Video Updates

Alright, my voice was really gone here but nevertheless just to share the good times :)



This is at Daranak falls where we went to for a weekend trip during the 10 days holiday I had in Philippines. Will upload the videos taken at Intramorus in a few days, and perhaps during my Batam trip too. Suddenly love and appreciate YouTube. Hmmm

Okay anyway, today I just posted a video on my youtube channel my cousin, Michael's keyboarding stuff.
I'm amazed because he's didn't know how to play the keyboard before this. And in one day, he was able to start on Let It Be, and then Parting Times, followed by the wedding entrance song? Idk what is that called. But in any case, there's really beauty in music despite me not knowing it, I thank God i'm still able to appreciate it :)

Indeed, God gives people different talents accordingly :)

So now, Michael can play guitar (lead / base), basic drums, and now keyboard. Now it to get him to be exposed and sharpen this gift.




Cheers! :)

Major Updates

Welcome me back dear readers! :)

Wow, my 3 month hiatus was worth it. So many things to update, so many new things that happened! The only part I don't like is to recount the entire 3 months of my disappearance. And since so many thing has occurred, there bound to be tons of update and so this post will take a long time to type, and for you, to read. Therefore, I decided to do a summary instead! Covering only the major highlights of the events that has passed.

The last post was my sister, Ana's birthday party. So then the next event would be my birthday on the 23rd August 2011, where I held a "private" affair that ended up still being circulated in FB with pictures of the activity and the fun of it all. However, before I recount that, I have to go in order. So the next highlight would be the Philippines trip from Aug 11 to 21 :)

Aunt Rennie and Laura <3

Roy with hair, before his major make over. haha

So over the clouds and with some wonderful friends, off we travel towards my homeland, Philippines.

We took the most affordable airline, Tiger Airways, which I paid only at $150 (to and fro), where my friends paid a little bit more, with the maximum at $200+.

Then we landed at Diosdado Macapagal Airport (Clarke), Pampanga, Philippines.

The first food we had was Baliwag. Awesome chicken. Yum yum.

Then the day after, we rose early for church trip. We never really know that it would turn out so awesome.

We visited;

1. Antipolo Church

2. Sto. Domingo
3. Black Nazarene, Qiapo
4. The Cathedral in Intramuros

The place of Intramouros was were it was all educational and we really learned a lot. We rode a horse-carriage and the guide told us about the place pre, during and post war. We heard how the Chinese nationals were enslaved and mistreated by the Spanish coloniser. It was a sad story, but in the end everyone, both Filipino and Chinese nationals fought their way back to freedom. How beautiful, the story of courage and love for country.

Intramuros housed all the good schools, the historical sites and more. The Catholic Cathedral stood elegant and against all odds continue to be the central hope for the faith of all Filipinos.

We got back so late that night, and then after which we had a good time at night with everyone. We headed to Tip Top, a private area that has lost its people due to other of others that sprung up over the years in other places. Therefore, that night it was only my family that was there. We sung songs via the karaoke machines and then danced as to how we liked it. We enjoyed being alone in that private club because they'd never dance as we all did if there were other people around :)

The following days we spend was at Daranak and Batlag Waterfalls were we rough it out and we enjoyed the open sky. The tents and the wooden cottage failed us completely so all 20 (or so) of us roughed it out and slept in the open cottages, listening to the sound of the waterfalls. There were other groups there, and of course a horse that accompanied us through the night.

 

 

Yes, we all slept in this type of open cottage!

This weekend trip to Daranak / Batlag falls was because of the message that I had in my heart that Lola want us to commemorate her by. This time at Daranak is something emotional for me somehow as this was the last place we all convened as a family, gathered and had fun. We were complete at that time with her around. So the night itself at around 9++, the time she passed on, we all came together in one of the cottages and then offered up some nice words and prayers which I was asked to lead in. I thank God for the opportunity.

The following days we prepared for the upcoming solemn celebration of lola on 16th August 2011, to remember her death. We looked as it as her 1st year in heaven. We had a good round of praise and worship session, good talks and of course food and such during that day which I am privileged to lead in.

So the next few days we headed to Manila East resort at Taytay Rizal. After which, we got ready to head home. Got together for drinks and more drinks and then... the cigarettes were just soooo cheap we all had a fiesta of beer, ciggs and nice talkings.

