crazy days

well, it gets very frustrating when you and your loved one had nothing but misunderstandings for quite a stretch of days.

but it all pays off when you realize how much you love each other, over and over yet again.
despite the many disagreements or quarells, affection and love conquers and create a certain standard to be fulfilled.

it really is hard to comprehend love.
and yet, we love to meddle with it.
we fall in love like we really love the whole entire package it brings.
i mean c'mon, it takes strength to ensure you get through the horrible things relationship make us go through.
if you think life's a bitch, love is meaner.
only, its rewards doubles that of what life can bring.

i always preached last time that couples should be strong and go through the hardships together.
however, when the time was ripe for me to experience such things myself, i realize that relationships ain't no easy business.
it takes a lot of patience, understanding, open-mindedness, compromises, belief, trust and most importantly the reciprocal nature of what love should be based on.
i always believe that it isn't right when love is one-sided.
i mean yeah, it can happen, but that's not what love is supposed to be.
and i guess i still believe it.

i met shenath and i'm still with him, and if u follow till the end of this post, you'll be led to the number of days we have been together.
despite it being just a year and a few months, it really is a big deal.
remember, it's not the quantity that matters, it's the quality.
however, sometimes, quantity matters when gauging how far you can last the season.
whether or not your stocks of food for winter will run low too early or will it be sufficient.

he's my first real serious steady boyfriend.
ooh and pls, ive seen enough jerks and of course good guys turned mediocre and lacking of standards as time passes on, to be able to gauge where my REAL SERIOUS STEADY bf stands.
and if GOD wills it, i'll marry him and we'll have the dreams and goals we have set for ourselves :)

going back to the said frustration that i have felt earlier, no doubt he might have felt it too. yet, i'm sure it wore off starting monday when we went crazy and nuts with games.
so on monday, it was still quite tensed but a trip to downtown managed to subdue it.
we went to my cafe to get my pay, but weiling wasn't around still.
met jeremy whilst heading down a storey off to another venue.
so it all started at jeremy's workplace, skatesports, when we went nuts playing skateboards, skooters, and essboards.
like gawd... we were like kids with new toys.
it was real fun, i had real fun that night :)

no pictures for show because of the loss of my cybershot

nurul joined us in awhile and then started playing with the equipments too.
so upon getting my pay and j closing shop, we headed down to drive 6 central coffeeshop.
where the boys had baron and the girls had teh peng kahtai :)
twas fun laughing the night till late, where me and nurul kept a constant squirmy view on the gay talks shenath and jeremy were having.
if i wasn't going on with shenath and jeremy didn't go on with lyn before, i would have thought that they are real hardcore gays.
hahaha no offence, i've nothing against gays, in fact, i find them fun =D

i used to have a gay bestfriend? so yeah. 'used to' because he decided to distance himself when shen and i got together in a serious knot

The night ended with a nice sweet warmth of the activities, as we end our day on monday. so nice feeling of finally being soo cool with shenath.
no tense, no worries. period.

then yesterday, tuesday, nearing the end of the day, i got pissed with shenath for altering plans. then finally got over it somehow, despite the fact that i make it sound that i wasn't happy about the whole alteration.
eventually, the initial plan and the altered plan got merged!
wasn't it great?? hehe so nice and happy.
ooh yeah, finally i have a new hp and number replacement for the hp loss.
i guess i wouldn't be using my previous number, 9****784, already.
can't afford having to keep paying for it monthly. and i know i'll blow it off in the end.
so what's the use? im going to try and stick to prepaid cards as long as i finish off my hp bill debts and also, as long as it take me to grow responsible for my own bills and belongings.

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well, today had dinner with shenath and we had a nice little chats about lots of little things. and im sure we'll establish a better relationship and togetherness more than this.

also, i guess we'll learn how to ensure each other's happiness more with all the past misunderstandings we have 'fulfilled'

finally, to end my post, i would like to share with you all the new sitcom on show on channel5 at 10pm every wednesday - CASHMERE MAFIA

It's almost like Sex and the City with a little bit twist here and there.

and lucy liu is one of the main stars and to those feminist who believes in the capability of their womanhood. it shows how women balance a lot of areas of their lives and still achieve something that fulfills them. no one says women are ALL-THAT, cos we are after all, just human beings. so watch this sitcom for some adult humor and seemingly nice storyline. 

Season 1 Episode 1 is tomorrow airing in Channel5 at 10pm.

Here are some Sneak Peaks -

well, for better view, just watch and be surprised, turned off, excited, and whatever, with me. nites!!!

God, thank you for today.