she likes... love and affection

Today,
she likes the fact that nothing is happening
she likes the fact that nothing is up and destroying her peace,
despite the boredom, she lay low and she kept to herself...
deep in thoughts about her life and her ultimate new love;

fresh new little things called love and affection,
like new sweets from the candy man
she likes the fact that everything seems a fantasy yet it is very much real...
deep down she know everything is real when it comes to him and her

she secretly longs for his presence and his warmth
in the cold cold day she wanted him around
but alas it has to delay, to yet another day...
she is patience because she knows her love is waiting for her

she made some words of love in her head
yet nothing seems to come out when they talk
she keeps to herself afraid to say things that seems to much...
now she fears that she's too deep in

she loves him and he loves her
that is what matters and that is what is suppose to be
reciprocal love and affection feels so wholesome and she likes it... very much
and she knows she'll be good and stay true to this new thing called love

& no this is not a poem

& i love you shenath thomas dias
thank you for showing me how loving really is...

FIRST QUARTER=)

there are many things i fear in life,
and yet many of those are things i want to brave.
there are many things that people fear, even love - that is my fear
never have i thought that fearing love was possible
and yet, fearing love is a little bit nonsensical..

i thought, "how can one fear love? when love is supposedly the one thing in the world that makes us smile"
then this created a paradox, "so why do love end up making people cry, broken and in solitude?"

that leaves me scratching my head and just pushing these thoughts away.
i was thinking of it just a while ago.
i thought about my current situation with my loving boyfriend.

despite having faith and a certain amount of trust on our love and on him,
i cannot place a sure certainty about what the future holds.
and yet, not seeing it and not trying it creates more questions for me.
so then i realize that i am quite happy that I'm brave enough to take this path in life
and so i encourage myself to really just let what be to be.

everyone goes through a transition, a metamorphosis and a change of some sort.
i am going through those i mentioned above.

a transition, a metamorphosis, a change - these I'm going through
because my views on love has changed...
with him, I'm seeing how i missed out on being really nicely treated.
i will never want to ruin these things we are building and shaping...
despite what people say and how people shall come to break us down, im hoping that we will have enough understanding and faith to hang on.
this goes especially for me... for i know i am weak - i tend to slip away...

the first month with him - a month of trial and error, testing, experimentation
second month - realization that our past should be forgotten and that we mus focus more on us
as the third month comes (which is today!!) - we have seen how we have developed and how we can make things work even better

I've have made somethings for him -
for i believe that first quarters are the start or the entrance of the doorway to the next level.
if we survive another quarter and another and another... and that we are still strong.
it thus then mean that we are really having something real and something strong. too strong...
but time is still young, fresh and still mutable...
frustration and mistakes can still ruin us, but then im willing to make things work..
i am willing to give him all the aid i can to make it work...
in time i guess i'll know if we are the ones to be... for now... que sera sera...
im loving him and im going to be good -

no more games, no more unfaithfulness
no more sidelines, no more sideplates, no more junkfoods

im going to try to give my best in this relationship.
although there will always be fear, i will see how it is with him..


darling... happy FIRST QUARTER *3 months
and this is for shenath thomas dias...

im naked around you
does it show
you see right through me
and i cant hide
im naked around you
and it feels so right
*click the yellow words

darling, i love the way you make me feel.
and that's why i cant hide from you
hugs and loves
take care

=)

some lesson i had today.
i officially slacked today...usually my slack today wasnt the slack i usually do.
when i slack i usually still have a good outcome.
today... im typing these while having the team presentation.
RP-ians... you all should know how slack is that... -.-

anyway, today's ryan ashley pereira's birthday...
"happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to ryan, happy birthday to you...!!"
**this is two of our old pics lol


all-time brother ass... haha someone's 18 already. finally eh?
no need to do anything illegal anymore! =D
anyway, long time no see also. dont have the time anymore.. school's too far. lol
and end too late.

