.
and people, twas unnerving.

[begin]
so let me have my say to you my dear.
knowing me through and through,
i hope you know what i am going to say and do,

I

CAN'T

AND

WON'T

BE

BOTHERED.

i respect what you feel, but please respect mine too.
in a way, i see the fault isn't in me anyway.
judgmental and conceited this seem to sound, it's your problem if you cant handle this.
i am definitely sick and tired - yes. again i repeat, sick and tired.
it almost seem as if you were the one being force for such irregular bonding moment.
it's like, it's always have been 'see how', 'see first'.
and when it's almost finalized, that's when you pull away thus causing sudden re-scheduling e.g. Saturday.

so you complain and raise about your assignments.
look see, nurul has them too - at least she say it straight and she cancels her plan, when she know she can, knowing that changes are in fact obvious in our current lifestyle and thus the outcome of being not able to meet all the time makes it all the more important to at least see bonding moments important.

jaja wasnt able to make it too, but at least she gives the straight answer, SHE COMPLETELY CANNOT MAKE IT.
and not 'see how', 'see first' answers.
also, since when did i actually say that you dont put in effort?
did i criticize on that? if you're feeling guilty, your problem.
we have new life, new social circle, new events and twist in our teenage hood.
which is more to the reason as to why there should be a sense of importance within us.
knowing the fact that changes and time causes people to fall out,
all the more that we should try to be there still within each other's call.
you want to know how i feel now?

i feel as if we have to FORCE it on each of us to make that ONE SPECIAL time.

honestly speaking, i would cancel on my current plan to make it up to anyone of you guys.
now could you do that? say say say, but doing so is little more challenging.
this wednesday, i canceled my plan to go out with nurul.
so if you think that you want to join us, we'll be meeting at small mcdonald's at 6pm.

if you see this a rebuke, my advise?
expand your horizon and your perspective.
or maybe recall all the times that i cared for you.
if that don't help, then im sorry that i made a mistake in giving you all the help and attention that more than just a friend would.
but then again, dont make me feel sorry.
because i know your more than that.
[ends]

controversy over.
having some squabbles at BDQ...
minor but still something to watch out for.
whatever the case, i cant be bothered with squabbles.
im more to being practical.

anyway, my impulse purchase has since started!
madness.
you could have been there when janny lost control of me.
see something nice, buy.
left the shop.
go to another, see something, buy again.
then the last one, a red bangle.
DIDNT FIT.
no matter how small my 'contracted' hand seemed to be,
it could not fit!
madness!
so wanted it.

tomorrow, UT3 - maths and computing.
HATE MATHS LOVE COMPUTING.
worst case scenario.

byee...

SORE AND TIRED

dead sore and tired.
came home, slept and woke up.
cleaned my darling's hutch and then off to bed again.
and now on my bed typing this while lying on my side.


checked my friendster comments and i found this!





Janny
Posted 21/07/2007 05:41
next week's to-do list:
1. the yi hao thingy
2. bugis for camera charger
3. haig road for that thing we owe your friend
4. avoid the canteen
5. come early by bus to school everyday
6. lunch with nisha and jo(i know it spoils #4, but whatever I miss her)
7. jogging/cycling trip






for part of #4, i know he's so gonna screw it! *sniggers*
well, i hope to comply to the list but knowing me and janny, we'll end up screwing the damn plan. *slaps*

-pop up-
[funny moment]
darling (unknown to me) was in my room when i came in and slept like a pig.
the moment i woke up, he ran out of my room straight, hopping madly.
i bet he's thinking, "omg, i was stuck in her damn room in the dark. happy to be out! yipee!"
-pop up exit-

i cannot believe that i happened to help out at clinique as a flyer distributer.
just to kill time!
me and my bitch was like so tired.
she has done flyers before - i have never! and i dont think i will again.
[altho, the guys are the ones who took the most - hehe]

the fun part - major -
1. i can wash eyes (hot hot hot!!!)
- u can imagine how much i enjoyed looking at hot dudes. hehe... but twas only for fun, to take off my mind from what im doing. there was this guy(uggh forgot to tell jaja)who kept passing to and fro and looking, he's sucha waste.
why? cos for someone so cute, he did the most retarded thing - he just looked, walking back and forth with this other guy friend. uggh... barfs -

2. i saw marcus! (freaking gave him like 1/2 of my flyers and 1/2 of jaja's.)
- u can see how fast we finished the damn thing. within like an hour and a half, we were almost done!!! lol

3. i gave out quite fast, cos i happen to give sweet smiles with it *ermz ermz*
- well, i promise to myself, IF I CANT AVOID EVENTS FLYER DISTRIBUTORS, I WILL TAKE THEM TO LIGHTEN THEIR LOADS.