We got back on Sunday morning with Lolo and the two cousins, Carissa and Michael. They will be here to study but because the intake hasn't started they're here on visit pass. We hope they can stay till like next year, but i doubt ICA will understand that despite being cousins, these two are like my siblings already. Well, anyway, we are all good :)

So far, i really believe that God provides, From Aug 21st till now, He continues to provides for my needs to provide for the new additions of family members at home. Also, as i prepare my finance to send my cousins to polytechnic here, He continues to give me opportunities and I'm glad that there will be changes in my job front :)

There's more to say and all, but this post will stop here. I'm excited to tell you all more about my special someone <3

Updates

It has been awhile since I posted an entry. I have been busy so much things these few days, and there are more to come when I think about it. It almost as always seem to feel that 7 days a week is never enough.

I've got so many things going on that I tend to question sometimes if I'm able to achieve the week's schedule. How will I catch up when I leave for Phil next month.

Anyway, back a bit. Just this week my sister turned 12 and we had a mini celebration (as it always end up becoming). I praise God for the way everything went. I actually made her a birthday card invitation that made its way to my design portfolio :)

This time I contribute a bit more, I took leave and did what I can to help out and provide. I'm happy with myself but I'm happier when she told me that she was really happy and enjoyed herself.




I got her a professionally-baked cake from one of my contacts. Got to know her from the PRE at my parish. It's really nice!!! Even dad who don't appreciate chocolate cake came for second round :)











The food is unquestionably awesome! Oh yes, I this year the special thing about her birthday is that she got herself good blessings the day before from Fr Ed as she requested to attend mass :)

I think it's beautiful, I hope to attend mass on my birthday this coming month too. However, I will be working on this day tho, but I'm going to throw a bash :)

I've to plan soon, looking for an alternative because apparently the SAF seaview chalets are fully booked and Chevys only have Sundays for bday function. I might need to find another alternative.

But in my current sched now it's a miracle I hardly find the time to even plan for the itenerary for Philly, esp granny's program, and then the beach getaway.

I get emotional lately.. Too emotional in fact, when I think of granny. She's really gone. Sigh.

*One day, I shall see you again. *

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Day out with the Siblings

It's almost a week since I had the chance to see my siblings. So here we are at Tampines Mall playground...




After watching an awesome funny show, Mr Popper's Penguins



It is awesome! Jim Carey is a great comedian, keeps all of us entertained and really hooked on the movie. He has such a candid personality that will keep you wondering what else to expect from him.

Glad Ana and Zak had a good time. It's time to get home now.

Toodles with love for now =)

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My First Ladies' Night since FOREVER

It was my very first 'ladies night' since forever. I usually CANNOT be bothered to go out on a weekday but today Marilyn and I went out for a dinner date with Marvin, one of our cell friend whom we have not seen for ages. He's been busy with work (and perhaps play), but we are glad he's able to join us for a bit of a chill-out.

I introduced them to Nabins @ Sultan Gate.

Source (Click Here)

We had a great talk about EVERYTHING. Teasing especially on the hot topic on interests of Marilyn :)

It's really nice to get to know church friends in the most secular way possible. Away from the holy zone of the church, we get to know just how we all are able to open about our thoughts and views.

It's a wonderful wake up call and something to learn from. Marvin was really insightful in what he shared with us. It has been great food for thought the whole night today. And it's 12.45am, but here i am typing away when i've to wake up at 7am, 6hours later.

Lately, I have been sleeping late. Since Monday that is, but it has been good overall.

On Monday, I enjoyed the Holy Hour with Dapheni, Ninik, Susana, Ranson, Alex and Tim. It is a form of prayer that we enjoy the presence of God in the exposure of the Blessed Sacrament held up by the monstrance.

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We prayed before the Blessed Sacrament with regards to our vocations. At least that is what I think Fr. Albert wanted us to do. This month's holy hour topic was with regards to life pursuits. So therefore, we examine what is it that we are indeed looking for. What are we called to do? Marriage or the life of the Religious. I discerned with regards to my job, and also of course my desire to serve, and how is the best way i should do it - with a man He chose to serve beside me or to chose the Great "I AM" who created man? 

