updates.

i woke up to the sound of thunder in the late late morning.

ignored it for awhile and then someone called.
she told me to tell my mother that the masseuse will be coming at 1pm.

then i realized it was my aunt so i drag myself off the bed.
such a sleepy pig i am!
so i went to the mum's room, saw Haizak (the malay spelling for the most argued name since ever - Isaac)

he was such an angel and every time i come to him, he smiles.
my presence i felt is very distinguished to him.
he didn't only smile once or twice. he smiled A LOT of times.

my exhaustion left me instantly.
it was like a boost in the system that i can only feel in that weird special way.
my brother... my dearest youngest sibling.

so seeing my lively manner, mum asked me to send off my sister.
i was goofy just now. then came the aftermath of the night.

now im too tired to even psycho myself to get off the bed.
all im able to do is to type away, listen to songs and plainly just pig around.

i must say, my room of this late has been one like a pig sty.
very very much awful to the eyes. i cannot stand it anymore.
i will have to just do the cleaning after bathing.

which goes to say that i official stink of booze, cigarettes and whichever
unwanted smell there was in the club all clinging onto my skin.
to think about it, i am showing signs of barfing...
im horrible sometimes! call myself a young lady. uggh
i think im worst than the boyfriend. hehe

anyway, last night was fun but as a whole, not very much what i expected.
*sobs* i was utterly disappointed how the night went along.
but to come to think about it, the night itself was testing my resistance.
of which i must admit here that i was so tempted.

then again, there is someone who's holding me back =)
desperate idiots who wants pussy so bad would just come around and touch you.
not even keeping to their zone of comfort.

it's a club yes, but i still believe that when the girl is not inviting anyone to her,
those dudes should keep away. dont ya'll agree?

i was tipsy but not enough to let down my guard.
then it wore off cos i feel that Laura needed me to stay sober.
she was gone - totally

in here i wont say what happened.
she was so high i dont even think she remembered what she did.
i am not into judging people, let alone my friends.

on another hand, i learnt what it means by why boyfriends dont let their girlfriends
visit those nightlife areas. unless of course the girlfriend is me...
haha okay. self praises is not allowed here for now.
i feel that i am very proud of myself, of which something i have already informed the boyfriend. lol

i hope that if he even visit the club, no matter with his brother or whoever, he keeps to himself.
look, see but no touching. that's the rule of boundary at the minimal for boyfriends.

you can trust girls but never the guys.
it sound very sexist but i must say that guys are just guys and very much human.
im not saying that all girls are good and prissy but im applying it to the majority of the wrong doers- guys. lol
gosh im sexist. no guys dont take it the wrong way.

im just saying that guys are capable of a lot of things.
especially when it comes to places where loose pussy are available.
why say this? because women has been the source of conflict in the world of man.

look at what happened to the great city of Troy.
The great emperor of rome, Julius Caesar.
the great general of rome, Anthony.

ALL SEDUCED AND RUINED BY WOMEN.

it has all been this way ever since Adam and Eve's time.
most conflict are resulted by women.
we, women are meant to be kept and treasure by one only.

being a person who cannot pass off as a saint, i admit to own wrongdoings myself.
because i wanted to test my power over certain dudes, i guess i didn't even realize that
the attention im getting are from guys who themselves are 'happily attached'

i have bad experience of being the third party before.
and i vowed never to fall under that again.
i am turning over a new leaf. actually i have been for the past months.

only now it's maximize cos someone said to me that i have him to hold on for.
and that no matter if we work out or not, only at that time we'll know.
and to you, i thank you.

well then lets get back to the updates for last night.
nothing special really.
i saw people who i know..

at CM - cheeky monkey - i saw someone who told me not to say i saw her there cos her bf doesnt know. lol hehe naughty girl...
at MOS i saw the long lost best guy sister, Jasvender...
he was still looking BIG as ever. bouncying and all.
so nice to see him after like months and months.

After some nice semi sober time at MOS we went to Gotham penthouse.
the source of Laura's 'downfall'... lol
then this i have to tell boyfriend later when we have longer time to talk.
AT GOTHAM : there were Whites and Hispanic dudes doing some performance.
and they were stripping up. showing hints of Man G-strings.

hot hot hot... noting to self : look but dont touch. hahaha
this is the way Gotham treat their ladies in the house.

it was fun all through till the ending time. twas irritatingly and horribly hilarious.
Laura was blabbering nonsense.
Jas was shaking his head.
Laura's boyfriend came down to pick her up. sounds kinda pissed...
wish them all the best...
on the phone, he told me to send her to his place and so i did.

the cabfare was major bomb! but it was expected.
good thang i have my cards. if not id have to seduce the driver to let me go. lol
okay just kidding... uggh id rather seduce the boyfriend.
hahaha

so in the midst of all the hype and the disgusting ways of clubbing.
the camwhore in me reigns strong!
so here are pictures!!!! hehe

and one video at GOTHAM. lol

On the way to Clarke Q - cab


ATTICA drinks - Cosmopolitan - i swear it did something to my system.
Cosmo did something to our system. came out of Attica a lil bonkers.

Now at CM a bit bonkers...
To MOS
Laura Ashley...
Aren't I great in photography?
Some peeps we made conversations with. took their pics and we left.
retarded pics lah. haha
okay. this is cos im tipsy. haha
The lady with the sash is having her Bachelorette Party at Gotham. haha. Happy wedding!!
then THE PATRON of tequila served us REAL tequila FREE. just to do what?
TAKE HIS PICTURE. and us drinking it. uggh talk about retardations.
wasted Laura hate tequila. but i was tipsy enough so after i sip, i didnt take anymore.

then now see what happened abt the tequila. haha.this is on purpose okay.
not lesbian when im tipsy.
this one is totally FREAKY!!!
i was too tired to open my eyes. plus the FLASH was horribly bright!
one..
two, three... wheeee!!

this is what frustration and alcohol to do me.. horrible picture ever.good photography? hehe

last but not least. the most retarded picture ever.
it's kinda obscene and if boyfriend complains, im taking it down..

