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Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Our Body Knows Best



I never liked the feeling of being sick. I believe no one does. But for some reason there's a beauty in this.
When we fall sick, our body is telling us that we really truly need to cancel every plans we have and rest.

It's beautiful because it's a true form of intervention. A shove by God giving our bodies the right to overrule whatever plans we may have done for the day.

Now as I lie in bed I'm thankful for this bodily intervention. I can take the time to rest and really just stop thinking about everyone and everything else, and focus on myself.

Monday, November 5, 2007

the day

when the heart loves, the soul lightens up
nothing in the world can actually define love

what's love? A strong positive emotion of regard and affection
but the real meaning of love start from your own view of this phenomenon

what's love to me? it is a feeling no doubt
something that can be reflected through the eyes and motives...
i believe that love is an influence, a guide and an understanding between two souls
love should be reciprocal and it should be discouraged when it is one-sided

the downside?
love co-exist with lust therefore we often mistake lust for love.
this is where relationship takes the landslide and hit rock bottom
so how will you know if you're in love or just in lust?

you will know... let time tell it all but have a prepared mind about it.
you will know just as i did.

once you do however, make it worthwhile and try to be as good as you possibly can.
experiences varies but it is what motivates you to be that matters...
and what really motivates you to is your motives to show how much you love the person.
but always remember that love is not always sugar-coated...
somehow, just be positive and keep trying to make things work... =)

okay.. that is so drama-MUCH!
anyway, that is just a random topic i have in my head. all about love and all that.
like duh! im like in love... and still on cloud 9 and hoping to stay in cloud 9 forever. lol

today, lets see.. my plans varied like crazy.
and like who am i kidding.. i plan things and end up doing another set of things...
today i have to apologize to Jaja for not coming watch her game when it was in my schedule to do so.
okay, so met mira after her rp interview!
i got late in meeting up with her at somerset station so she went off to first destination;
PINC - a nice place for both men and women.
when i said men i meant metro sexual men... cos today, mira went for some waxing!
and i had brow threading... so traditional and the lady was good... uh huh
she's indian so she should give good outcome when it comes to threading...
i can never trust a NON-indian to do threading except my aunt sol (:

anyway, after PINC we headed for lunch.
i was super torn between Fish & co. and Sakura...
well, mira wasnt helping also... and i can tell you that girl has tastes! and it's not cheap.
lol but really that's what my girls are :) uggh
okay anyway, eventually went to sakura and we had THAI! well, it's once in awhile and she's practically going to fly off tonight already so yeah...

the lunch was great!
we both talked about everything - BOYS and stuff.
how come boys are this and that and whatever that comes to mind...
then we talked about our own boys... lol =)
mira mira... poor you... (first date blues. lol)

after lunch bought skinny and it alright except for the fact that i have to get a size bigger cos my ass wont fit. lol
then mira just go on comforting saying something like "oh dont fret..having an ass like that is what the bf should be loving" lol
totally maniac - mira mira mira
anyway babe, i wish you a safe trip! =) muacks!
see ya next month for you party...!!!

okay, i have to do some things now.
gtg wanna sleep earlier today... meeting shen tmr! =)

take care people..
muahs!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Apathetic


the earlier poem i made
seems to be contradicting me
i feel like i want to let it burn
but a part of me wanna try again

im too indecisive when im hurt
when im slumber lacking
and when i know im right
with my fault admitted

emotions rush to me
something that i cant help
something i wont seem to handle
even if i can id just let this hurt be

nothing seems correct right now
someone says to give him a chance
another says to let it die
but i dont know

at least not now
at least not yet
maybe tomorrow id know
maybe tomorrow id see the answer

so for now
hold tight
and enjoy my emo days
like you've seen my happy ways


Friday, August 3, 2007

Songs

I hope the ring you gave to her
Turns her finger green
I hope when you're in bed with her
You think of me
I would never wish bad things
But I don't wish you well
Could you tell
By the flames that burned your words

I never read your letter
Cause I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try to make it all okay

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew
Exactly what you would do
And don't say
You simply lost your way
She may believe you
But I never will
Never again

If she really knows the truth
She deserves you
A trophy wife
Oh, how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
And he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew
Exactly what you would do
And don't say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
Never again

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never...
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks
To see my face everywhere
It was you
Who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew
Exactly what you would do
And don't say
You simply lost your way
They may believe you
But I never will
I never will
I never will
Never again

Never Again - Kelly Clarkson

Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di

Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today, gonna love today
Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today
Any way you want to
Any way you've got to
Love love me, love love me, love love

I've been crying for so long
Fightin' tears just to carry on
But now, but now it's gone away

Hey girl, why can't you carry on?
Is it cuz you're just like your mother ,
a little tight, like to tease for fun
Well you ain't gonna tease no other
Gonna make you a lover!

