PICTURES

Okay last tuesday, i went to live and loaded with nurul and her classmates.
and here are the pictures -

but first, doesnt this lead singer look like shenath!???! haha





okay well a little right.. hmms
well here are the rest!
































i lay on the bed, not knowing if sleep will befall.
and as i enter slumber, i realise that until now, i care for you ever so much.
that i will always want you in my life.
despite whatever may and has come, i'll always be here for you..


love you lots darling... mwahs.

so tired

im very tired.
after three days of coaching hakim and aisha rollerblade, and currently after working 7hours in one of the busiest times at the cafe, i feel really shagged!
well, im still quite dedicated to blogging somehow despite the drop in my readership, due to the neglect here and there, and so here i am, yours truly, despite being so damn tired,
i stayed back at work to blog and of course surf for a bit.
shenath, beside me reading the newspaper is keeping me updated with the news on the newpaper.
such a nice bf picking up a very tired gf from work.
well, he has been really nice but a little bit cranky nowadays (hehe).
he has been really supportive of my coaching trial. phew! it went cool.
and my clients are really satisfied.
to you readers who don't know, i started rollerblade coach - basic techniques.
and my very first clients/students, aisha and hakim, have really improved.
im really glad that i helped them, for a little price.
aida, their mum, complained to me how expensive it is to have them coached outside, so well being a nice and good person, hehe.. i offered them a small sum.

and good thing they are learning well :)
i think lesson resumes next thurs.
so far, im just awaiting new clients refered to me by aida and currently, aunt jacky.
lets see how far my coaching career lasts for :)
so anyway, coaching seems really good, hmms lets see lets see...
for now, i hope tutoring happens. i have to give sister pamphlets.
first i have to make one. hmms

im doing all this things cos
I WANT TO EARN MONEY!

AND AT LEAST TRY TO SAVE!!!!!!
HAHAHAHA

i gtg now....
feeling bit excited.. hmmmmmmmms

Been quite awhile

Honestly, i feel really detached from the internet access much more now than i ever had.
Also, there are quite a lot of pictures that i have to upload and get my hands on to.
In this post, i hope to actually put the HIGHLIGHTS pictures - from March 7 until quite recently :)

Well, so far, March has been full of fun smiles and of course, the irritating shortcomings of life...
Nevertheless, i am really grateful that i have overcome such events and has looked at the brighter sides of things.
This year, i really realize how to count blessings that i have rather than look for more things in life that is quite out of grasps.
But of course, i never dare stop hoping and dreaming for the perceived better standards of a luxurious life.. hehe
And i never tire of thing of schemes on how to better my lifestyle - financially and personally.
However, somethings need pursue but there are things that are meant to be let alone and ignored to be left to nature.

I guess i have learned so far that i have good things around me - family, boyfriend, job, education, clients - all that helps me to realize my potential.
Of course, not all the time it's good weather, i guess the rain can really help to feed a dry land... and sometimes the hardship make you realize who are there for you and who you can count on.
More often than not, it is in GOD and/or faith that you can seek salvation from, and it is in you to make the choice to take the hands extended towards you.
I'm not all saint and angelic per se but i am working on being a good and changed person.

Starting from my individualism to the exterior part of how i want others to see me.
I wouldn't dare erase how others saw me before... and how people see me now.
Nevertheless, i couldn't really care less because people see what they want to see, so the best advice i can tell myself is to just be true to what i believe and always be responsible to whatever my actions.

Okay, i think i should shut up now. Too much deep emotional words going on..
Here are the pictures/videos:

March 7, 2009
Snehath and Javon's Combined Bday Celebration - 30th and 1st Birthday respectively :)
Snehath is btw Shenath's older British-born-SriLankan&Britain-citizen-Singapore-resident-BROTHER. Confusing right? Well imagine how much he goes through whenever he travels. LOL

Cute Javon chasing after balloons


and then he got tired...


Ana came along too - hell she had fun. haha


had fun with these kids.


and here's US


March 11, 2009
Went with mum and zak for lunch and a bit of bonding.
Twas when Shenath and i were having glitches here and there. Haha and pls ignore the date printed on the pics. haha it's wrong.

my dear bro...


Here's me and him.


Here's mum and him.