NEXT WEEK! finally holiday.
shenath will be working the whole week except friday and sunday.
dont think we'll be meeting up tho... lets see
maybe i will go for lady's night... fyzah, wanna join? =)
shenath wont be able to join me for this holiday... see my mood also...
but i want to spend my holiday weekdays to catch up with all my all-time darlings...
also, i want to have some alone time.. shall go for a lonely spa...
and catch up with jan rick oso... shall keep friday free tho just in case shenath decided to meet up =)

anyway, photoshop madness is still very very fresh.
today i did... (at least i helped..)
transformed from this...


more to come!!
plus! my class is going ALL BLACK FOR HALLOWEEN-Y TOMORROW!!
yeye.. and ALSO... my class is nuts about photoshop too!! wahaha!!!

okay gtg...


somehow still emotionally emotionless.
he's still in that kind of phase. dont know...
i know the difference when he's not happy at all.
no matter how normal he tries, i still can feel the difference.
dont know.. it made me feel as if all i did was purely under my full INTENTIONS.
im waiting for him to get over this... dont know when...
hope it wont take too long cos i really dont want to responsible for my weakness to overcome me.
nvm. i shall just pretend to live in my sugar-coated world where no one is to be blame...
and i shall just close my perceptions over him... being to receptive is some how not such a good thing.
being like this makes every lil thing obvious... it's like im a magnifying glass.
hmm... and no im not going to do anything stupid in this phase.
i dont want things to turn sour for us. i wanna strive for a happy love life...
had too much shit before..i hope he can at least learn to F&F with me... (forgive and forget)

Random|How come

i was looking ard my links blog.
saw renee's... was intrigued that she reads horoscope.

then i thought i should read my monthly too :)) kepo... hehe :P
after reading it, i didn't know what to think. lol
so much for reading it. but some parts are right, some are little bit whacked. =))



just now met up with nurul.
had dinner and i tell you, i seriously cannot believe that a murtabak can be HUGE.
HUMONGOUS, GIGANTIC, MASSIVE
whatever the vocab, the portion was super huge.
took a pic of it but it's still in nurul's phone. i shall upload when i get it from her.

anyway, i ate like 1/3 of it, the other parts are choked on and forced swallowed.
then i gave up eating... i had to take it away :))


salihin ramli came too.
syed salihin was late... he came later at around 8.30pm
salihin and nurul offering me ciggarette just now.
as a mere test i think ... hmms... they went saying... "you're bf wont know what"
lol i tried to call that idiot shenath, in the end he never pick up.
oh well not fated and i doubt he will let me lah...
i left when syed salihin came, i wasn't in the mood for socialising.

the brothers are considered dead to me! haiz
i dont know lah... whatever... it's just my emotions i think.
they're kinda useless ready... :(

i miss everyone tho... like how it used to be...
late night ventures, happening moments.
but then it's gone lah..

today shenath looked nice in the formal top =))
gosh i can melt seeing guys like that... hehe
so guys who want to get noticed... hehe please wear formal outfits. *melts*
okay okay. stop ranting... hehe *jean, you're attached* lol
anyway, shenath still takes the no. 1 spot eh heh? :D

before i signed off.

this is a song dedicated to my old peeps... haiz
the special ones :((

reasonings

last night as things went across my mind
as i lay thinking about some things;
about how much love and discontent i have felt
and how much i can dare to try again
so since i couldn't sleep i crept to my mummy's room
to see my dear brother and to calm myself
i saw how my mum was; tired and exhausted
but she's still holding on
for the love she felt for my brother
but they are of blood so love comes naturally
blood love is unconditional and is natural in my family
so is so any other love...?
pondering over the things that i hardly knew
i hardly felt nor hardly even thought would happen
eats me up more often than not
somehow however i have already thought about my answer
later when i meet him, i know what it will be...
however, his actions towards me will still either spoil or improve my decision...

TO MY BEST GUY FREN

i dedicate this post to jan rick mascarina...
in due reason of being such a bitch and a horrible best girl-friend

jan huwag kang iiwak ha pero this is from my heart.
i love you my friend, my bitch, my slut... whatever...

yihao has told me about how you felt about the other day
i didn't think you mean what you said about sa pagka time mo time mo, pag sya, sya lang...
i know i haven't been such the bgf that i ought to be
and i can tell you that i haven't been a good girlfriend either.
so parang sa totoo fair and square lang kayo

i have told you that i will divide accordingly my time for you
cos i know that nasanay kana sa akin...
and i think that even ako din nasanay na
i can see you're not the same either...
parang naging malayo ka...

sa buong days ng holidays hindi man kita na meet
not because 24/7 ko syang kasama pero kasi i was busy with work too
since holiday yun, si aunty ko nag-ask na i work more...
pero huwag mo sanang naisip na hindi ko even plan to meet you at all those days apart form last sunday
i did but you were busy and i feel unfit to go out either...
maske nga magpunta sa bash ng friends ko hindi ko nagawa eh...

