guys guys - rejected - not your time yet

Im depressed... i cannot feel anymore secure but yet,
i cannot feel anymore insecure... its like i feel that everything is not reality,
everything i live for and i do with my all just lay wasted.
and now i cannot even find motivation in come to school for.
my love life is dead - well, apparently by choice - and i think that it would stay this way.
i need rejuvenation.. i need spa, i need treatment - yes, treatment!
MENTAL TREATMENT, or wait...
how about M.E.P.S treatment - mental, emotional, physical and spiritual treatment.
like totally im starting to be a morning zombie!
i mean i totally like school, the knowledge it gives and everything else.
but im tired. i just so tired.

IM KIDDING. period!

like i said, LIFE'S A BITCH BUT IM BITCHIER.

okay enough of my damn nonsense.

so i took the bus 169 to yishun with jan.
well jan was contemplating to go tuition his cousin.
so like he totally just didnt and yeay - i didnt go home alone.
nisha and jo wanna be home early - so they took bus 168.
anyway, me and jan took 39 from yishun bus inter.
we practically jaywalked - i dont even know you cant do that at the bus park
i mean fine, it was monkey see monkey do - i saw this group of people walking through the bus park.
so anyway, jan started to criticise some girl who was so displaying public affection.
like he was so against it! hahaha
then there goes the criticizing, the name calling whatever, in short, he was just being a bitch =D
"jean, she's fucking ugly and the guy is hot, they shouldnt be together"
"OMG JEAN, DO SOMETHING" this are all the things he said.. some i forgot.

so during the ride, there happens to board two filipino guys. who i find - fine jan - are hot.
this jan took my hand and almost used it to tap the guy who happen to sit in front of him.
i was like HELP!!! but then i told him, i find the other one hotter. =))
so then he wanted to get up and force intro me to him. i was like almost screaming.
then we talked via typing words on microsoft words - idiotic - totally uncalled for.
mainly cos we did not have any other language to use with them around, plus! the F-language so didnt work. twas retarded

then it was time for us to go down, jan was 'pissed' that i didnt take the opportunity knowing that the guy was eyeing me too.
WTF lah - i repeat it here jan - I DONT WANT GUYS WHO HAVE SEX - lol
well, at least YET. and i dont like 'loose' guys. hehehe
i dont want to have HIV, STD, whatsoever. hahahaha
so twas been like that since we reached my area, he was still telling me that i will marry an ugly oaf cos i so called 'rejected' a HOT opportunity. =((
fine... but it was like im going off the bus what. u cant expect me to like board it again just to flirt with him. plus, u cant expect him to rush down!!! uggh id so freak out... despo lor. lol
so whatever lah. today, instead of hunting for guys, i kept to myself...
mr x, die lah... i think id be an old maid...

and KECIK - there are no more GUYS... only a guy, potential at the least... havent spotted yet lor. hais =D hehe...
but then again.. you know me and i know you... hehe.
okay i feel dizzy.
bye!