THE BOYFRIEND HAS PASS HIS JUDGMENT
HE SAYS TO PUT THIS PICTURE DOWN.
&he says i look like a stripper

and so the night ended.

i hope it will be better next week.
and i hope the boyfriend can go too =))

"short"

back home from clubbing.
i swear i didn't enjoy as much as i thought i will..
then again, cant blame the drunk for being nonsensical right.

so in whatever at all. i leave the updates and pictures to be posted when im
in a much better condition.

toodles.

time is...

before i end my day.
i want to share somethings about today.
i feel poetic so id try to rhyme,
no matter how stupid is may really sound...

i went to school for some SUI! stock taking,
didn't know how much it cost my timing.

i felt really tired but i did enjoy the day.
but it hasn't end cos there's something abt the boyfriend.

i feel that i am falling but im still guarding it wisely.
im not into falling so fast and hurt becomes my outcome.
no no no. that shouldn't happen.

okay. im giving up the poetic shit. lol
anyhoo, as i was saying. im starting to feel more and more into this relationship.
that started as a mere game of chance.

i told everyone, even jan, that this might just end in a few weeks time.
then again, i have to admit that i am wrong.

i feel that the only time that we would really fight is cos of external affairs.
it seems as if we have nothing to fight among ourselves... yet.... i dont know

im still afraid of falling, as i have earlier told him.
we had a heart to heart talk just now.
or pillow talk... hehe okay. enough kinky hints.

i was injured just now!
the wound was like.... OH MY GOSH! haha
i dont know how to describe it. it doesnt hurt though. it's just that the wound is getting annoying. haha
have to like put those OINTMENT!!! hope is heals up v v v soon! like now!!!!

anyway, in due to the heart to heart talk, i understand more of every emotion i feel.
i have recovered eroded emotions and i feel that somehow, my happiness now is all thanks to him.

to you deary : pls dont make me happy now and give me all the love and hope only for PRESENT use. please be this way with me as long as we are together.
i can promise you that there are things that i am doing for you... of which u are not really aware of the benefits of.


i must say that in my past relationships, i have not been a good girl.
i was controlled and so i felt so trapped i couldn't stay focus on them.
and so i cheated mildly.

on daryl i cheated too, that's why when he cheated on me, i felt only a tinge of anger.
cos i know i deserved that on my part. but then again, after what happened, i vowed that it wont happen again.
and so it wont.

as long as i have something to hold on for, im focused.
and now, i have him to hold on to. and i hope he wont just give way and break into two.
to those girls, sisters, guys, closer relative who knows my ways, i know you're saying now that he is indeed a lucky guy.

but im lucky to have found someone who knows how to treat me right,
of course in annoying ways too. lol
give it a lil more time, i think i will let him know that i am really in love with him.
more time...

time is all we need to find the love we always wanted - jean

long day

it was such a long day that im only ending it with today's entry.
so before i lay flat on my soft and comfy bed, i sacrifice a bit of my time now,
before i forget the entire day today. of which some i would not, of course... *winks*

so it started with the PR issues.
twas uber irritating...

reached there at 1030am, got given the queue number at 1045am.
guess what time i ended?

530pm. period.

the day tested my patience and of course the last straw, my temper.
the counters serving the PR applicants are uber slow, i swear i can do my own funeral there.

after finally getting the Entry Permit and Re-entry permit payment done,
i had to wait for the thumb prints taking at the other counters.

so like an idiotic fool i waited, no choice anyway.
apparently, being alone almost drove me crazy. i was half nuts when my darling came.
oh yeah, he came to find me... so sweet right? haha

anyhoo, i decided i might inquire as to why is the service damn fucking slow.
of course, omitting profanities i came in the politest tone they deserve.

so then there is this Minah who i must say, work there,
overhearing my inquiry, taking it to her sensitive nerve and blasted at me saying,
"Maybe you'd like to come in here and work instead..." and then she gave that shit face.

i swear i can award myself for being so composed still, being the brat that i am! hehehe
i merely reply in my i swear so polite and as a matter of fact tone -

"I will if i can you know..."

and then she turn around and left exclaiming to her colleagues that i insist they are slow in their service.
she is a Minah i tell you. and i grade her A+ for being one.

i was dumbfounded but like i said, im a brat.
so i told the counter woman, YES they FUCKING ARE. (minus he word FUCKING)
i demanded her name and...

then to the rest at the counter i exclaimed "SO IS THAT THE WAY YOU TREAT YOUR PR INVITEE?"

SILENCE.
SILENCE.
SILENCE.

the head officer within the hearing range called to me and asked me to enter her room.
the room where she was explaining to me the reason for the slow service,
and on that Minah's behalf, apologizing.

of which i find isn't at all sincere.
why?

1. she was looking at my queue number sheet all through while she was talking
2.she fucking dont understand the meaning of shutting up when im the one who needs to talk.
3.she cuts me off when im explaining

i let her off cos she's old.
that's all.


but i swear that Minah is so not getting away.
okay jean... enough loathing... besides your day was happy overall right... heee

so after the whole scene.
called the mum and complained... she made some calls and then my queue number came like so fast.

then later on, aunt shidah who works there as some higher PR officer, came out to see me.
of which then the counter lady was taken aback that im connected to her.

later on after the thumb prints taking, i didnt need to wait anymore to collect my passport.
it was given to me on the spot.

plus, that counter lady took my number to recommend her daughter to my aunt ju's cafe as waitress.
and of course to whichever work connection i can recommend.
oohh i love connections. hehe

then of course not leaving out the boyfriend.
he was so sweet.

knowing i was halfway dying and rotting away at ICA.
he came with dilan at ICA. like aww... okay. enough...

i dont want my blogders to start puking due to my oh-so-sudden sweetness.
but i cant be bothered. so to ya'll: just read and shut up.


later on i followed deary to RP.
slacked at the hostel till 8pm while he went off first to report to the field for his match.

i was suppose to leave with denver. and then i didn't want to be late to see my man play his game, so i went off first.
denver came 1 and 1/2 hour later!

so i was watching the game alone.
i didn't find myself socializing with the guys and girls at the audience stand.
they were smiling and offering friendly initiation but i think i was being sucha
socialite of some sort. lol

anyway, it would look weird suddenly, so i kept to myself;
with the mental note of killing denver for making me wait and watch the match alone! lol

today was the first time i watched a real rugby match.

first impression?