pero i want you to know that you are one friend that i know understands me and dont judge me.
no matter how bitchy i am to you... it is for you own good you know... diba
and thank you for the advises you think i didn't heed
i did but not as a whole... pero konti per konti..
huwag na huwag mong iisipin na he's taking you away from me...oops i mean he's taking me away from you... lol gays
no he isn't... he respects our friendship no matter how anti-social he may seem diba?
maske ask him pa, kapag merong time na maske sino na maynasasabi or nagtatanong nag seksualidad mo, de-nedepensa kita.
alam na alam nya yun, kaya alam nya to respect our friendship.

also, yung araw na yun, i didnt know you mean it na nagalit ka
parate kanaman kasing demanding as a joke diba.
so i guess hindi ko take yun seriously.
so talagang talaga im sorry if i ever made you feel less important than you were before.
i haven't been myself lately...
even with shenath, i haven't been myself lately...
now however that i have finally figured out why i felt as such, i can tell shenath about the things im going to tell him tomorrow.
pero hindi pala nyon tungkul sa bitch ko.
tungkul yun so indecisiveness ko.
at sa mixed emotion na nararamdaman ko
and i think you have subsconciously made me feel guilty...

so i think this should help.
sa lahat nagkulang sa aking friendship for you, sorry.
sa lahat ng mga nasasabi kong hindi maganda, im sorry.

this whole entry is dedicated to you, my friend.
thank you for always being there...
and for not judging me horrible even for everything that i did that you know about.
thank you that even tho hindi mo gusto si shenath, you still understood me.
and thank you for being protective over me.
thank you for being my pillar...

thank you dear friend...
and im sorry for everything horrible a bgf can ever do.
muacks! haha

this is you and me
just that you're shrek
and im donkey
=)) okay?

love,
jean

Something some people need to know

no we have not broken up
and no im not gonna give up
unless he wants to
im not letting go
unless it's impossible
it's just probable

you can say what you want
say we wont last for a month
i dont give a damn
cos im holding on my man
but if he choose to let things go
id just sadly let it be so

Rude Awakening

Do you ever have that dream
Where you're walking naked down the street
And everyone just stares
Do you ever feel so deep
That you speak your mind
To put others straight to sleep
You wonder if anybody cares
Sometimes I think I'm the only one
Whose day turned out unlike it had begun

And I feel bare naked
And I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded
No I just can't fake it anymore
cause I'm bare naked
And i know life's what you make it
Wish I could float away
To some other day

Do You ever go downstairs to start your day
But your car's not there
Yeah you know the joke's on you
You ever try your luck with a pickup line
But you just sucked
You tell yourself it wasn't you
And I know it's hard to hold it inside
It's days like these I run and hide

When I feel bare naked
And I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded
No I just can't fake it anymore
Cause I'm bare naked
And I know life's what you make it
Wish I could float away
To some other day

It's all a state of mind
But I don't mind trying to find a way
To keep my head above the mess I make
What the world creates
Sometimes it feels so good to let it all fall
As the world fall
I may fall
We all may fall
And then the world comes tumbling
Down down down down down

I'm bare naked
And I just can't take it
I'm getting jaded
No I just can't fake it anymore
Cause I'm bare naked
And I know life's what you make it
Wish I could float away
To some other day

When I feel
I feel (bare naked)
You feel
We all feel
Yeah no no no

My tea's gone cold, i'm wondering why
I got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be grey
But your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad
It's not so bad

I drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
And even if I'm there,
They'll all imply that I might not last the day
And then you call me and it's not so bad
It's not so bad and

I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

Push the door,
I'm home at last and I'm soaking through and through
Then you handed me a towel and all I see is you
And even if my house falls down now
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me

And I want to thank you for giving me the best day of my life
Oh just to be with you is having the best day of my life

I FINALLY KNEW

it has to lay on us
the sides of relationships that i hate
i brought it to us
i ended such a happy love
but im at my weakest point now
all i needed was for your shoulders, your hands, your arms
your compassion to feel and understand me

me and myself have things going on
there are things that i've yet to deal
it does not say i dont love you anymore
it's a mere wait
a wait that is up to you to take

there are things we said
things that we're meant to be said
but it is said anyway
the unhappiness crashes in
the warmth turned to cold
but my love for you is deep
now this i know

and that's what i really want to know
i guess i have found out
in the most painful way
as a tear drop when you held me
i knew im really loving you

as another set of tears drop for making us this way
i know im really loving you
then as emotions overwhelm me
i know i am really loving you
and as you said somethings that hurt
of which you didn't think it didn't
i felt the ache,
and then i know im really loving you

that's all to say for now
if things do work
or even if it didn't; nothing matters
cause i know i really do love you
that's all there is
there isn't anymore