4. I LEARNED VALUES
- *matter-of-factly* i serious felt how tiring it feels giving them flyers for my first time.
it was really tiring. i did it only for 2hrs, i felt as if i worked all my life! that's damn sad.

5. got to spend time with my bitch
- been long!! twas quite fated she did work with me instead of roxy bitch. she will kill me,
cos today, they gave us a G2000 cream-colored sleeveless tanktop.

major hates - groans madly -
1. sore
2. tired
3. cramps
4. SORED BADLY

okay, im going.
wanna fING sleep.
*muahs*

what a fugged day

today totally wasn't my day.

i am totally fugged today.
this is the first time - i repeat - the first time that i got totally shot at, for almost everything that is in the powerpoint conclusion!

today's problem was to find solution that would cater to the needs of everyone to ensure that road safety is established with the massive population of republicans coming to woodlands as their main point of destination, that would therefore cause congestion.

as with comparison to the others, our motion was to cancel of the first break out,
whereby tosay that we can do without the first break and really just touch on an intensive group discussion and make it more productive.
and with this conclusive statement, we were set on fire with their alibi saying that the first break out is to cater to the group on discussing the problem that has been the source of a
major dispute.
i sensed a total and deliberate dislike among the class audience and the lack of open-mindedness.

we were not stating to cancel off the PBL system, keep the damn system, but change the timing of the different years to a much more obvious difference.
30mins allowance time is still not effective - congestion is still there.
whatever is done, like what the other team's motion of building underground walkway and overhead bridge of 560m in distance, will not be plausible and it will have a lot of problems in the long run.

but who am i kidding, i think everyone decided that today is the day that my team got shot at.
and i was never in a team - i repeat - never in a team which got taken out at. uggh
it was totally fug. but in all sense, i learned to stand ground.
just that, yihao almost lost it. he was so pissed at the faci i can see smoke emitting from him.
well, who could be blamed but the counter productivity being with your peeps can do.
hehe, vanessa, yihao and sandy happened to be in the same team - cody was not though
if he so happened to be, i think we would never get anything done! haha.

okay after class, i went for the cypher interview.
i would not really pray to get in and be a member but i would pray not to be declined either.
talk about being indecisive, im totally being an insatiable idiot.
i know no one would beg to differ with my statement - im a pure retard sometimes
i even drive myself nuts.

to add to my 'oh-so-wonderful' day, i called to confirm hidayah's availability for tomorrow's redemption booth job.
SHE DITCHED ME - for her project meeting
everyone's being a totally bitch adding to my fugged day.
hehe but then Jen dear is coming! yeay
to hidayah, you're still a bitch, but thanks for letting Jen know k =) ur still a bitch
anyway, it's a work-a-weekend for me - i enjoy it. i have time to kill
PLUS, i get extra cash just by killing time.
but i got to do this [CREDITS: Yihao (for introducing this job)]




today i was sitting down and reminiscing about my past,
i have truly let go of everything but i still do think of him,
our happy moments, i smile brightly;
but our torments, i hate and shun.
there is no point in even thinking of a future,
because i would not want to be your slave.
you're love is not love, it's slavery...
now that i have broken free, i would never ever come back.

Ana's Birthday;Comment anxiety.