Then the same night, i went for ladies' night with Laura and Ana (short for Farhana)

Laura shuts eyes! haha


a better pic..




CANDID


ANG MOH LAURA


GF since bumble bees was still hot :) haha


Then i went home in the last bus. was damn pissed actually, smoked the way to the bus stop. and i didn't feel much of the cigg impact cos of my irritation. but then again, everything went good after that... shenath and i fixed things at the multi purpose hall that midnight :) its just another passing rain.

March 12, 2009

Then went out with Darshy..
Went to IT show and Burberry sales at Suntec.
Then headed to Sakura for lunch.

Buddies...


Us


Me and Darshy


His virgin taste of Tum Yum Soup. haha


CANDID fixed of Shenath


then we went to Masquerade to check out costumes. for what? Halloween this year. LOL still long right? its' Darshy's idea.




minnie darshy


this is a very nice exterior decor!
SPOTTED AT HAJJI LANE


We settled to relax at The Coffee Nations in Bali Lane

Shenath had his first Hoegarden. next aim is Honeydew beer


I had Simply Chocolate and Kiwi Strawberry snapple


Darshy had avocado ice cream


Us


Bf like this pic... Hmmm


i like this pic. so childly


then on Friday the 13th, March 2009
went out with the Queens. yee finally.
but it's minus hajar... she's out of the country.. in wuhan, china.

love my honeys


esp the SHORT ONE. hahahahahahha


the ladder in BDQ


one thing never change - we'll always be vain camwhores who likes toilet picture taking.


thanks to Korean or Jap lady tourist.


thanks to the Cathedral's gates.


This place houses the best furniture arts ever....


KECIK!!!


hmmm


finally me.


on the same day.. after work.. shenath brought along manesh, his friend who was in transit from australia to sri lanka



buddies


new friends


dunno which date this was


okay finally live and loaded pics coming up next time i log in.
the cafe is closing!!! ciaos

just my day..

 

a picture i edited in photoshop the moment i woke

i realised that hey, she'll be gone for quite awhile, perhaps even after

hidayah's birthday - so passing her something nice to remind her of me.

today

i went to lunch with shenath, had beef fried rice, while he had a HUGE plate of seafood fried rice. you should see the amount he ate today.

we were supposed to meet darshy to a costume shop in bugis, but he said he wasn't fit today.

anyway, i had to go to jar's house to visit her before she fly off tomorrow morning.

we stayed at jar's place till around 430pm, then shenath and i went home separately.

took 31 to tampines interchange, went to century square.

Zimple was having sales - $15 for a top, $25 for a dress - storewide!

Then dropped by DMK cos got attracted to this turquoise 2.5inch heels - $29.90

I think i can afford it this wednesday! HAHA i think i'm getting it.

but the sales lady said that she have to transfer the heels from raffles exchange cos they only have brown heels of my size.

That will take 3-4 days. so i guess i have enough time to calculate my money!

Next stop i thought i wanted to head down to IKEA tampines, but got tired window shopping, so decided to go home.

At the MRT concourse level, somebody loudly said "MARY JEAN!!! HELLO" haha

turned out it was Yaqien! one of my partners in crime against my sec 3&4 english teacher, who ended up becoming one of our favourite teachers.

It really funny. yesterday i just saw Kenny and Adrian at Ehub! haha

So anyway, yaqien is in TP now and doing INTERIOR DESIGNING! i told him i like some aspect of it and he told me that the term for my interest is DECOR somewhat.

Well, now at the cafe surfing and filling up a table at the empty cafe after i got up from my nap. I have to go for now.

Anyway, zaf (queen of vanishing) contacted me and asked if we(class girls) would go for a movie - confessions of a shopalic. hope weiling can give me my money on wednesday. hehe!

I got to go! ciaos.

Been a long time;

Been a long time since i had a real connection at home.
Been a long time since i hung out with my girlfriends.
Been a long time since i went out shopping alone.
Been a long time since i went out shopping not alone;
In fact, its been long since i actually went shopping for real.

Been a long time since i studied.
Been a long time since i read a vampire novel.
Been a long time since i went to the library alone.
Been a long time since i went to the library not alone;
In fact, it's been long since i actually went to just chill at the library.

But it was said to always count your blessing and not the shortcomings of life -
so here are some of what i have been doing lately....