Feeding your eyes

lets feed your eyes with pictures from my day out with the boyfriend.
to celebrate our anniversary of which we had totally forgotten to wish each other, due to the fun we were having so much, we head down to Singapore Botanic Gardens.


i had feared that it would not go as i have envisioned it to be.
then it proved me wrong as the day went along... it was significantly better...
to top it up, we ended the day very much satisfied and obvious raving happy.

the boyfriend was having some moods, but soon it was forgotten as our day progressed and ended. he felt ludicrous having mood swings... haha

anyway, to those lovers out there, i must say, you got to go and visit the Singapore Botanic Gardens.
to look around, walk around and even to have your non-existence heart-to-heart chats in the midst of your busy schedule...
also, do look out for more places of love-interest... next week, shenath and i will go for another long day! hehe

so here they are....

take a look at this face, this is a fresh one at the start of the day... haha

this is the first pic i took when i came into the Garden

then the boyfriend had his candid shot...

the swan lake. the swans only came out at dusk. weird. haha

this is one of the lil members in the swan lake.


pissed with the sun
bf trying to pose to show a sundial - unsuccessful!

sundial garden

cactus area


passing of knowledge in the cactus area


dont know why the bf posed like this. haha



big DOGS.

'lady on the hammock'

some plants bf went gaga over



'reach for the ball..' fruit no doubt




wood carving or was it stone...? hmms

love this pic that bf took. fat tho! haha









this is the last pic i took at SBG - with reddish eyes and exhausted face
at esplanade
St Andrew's Cathedral

okay, i think everything is over.
everyone has fed their eyes and so it will be done and concluded.

before i end,however, i must say the end of the day was dampened by the comments and thoughts of my friends on my love life.
this is something i take seriously because like the love of my life currently, my friends hold significant ranks too.

in a matter of few words, however, the bf and i had talked about this.
and like what i told that particular friend, let time spin its tale... our tale... me and shenath...

thank you for concerning this matter very heavily.
i appreciate everything you did and will do for me.

and to the boyfriend, you know what matters most right..
so im glad to have you.
so far, we're still good together...
the day was fantastic! =))

okay out!
muahs

Nostalgic Me

did another day of 5-10 shift.

i swear if i had another day of that shift, id end up a murderer
it's good im still able to suppress my dislike of my aunt's 'efficient' worker

no doubt that's an overrated statement
all i see is my cousin and me working properly, that's even under rated


anyway cant expect much from those people
i dont know, maybe they tend to work harder in other things.
yeah, like lazing around and willing me to take care of everything

anyway, their actions wont ruin my mood
i need a break from being so pissed off yesterday.

i have developed a new way of suppressing dislike against a situation
yeah... i did... to those who know me well enough, yes i psycho-ed myself to feel better
at work, anywhere... but i doubt the mood swing will be suppressed.
i think my way of psycho-ing myself has mood swings as the outcome.
oh i dont know... haha it's a theory... a stupidly weird one

anyway, i do feel more lively and enlightened today
i dont know the source but i feel that i have let loose negativity today
should do more dancing...
i dont dance for leisure anymore, nor for entertainment... but i do it when i feel too tired

to the sisters, yeah i miss dancing.
i miss the times when we hold the attention of the whole school or even the public
remember the national day dinner dance? lol that was a colorful dance.
i doubt that was even dancing right? haha twas like jumping around and still getting all the attentions

then in school, i do miss the times when everyone anticipates our item
always ever ready to clap madly for us.
when the item has ended, they always praise us for the wonderful performance we ourselves find isn't at all mind-blowing!
then daily in school, everyone regarded us as 'BITCHES' exception of ben loh
ben loh, i remember has been itching to be called prince bitch!!
hilarious... it seemed only yesterday, and now, he's all grown up, bitching around almost everyone... lol

then the terrorizing we did to some poor people.
i swear i am sorry for making people cry...
but i assure that i have repented and have been karma-ed.. lol
i think ive cried a NILE within my teenagehood..
i dont think i can cry again, i dont want to... lol

thinking about secondary school, i miss the OLD CLIQUE
it saddens me to think that we dont even talk to one another anymore...
at first it broke apart due to the Azim-Shaistah-Hajar love triangle

that was the long term damage to our clique actually.
haiz... there was initially 3 girls- me, vanessa, shaistah-, 5 guys- azim,venga,kartik,kuma,salihin
of which there were automatic members like hidayah, hajar, puwarma and of course daryl...