NASTY!

i was the one who felt the pain, subconsciously! i was like "ouch", "shit", "fuck"
and imagine i was GODDAM alone!
i bet like they were thinking im nuts or something.

then again, i cant be bothered.
i was too engrossed. lol

Darling was like flying around. He's too fast a runner.
Couldn't keep track of him. only when the guys do the "hugging" thing.

i cant remember what that term was. uggh
never mind.
anyway, the one tackle i couldn't forget was the one when like everyone was like not running after this opponent and then all of a sudden i saw him flying on that dude.

gosh. i cannot imagine seeing him injured.
but then again, as long as im with him, he wont get that injured. hehe

okay im like semi cursing him this way.
haha... but he was like telling me about what happens when i go from him.
hehe... im not saying it here though.. he know i know, tts enough... =))

:P *sticks tongue out*

anyway, the sad part was that their team lost.
they were against a Club anyway. but it was not bad though, 17-22 i think
so means they are still of a high standards.

he was telling me that his dudes are crapped out about it.
taking it too hard or whatever...
but good that he was okay. hehe like duh he should be okay.

okay enough. im not making sense when im writing this way.

i got to go.
i have Assistant Operations Manager duty to do at the shop tomorrow.
another long day!!!

yawns.

got to go.
muahs

short entry

Okay. no nightmare anymore.
i dreamed of something but i kinda forgot what it was.

doesn't matter.
am going v soon to ica to do some PR stuff.

then meet the bf.
then watch his match. go rugger!

okay. good day.
it's another long day for me...

muahs

voice from the heart

so everyone say there is difference.
it really isnt at all surprising anyway.

i feel more light-hearted in this relationship.
which is at this time is a little bit overrated.

some are a little bit weird out that im like officially attached,
no more games, no more flings, no more serial dating, no more 8-in-1 time.


some dudes are still digesting it.
some are not even into comprehending that im attached.

as it may seem obvious, im not the only one who finds this irritating.
he too experienced this, the moment he put our couple pictures at his site,
those ex girls and flings either came to chastise him or to just vanish into thin air.

but then i came to full reasoning and i came up with this;
"i guess everyone is saying we're better off with others... then again, only we will know..."

when we came into union, life killed two 'flingers'/ players, with one stone.
i dont know. it seems still overrated...
i find myself paranoid. im reacting this way because im afraid of getting hurt again you see.

after daryl, i didnt know if i could really settle with one.
then came all those 'juggling' period. tiring... but of course enjoyable...

then the crush period came and it didnt know me and him will land like this.
wondering again, how we will end, as i always do with my boyfriends.
although i dont really look into the end of this one.

at least not yet.
for now... im still a happy soul.

i hope he'll know how to treat me right all through and not just these honeymoon period
whatsoever.
it's saddening how couples forget their standards of treating each other.
fights after fights, the love is just lost and nothing but hate and guilt is left.
sorry is not even allowed or powerful to regain anything.

but i feel there is something more.
i also fear that there will be that something that might ruin us.

ive never been really wrong in seeing or predicting the near future.
but im leaving that aside for now.
see how things go right.

to those who are not satisfied that im with him now.
those idiots who feels piss that im with someone now and they are the ones who
wanted me and didnt even initiate anything to have me, too bad.

and to those girls he had once been with, i dont know how he defends me
but i hope it is enough to keep them away.
that's all...

nights

update today

seems like there is nothing to say today.
i did part my chores

1.banking stuff
2.bill payments
3.medical canceled for trip to ICA

then again, it wasnt done and so was my bag shopping.
it was another unsuccessful attempt to retail therapy.

i was not moved at all by adidas, zinc or whatever.
it just didnt feel good like the way it should.

anyway, it doesnt matter.
i'll just do it tmr or even later.

in mind i have imprint this rattan bag that comes in hot pink and hot purple.
with flowers and ribbons attached to its handle.
v feminine and it comes in many different designs and sizes.
also, it cost v v little =))

cost opportunity = budget = thrift = cheapskate = whatever

maybe i will just get another item. i hope there is that annual discount whatever.
i swear im becoming more singaporean - discount hunting is so not me.

okay well, i am half certain of getting that.
i am confident that roz will get me the bag of my dreams when he's back from his trip.
i have of course detailed out what i wanted and in which color.
arent i a great gift recipient? =))

okay. i found out something abt mum's acc.. i was shocked at what i found out.
her passbook says it all. gotta ask her about it like v v v soon.

im v sleepy.
i have to wake up early tomorrow again.
ica business again.

oh bf's ex girlfriend is neat picking on me.
telling him this and that.
sisters, are you ready? we might have a girl fight.
hahaha nah, cant be bothered.
plus, i got the man to handle it. thanks for defending me darling. loves..

yours truly.

stupid paranoia

like what the fuck.
i think the whole paranoia of some stupid sort has subconsciously entered the sand my sandman has blew on me.
i feel so irritated having to force awake in due of that dream, no no it was nightmare!
shithead!

the nightmare however, made me feel more aware that i did feel a tinge of anger but not jealousy.
uggh i think i can count how many times ive been jealous in a relationship.
i dont know if im that heartless or emotionless. but i can only remember ONCE that i felt jealous and irritated at the same time. those closer to me, you all should know which one...

well i think my feelings is developing. i think this is the way it is trying to show me.
kinda happy the boyfriend is very understanding about this.
he's very patience in terms of a LOT of things... =))
okay. i have to go.

due today:
1. medical check up
2. banking stuff
3. bills payment
4. bag shopping
5. meet roz

of course... im doing 1-4 alone.
love shopping alone actually, only when im in the mood then will go with sisters. =))

yawwnns. another long day...
bye

songs

Even the nights are better
By Air Supply

I, I was the lonely one
Wondering what went wrong, why love had gone
And left me lonely
I, I was so confused, feeling like I'd just been used
Then you came to me and my loneliness left me

I used to think I was tied to a heartache
That was the heartbreak, but now that I've found you

Even the nights are better
Now that we're here together
Even the nights are better
Since I found you, oh
Even the days are brighter
When someone you love's beside ya
Even the nights are better
Since I found you

You, you knew just what to do
'Cause you had been lonely too
And you showed me how
To ease the pain and
You did more than mend a broken heart
'Cause now you've made a fire start
And I, I can see that you feel the same way

I never dreamed there'd be someone to hold me
Until you told me and now that I've found you
Even the nights are better
Now that we're here together
Even the nights are better
Since I found you, oh
Even the days are brighter
When someone you love's beside ya
Even the nights are better
Since I found you

I never dreamed there'd be someone to hold me
Until you told me and now that I've found you

Even the nights are better
Now that we're here together
Even the nights are better
Since I found you, oh
Even the days are brighter
When someone you love's beside ya
Even the nights are better
Since i found you

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT LOVE IS
Lucky Dube

I' ve got to take a little time
A little time to think things over
I' d better read between the lines
In case I need it when I' m older

This big mountain I must climb
Ohh feels like the world upon my shoulders
Through the crowds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life, there's been heartache and pain
I don' t know, if I can face it again
I can' t stop now
I' ve travelled so far
To change this lonely life

Chorus:
I want to know what love is
i know you can show me
I want to feel what love is
i know you can show me

I' m going to take a little time
A little time to look around me
I' ve got nowhere left to hide
It looks like reggae has finally found me

In my life, there's been heartache and pain
I don' t know, if I can face it again
Can' t stop now
I' ve travelled so far
To change this lonely life

Chorus:
I want to know what love is
i know you can show me
I want to feel what love is

i know you can show me

updates is on soon!

uggh

my dick is hard and i need ur pussy... like wtf
everything at camp was soo retardedly sexually today...
basically everything that comes out from everyone today was related to sex!
from today's afternoon nap and all those camp activities, Gail Finance was totally retarded.
okayy. more updates... goodnight.