We'll see in the months or years to come :)

Yesterday night, I attended mass for the Charismatic Prayer Community 9th Anniversary Mass. I was the lector for the reading yesterday. It was a beautiful experience to be there.

Tomorrow will be a long day for me as I am expecting a LONG LONG meeting at Church on PRE Evaluation & Committee meeting.

So anyway, i shall bid you all adieu for now. Have a great rest ahead! :)

My Busy Weekend

1. AEC div event 2011 on 1st July 2011





2. PRE June/ July 2011 - 30 Jun - 3 July 2011 batch




Children from the children corner for the 4 day event. My brother and sister are there too! :)




Zak and his new friend :)




My weekend this week has been a busy one and yet it was fulfilling. For the whole 4 days I was supporting the PRE in the powerhouse, praying at each sessions. I completed 6 full session, 3 partial session, 1 session I missed out cos I watched Transformers with Ignite!

Honestly, the constant prayers has been very enriching. I get a feel of what I will be doing in my years to come if I enter the convent or joined a form of sisterhood. For now, I'm discerning still :)

Haha let's see. It's not easy you know, but it was worth it looking at how successful the PRE has been and the people are really very awesome participants.

Next sat will be another PRE event I need to run, this time as chairperson. I will need tons of prayers as it is my first time holding a spiritual event!

So anyway, the AEC event was good, it was a good one and of course there are pointers to learn and take note of. I wish my AEC sales team best of luck in achieving their quota this quarter. This event is a definitive boost that they need for their sales achievement.

For now I got to go. Updates further in a bit. Good day!

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Discernment for Love

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It's not really a must to be with someone and to enter a relationship again. It's not mandatory for me to actually think of marriage, thus I'm not rushing into it. I just feel that marriage should really be kept as the 'one and only' phase of life. I always believe that there are that one made for each one, and that marriage will be what make it stronger. I can really see a huge difference now of how I see a relationship now than I see before. And as I see it, I understand why my past relationship that I thought would somehow, one way or another lead to the marriage, had to come to a halt. God is preparing me for something more, something He only know I will be needing.

Don't get me wrong, my ex-boyfriend, no matter how badly we ended, was a good friend, a good lover and a good husband to be, if so to say. However, there have been changes between us that occurred and thus it is where the incompatibility grew and thus the unhealthy defiling nature of human love emerges.The nature of our relationship, thinking back, actually proves to me that if it worked out till marriage, my relationship with God will not be established. And I was foolish because the relationship with God was the one thing that I should have known never to put second amongst other love. So I am thoroughly grateful how God allowed me to 'seek first the kingdom of God'.

Lately, my desire in finding the one is burning. But I'm putting it off, ignoring it, and dousing it with continuous establishment of keeping in mind healthy type of development of love, rather than seeking for the normal 'you like me, i like you, let's go on' kind of relationship. 

Serving in Church gives me the necessity to discern for the one. I've been practising discernment in guys since last year when I was dating Kenneth, my girl friend's guy friend. Where after discerning, God moves me to a 'NO' when I discern faithfully on Kenneth as it comes to the point of dating where I must decide whether to continue further or to stop seeing each other. So I listened to the 'whisper' I believe is God's, and later on in the months, understood why I was happy I ended it.

Then the next guy came, who had the marriage proposal which become the reason why we ended up being in a relationship. He is rich, son of a wealthy family, soft-spoken, spiritual, understanding, of age and we would have made it well, but after 4 months I had to empty myself of him because the discernment period gave me a feeble 'Yes'. So since that guy, I have not been seeing anyone.

I've a guy however, that God seems to be pointing to. BUT, yes a HUGE but is there. I don't think we're compatible. I have seek a extraordinary signs and each time I ask, it's a YES. So now I've stopped asking because I don't want to put Him in a test. Cos even if He points to him, I just don't know how it will all start, begin or even go forth. (Laughs)

I've taken a vow and have promised with my cell members as witnesses that I'm not going into a relationship without the thought of marriage. This is to avoid pre-marital relations, unhealthy mind-set and possession. I kinda, sorta know what I want but I guess it also seems still a bit too young for me that I want to look for a man to marry. Nevertheless, I guess I'd like to see my desires, and to discern for my vocation - if I want to consecrate myself to God or to marriage. I don't think it will be healthy for me to enter Blessed Singlehood as a lay person, so it's either I join the religious or to enter into marriage.