i think i only have one pic of all the brothers together.
i remembered the night conferences we all had, the way everyone in school looked so afraid,
i remember a lot of hilarious things that had happened
especially the part when me and azim got caught in the boys toilet... lol
OKAY STOP THE DIRTY THOUGHTS.

we were all daring each other.
so then this azim wanted to take my bag and put it in the boys toilet
then apparently i didnt let it go, so i got dragged in.
then from afar, the so call Head of department, Mr Chiang, saw!
lol we were both reprimanded... but azim has to do physical punishment. lol
i didn't get anything tho... just a 'talk' with him that ended up in a screaming fiesta. lol

i didn't mean to be a rebel... i intended to be a good girl. haha
anyway of course thinking about secondary school, i felt the happiest and then the saddest
of which i refuse to go into detail
oh and i remember the enemies i made, hmms i dont know if they are enemies, but i swear they itched me the wrong way. lol

i dont think i made any OBVIOUS enemy. hmms
they didn't show me that they are my enemy... i dont know why.
even if they dont like me, they just shut up and go... oh well, i think twas cos of the clique.

haiz... i do really, really miss the clique...
i wish we could have a reunion... but not now or soon this year.
i dont wish to see some person yet. neither does that person, im sure.
it would just dampen the whole happiness and celebration
and i bet these people would wait for my PARTIES to be invited to as a way of reuniting.
basically the only reunion that can happen is most probably on my birthday party.

hmms maybe my 20th birthday? i hope so.
we shall see. but i want my big 20 celebration to be a bit smaller than my 18th.
lesser invites... hmms but i doubt it...
even the automatic invitees doubt it.
if i say that there will be a small gathering, it will explode.

yawns. let see. i want to leave nostalgia already
i miss another person too... shenath... haha
he and i had been discussing a lot of things, but i appreciate the things he do to handle my moods.
i dont know whats wrong with me lah... i get to negative sometimes..
but whatever, i think we'll be fine... =)) he's sure, so im sure...

okay ciaos!

time is...

before i end my day.
i want to share somethings about today.
i feel poetic so id try to rhyme,
no matter how stupid is may really sound...

i went to school for some SUI! stock taking,
didn't know how much it cost my timing.

i felt really tired but i did enjoy the day.
but it hasn't end cos there's something abt the boyfriend.

i feel that i am falling but im still guarding it wisely.
im not into falling so fast and hurt becomes my outcome.
no no no. that shouldn't happen.

okay. im giving up the poetic shit. lol
anyhoo, as i was saying. im starting to feel more and more into this relationship.
that started as a mere game of chance.

i told everyone, even jan, that this might just end in a few weeks time.
then again, i have to admit that i am wrong.

i feel that the only time that we would really fight is cos of external affairs.
it seems as if we have nothing to fight among ourselves... yet.... i dont know

im still afraid of falling, as i have earlier told him.
we had a heart to heart talk just now.
or pillow talk... hehe okay. enough kinky hints.

i was injured just now!
the wound was like.... OH MY GOSH! haha
i dont know how to describe it. it doesnt hurt though. it's just that the wound is getting annoying. haha
have to like put those OINTMENT!!! hope is heals up v v v soon! like now!!!!

anyway, in due to the heart to heart talk, i understand more of every emotion i feel.
i have recovered eroded emotions and i feel that somehow, my happiness now is all thanks to him.

to you deary : pls dont make me happy now and give me all the love and hope only for PRESENT use. please be this way with me as long as we are together.
i can promise you that there are things that i am doing for you... of which u are not really aware of the benefits of.


i must say that in my past relationships, i have not been a good girl.
i was controlled and so i felt so trapped i couldn't stay focus on them.
and so i cheated mildly.

on daryl i cheated too, that's why when he cheated on me, i felt only a tinge of anger.
cos i know i deserved that on my part. but then again, after what happened, i vowed that it wont happen again.
and so it wont.

as long as i have something to hold on for, im focused.
and now, i have him to hold on to. and i hope he wont just give way and break into two.
to those girls, sisters, guys, closer relative who knows my ways, i know you're saying now that he is indeed a lucky guy.

but im lucky to have found someone who knows how to treat me right,
of course in annoying ways too. lol
give it a lil more time, i think i will let him know that i am really in love with him.
more time...