And shen and i...
im still evaluating the situation... i sense sincerity but i think the problem lies within me.
im in conflict... but he's not rushing me... he himself have told me things.
and i think it is time that i treat him better this time around.

he's treats me really great and all those... there is more to him than meets the eyes of everyone. but slowly i am seeing it.. slowly...

things i like about the boyfriend.
1. he fills up the gaps in my emotions that seems to have eroded even tho it takes a slower time
2.the way he look at me
3.the way he kisses me on the forehead
4.the way that he could awaken my emotion that has been long dormant
5.the way he tries and never give up so fast
6.he just seem to be someone there...

i still have to settle things with myself

whatever 3

talk sweet and assure your boyfriend that you wont do stupid truth or dare shit when he's drunk, and i swear you'll get nuts in the end.
he wasnt that much drunk when i had to move to another place to play the "EMPEROR" game - truth or dare... when the Emperor tells the dare and he/she select the person to do it thru the selection of their poker cards they have earlier selected.
the last game, i was almost asked to french a guy. OMFG
then i screamed "NO,IM ATTACHED" and then i said, if i aint i'd be glad to do it.
hehe the dude isn't bad either... lol wtf

okay. anyway, so ya. i dont know what the hell happened.
half an hour later he was soooo fucking knocked out - fucking must have drank more sia that idiot. nvm... sausage party... ugghs...
then i swear later he's going to get the hell outa me... lol

his msn personal message will change from.... "she will be loved..... by me" to "she will be my murderer" ahaha
i dont know... whatever.

good day. gotta run. camp gathering now. ciaos

Almost conflicts...

i thought i would have the first conflict with him today.
i was utterly in shock and disbelief at how he seemed to me just now.
i thought that it was just he way he was. then again, it's lucky he did realize it was a little way off. good thing he apologized.
anyway, today was really retarded, and it's good that my dearie lives in the hostel,
easy to put things and leave things that i dont need for the moment in my 3 day stay in school.
plus, his friends are really fun, 'cept for that one Tamil Sri Lankan who seemed to dislike me - then again, "he's an outcast" from their clique.
well, dilan and denver are still the only ones that i openly socialize with... ooo and Charith also.

our conflict : Booze
he has been telling me to quit drinking.
well, i havent drank for like ages and jan's present for me is Vodka Raspberri - the big one.
okayy. well, after like telling him that im serious about keeping that booze, he let it go.
then later on he kinda apologize for being a little cranky today.
i haven't detail out what actually happened, the sisters know it and so does the other closer friends.
well, anyway... it dont matter right. as long as ive settled that complications that seems to arise.
okay. i have to run now. need to report to the agora for the start of the SUI! camp.

ciaos. fill ya in tonight again.

kisses to the boyfriend, the friends and the SISTERS...

we're official , counting on the 8th of August 2007 tho.
it's exploding like C4 - im all braced. i think i should be fine.
i dont know how long we'd last but that dont matter now, im just into spontaneity

just this morning two girls has already asked me to confirm my status the moment i came online, and another group of people too =O
well as all should already know, im 19 tomorrow... !!!

yey ness but kinda dreading it, im older by a year again =) like as if it can be helped
tomorrow the sisters and of course some vip are coming to my school for this special day.
i hope i wont die tmr. i feel as if i need to anticipate a long run around my school compound. it's like knowing jan and my sisters might meet and combine forces, im sooo dead.
i feel like not coming tmr. lol

anyhoo, im going to have a dresscode with the man tmr.

okay, since official, im going to put more pictures of us...
lol

Let me show you

before i head on to the other pictures..
let me show you my BROTHER ISAAC...



then...


it's me and shen....
we are by the end of today, if things go well, will be official.
i dont know why im feeling scared, but i think that it's a good way to have a new beginning.
official relationships are something that explode like a C4 to all those around us.
today, he told me that he was interviewed by his own teacher about me.
what's my name, where i live, this and that...
his own class knows me by name and of course with the help of yandao.com, i believe that they already have researched my class.

well, it dont really matter who knows, i cant be bothered too.
as long as no one stalk me home or something... lol

anyhoo, here are some of those pictures we took yesterday!

so introducing... SHENATH THOMAS DIAS

whatever part 2

i havent slept properly since the induced labour my mother has experienced.
as i have earlier proclaimed, i have a new baby brother.
he looks like my dad, his eyes however, has a tinge of Bautista in them.

i am currently tapping into others internet.
my internet is down =( kinda cause a contact barrier b/w me and shen but im still able to find devices to get through to him. phew.. im sucha good girlfriend right?
haha and jan, stop protesting that im still not his girlfriend.
im his "woman"... (i would so prefer to be called his lady)
haha... whatever...
yesterday, we were smsing about how fast it seems that we got together and how long it felt that we knew each other.
then i forgot to recount that part when i told him that maybe at the end of the year i might have to fly to the phil to do some stuff-cum-vacation...
then he pops that question. then i asked him, so it means that it's exclusive that we are seeing each other?
then he on the other hand seem to get it wrong and say that i want to see some other people. lol what the hell.
it doesnt mater. i know that if we really end up as in OFFICIALLY TO THE WORLD together, then things will materialise.
then again, im afraid that i might get dump for doing some stupid mistake and im afraid id back out in the last minute, or he might do some stupid mistake and get dumped by me.
either ways still seem quite possible right?
uggh i dont know.
well, i better get back now.
i didnt bring my hp and i know he has already finished work.
he's bound to sms me 20 mins ago and im still here typing away.
going going gone!
poof!

MOMENT OF JOY

AT APPROXIMATELY 1.25am TO 1.30am, on 18th August 2007 (1887)

ISAAC MUHAMMAD BAUTISTA BIN HASSAN
has come into the world!!!!!!!!!