Recently, i have watched movies;
1. Valkaryie
2.  Underworld Rise of the Lycans
3. Marley and me
Recently, i have taken my sister out for lunch;
Recently, i have had plans to go for lady's night;
which ended up not the way i thought it would - it was damn good!
Recently, i went to Merchant Court for buffet dinner;
it was papa and cousin's birthday.
Recently, i went to yello jello retrobar with MY FAMILY;
i saw how a 1 year old kid enjoyed a nightlife experience,
and how a 9 year old girl saw what drunk girls looked like,
also, i felt what it felt like to have a beer in the presence of my parents.
Recently, i attended a party that got me lost in translation;
i saw how NUS Sri Lankan students party the night away with their hit songs.
and i had fun despite the language barrier;
I just danced the way i always do, and hey! it was really fun :)
Recently, i have not talked on the phone with anyone but my boyfriend.
Recently, i have only spent ONE DAY of quality time with my boyfriend;
this was due to his work, and my work.
Recently, i realised that there are quite a few people i know who are leaving;
1. Uncle Chef
2. My supervisor, Fen
3. The arts and crafts stall aunty
4. Siti Hajar Bte Abu
Recently, i have taken a vague interest in interior designing;
and i found out how in love i am with ikea.

Well, that will be all for now.
Update in other times when i am more free, or when i have vague chances of using boss' laptop.
Till then, ciaos!

hello!

im working...
supposedly, im to attend to guest and get their food orders and whatsoever their needs be.
im pretty much doing the literal part of my job position.
well, im a WAIT-ress or a WAIT staff.
and so, that's what im really doing... IM WAITING. lol
im at the Tree Cafe in Xplorerkids in Ehub! now.
so bored really...
and thank GOD Fred came to my rescue and lend me his friend's laptop! phew.

nothing much happening really.
tomorrow im working at flower boutique - doing freelance for Amy.
well, i find that she's a good person, and great thing that whenever she needs more help in the shop she calls on my aid first. well, cos i need money also right, so thank GOD she at least hire me first :)
then finally, shenath and i will have some nice spending time together -- i hope it wouldnt be messed up.
sucks when preplanned days really don't happen as what we hope for.
but so far, UNDERWORLD 2 at THE CATHAY. Been long since we watched a movie really.

currently me loving Halo by Beyonce -- Click Here To Listen
i got to go for now i guess. going to clock out at 4pm :) updates soon! hopefully with pictures.

here's to updates!

I'm currently sitting at Teasire (cafe i work at at Ehub!) and im browsing facebook for some pictures that i might have missed seeing or which are worth it to be posted in this blog.So far of the late, i haven't been able to upload any pictures due to the inavailability of wireless connection at home.
tried getting access through an open connection, eventually my laptop almost crashed on me, so i had to make sure that i quarantine it.
well, my laptop is due to see the doctor and get confined in the 'hospital' due to the hardware AND software problems.
thank GOD dear lappy managed to hang on till the end of the two semesters.
sooo soon but indefinite, i will be sending it to Acer... which mean i have to make a painstaking journey to JURONG EAST :(

Before i forget; BELATED HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY :)
Well, Shenath and i didn't make any major plan to celebrate the day, which honestly, i wasn't actually expecting anything because both of us were freaking dry in the finance dept of the late! it's soo vexing when i am hoping to commit working 'full time', but still i havent manage to land on any job :( *sobs*
Call me picky but i think weekend jobs in FNB is enough for me.
i was looking into admin assistant, retail staff or even shop assistant for the weekdays but nada! NONE! :(

and not to mention, i think Szeling is cutting me off the job offer Angie gave me due to the last event i assisted in. it was a disaster because i have school! well i do admit i shouldn't have made commitments with Patterns knowing that i have school still, but i needed the money. Then again, if she really do not want me anymore, i can't bloody hell beg her right.
Sigh. but anyway, it's okay, i guess i have nothing to hope for from the company anymore.
but i did work for them good naturedly and despite it all, never once had i actually blantantly thought bad of her like the rest of her staff.
So anyway, tomorrow i hope i will at least get hired in a retail shop in THE CENTRAL.
I submitted my resume and they have arranged for an interview, so i guess i was shortlisted. They are the only company that got back to my emailing of resume. Well, i guess despite actually not liking sales, i have to learn to excel in something i'm good at.
Well, im good in sales but i hate selling! haha. i guess i have more to learn about acceptance. *smiles*