Oh well, I know within the months, I will have my answer. I'm excited actually!

What a Day!

It was and have been a challenging week for me. Today, was far challenging than the other days before. It's due too the reason of handling three marketing job functions at a time where I switched between sales, marketing and events coordination within 8 hours of work.

I am feeling the burn. And I am indeed discerning if I should let go of the sales function.
It's not yet time for me to give up I know, but for some reason, whatever I choose to do, it's not what you call giving up. It's making way for rest, better prospects and continuous growth.

I don't want to be tired while at church, and I don't want to be taken advantage of with little pay. Perhaps, I've yet to see the response of the sales function on me. One thing I found out is that I do well in selling our services - trainings specifically. So perhaps, I should stay at that but then again, let us see what God says.

Have a great day ahead!

The End of YISS

YISS is the Life in the Spirit Seminar for the Youth, held by St. Mary's of the Angels at Bukit Batok for 8 weeks. It has become a norm travelling from the East to the West for this commitment to learn and be transformed in Christ.

Today was the last week of the YISS, and it talks about the transformation to Christ. What exactly does that mean? No, it doesn't mean that we are made to God, be God and to command as God. The eight-week experience created new ways for us to affirm one another that we are going through the same type of battle in our daily life as a young adult. We employ the chrisms that we possessed and use it. Not to gain power or be prideful, but to be a living testimony of the power of God.

It creates for us the beneficial platform to be certain that there are people like us who loves God and in complete humility, we seek to create for Him glory from the works of our hands rather than to create it for our own use of fame, popularity or ego.

There have been many friends made, fostered connection and renewal of commitment with one another. I got to experience love from the brothers and sisters in Christ who, just like me, seek to fulfil God's love through the relationships we foster with each other. I begin to know in-depth people whom I thought I'd never get to do so. I also get feelings that allows me to discern the need for companionship, countability partners and of course, perhaps, friendships that last to the very end.

In the YISS at St. Mary of the Angels church, I thorough enjoyed the exposure of the Blessed Sacrament, the divine body of Christ at the Adoration placed in the Church. I couldn't stop asking why can't Holy Trinity have an adoration, even though I already know the answer.

(What is an adoration room? It is a place of worship, meditation, and acknowledgement of God's presence. Perhaps it is the room where in layman's term, you "make known your love" to God in the form of adoring the exposed Blessed Sacrament.)

Tomorrow we are having another activity as a youth community - the Tridentine Mass or a traditional mass that uses Latin and each prayers are sung.

I bet it's the unwillingness to bid adieu to the connection made with the Emmaus who organized the YISS. Hehe so be it, I guess :)

Honestly, I can't wait to attend and be a part of the congregation being it a day of Corpus Christi. It's another special day for us Catholics.

Much love to you readers. Mwahs!

God wants you just as you are

We are all sinners.
No one perfect, no one flawless.

No one is good but God.

Not even Jesus, God in Flesh, proclaimed of His goodness because as human, He is limited.

Nevertheless, Jesus Christ did His best to reside as a mere human, yet of course, able to perform miracles and show His divinity. But with complete reliance on The Father.

I was reading the bible earlier and I found a writing by St. Paul to the people of Corinth, 1 Corinthians 7:20

"Each of you should remain as you were when you accepted God's call."

God calls whoever, whenever and whichever state of your life you are in.

Jesus Christ accepts you just as you are, be in fellowship with Him just as how He has called you.

Many of us think that God will not accept us when we have put so much filth in our heart, mind, body and soul. However, we should always remember not to belittle the 'living water' that has enough power and strength to clean us. That we don't need to change ourselves on our own, but by the grace of God we are changed, and the things we use to not be able to say no to, we are able to do so in the name of Jesus.

"In the name of Jesus, we got the victory."

Remember that brothers and sisters.

We are victorious when we call upon Him. As He calls upon you then, fear not. Don't think you're inadequate, young, too old, too incorrigible, circumcised or uncircumcised, it matters not.

For when He calls you, He already paved the way for you. Be glad and rejoice.

The only catch? Be open to the works of the Holy Spirit. He will guide you to your calling. Have a good night.

Amen.