I AM OFFICIALLY THE ELDEST OF THREE!!!
i will be posting his picture v v v v v soon!!!!!

major much

MAJOR NEWS TO ALL.

MY MUM IS CURRENTLY IN THE DELIVERY SUITE!

means that she's going to be delivering! yayness! a baby brother!
anyway, im with my sister now. she didnt want to go home.
she's all hyped up about our brother on the way that she was sooo insistent that she stays.
today, i turned down two invites to nightlife.
sadness but my family needs me now - MORE.

okay. to the sisters who are so coming down tomorrow, please dont go nuts seeing my brother k. give him peace! haha
well, whatever the case, thank you for giving these family-like support.
like awww....

anyway, before coming down here - KKH women tower - i was with my rugger.
yey, haha i got a new term for him.
he went to pasir ris today, met me at whitesands and yeah had an ice cream with him.
plus, we talked quite a lot.
and guess what? we just realize that we only got to hook up last thurday - national day - and yet it was as if we already knew each other since GOD knows when.
it is really very surprising.

but yesterday, that rugger has a mood.
i was sooo tensed yesterday as to why he was pissed with me.
in the end, it was settled. i realise that he want 2 knw wher his woman is..he dnt like 2 c me randomly sumwher...
when my eyes saw, "my woman", my eyes narrowed. surprising.
then he was saying that i was in school too late already. and that he was worried that id reach home too late.
i was like "sorry, i didnt think it would matter. i guess i underestimated your concern"
then he called me straight away. gosh.

this ways of communications just keeps making us closer and closer.
what if i really fell for him? id be damned! i think??? ugghh im still staying off the deep.
=)) i love to stay in the shallow too long. oh well, i still need to know him more...

okay. my sister is bugging me to do her blog.
see ya ard soon.

AND YAY, IM GOING TO BE THE ELDEST SISTER AGAIN!!!
=))

Whatever

So much for doing an RJ on "what would you do if you dont have INTERNET ACCESS on a weekday"

it's as if it has happened or like im being punked and whatever nonsensical stuff i can really think about.
i can stand not doing RJ in the day, knowing that today's Module Facilitator is reasonable enough to accept my would-be reason for not doing today's RJ.

but the agitation gets irritating when i am in the rush to check something, chat with someone (regarding the event tomorrow) and basically just talk to the peeps online.
it gets more irritating because the event needs me to do emcee-ing.
this is really going to go so 'unprepared' or what you call, semi-impromptu.
i have to always put into mind what Gareth said about emcee-ing.
FIRST IMPRESSION COUNTS.

it fascinate me though how i get to be chosen by the Salsa Team to do for them this event.
i so totally know that this is going to a good/rude awakening or say, eye opening, for emceeing.

three fears
1. i talk nonsense
2. i get thrown eggs by audience
and the worst...
3. i dont attraction attention enough!

the salsa team will kill me. okayy whatever it is,
note to self : DO YOUR BEST

Let me recount today...
Came to school late on purpose. Went to the coffeeshop to meet ABC with a guess, Meerza, and of course, Jan - the all thim V.I.P guest in ABC.
today is Yihao's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY

my gift was a little bit retarded but i hope he likes it.
it was so coincidental that Vanessa did something like mine too.
But of course, it was more especial and romantic for her BF =))
we had chocolate 'emicakes' cake. superb...
anyway, it was a little bit retarded in school too.

jan rick mascarina brought me Absolute vodka Pear in a tuperware water bottle.
it was really HARD but at the same time it make my senses go sensitive.
my throat was burning cold. it was exhilirating!
so i drank most of the gulps during class and breaks.
up till Shen knew what it was. he request for me to give him the majority.
he drank it instead, and apparently dragging that 1.75/3 amount of vodka made him a bit retarded. lol

after school he reported what happened in class.
imagine he was making fun of me being a little tipsy all and he himself scolded the teacher "chee bye" just because she dont let him go for some rugby meeting. she eventually let him go, if not, id be waiting like one mad woman for him just now.

it was a real experience drinking during school hours.
i swear i did it not to do anything like toughening up or some sort.
i just wanted to try it. im leaving my teenhood in like 1 year and xx days.
okay, well today was a little bit more fun than usual.
but i bet tomorrow will be much much more! =))

Shen was saying that i can do it, just show my ass or whatever.
then when i said okay, id wear micro skirt and show off. hahaha, he ask me to wear LONG skirt, or denim. haha
majority of my denims are in the laundry! haha
whatever...

oh and before i forget the worst of the day.
i was so tensed for a few long minutes.
I LOST MY WALLET.
i only realize it after some time in the late afternoon, when i was walking to causeway to meet ABC.
so i went to my classroom and RPC and thank GOD that it was reported by someone.
I LOST THE WALLET AT BUS 169 IN THE MORNING.

bless that person who returned it, untampered.
my mum-permitted-platinum mastercard is in there!!! id just die.
Shen was really sweet today... gave me moral support. hahaha
Uggh he's always sweet. He's like too good to be true...
I dont know if i deserve someone so sweet.
I hope he's for real though... i have to stick and find out right?
then again, the problem is that, what if i happen to really develop real fondness of him? but then we seem as if we're not working out, or so he decided to dump me for whatever reasons guys can surprisingly come up with, how then?
im so going to get crushed again.
somehow i dont know if i should dive in deeper.
it's safer to be on the guard ALWAYS.
but being on the safe side means that i have to let go of the nice things that GOD has given me.

then again, when the time come..
1. i end up really liking him
2. he dumps me
*whichever comes faster, then and there i have to be spontaneous right? whatever it be, i did have fun and been treated really nice by someone i am attracted to.

okay. i have to run now.
UT tomorrow!
ima hve to post this tomorrow.