Everybody's gonna love today, love today, love today
Everybody's gonna love today
Any way you want to
Any way you've got to
Love love me, love love me, love love

Girl in the blue with the big bust on, big bust on, big bust on
Wait till your mamma and your pappa's gone, pappa's gone
Mamma, mamma, pappa
Shock shock me, shock shock me, shock shock

Say everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today, gonna love today
Say everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today
Any way you want to
Any way you've got to
Love love me, love love me, love love

Carolina sits on ninety five
Give her a dollar and she'll make you smile
Hook her, book her, nook her
Walk away!

Girl dresses like a kid for fun
Licks her lips like they're something other
She tries to tell you life has just begun
Now you know she's getting something other
Than the love from her mother

Everybody's gonna love today, love today, love today
Everybody's gonna love today
Any way you want to
Any way you've got to
Love love me, love love me, love love

Girl in the blue with the big bust on, big bust on, big bust on
Wait till your mamma and your pappa's gone, pappa's gone
Mamma, mamma, pappa
Shock shock me, shock shock me, shock shock

Say everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today, gonna love today
Say everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today
Any way you want to
Any way you've got to
Love love me, love love me, love love

Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di doo doo
Da di da di doo doo
Da di da di
Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di

Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today, gonna love today
Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today
Any way you want to
Any way you've got to
Love love me, love love me, love love

Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di
Doom da da di da di doo doo
Da di da di doo doo
Da di da di

Sunday, June 17, 2007

updates

before i begin the updates, i would like to say

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAR BLOGGY.
YAY!!

anniversary : june 15

so now, lemme fill ya with the updates.
but before you read on, there are things that i want to tell ya all first.

i was like in a dream-like state
not knowing if it was a dream or reality
of which i have to keep telling myself that it is real
and i wasnt dreaming

after that night, i came up with an advise:
being drunk and not knowing anything is a choice
and those who dont have a strong will to keep at least half sober,
ur in danger, esp fer girls.
people who are feeling down and who are too emotional about certain thing
will have trouble putting their guard up.
i can say this cos ive experience this.

1. club info - went with laura babe. whheeeees.

ok. I was REJECTED from O-bar and dbl-O, i was underage!!! i AM 19- for goodness sake and i felt soo underage. cos since like i-dunno-when-they-changed date, only aged 2o+ and above are allowed entry! gosh.
seriously, i was dejected. uugghhh! the last time i went dbl-O i was like allowed entry lah!
so anyway, we went to cheekys instead. yeps
they didnt even check my id or maybe they've seen me there before or whatever.
been long since ive been there and the crowds have changed.
i didnt see so many whites there anymore. ("i prefer blacks", says laura. hees)
for me, i prefer spanish/ italilians - hees.

so anyway at Cheekys, there were butches there and then THE WORST EYE CONTACT EVER was when this butch was like having this eye contact with me - like ugghh, im straight!!!
so i was just there drinking and drinking and drinking! danced only when hana came.
tho it's a sad thing that she has to go off early, she has sch the next day.
the songs there aint soo good, except for those a lil catchy rnb. love em
(i just have to say! the dj's cute - hees)
but i dun care, wasnt even into dancing there anyways,
and i dont think i danced tt much that night lah.
11.30pm, 13th june 2007 - I WAS ALREADY SEMI-DRUNK
gosh.
i should feel so after drinking 10 glasses of whiskey coke and 1 vodka.
then at mos, i drank 1 can of beer - gosh. IMAGINE i was lucky i was with good company and i still have my guard (semi) up.
but all i just wanted was to sleep. i remember fighting to that.