Transformation in Christ

There have been many changes in my life which I give complete credit to Christ. No matter how different, how difficult and how little by little the changes is made obvious to many, I know that the Lord has been preparing me for years, for this. And I'm utterly grateful, that despite everything that has occurred in my life, I stay in His midst. Despite all my iniquities, I am welcomed, blessed and given the grace to be made worthy to serve Him.


So far, the learning points of my life still make up the wounds that are seemingly still fresh. That no matter how much I try to assure myself how strong I am, I falter at near proximity of sin.


I fall at near proximity of recounting and recalling the things I've done, and the things that I've failed to do in the past. For my grandmother, for the rest of my family, for my relationships, and friendships. I do my best to secure a place of serenity by keeping busy. 


But it's when I enter the Holy Day that I recount all my failures in trying to establish good relationships. I learn from my past to ensure I don't put down my armour, that I don't trade my views, my faith, my family for anyone. Yes, suffer but be happy and gracious to take on suffering, just as Christ did.


We humans are not God, neither can we even try our best to be. For no matter how good we are, we are never even going to be close to Him until we realize that love is what will keep Our Father who art in Heaven assured that we are worthy to be His Children.


Christ came to summarize the 10 Commandments to 2 set of powerful (and very difficult) commandment to sum up the latter:

 ³⁷ Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’^[a] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. ³⁹ And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’^[b] 40 All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

To love one another doesn't just proceed from superficial actions, words, deeds. For God sees what's in the heart. Even though we say good words to our brothers and sisters, we sin too when we don't love them from our hearts. Sure, there are difficult people we encounter, however the judging is done by Christ, and not us.

I lead the view, "Bless those who blesses you, and pray for those who curses you". It's a difficult and bitter medicine to take in. If there is one thing I don't think I can ever remove from me, it's the need to complain, whether or not I mean it by heart. Most of the time, I just need to share my complaints to someone, to make someone understand why I'm feeling like this, and to make sense why exactly do I feel as such.

The love of Christ is exercise the more I accept insults, curses, blames and criticism, graciously. However, being a normal human being, it's VERY VERY VERY difficult. Only through His Grace are we able to reflect the lives of the Saints, we Catholics honour and hopes to live by. But the moment He lets you be showered with Fortitude, you will be taken aback. Yes, you will instinctively react according to your human nature, however it's His Grace that will enable you to fight against your own human nature.

It takes a lot for me to call unto Him straight before going for the KILL.

Nevertheless, whatever happens, it's not the perfection we have that glorifies Him. It's the constant tries and number of ways and means we try to get up from our fall. For we are made in sin and so in sin do we live by. But in Christ, we denounce sin. And as we denounce sin every moment of our time, we acknowledge that we are weak on our own, yet always and forever strong in Christ.

Continue to get up after each fall. Keep away from where you feel you will sin. Always choose Him above all else and you will realize that whatever and wherever He leads you, it's the right path... the ONLY path to real happiness.

Have a wonderful time ahead! God Bless!

New Purchases!

Yesterday evening I got my cheque, went to the bank and cash it out. The pay raise that ought to be enjoying had to be deducted due to lateness.. Yet again.

{I never understood that late fee policy. I mean I always finish work on time, and I do OT to make sure that I finished it}

Nevertheless, I know it's time to make an investment :)

I got myself a new laptop, and bought some pans for mum. Haha

{Initially she thought that I bought her toilet scrubs to clean our toilets! LOL}




Altogether, I got myself a decent i5 processor, 4GB RAM, 500GB disk space, 1GB NVIDIA graphic card, MS Office Home n Student for 3users, and Norton Anti Virus one year retail license :-)

{Oh yes, hurry down now to your nearest IT vendor and buy a 3-user MS Office Home n Student for only $199 and get a $20 cash back from Microsoft.

Oh please remember that MS Home n Student only has Words, Excel, PowerPoint and OneNote.}

So far, my new laptop is at minimal usage. I've not signed up for a wireless network. I will be doing so, soon once I make up my mind which provider should I settle with.

{Starhub lost. Not going to sign up from them. Most prob going to do so with Singtel or M1}

Anw I got to go for now =)

Parish Renewal Experience

What: A 4-day retreat that gives participants a good avenue towards reconciliation. A place where they can be welcomed in the community, to feel God's love not just in the direct relationship with Him (vertical spiritual relationship) but also to promote the relationship with Him through His Body, the church with their fellow brothers and sisters in Christ (horizontal spiritual relationship). This is where one door opens to many more within it.

