Sick Much

okay, been like forever since i even bothered to blog -.-

if not for this horrid horrid illness i'm currently recuperating from, i would have been celebrating my 100th post, but sadly, that has to be delayed ~.0

it's sickening to just lay wasted on your bed, awaiting the day that you will feel good again.
it's sickening to just count the days not knowing exactly what day it was
it's sickening to keep telling people that you feel better when it turns out a false alarm
it's sickening to burden your loved one
it's sickening to ....

okay, i'll just stop whining now, cos it won't do any good to me anyway.
i'm just happy, that since yesterday, signs of being rather well is around (:
yet, i was still rather weak to come to school today, so slept in again.
missed SAD and MIS so far, i have already planned to miss WAD cos i don't want to have to handle coding stress right after being off my illness.
anyway, being up and about, i have to remind myself that i still need to rest proper.

specialist appointment will only be on the 14th october, 3 weeks from now.
which i really hope someone will cancel their appointment and thus push me forward.

so lately, nothing's been up.
except for the vids i took of elijah dancing retro in class, my brother's candid blunders and yeah, that's all.
which i will try to upload pronto (when i get the chance aight)


today, something horrible has happened.
quarreled with mum again, for like the millionth time, which nevertheless brought me down to tears (yes midst of being sick, that's why i said it was horrible)
all the things i couldn't shake off provoked me as always, and it was pride that made me have to retaliate.
i cried till i caught the flu.. (which now invokes headache yet again ...)

called my salvation(s) ~ my FAITH and my Boyfriend

bf was real nice, made me smile and treated me lunch cos i'm ultimately broke.. yet again
so after that we sat at the all-too-familiar seashell park to catch some fresh air.
it's real nice to have someone to run to. thanks honey, i love you

sometimes, nothing really mattered but the love you bring

despite the fact that things get rather tasteless after a long time

yet somehow, you still are there for me

you give me so much of what love is supposed to me

and yet, you asked for nothing but my committment and love...

for that, nothing compares to you..

okok love note over...
i'm going off now, good night :)








hms, there are things i feel and i'm hoping will not happen.
and yet, i know it wont even if it threatens to.