=))

yesterday i was totally not in the mood, in anything that is.
the only apparent mood i was in was either im too happy or im too quiet - if u call that moods...

i only remember laughing madly or shutting up entirely.
shen should know! haha i wasnt in the mood for anything.
yesterday in class was hilarious tho, i was team up with the couple (vans and yihao), sahidah and nisha. we made quite a lot of noise talking about which ghost should represent which.
apparently i got the breast ghost - hantu tetek.
it's quite the contrary tho, i have big and juicy ass, not breast. im only a B-cup and they call me hantu tetek? retardation.
so nisha as usual get the calling pontianak, sahidah was the chinese vampire, yihao is the pocong and vanessa is toyol - i know... i dont kno what i was doing really

(this makes me happy too)

the mood of happiness or basically just outburst of laughter irritated even myself.
i wonder how Shen stand these moods im getting. it's retarded.
anyhoo, i had some talk with him.
apparently, boys out there who have been trying to figure me out can go to Shen to ask any queries - he's working double shift digging in me deeper =))
apparently, he wants to know 'this girl i ....' i shall leave the dots a mystery
okayy. absolute as it may seem, i am feeling rather emotional.
i think, yes, that's the word, emotional.
over what? nothing. it's the damn period
moody before the period, normal during the period and anger outburst after the period.
OMG shen is so going to suffer...

shen and i are somewhere in the line of friends and more...
we are still on that path. we are having fun and i guess id know if we'll ever really happen.
if im still feeling as if we are not, it would be up to him to make me feel as such.
so far we are really good on communicating what we feel and how we see things.
i admire people who are independent - at least those who are somewhere there.. - cos for nuts, im not independent really. that's a good thing about being a girl
anyhoo, yesterday when shen sent me to the bus interchange, we saw his classmates.
i so wanted to run and hide. haha i mean i dont think it should be fair to us being found out when we are still "on the way"
i have nothing against our closer friends knowing about us and all.
my readers basically wont know who the hell im talking about anymore. only some here...
RP readers should just keep a close watch if you're really that psychotic to know.
but please dont link me to some strange retard. haha

okayy. today was quite fun too.
ALIENS ARE INVADING!


- we have two days to inform the whole world about it.
how and what to do? this is the most retarded communication topic that is brought up ever. haha
my team did fine. not the best but it dont really matter, we conveyed and stood our grounds rather well =))

was with shen most of the time. i didnt see jan today tho =((
cos he left me in the morning and we didnt meet for lunch - went with Shen.
i know, it's like Shen, Shen, Shen... what can i do?
well, ive been spending and talking to him most of the time.
apparently he's gathering information about me and my character. i told him to make a book out of it. haha
okayy. after school today, met him again and went to his hostel and hung out with this friends. uggh his dorm totally is GUYS DORM - it's awful!
only one of the guys' BED AREA is clean!

okay whatever it was. we spend like 45 mins being together and ended up getting late for both our other commitments!
and and i gave him BUTTERFLY KISSES.


i like those kisses a lot and uggh however, whenever i think of that, i remember giving it to daryl. stop stop stop. brainwash
but however, Shen didn't get the REAL butterfly kiss i always give my bfs..
recalling: i dont think i gave one to ivan tho...
okayy whatever... it dont matter..

so today went for emcee meeting. yay! =))
we are going to be handed out events to host. it really is cool.
however, it so totally make me sooo packed this holiday.

3 weeks = 21 days
class chalet - at least 2 day 1 night
weblog camp - 3 days
2-4 days of workshops - journalism & emcee-ing
so far, that's 11 days gone and more to come...

today at emcee meeting it got me thinking of doing a podcast.
anyone has any ideas to do on? something that you think i can pull off?
dont ask me to do comedy. it'll will suck. =D

emcee meeting was like too fast and too long...
fast cos i was 10mins late. missed the introduction part. uggh wasted.
also, it was a bad first second impression.lol
then it was long because i was suppose to meet Yan - has been waiting for like 45mins or so
gosh. so he fetched me and we went to seafood place at tampines.
been long since i been there.
well, my bums hurt due to the travel there on the motor, it has been like months and months that i ride it.
miss going riding with my dear ling. haiz...
and of course i do miss my good ol' biker friends.. =((

okay anyhooo... i have to go.
im lacking sleep... but school is fun as usual.
however before i end my day today.
i want to do an advance greeting -

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR FREN, YIHAO

best wishes...

goodnight....

yesterday i was totally not in the mood, in anything that is.
the only apparent mood i was in was either im too happy or im too quiet - if u call that moods...
i only remember laughing madly or shutting up entirely.

just another day.

well, nothing much happened today.
just that at the cafe, something really wrong happened.
to that person who caused it, SHAME on you.
if you dare do so again what you did, you'd wish you were never born in this Earth.
people like you have nothing better to do but to cause harm on people who have been
hospitable to you. fugging idiots.

okayy. im done with the swearings.
the day was alright. didnt meet Shen today tho.
he's probably having family time with his brother and all =))
id probably be seeing him tomorrow.

upcoming events...
1. emcee meeting
2. weblog day camp.
3. photojournalism workshop (still waiting for email)
4. more job at the cafe

and last but not least...
5. MY 19TH BIRTHDAY.

*sorry. was just finish talking to Shen.
yawns. im still talking to nurul syg tho.
we're talking about virginity. hahaha
and dear, i know that id only do it with someone i love too k. dont worry...
i still believe in love even after daryl crushed that belief like previously - i still do
im just waiting for love to come hit me. so yah... =))
but no rush though, im scared of chickening out from love. uggh

okay, wanna go off now.
till next post then...

muahs

pictures and updates.

boo hoo! im sick again.
this is sooo crappy.
anyway, i just want to post the newest and retarded pics that jan has taken for me.

so jan is getting cockier. his ideas, not mine.

just after i kinda stop having a runny nose.

random.

this is where jan screamed the loudest when a moth flew to his face.

well, like i said, not my idea.

me and jan, and, me and shen, has talked about our free times.
Shen and i are getting along fine. nothing much. but im happy that my friends find it alright... have heard of mira's opinion... nurul too, in a way, as well as hidayah and mei ling. hajar, not yet really.
but just want to reassure you my ladies, that everything is under control.
i know i know... =))
last night we did have a talk somehow and i did tell him more about my thinking.
i hope he's cleared. he too has voiced his opinion =))
it was good.
so for now, nothing to worry about.
also, our situation is very much based on spontaneity.
whatever happens, happens... que sera sera...
plus, our situation is very much under control.
nothing really special yet.

also, i must say that the past with that bastard is very much still coming forth in my head.
of which and from which i dont know how why and how.
it gets irritating sometimes.
it is a good thing that Shen is soo different from him.
kinda make me more happy.
imagine me having crushes on people who is like that bastard.
*fine id drop the bastard - i'll call him by his name; daryl.

okay, i wanna go.
im dying to rest again...
hope to see Shen tmr tho... see how it goes =))
oh and he just message!
toodles.

the day and some thoughts

well first of, i must say that since Mira has brought up my all-time happening birthday celebration, this may sound disheartening for those people who love the parties i hold.