When: It happens 4 times a year, and it will take place again from 30th June to 2nd July 2011.

Where: Holy Trinity Church @ Tampines, Singapore

Who: For all Roman Catholics who are 18 years old and above. If you are a baptized Catholic*, we hope that you are at least 3 years in the faith*.

* It is necessary so as to not put the non-Catholics, though are Christians, questioning and being unfamiliar with our ways, might not fully understand the context of our subjects. Remember that there are many other programs that are open to all denominations and even, all other religions.

Why: Because God has chosen, and He is calling you to a renewal.

How: See us at our booth in church every weekends during the mass timings :)

Ok I'm excited for this upcoming PRE. It will be beautiful once again! This will be my second PRE serving under the committee as one of the spiritual coordinator, and in publicity team as well. I have felt how this PRE made an impact in my life. It was and will always be beautiful to me and many others who attended this.

This July, I will be chairman for a spiritual event. Pray for me and wish me the best, so as to give the right type of spiritual event for the past participants of the PRE Family :)

Thanks in advance, readers. Mwahs

Catching up and being a sister

On Monday - 23rd May 2011 @ Pastamania, Tampines




Been awhile since I met with this aspect of my Diamond.

She's all grown up and away from me, with a good loving boyfriend and making her own decisions.

{Lol, I sound like some mother}

But I guess I do because I care a lot for my sisters. I consider her a sister because she's one of them who saw me.. For me.

Amidst the strengths, she saw my weaknesses. Amidst the weaknesses, she admires my strengths. Amidst the crazy, wild child a phase of my life I was, she saw me holy and spiritual. And amidst whatever horrid things I can do, she knows I have a clean heart.

So it's vital that she must be one included in the list of 'protected' (family) member because of her love for me.

No matter how long we have parted, we both understood that through it all, were still there. And so to prove I am there for me, I am going to help her :)

I'm going to be around when she needs me because her life shouldn't be empty of a person that actually understands her, knows her for herself, doesn't agree to her all the time and one who ensures that she sees two part in any aspects of her life.

It goes the same to my best friend and sisters; they know who they are ;)

And of course it goes the same for my sister, my mother's daughter.




The best way I can at least try, or we can try as sisters to our younger sister is to be ourselves.

To show the right thing, the way things go in life as we have seen, and most important of all, to ensure that they see us as a role model not just for our school achievements, good habits, strengths and goodness, but we must emphasize spirituality.

It's not easy with my sister, but I know I have a huge influence on her.

With much love, I wish to lead my 'sheeps' to the right path.

<3

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Beloved Grandma ( A letter as if from an Insane grand-daughter ;))

Dear Lola,


Today you would have celebrated your 72nd Birthday with us but I guess the Lord wanted you to have a grander celebration up there :)

Usually, you will hear from me calling you from Singapore but I guess I've to 'screen' louder while singing you the birthday song.

I miss you greatly. You should visit me in my dreams soon, because I miss you. As we both agreed when you were here, don't appear to me bluntly because I'm afraid to see ghost, you should know.

Thank you for being with me last night at the prayer meeting, I swear your smell never changed. You smell great as always :)

I love you and I can't wait to see you again soon.

Much love,
Your beloved apo :)



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Unconditional Love

Isaac - God's Laughter.

My beloved, my dear brother.



This is love in it's purest form. The best unconditional love I've ever felt is this daily event when I'm not expected to give anything, yet I give him my love.

Because thru this unconditional love, I show my love to Him. Him who created me to be who I am from birth. Him who never and will never and shall never let me go.

Him who believes my love and faithfulness.

This is the week of change. Everything I ask He gives and He is ever faithful and ever sure of His love for me.

Seek first the Kingdom of God and all will be given unto you. So therefore seek His love above all things and people of this earth. Never exchange the norms of this life and trade the values of your morality for temporary happiness.

Love one another as He has loved you. Despite the difficulty in life, He delivers me that even a scratch I don't get, that wounds I've incurred didn't turn to scars but has healed.

So love Him first above all. For only then you'll know your worth and what He has reserved for you.

Amen.

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Breaking the right way

There's never the right time, way nor motivation to end a relationship. Period.