time is all we need to find the love we always wanted - jean

=))

yesterday i was totally not in the mood, in anything that is.
the only apparent mood i was in was either im too happy or im too quiet - if u call that moods...

i only remember laughing madly or shutting up entirely.
shen should know! haha i wasnt in the mood for anything.
yesterday in class was hilarious tho, i was team up with the couple (vans and yihao), sahidah and nisha. we made quite a lot of noise talking about which ghost should represent which.
apparently i got the breast ghost - hantu tetek.
it's quite the contrary tho, i have big and juicy ass, not breast. im only a B-cup and they call me hantu tetek? retardation.
so nisha as usual get the calling pontianak, sahidah was the chinese vampire, yihao is the pocong and vanessa is toyol - i know... i dont kno what i was doing really

(this makes me happy too)

the mood of happiness or basically just outburst of laughter irritated even myself.
i wonder how Shen stand these moods im getting. it's retarded.
anyhoo, i had some talk with him.
apparently, boys out there who have been trying to figure me out can go to Shen to ask any queries - he's working double shift digging in me deeper =))
apparently, he wants to know 'this girl i ....' i shall leave the dots a mystery
okayy. absolute as it may seem, i am feeling rather emotional.
i think, yes, that's the word, emotional.
over what? nothing. it's the damn period
moody before the period, normal during the period and anger outburst after the period.
OMG shen is so going to suffer...

shen and i are somewhere in the line of friends and more...
we are still on that path. we are having fun and i guess id know if we'll ever really happen.
if im still feeling as if we are not, it would be up to him to make me feel as such.
so far we are really good on communicating what we feel and how we see things.
i admire people who are independent - at least those who are somewhere there.. - cos for nuts, im not independent really. that's a good thing about being a girl
anyhoo, yesterday when shen sent me to the bus interchange, we saw his classmates.
i so wanted to run and hide. haha i mean i dont think it should be fair to us being found out when we are still "on the way"
i have nothing against our closer friends knowing about us and all.
my readers basically wont know who the hell im talking about anymore. only some here...
RP readers should just keep a close watch if you're really that psychotic to know.
but please dont link me to some strange retard. haha

okayy. today was quite fun too.
ALIENS ARE INVADING!


- we have two days to inform the whole world about it.
how and what to do? this is the most retarded communication topic that is brought up ever. haha
my team did fine. not the best but it dont really matter, we conveyed and stood our grounds rather well =))

was with shen most of the time. i didnt see jan today tho =((
cos he left me in the morning and we didnt meet for lunch - went with Shen.
i know, it's like Shen, Shen, Shen... what can i do?
well, ive been spending and talking to him most of the time.
apparently he's gathering information about me and my character. i told him to make a book out of it. haha
okayy. after school today, met him again and went to his hostel and hung out with this friends. uggh his dorm totally is GUYS DORM - it's awful!
only one of the guys' BED AREA is clean!

okay whatever it was. we spend like 45 mins being together and ended up getting late for both our other commitments!
and and i gave him BUTTERFLY KISSES.


i like those kisses a lot and uggh however, whenever i think of that, i remember giving it to daryl. stop stop stop. brainwash
but however, Shen didn't get the REAL butterfly kiss i always give my bfs..
recalling: i dont think i gave one to ivan tho...
okayy whatever... it dont matter..

so today went for emcee meeting. yay! =))
we are going to be handed out events to host. it really is cool.
however, it so totally make me sooo packed this holiday.

3 weeks = 21 days
class chalet - at least 2 day 1 night
weblog camp - 3 days
2-4 days of workshops - journalism & emcee-ing
so far, that's 11 days gone and more to come...

today at emcee meeting it got me thinking of doing a podcast.
anyone has any ideas to do on? something that you think i can pull off?
dont ask me to do comedy. it'll will suck. =D

emcee meeting was like too fast and too long...
fast cos i was 10mins late. missed the introduction part. uggh wasted.
also, it was a bad first second impression.lol
then it was long because i was suppose to meet Yan - has been waiting for like 45mins or so
gosh. so he fetched me and we went to seafood place at tampines.
been long since i been there.
well, my bums hurt due to the travel there on the motor, it has been like months and months that i ride it.
miss going riding with my dear ling. haiz...
and of course i do miss my good ol' biker friends.. =((

okay anyhooo... i have to go.
im lacking sleep... but school is fun as usual.
however before i end my day today.
i want to do an advance greeting -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FREN, YIHAO

best wishes...

goodnight....