then so after cheeky's we went to mos.
it was freaking packed! it was retro night - so rnb was at smooth.
hmms then so we were at the main arena first. twas not the best really - but twas FUN
but at this time, i see people as if i was dreaming. like as if they werent real. lol
this feeling sucks to let ya'll know.
so like anyway, i think we all went to the second floor.
(oh i forgot to add, Zach and Laura's bro - shit i forgot his name!!! haha - met us before entering mos)
so like went to pure; gosh!!! i love the round sofas, lucky laura was holding me - i think id jump on em and just sleep.
i wanted nothing but to just sleep at that point.. uuggh!
okay, then we went to retro room and we stayed there for quite awhile- they bought more drinks
at this point i know i have to get myself together, cos laura babe is freaking high
then guess who we saw? KUMA - shim's soo pretty, she's really a pretty tranny
MUST-SEE PICS =))
we're like the only one she took with at that period. hehe ( yeah i love myself )
so later on, drank more - ugghhh the beer bellly!!!! ima have to abstain from drinkin!!!
yawwns. hmmms wat else - oh yeah.
went to smooth, the first time going in there, i felt like WTF! it's freaking full.
then the second time was worst, the damn bouncer was holding up people at the entry.
but i manage to squeeze in through till right at the door - hehe
mainly smiled at the boys so i got away with it (i soo love myself, conceited me - uggh)
then there were this two ladies at the entry too. so total there were me&laura, then the 2 of em
the bouncer is refusing entry!! goddamit!
i soo wanted to laugh really - one of em was like flirting with the bouncer- uggh so not cool
waiting for nuts, i asked the dude, why the hell is he holding up people.
then he gave the excuse that there were too many people in the room already... like duh.
everyone's looking for the rnb anyway. ahah
but then like after a few minutes of reasoning with him, he let me and laura enter! yay.
then the boys behind us also got in haha.
then ms laura wanted to dance with dudes. i was like tryna keep her to myself - sheesh
and i was successful, and also, i found a great place just near the bar.
there were more ladies at that side - and no butch! (ntg against em but at that point i was phobic)
so like me and laura were dancing away - the boys got soo closed then - so i stopped.
i turned and gave em the eye and good that they keep off - so not cool
(look but no touching man! - ya'll should know tt)
lol i shook it like i just dont care - make em go nuts - lol im sadistic
err fine, jean.. shut up! like so what. anyway, been long since i danced like that. hehe
but at least i was with laura - am more demure when im dancing with my guy frens. haha

okay so i saw him, then i turned away. i ignored him! so totally.
of all places he just have to keep walking up and down the place i was with laura.
so anyway, whenever i saw him, i turn away. when he saw me, he turn away. we're soo childish
then i dunno if it was soo meant to be or a freaking coincident, uggh.
so i was dancing rite, then my hands hit someone
then i looked up - uggh so happen to be him, i was like OOPPS. and he was like OOPS.
then he turned away, i turned away- minded my own business after tt
hahaha - i know i know. im retarded. i wanna see him but i still turn away.
what can i say? being ex lovers just spoiled it all. uggh

so anyways, we joined with laura's bro and zach outside mos, so i saw jas too( he was the bouncer outside)
then they were complaining that they didnt geta enter. then i told em, come with us.
they will definitely get to enter. ahaha.
so like we entered smooth again, danced fer awhile and then went out again.
and then outside, i had to act as laura's bro's girlfren, cos there was this gal laura was telling me about. err when i saw (yes, i just rmbred laura's bro's name : carl) hahaha.
so when i saw his ex gal that he wanted to make jealous, i was like..
"dude, you can like do sooo much better! like for real lah."
uuggh. anyways, i didnt really acted as his gal, more like stand beside him and that's all. ahaha
but anyways, awww he still love her... like ssoooo swwweeetttt. hahhaa
okay, so then we head home - tts all.

story done! and for shitty reason, pics cannot be uploading - bloggers fault
but i will upload is sooon...

p.s. sorry for the very late updates - was really busy lah. been resting and out.
now, im sick! ugghhh. so after this, i sooo want to sleep till tmr morn when im up fer sch!!!
yay school! at least i have things to do now.. rather than go out and spend money
i spent like $250 plus liddat since last friday. uggh
not counting last tuesday!! uugggh i hate myself sometimes. i need to save
OH YAY...
6 months from now - MAJOR TRIP TO THE PHIL AWESOM BEACH
so like me and jan are planning to stay there for a week, at my grands place for a week and then we separate to our own individual family - we are sooo gona get a car and fake license there! hahaha =))
anyways, ciaos for now, wanna slp.
good nights.
muahs