so anyway, reverting back to VDAY.
well, shenath did the sweetest thing --- well he bought us wine and we drank the night away. and eventually leading to the best times of our lives, as always anyway... :)
only that times were the well deserved ones.
due to the days and weeks of fighting and misunderstanding, i guess we have come to the end of that phase. so start another set of phase of which we can only guess what the next BIG fight will be about. but despite it all, i really do love him.
and yes, we are very much into each other. although we drive ourselves crazy often, than not, it still comes down to whether we still want to spend our lives growing old together.
it's not going to be easy but will enough equipments to armour our love, we can win the battle on the way to our destination :)

earlier in the day, i cooked for the family!
mum finally said that my cooking skills has improved!! that i can get marry and feed children already. LOL haha
but she said i still need to practice to stabilize my skill :) yeye :D
well i have to go now, i have to restart my lappy to configure itunes8 properly.
have to transfer movies to fred's ipod. well till next time i get the chance to get wireless then! i hope to upload pictures soon.

HUGS AND KISSES!

With every trial, there's hope. With every hope.... well

i've been meaning to write in to at least feel at ease.
because i always feel appeased after writing down what worries me, i make it a habit to, however, not much of the late.
the past few days or may i say weeks since the new year has kicked in, there were constant dark clouds looming before my happy relationship.
there are a lot of things that we procastinated to work out and there are things that i was not willing to compromise on, and therefore it created such a messy understanding between the both of us.

no one has a perfect friendship, relationship and marriage.
it is perfect to the way both partners see fit.
"Relationship is about compromise. You have to come to term with something" Mami said.
"You love him, so don't just let go now. He just loves you a lot." Nurul said.
"If you find another guy who don't give you fights, tell me and i'll marry him" Shenath said.
so gay right?? hahaha

Shenath and i, are actually just a normal couple who go through shit.
We (mostly me) have thought of ending the special bond that we are currently still sharing, after a huge mess, but despite whatever, we pulled through.
I admit, i never was a strong player in love and relationship.
I love solitude and being just in love, so i will run at a mere sight of dark clouds.
Shenath on the other hand, he's strong. He holds out for the both of us. And so i hope to learn this from him.

Of course, i am not very negative, nor is he too perfect.
We both have our strengths and weakness as an individual.
However, i realised that we need to always assess ourselves, what we want and if we are both still willing to try.
There are things he said that i cant get over, and there are things about me that i know he cant stand. But overall, what matters is if we are still willing to try again, and compromise on something both will come to terms with.

But honestly, as the length of the relationship progresses, the more obstacle there will be.
And the more obstacles dealt with, mostly every fall gets harder to pull through from.
So far, we are still very much in love, but we have a lot more to go.

To all of you reading this and are in relationship problems, i can't tell you what to do in your relationships.
If you ask me how to deal with this probs that probs, i have learnt this so far -

Only YOU and HIM or YOU and HER will know what to do.
No one else can decide for you. And you shouldn't pull in people to decide for you. You can ask for people's opinion but not their decision.
Others can tell you how they solved their problems, but in the end, it all comes down to you and your other halfs.
Mostly, i learnt from Shenath is to have our relationship's problems settled and talked through with just me and him.
And yes, i ask for my closer friends' opinions.
Despite naturally being more incline to my well being, i thank them for letting me think straight and proper...

And darling, i love you.
despite it all, you'll always try to put you first. hugs

discouragement teaches all

Sometimes, life don't only consist of the positive aspect of life but also with negative aspect.
In regards to the many things that has been happening to yours truly lately, i guess i have so far learned that no matter how horrid things can get, eventually it all comes down to us to create a better view on what's happening in our lives.
Many times we never fail to wallow in self-pity and even before we put up our defences, we have already allowed these negativity to shoot us down.
Therefore, once in awhile we should always take a deep breathe and realise if the negative happening could be handled better than how we initially handled it.
Sure we could complain out loud and whine for a bit, but eventually, we are the only ones who really know if we can get over the problem.
Definitely, handling of problems are all case by case. Therefore, we cannot really apply the same way of solving one problem with the way we solve another.