however, it will double the pain in me - i may not be celebrating my 19th birthday! =((

i really enjoy throwing great parties..
and i am so honoured that my parties are the ones you people truly love going to.
as you all know my dear people, my mum is expecting to be due this month.
and it is most probably be around my birthday - 23rd August.
well, to those whom i know is planning my party, im thanking you really.
like aww jan, you're a wonderful guy.
if only you we're straight... ewww!
haha. anyway, jan is going into depression.

it's Shen(mr. crush)... jan is jealous of shen - he thinks his bgf is getting pulled away or something.
darly no k. everyone's my friend and i dont want to lose any.
okay. so ive revealed mr. crush's name.
just to remind all sisters, this is still in the crush zone.
i dont think he'd settle anytime now... plus, we're both flirts.

also, the situation is that we are friends with benefits - i dont know, we never talk about this.
it's those spontaneous things. que sera sera.
no one is tied down to no one. i just hope im not just his other woman.
i so totally have enough of being the third party.
for some fateful events in my love dept, i have been the third party at least thrice.
so if Shen is reading this - "please dont lie to jean when she ask if you have other women. she must know cos she prefer it that way"

okay, i must say that i really dont really feel truly satisfied.
i cannot help it, sometimes it sucks but when i think about the future - my future - it's better to wait till the 21st.
if however, they drag it till 30th or if last minute they tell me that i am not eligible, im killing them - no way im going to wait that long.
ima screw the damn milions or billions or whatever...
*to those who dont know what im talking about - just forget i say this, haha

however, i must say too that Shen is really a nice guy.
i hope he really dont end up dumping me after like i dont know. haha
but that's it, if im getting dump for that 21st birthday event, i dont know what to say.
and whatever it is, im fine. im not placing hopes and fears on anything...
im a good girl and i know God looks after me even when im not holy. =))

well today, i spend my day quite well and quite happy.
to Shen, i had fun today =)) but u guys are pigs!!! uggghh
go get yourselves french maids so that you can like have fun while they are cleaning your hostel.
omg, i bet Shen's friends' women will run after me with knives! =0

oh this afternoon, belated birthday boy khalid msn me.
he said he wanted a massage. hahaha, i know dear boy, you love my massage.
it made you go oooohhh and aaahhhh rite? hahaha sure i will, come crash my school k.
it'd massage ur head and neck like i always did. my school got sofa and all. haha

then just when i was walking home.
the most sweetest ever, a dog humping a cat! haha okayy that's Shen talking! like wtf.
i cant believe he thought that was sweet and worst - romantic!
uggh. okayy. so back to what i saw.
this boy in his just turned teenhood, or not even close, was knocking on this window, calling someone.
so the window opened and then he climbed up the sill and he talked to the 'friend'; it appeared to be a girl. it reminded me of me when i was trying to get out of my window to sneak out and flirt with some cute neighbour, in the Philippines.
okayy. the main point is, it's sooo cute. so romantic. so childlike.
innocent and pure, it was i seem to not have now.
not that im already used or sexed - but i have a corrupted mind, so you cannot count me pure.
haha and certainly aint that innocent.

okayy. i want to turn in soon.
just waiting for mr. lost crush to come online.

okay. for the time being, do me a favour and do this.
it's for a very good cause, a research that is being conducted... [LINK]

updates.fireworks

so before i finally turn in, updates on today!

well i have to say, it was good =)
he proved to be a gentleman... hehe
omg, i cant stop 'hehe-ing' today... i dont know why.
anyhoo, i find that i am comfortable with him, even the most embarassing deeds.
e.g. tuesday's may day. gosh.
then again, i think he is really open and honest too.
e.g. he admitted to wanting to see me when he got out of his class =))

i am utterly surprise tho that he's good.
as in whatever... he's kind of different from others.
im still not sure if im giving the right opinion; time will tell it all
anyhoo, he knew i had the hots for him since like all through these days.
he said it was obvious! dang, lucky he didn't like brush me off or somethig.. hurhur

anyway, this is really nice to spend national day watching fireworks with someone good. =))
the FIREWORKS was AWESOME.
the view was totally good - oh i forgot to say; i brought him to the 'secret place'
and mr. crush.. i had a wonderful time and thanks for the compliment - and i promise, i wont bite, as long as i remember. =)

yawns.
i am tired i must say. and for some unsurprising reason, my bums hurt. uggh
i think it's getting firmer or something. haha
okay enough crap! im damn sleepy.
nites mr. crush...

out!

entertainment and personal

gosh. i woke up to reading news from the entertainment dept.
i was hoping to see emails that i can use to feature here, like from the previous entry of random topics.
i think it's too early, but that news about Britney's car accident [source] which is really not an accident.
i so want to see a REAL celebrity car accident here, and not some lame car scratches.
the wrost thing about her now, is that she didn't even seem so considerate enough to check on the 'victimized' car which is probably owned by normal, non-celebrity person.

then the one truly most disgusting news ever - she did the most retarded shit anyone a mother, like she so is, who is fighting for the custody(or is it over-so hard to keep in touch) of her two sons. [source]

this is so not the nice britney i grew up reading and listening to.
and then again, that may all be publicity.
so is this, but if she really want to have name for herself after her pop crashdown, she should stop doing this.
if i were to be her judge, she will get a lifetime rehab, till further notice and updates on ther improvements.
i know that's harsh, but then again, the judges that are handling these HUMANS (celebrity) just go soft on them and dont even give any harsher punishment, other than xx days in rehab.

well, let's not dwell in that.
i so hate britney now - that's one fan off your list missy, and with me i might take a few more!

okay, anyhoo.
i do hope to like go out with Mr. Crush today.
wanna judge his claim being a gentleman - he better be.
Oh and please people, i cannot reveal his name here until everything is ready!
and err i promise he has a sexy name.
now though, im waiting for him to wake up from his boozy sleep =)

in the mean time, im hungry...
*tummy grumbles* ciaos!

on reserved updates.

there may be possibility that jan is going into depression.
why?
because he's jealous i have Mr. Crush, whom he helped tremendously to fixed up with me, without my consent,
I REPEAT - without my consent.

