Confused in a sense that you don't know if you're actually better or not.
I hate this feeling of being up and about with good well being, but the next second, i'm tired and in need of a long rest again.
It's really sickening too.
I dont know how much more i have to endure not feeling this headaches anymore, i dont know if they will ever bid me adieu.
I just hope that soon, i will be back on track again.
Well, so far, i haven't threw up again contrast to the last two days of vomit fiesta -.-
sorry to those who just had their dinner
My main source of motivation will have to go to my bf, my family, my friends and of course, my studies.
I am rather into the modules im doing this semester, and it get more irritating when i want to go to school and i can't due to this illness.
Specialist appointment will be on this 14th october.
I dont even know how the whole thing will go.
The consultants told me it is nothing serious such as a tumor or whatsoever, however i need to cure my tension headaches before it turns chronic.
I really do not need that.
Also, i need to get back to working.
I'm all tight financially for months already and i really need to pay my bills.
Parents are rather out of the pictures in terms of asking for financial aids.
I guess i really am on my own, cos i really cannot afford to lean on my bf for finance wise.
He himself has his own bills to pay. And he has already spent enough on me.
I also want to get back to .
It's sucha pity that i might not be able to perform for Reflections '08 MUSE -.-
It was my motivation on staying and trying hard for modern dance, and then i'm watching myself slipped from that opportunity.
It is really saddening, but there's pretty much nothing i could do but to just rest more.
To those people who have been concern with my situation, thank you so much.
Shenath, Nurul, Lyn, Jar, Jeremy, Laura, Classmates, Teachers.. etc
Thanks so much for the concern (:
Anyway, i will go now..
Good Night.
HUGS
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