Hey hello everyone, today my household celebrated my sister's birthday.
"happy birthday ana, happy birthday ana, happy birthday to ana, happy birthday to you"
She is 8 years old now! =))
I did not attend school today as i feel that i have to be responsible enough to help out as my mum is heavily pregnant.
Although, i am very much impressed at how she can still lead the whole 'cooking' event.
Well, the party food is very very much enjoyable.
My whole diet regime for the day is total wrecked. It is over!!
But i am not giving in - i have to start it.
Today Ling darls came over for the dinner event, and guess what she said after she felt my tummy - " HOW TO WEAR BIKINI NOW?? " - that's when it hit me!
KRABI THAILAND is so not going to be a good place to show off my grown flabs! =(
oh oh oh! yeahs!! well i have discussed the trip with my mum, but she said "I DONT KNOW"
so why the hell am i so happy? cos she didnt say a firm "NO"!
which mean that i have a very high chance of going...

well, i cant pretty talk much as i am very tired from today.
I had a long day... preparing, running around and of course, being just plain helpful for whatever there is need be aided.
however, i have pictures for you all...
OF...

the queen of the day =))

and then she pose again

and then again,

then another one,

and again...

then the sisters' friends come over to my room, to camwhore!

this is the most natural look that i can give! =))

this is what happen when im stress =D

we were supposed to be in the same pose, and then come out she is "ghosting" away!

well anyway, i have to turn in now.
but anyway, this is my soo 'unpainted', 'unfresh' face ever.
tho, i kinda prefer it - just being plain. how about that?
=)) well i know that whatever, you all still love me right, RIGHT!
anyway, before i truly turn in, i want to inform you all about the next topic -
Jan said to do on Virginity, Someone say to do on Pimping, Intuition says to do feature my friends - from the ones still closest to the ones still hanging on.
Then again, i think i want to do something on WHAT MAKES PEOPLE HAPPY? - to let you try to be happy if you arent. =))
Oh yeah, i love helping people =))

Okay,
hugs
and
kisses.

guys guys - rejected - not your time yet

Im depressed... i cannot feel anymore secure but yet,
i cannot feel anymore insecure... its like i feel that everything is not reality,
everything i live for and i do with my all just lay wasted.
and now i cannot even find motivation in come to school for.
my love life is dead - well, apparently by choice - and i think that it would stay this way.
i need rejuvenation.. i need spa, i need treatment - yes, treatment!
MENTAL TREATMENT, or wait...
how about M.E.P.S treatment - mental, emotional, physical and spiritual treatment.
like totally im starting to be a morning zombie!
i mean i totally like school, the knowledge it gives and everything else.
but im tired. i just so tired.

IM KIDDING. period!

like i said, LIFE'S A BITCH BUT IM BITCHIER.

okay enough of my damn nonsense.

so i took the bus 169 to yishun with jan.
well jan was contemplating to go tuition his cousin.
so like he totally just didnt and yeay - i didnt go home alone.
nisha and jo wanna be home early - so they took bus 168.
anyway, me and jan took 39 from yishun bus inter.
we practically jaywalked - i dont even know you cant do that at the bus park
i mean fine, it was monkey see monkey do - i saw this group of people walking through the bus park.
so anyway, jan started to criticise some girl who was so displaying public affection.
like he was so against it! hahaha
then there goes the criticizing, the name calling whatever, in short, he was just being a bitch =D
"jean, she's fucking ugly and the guy is hot, they shouldnt be together"
"OMG JEAN, DO SOMETHING" this are all the things he said.. some i forgot.

so during the ride, there happens to board two filipino guys. who i find - fine jan - are hot.
this jan took my hand and almost used it to tap the guy who happen to sit in front of him.
i was like HELP!!! but then i told him, i find the other one hotter. =))
so then he wanted to get up and force intro me to him. i was like almost screaming.
then we talked via typing words on microsoft words - idiotic - totally uncalled for.
mainly cos we did not have any other language to use with them around, plus! the F-language so didnt work. twas retarded

then it was time for us to go down, jan was 'pissed' that i didnt take the opportunity knowing that the guy was eyeing me too.
WTF lah - i repeat it here jan - I DONT WANT GUYS WHO HAVE SEX - lol
well, at least YET. and i dont like 'loose' guys. hehehe
i dont want to have HIV, STD, whatsoever. hahahaha
so twas been like that since we reached my area, he was still telling me that i will marry an ugly oaf cos i so called 'rejected' a HOT opportunity. =((
fine... but it was like im going off the bus what. u cant expect me to like board it again just to flirt with him. plus, u cant expect him to rush down!!! uggh id so freak out... despo lor. lol
so whatever lah. today, instead of hunting for guys, i kept to myself...
mr x, die lah... i think id be an old maid...

and KECIK - there are no more GUYS... only a guy, potential at the least... havent spotted yet lor. hais =D hehe...
but then again.. you know me and i know you... hehe.
okay i feel dizzy.
bye!