Okay so of course i have some bad news that happened but i realised that i should be glad that at least i got to taste a moment of giving my best shot.
From last time, flowers fascinated me and even though my thoughts pertaning flowers changed due time, my fascination never really left me.
I always wanted to know how it felt like to work in a flower shop, and so i had.
For the two day trial that i went for and gave one of my best shot actually...
But i guess boss really have to think long term, i understand, cos she told me that she would prefer for at least 6months.
She gave me a try still, so i thought maybe yeah i can get it.
Usually, i get the job i want to do, always was and always did, until today.
I was confident i was going to do good, but not confident enough to actually clinch the job due to the duration she was asking for, so i guess i was already somehow prepared for the 'rejection' to happen.
However, the two-day work trial i underwent taught me that one should always give their best shot and be initiative enough to willingly help out.
When i went to work at Teasire today, i was already half expecting that i wont get the job fully, so i put what i 'learned' to good use.
I initiated cleaning up and doing restaurant chores and actually put my good standards to play despite the usually empty turn out of crowds on Sunday.

I guess i won over my 'sadness' when i was doing my best at some other things that i didn't actually like. and for some lucky moment, i got ang bao from boss! haha $20. not bad eh :)
So anyway, Weiling told me to think of a catch phrase for Teasire... wrote a lot of bull crap but eventually they liked...

Teasire - We're not just teas!

(well we arent. and people need to know that we have good food too!)

I spoke to my manager about the work issue too, and she actually told me that she might be able to let me work on weekdays since im free! :) and since i turned out to be her most loyal part-timer.... haha ;)

actually i like working at teasire, i just don't like having to stand outside like an idiot to promote the menu. if only they can change the entrance! it would be better... i really wont mind being the host if the entrance is near where i promote the menu.

so anyway, i have to go for now.

i need to sleep!!

good night.

100 Facts About me??

Thanks to Tay Mei Ling. UGH

100 Facts About Me

FIRST THINGS FIRST
1.Full Name: Mary Jean Marabot Bautista
2.Nicknames: Mary, MJ, Jean
3.Age: 20
4.Gender: Female
5.Where do You Live: Singapore
6.Relationship status: Committed
7.Siblings: 1 girl, 1 boy, 4 irritating sisters :P
8.Pets: Either they died or ran away.
9.Screen name: Wtf is screen name? Jean Bautista (I guess?)

APPEARANCE
11.Hair Color: Naturally black but it's all ruined now.
12.Hair length: Below shoulder blade
13.Eye Color: Black
14.Height: 1.68m
15.Piercings: 4 - 1
16.Tattoos: Nope
17.Shoe Size: US 8
18.Jeans Size: 29-32
19.Make-Up: I love black shadows and eyeliner - i'm an eye make up fan
20.Dye Your Hair: Yeah. Bit of brown streaks

MY FAVORITES
21.Food: Italian, Filipino, Malay, Sri Lankan, Peranakan
22.Drink: Fruit Juices
23.Color: Red, Pink, Black, Purple
24.Store: Clothes - mum&granny's closet :D , Shoes - Vivie, Bags - Arab St.
26.Kind Of Alcohol: Wine for me.
27.Ice Cream Flavor: Vanilla all the way!
28.Book: Romance, Mystery, Supernatural
29.Season: Summer... yet to feel winter
30.Video Games: I dont play com games, dont enjoy them much. Only enjoyed Diablo 2

HAVE YOU EVER?
31.Smoked a cigarette: Yep& i dont believe one can't quit if they put their mind to it.
32.Done Any Drugs: Nope, hello? Singapore??
33.Gotton Drunk: Dead-like drunk? ONLY ONCE in my life - 22rd Nov 2006, 18 July 2008
34.Gone Skinny Dipping: No way!
35.Bonged a beer: hwtf do you bonged a beer??
36.Had Sex: Jahat.
37.Kissed Same Sex: This woman who tagged me, kiss her twice already i think. JAHAT
38.Done Anything Sexual With Same Sex: Haha err i dont think so. but its interesting. lol eww
39.Eaten Sushi: Yup - i love baby octopus
40.Broken A Bone: Sprained my knee during the dance rehearsal one day before the actual performance! damn