Whether or not it's the right way, time, motivation, but a break is eminent when both couple won't and can't compromise mutually. Yes, there's major attraction, euphoria of love and desire, but building bonds to marriage consists more than that. Compromise becomes the key role into creating a solid base of foundation in a serious relationship. Of course, that's not all there is.

Compromise extends to more meaning than just its surface.

Also, it's curious to think that there might not be anything to break in the first place if a couple has not enough commonalities nor base foundation on each other, because a relationship doesn't really mean label, it's the connection or the bond that binds the couple to be in a relationship. It's the public acknowledgement of that 'label' by the couple that grants them to be an official item in the eyes of family, friends, and others. So without the bond in the first place, logically speaking there's no relationship shared between the couple that ties either one to each other strong enough for either one to feel bad if either one sees other people.

Verbal break up in this context just becomes what people do the 'it's over' lines followed by explanations, as form of formalization.

{Ok I hope you're not lost}

I'm trying to explain that I am on the verge of not continuing the relationship with my boyfriend. And it took me this long to realize that no marriage proposal, thoughts or aim mutually discussed will ever be more important that His Voice in my heart telling me to let this one pass.

For divine reasons, I'm in the final stage of discernment with regards to my current beau. Despite how wonderful, how awesome, how solid and stable he is and has on my future, I guess I'm going to have to let this fall through.

I have the courage to do this despite my inclination to him because this time I know I'm breaking up with him the right way.

As I end this, I want to share one of my favorite quotes from the bible I so loved since young;

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33

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Woman of God

Plans for a writing portal is starting soon, and I'm ecstatic! It's going to be a marvelous theme and I've got perfect writers on alert when it kickstarts.

I can't wait, but patience is a virtue.

The website should be coming soon, I just need to book 'The Webmaster' to aid me in the site. I hardly have the time proper to set up my own site, plus it's been awhile (since I did my own site).

I can edit and alter a site dramatically given my time now but not create it from nothing.

It will be beautiful. I'm excited! Ahhh!

Ok well diverting from the madness, I am pretty mad myself too. I'm dying missing my siblings, but I'm getting the rest and good time alone I need that my family is away to Malaysia till Tuesday.

So at least I've time to formulate ideas and be exciting about something.

Work starts again tomorrow but I bet it'll feel like a Friday so oh well. At least in done with corporate item designs that Management has been chasing me for.

My life is beautiful, I can't really complain. And I thank God for it, how He freed me from the things that I thought was essential part of life and love.

I feel free and free enough to not be tied down to anything. I can demand what I need and want without having the worry to be judged and be shunned away due to lack of understanding.

Ok I'm rambling, I'm sleepy and I need to go now.

{I miss you, honey. I hope to see you soon}





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Mispronounciation

This happened last weekend while I was home baby sitting. Btw this is my dearest and beloved brother. Oh how I love him.




So the ice cream man rang the bell downstairs as he hope to ignite craving of the children and adults alike for his wares.

Knowing my siblings will want to have ice cream that night I ready myself that they will request. True enough Zak did saying, "I want ice cream" and when asked to define the flavor he wants, we (Ana and I) bursts out laughing...

Zak: I want NIPPLE

*Laughs madly* Zak looked at us in wonder. So I continued in hopes to get his pronunciation right.

Me: Zak, say RIPPLES

Zak: NIPPLES

*Continues till he got fed up of repeating*

Cute kid :)) But a messy eater *.*




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Grandmother dear

There's someone I truly missed
One I hold in my heart so dear
It hurts still when I think about it
That she has gone far away

I wish I could have been there
Said goodbye to all things for her
But I never did
And so now it's due too late

I never thought she'd leave so soon
I thought she'd be with grandpa to walk me down the aisle
Yet as I see it will only be grandpa
For she has gone only to watch me from up above

When I see little children holding hands of their grandmum
I reminisce about her
I wish I could turn back time
But I sure know I can't

The only thing left to do is continue to love her
And through that love I will do her proud
Apart from the Lord, she's the source of my motivation
She's the only mother's love I could truly adore

Happy Birthday & Mother's Month Mrs Elvira Hovita Bautista.

Forever I love you, and I wait only to see you once again.

Because of you and the Lord, I don't fear death. I can take it anytime just to see you once again. But alas, I've work here left to do.





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