Essay

so im up, i didn't go to school for web application today.
i'm still unsure if i should postpone my meeting with dr loo at 4pm also.

i've taken ill and i'm still a bit groggy & the only thing i'm able to do type and lie down on my bed.
having a headache also -.-
all cos i didn't manage to fall asleep to recuperate from my flu bug yesterday.
hate flu, hate the weakness it comes with.
oh i really am hoping for a good shake...

mum wanted me to stay home and make sure i get well so i can stop skipping school cos of my illness 'disorder'.
'disorder' because, as and when i can just fall sick.
and my current lifestyle ain't helping... im really that unfit. LOL
thanks to my migraine i have no idea when i will currently be able to dance.
sometimes i do wonder if i'm still in dance for the duration i left and still away, i really am not going to be surprise if im officially out! -.-

then again, i still do want to dance you know.
just that there are things that is keeping from it.

well, let's just wait & see.
im just hoping that i'll be rather okay soon.

ESSAY WRITING: NASA DIYOS ANG AWA, NASA TAO ANG GAWA

it all comes down to trust and respect.
im not going to act all holy that i have given these fully.
but for the former, i have. lately, deep inside i have developed trust.
the latter is rather subjective, but i'm going to mould myself according to what is possibly the right thing to do in the view of the one that matters.
nevertheless, agreements are needed to be reached.
which i had rather thought have already been achieved.


sometimes, it also comes down to ourselves.

how much trust we have on ourselves amounts to least half of how much we trust others.
and how much respect we show others is derived from how much respect we have on ourselves.

then again, the second point seems rather vague ain't it.
the amount of respect that we seemingly achieved is actually the amount of respect that we give others, in an individual view and not in the mass outlook of everyone.
also, the amount of respect we achieved is almost how much self-respect we portray to others.
so technically, when we do something that does not show self-respect, it just makes us disrespected.
and i agree with this and so i know i have to mould to this..


the amount of trust however still seems rather unachievable.
if the amount of trust on ourselves is half of how much we trust others.
means that other half of trust comes from the amount others show us trust.
oh bother! it's all complicated.
then if that's the case, everyone is waiting for everyone to do something first, so as to do their part. omg if that's the case, this world is really in danger.


initiative comes into the picture now. lol
- which is really too subjective to even talk about.


it's rather funny how many things come to surface when these two virtues (trust and respect) are not present in individuals, partnerships, relationships, friendships and the likes.
the most frequent events that results in the absence of these virtues? wars.


people wage wars because trust and respect comes in different forms and we don't know what really comprise of trust and respect, and thus we don't know how much is ever enough.
solution? come to terms (which really is also hard to follow through due to the complacent nature of people.)
so sometimes, what actually holds us rooted to the ground is the amount of these virtues we have in ourselves.


in conclusion, virtues are really hard to develope and to hold on to.
however, agreements need be met and if agreements are already met, move on.
if you find yourself unable to move on after the agreement, it just shows that you are not happy about the agreements that has been made, and so you have to question yourself why.

if the last resort need be met, sometimes the last resort is to measure how much faith and love you have for yourselves and for one another.
if that doesn't help, and you just need to make it work. self sacrifice is the last resort.
but if that can't be done too and if it can be done but you know deep down that it ain't going to be of much change, then leave it be and let the forces of nature do its work.

ang respeto at pagtitiwala ay nasa tao ang pagawa, pero ang resulta ay talagang nasa diyos lamang.



nasa diyos ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa
TRANSLATION: IN GOD THERE'S PITY(SALVATION) BUT ONLY AFTER YOU DO YOUR PART HARD ENOUGH