updates on shot and feature

so updates on the shoot just now - twas C-O-O-L

it wasnt just the place, the ambience, the people, the no. of takes i took and the look ppl gave
- it was self satisfaction that runs down my spine which signals my very first huge step in this project

i feel a certain weight load off my chest - the most important part of this project is over. period.
im oh so happy that today went well, from the morning i was having good ol' laughs with my mum and until im about to retire to bed now, i still feel soo good.
thank GOD.

i feel tired but in a way there is still that bit energy left.
so anyway, let us get on with the shoot update.

so met jonathan at the south bridge exit at cityhall and i was late. but the rest were much later!
so it was me and jonathan who went to Charcoal first.
i spoke to the manager and then i ordered drinks.
later on i found out that whatever we order during the shoot, is paid for - thanks RP - muahs
so there were the refreshments for the graduates and so when they came, i have to have some small warm ups with em.
hahaha. they were a hilarious and i should add, wonderful, group.
i am quite fond of having the privileges to actually be at midst with good students who excel in their studies and are now doing good with their post graduation life.
i am quite happy that rp's graduate are not those who are the leftovers in this society where competence is very high.
i am so happy that graduates such as these 5 have embarked on their own will to improve and better themselves academically and of course in their careers :))
i took 5 takes due to laughing, forgetting of lines and of course bad takes. haha.
but overall, it was a nice experience - too bad jan and alex wasnt around. lol
further more, it is way better than that espn interview i had at sentosa! haha - i didnt even get to see the takes myself :( (nvm jean... relax)

okay, i think ima go ahead and rest.
wanna rest.
working tmr and another moments of the strange attraction

wait! before i go, i wanna feature here a friend who is very innovative with what he does.
haha. he's my current RP mate and my former primary school classmate.
take a look at this and guess what he is doing... -

OHP : how's my dp?
OHP: cool? haha
Jean : haha, you seem as if you just died and landed on the floor
Jean: hahaha
OHP: no lah...
OHP: sun tanning at home... hahahahha
Jean: lol, i tot wat. k send me that pic i feature you at my blog
OHP: cool

lol, this is one of the reasons why i am crazy - cos i have crazy friends! hahaha

ohkies, ppl.
ciaos!
hee :))

arrgh. today

today, i felt so heavy and was damn tired.
so i didnt go to school, so got up, told mum and then i slept again.
i had trouble going back to slp, i wanted to go to school.
didnt want to miss any of my classes but heck, i was too sick.
lucky mummy didnt get mad at me, lucky me!

anyways, so i rested till i feel quite fine, then had my lunch.
then mum tricked me! she got me to paint the bottom panels of the walls of my house!
imagine? the whole house!! had to, i cant expect her to do it herself right, she's pregnant for crying out loud!
so i was sooo tired further! then after that i watch my favorite soap operas.
shucks!! i hate endings lah! my favourite teleserye (tv serials) is ending on friday.
gosh... hais. i love that serials lah. i have to say goodbye to it soon=(

so after watching tv, i just wanted to sleep! haha.
btw jan and nisha, i think i spoiled the diet today! syet! i cant stay home lah!

so now im here typing away. i love what i did to my blog. ntg special, but i at least manage to do what i have been wanting to do all the time!
have my pics up on my blog! yay.
gosh. so tmr is cognitive processes. i hope i can actually even get thru it.
i am starting to feel so pissed with the school's systems. hais.
i hope i graduate from rp with good results. need not have flying colors!
haha. cos i dont think that i will! lol

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dear mr cupid,
i think im ready to fall in love again.
i have dumped that hope of the ex, and the fear
of loving again.
come show me another boo to love.
and may we last and be happy together.
so mr cupid, do your job.
but if it isnt what The Most High has fated,
then it's okay, im not in a rush.
loves,
mary jean
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currently listening to : Give it up to me by Sean Paul feat Keisha Cole.
current mood : shitty, tired. fucked up.
current doing : chatting with boi and my classmate plus blogging. got irritated by boi so i blocked him.(if you're reading this, boi. next time i sign in, then i unblock you. next time, dont irritate sick ppl!!)
intended move : post this and then go to sleep!

so ciaos.
muahugs.

loves.