greetings/dreading

to my muslim friends and community, selamat hari raya haji
or to what jas call it, happy goat slaughtering day! lol

but i think it commemorates more than just goat slaughtering aint it?
it's some sort of a sacred day with the goat/lamb as sacrifice.
oh well, religions hold too many sacred events, best thing is to just be open to them,
to be respectful no matter what your religious view is.

personally i am not inclined to any religious belief the moment i turned 16, when i analysed and got to know myself more. i do believe however that i am live in this world because i am supposed to do something good or bad to this inhospitable world.
and i do believe that there is a force of nature, GOD, Lord, The Almighty One and the name goes on...

surprisingly, the relatives did not call for my family to attend some function to commemorate the day.
my family is muslim, mum converted when she married my stepfather.
so anyway, everyone's rather too mix to even deny any relations to any other communities.

today, i worked.
get the hours accumulated so in January 2009 i get more moolahs!
really hoping to get some good hours during the vacation that is fast approaching.
not only because i am rather too free for my liking, but because i need to distract myself from having to have to miss shenath!

even now, im missing him so much, and he hasn't left yet.
i cannot imagine not being with him this time of year.
yet, im sure he longs to be with his family, together and complete.
im sure he'll be happy and that's one thing i have to hold on to, to bear his absence.
that he'll be away filling up the gaps with his family and of course, his country and his friends.
nevertheless, two weeks will not be easy im sure.
but i will no doubt survive it, it's inevitable.
like what eshani said, when he comes back i'll love him more!
well, if my cup ain't full enough of my love for him, then i guess yeah that will be possible.

now i'm dreading the times that he will fly off, and im definitely going to dread his absence...

then again, the phrase absence makes the heart grow fonder will be put to test.

love you baby love.
hugs and kisses