W/S

work
can i say more.
all i know is i don't take those kind of shit...
i feel everything that i do at work is taken into offense by some idiot
it's like every little thing is a mistake...
oblivious to the fact that YES people do make mistake
and that PEOPLE are not machines...
then i realize that ass is being such a bully... makes me burn inside.
a bully is?
A person who deliberately intimidates or is cruel to weaker people
in this case, i am the weaker people and everything he does is DELIBERATE.
watch me like a hawk, have a conclusion without any supporting detail and he assumes every move i make is a mistake.
i have never met such a person in my life... NOT SUCH AN ADULT.
i bet he had a rough time when he start working before and being such a bully he ensures newbies at work get treated like shit.
no lifer!
anyway, everything that is happening, im taking it quite coolly
i know it pisses the hell out of him more but i am not going to be angry externally.
I'm keeping it deep within and i wish him good luck for making me feel like this.
no one has made me feel like this before and i wish him luck for being the first.
I'm sorry for any mishap he might go through cos the moment i reach my boiling point...
i know i will be appeased in the end.

lately...
i realize that being such being a nice person also makes you the bitch of everyone
why then... id rather be the bitch to everyone
no point being nice nor being such a good mannered person

but no... I'm not reforming for the bad.
i have my upbringing and I'm not sticking to other's principles and ways of doing things..
but surprisingly, people can handle ill mannerism, even revel in it..
even live up to it and even co-exist in it...
I'm not the most well mannered person but mutual mannerism should still exist...

and yes i am talking about almost the same person.

well, i am not so much bothered because i can gladly say that this is not my life path
and i can always find another job.
I'm staying for a matter of time because i want to.
i might leave tho no doubt because i am realizing that i can never fit myself in their kind of environment.
the workload is quite alright but terribly tiring.
but it is the environment... i cannot be with people who says emphasize on some values and then portrays another. very misleading and very terribly put...

despite the whole thing...
slowly i am seeing some things happening that i find quite amusing.
i'm not saying what it is but i do find it quite entertaining.
the more i feel unhappy the more the will find it interesting...
i do feel a little bit guilty but i guess im unhappy enough to rid of that guilt.
soon another thing will come up... haha =)

the only people who might know what im meaning is NURUL and maybe Shenath* =)
* dont know if i told him... hms

anyway, lets not brood over this.
after writing this i feel much better.
today is SUNDAY! =)
i dont know whats so happening about sundays but i got to go.
=)

good day people
and to all RP-ians... HAPPY HOLIDAY!!! =)