okay that is not what i wanted to update on. So here it is;
The day turned out okay.
the fact that Mr. Crush did not turn up suddenly, during the time that i was having rudolph's (the reindeer) nose, was really a blessing.
i was close to rushing to the ladies' to touch up on my already-unfresh-sickly face when i smelled the rat.
jan was about to almost succeed in tricking me.
the whoreness! uggh

well, we ended up chatting over the msn.
it was not bad for the first time talking, it was cool.
found that he is an outgoing and open-minded person.
that's already a plus.
but anyhoo, i would so totally not want to place too fat a hope into this.
i mean it is still there in the crush zone.
it might crash half way through the flight.
but if he and i gets along rather well, i wont deny i can like him.
:D yayness for me! it's like a fresh new chapter in the love dept.

anyway, the trick Jan made seemed to happen like unexpectantly.
that frenwhore of mine has 'salty tongue'!
so like after chatting with mr. crush, he asked to meet, at least for a while.
then yeahs, lucky i lost the red nose within like an hour.
haha, so went to meet him for a while lah.

then after Jan's class we ate at the canteen.
i saw the two guys i saw in the library in the canteen.
of which one is so cute, he has dimples.
gosh... nice nice... im a sucker for dimples and nice eyes.
which explains my choice in Mr. Crush and the sudden attraction to this guy name Shah.

ya okay, im sucha whore.
First is Mr. Crush and then Shah, like wtf.
Jan was so pissed.
[recalling]
shah was eating diagonally behind me, so was stealing glances at him and all, like some girl do.
so happens after he finished, he was walking out of the canteen when we had eye contact, then he smiled.
his dimples are soo ugggh! *melts*
the funny part was that when we were busy smiling at each other, he slammed into his friend.
i almost laughed out loud. wahahaha

Anyway, so this friend of shah passed me a note, with his number and all.
so i decided to like give it a try.
test the waters... then *chechang* he was so cute over the phone too.

okay like enough.
im still crushing on mr. crush here.
hehe i was reasoning out to Jan that i am not attached with Mr. Crush so it is like okay to talk to Shah, right?
Nothing wrong.

so far, i have a plan to go out with Mr. Crush tmr.
i hope he really wakes up after boozing the night away.
if he is really reading this, i hope to see him... like whatever.
hehe

ciaos now.
muahs

reserved.

today's experience made me relive my past deeds.
i really feel that im being a nice and nasty person at the same time.

okays.

reserved updates.

laters...

crush madness

Im here in the library, waiting for jan to come down for his lunch break.

I cut class today.
I foresee myself not being at all productive.
For one, i was late for school on purpose.
I wasn't feeling well in the morning so decided to snooze.
Snooze for like 45 minutes before i manage to pull myself off my bed, throw off my clothes and into my bathrobe.
Jan himself woke up late, which i am not really surprised with.

Then later when i was outdoors to meet him, my was half blind.
The sun was too bright and too hurtful.
My eyes went teary and my flu got worst - apparently heat didn't make me feel better ='(

Nice Jan made us Cheese Cheesy Hot Dogs in Bread - 3 for me, 3 for him.
Awww isn't it such boyfriend material doing?
Jan, let's go on! provided you pledge yourself straight - eww haha
Anyway then he was so nice he brought along chocolate berries bar in RUM!!!
it was really nice, i don't know if it was me or it was the rum in it but it made me okay at least for a while.

Anyway, jan and his friends has just left as i type this sentence, we had some board games.
It was really retarded.
And i so love battle ship. I won Jan in the game.
Call it semi-cheating, i kinda use 'tactics'... hurhur

Im going home very soon after charging my laptop.
This is something good about RP; you can surf all you want, anytime, anywhere, it's free!
then again, i think im not going just yet...
•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com derailed says:
jean
i got amazing news
LIKE NOW
i meet u same place
wait for me



i bet he's like crawling here.
i wonder what his news is.
okay, let talk random things while waiting for the release of this 'amazing news'

random topic #1 - piercings.

so yesterday was checking my inbox and i found these...

If you think people who went for extreme make over only want to look beautiful, wait till you see these...






would you pierce this way?
ultimate yes? and totally meant to be ostracized.

random topic #2 - extreme make overs







random topic #3 - people who pays to be deform

this generation has gone mad, probably with the fact people pay to be deform and with obvious thinking that deformity is really cool. i dont ostracized people who are BORN deformed, but why spoil the beauty GOD has given? FOR THESE...







okay, random topic is over. soon will come as long as there are good materials in the inbox.

anyway, here is the 'NEWS' that jan was talking about.

one of his classmates is good friends with Mr. Crush.
Dang, im dead.
I guarantee before i even get to know him, he already knows about me. ugggh
then that would completely be a turn off - to me!

jan msn me saying all these...
i dont know if to be thankful or not... i feel like a dang school girl.
oh wait, i still am! haha. kae shit!!! haha

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com derailed says:
jean wait la
we got like 3 teams je
before 3.30 finish
thats like roughly an hour left
and ive scheduled lunch friday
so u owe me
he told shan redi

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
OK DONE
both of u
meeting for lunch
period

reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
ME AND HIM
ONLY???

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
friday
yup
(:

reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
ARE U LIKE NUTS?????

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
alredy settled

reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
WTF DID YOU ALL SAY

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
e say he dun want with ppl la

reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
?????

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
my fren say
ok i told my fren
reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
wtf???
huh?

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
"your fren and my fren have been flirting"
my fren say she dun like flirting, just straight to the point, have lunch together
then he said "no, he wont have group lunch"
"ill schedule lunch for them"

reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
JAN DO YOU REALIZE THAT IM ALONE IN THE LIBRARY AND UR MAKING GIVE RETARDED REACTIONS!!!!!

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for
starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
HAHAHAHA
ust trust me
it will go well
settled redi
u owe me
one gigantic
favor
better wear nice
on friday
and u better come!!!!

reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
NO WAIT
how can it be that im meeting him for lunch
"your fren and my fren have been flirting"
my fren say she dun like flirting, just straight to the point, have lunch together
then he said "no, he wont have group lunch"
"ill schedule lunch for them"

pleass explain this to me??

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
thats what i told him
reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
ur fren and my fren has been flirting?
haha
NO GROUP?

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
nope
only u two
reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
jan.. i duno if to thank you or kill you

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
(:
wear nice
reyna jean -- who doesnt love for someone to hold. says:
uggh

•···¤jªÑn¥¤···• eyeswillroll.blogspot.com looking for ACTORS/ACTRESSES for starhub/ripplevox "I AM HUB" competition. says:
ok he say he wants to meet u after sch


then he sent me more stuff but there was this part he was telling me Mr. Crush was like going to find me now and all.

I so want to kill THEM...
okay, chatting with him now.
toodles.

CRUSH MADNESS....