DO YOU/ARE YOU
41.Like Your Handwriting: Mostly yes, sometimes no.
42.Have Any Bad Habits: Hmm, i like to bite my baby's arms. hehe
43.Hate Yourself: Sometimes, when i lose control of things.
44.Shy: Hmm i guess? when i lose confidence.
45.Tolerant Of Others: Yes but then again, i can snap faster than expected
46.Aggressive Or Passive: Depends.
47.Have A Journal: Yes.
48.Emotionally Strong: Lost it and found it again. thanks baby.
49.Read The News Paper: Sometimes.
50.Confident: 8/10 - used to be 9/10 - hope to gain it back :)

VIEWS AND BELIEFS
51.Is There A God: GOD, Force, Lord - different cultures call HIM that, but in all HE's just One.
52.Does He Have A Gender: Gender Neutral -  to my opinion.
53.Do Ghosts Exists: Well, spirits, goals whatever...
54.What About Witches: Yes.
55.Miracles: Yes.
56.What Do You Think About Abortion: It's against catholic beliefs but sometimes for the better of things, it's the last resort.
57.Premarital Sex: Individual perspective and it changes with age and situation.
58.Life On Other Planets: Well, maybe.
59.Porn: A great aid for guys and even girls.
60.Cosmetic Surgery: Hmm not sure.

CAN YOU
61.Sing Well: Some say yes, some say no. lol
62.Play An Instrument: No
63.Write Well: Yes?
64.Skateboard: Yes kinda
65.Take A Shot Without A Chaser: One event last time, when i was still crazily younger. haha
66.Say the Alphabet Backwards: I tried.
67.Snow Board: I wish!
68.Juggle: Tried.
69.Do A Split: Yeah
70.Draw: I wish.

THE FUTURE
71.Plan On Marriage: Yes, engagement & then marriage.
72.Kids: Twins or minimum two :D
73.And Their Names: Haha i always love Mikalkha & Satine Joan (Something with my&hubby's initials)
74.Occupation: So far, CRM
75.Where You Want To Live: Actually? In a cottage or a house made of the strongest wood on earth.
76.Big Or Small House: Doesn't matter, it's the quality of the home life that matters.
77.Do You Want To Live Near People: Well, at least some company would be good.
78.Long Driveway Or Short: Long with car, short by bus!
79.Income: Well, 300, 000 per annum :D hahaha
80.Cars: RED VOLKSWAGON !!!!!

THIS/THAT
81.Walmart/Target: Right.
82.Chocolate/Vanilla: Vanilla
83.Night/Day: Day
84.McDonalds/Burger King: Burger King
85.Cats/Dogs: Cats.
86.Fruits/Veggies: Fruits.
87.Pillows/Blankets: Blankets
88.Pepsi/Coke: Coke
89.Alcohol/Weed: Alcohol.
90.Reading/Writing: Reading&Writing

RANDOM
91.Biggest Fear: Losing limbs
92.Compliment You Get Often: "I like your _____" - clothes, earrings, necklace, bracelet, color, etc & "You're so confident" (Yeah rite!)
93.What Would You Change About Yourself: My legs. haha
94.Regrets: I always try to bounce back and forgot my regrets. But i regretted not saving since i was young.
95.Gotten Arrested: Nope
96.Are You Ticklish: Well, depends.
97.Longest Relationship: Still going on, 1 year 6months soon and still counting.
98.How Much TV Do You Watch: Only when there's nice show.
99.What color is your bedroom: White with mostly black colored furniture
100.Are you happy: YES most of the time.

school's out, praying work is in

school has been out for 4 days.
also, it has been CNY holidays since sunday - kinda dread this year's long holidays
CNY always leave places like ghost town. most shops would be closed and thus going out would be rather boring.
so staying at home would be a rather good option.

at home i have been cooking lunch for the family.
and i realised that i cook good beef dishes and i suck at cooking chicken dishes.
anyway, being home means a potential fight with mum - it happened twice already
yawns.
oh well nothing new, always the same old story with us

the other day went picnicking with shenath. it was nice :)
well im now currently waiting for debbie to send me gossip girl.
was not receiving anything from just now. yawns

lately, i have started on a new short story about Hailey Ortega.
she's a character, unique and quite tragical. more to come..